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I'll be away for a week and be back next Thursday! Happy New Year everyone!
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I don't understand, Ani. A whole planet, destroyed and you did not do anything to prevent it? How?"Anakin glanced at his grandfather.
"It's not that simple and you know it. And I'm not here to defend myself to you either. Nothing I may say will ever justify my actions. But that's not the point here. We're here because of you and not because of me."
"I don't agree with that. If it weren't for you I wouldn't need to be here. We might as well start with you then." Anakin said defiantly.
"True but not easy. As I told you, I want to show what you may become. And that's how it started for me too you see. Fear... Anger...An outburst here, another there...It seems harmless at first. You feel like you have the right to feel a bit angry at times. How selfish and arrogant I was. But that's not the problem. Of course we're allowed to feel. The thing is balance, Anakin. We must find balance. That's what I've found when it was almost too late. Through your uncle."
"How was that?"
"I'm gonna show you, don't worry. All in due time."
"Then I still have to learn cause I can't understand how am I to achieve this balance."
"Yes." Said Ani with a smile. "You still have to learn. A lot by the way" he smirked.
"It must be the middle of the night on Coruscant. Is anything wrong Leia?" Luke Skywalker asked his sister in a concerned voice. "Is it Anakin?"
"More or less, Luke. Sorry to disturb you. It's" she hesitated before saying "I've been having these dreams you know. They're getting to me."
"What kind of dreams?"
"Well, I'm in the Death Star again. I can see myself being interrogated by our father and then I see Alderaan being destroyed again but that's nothing new except perhaps because I've been dreaming about this after all these years. The thing is Anakin is there. He's seeing everything. And I can feel his feelings of fear and helplessness as if it were real." She sighed. "What could it mean?"
"I don't know, Leia. Are there any leads to where he might be now?"
"No...it's like he disappeared. But I'd know if anything had happened to him."
"Yes, you would." Luke reassured her. "Do you want me to come down to Coruscant and help? We're sort of needing a break from Yavin anyway."
"If you and Mara could come, it'd be great, Luke. I don't know why but I feel like we should be together now. Weird, uh?" She attempted a tired smile.
"Not at all. We've been away from each other for too long, anyway. We'll arrive in two days, Coruscant time. Ok?"
"All right. Thank you Luke. It'll be nice to see you and Mara again. Love you."
"Love you too, sis." He was turning the com off when he said "And Leia? Don't worry. Anakin's fine. I know it."
"I believe you." She answered gratefully. "May the Force be with you, Luke. Bye."
Anakin Solo had a ration bar in one hand and his mother's journal on the other. He opened it randomly and read:
*As exceptional as it might may sound, I had an awfully ordinary day today. *Laughs* I can't believe it. We're fugitives and outcasts in the middle of a galactic war and what did me, Luke and Han do today? We actually had a break. We played Sabbac all day long. Well, Han and Chewie played anyway. I and Luke stayed out of this. Mostly. I lost a few credits, hehe. It was incredible. No emergencies. No lives lost. I had a great time. Even Han wasn't acting like a scoundrel today. Actually, he was very nice. *
Anakin had to stop to have a good laugh here. He couldn't believe his mother's early opinions of his father! And he noticed that these comments regarding him had gone on for quite a long time. It must have been really funny to see the two of them together. He wondered how they managed not to kill each other then. And it went on:
*I have to aknowledge that he's ok sometimes. Why does he have to keep making all those stupid remarks? Why can't he be nicer and kinder? Like Luke, for example.
Speaking of Luke, we spent most of the afternoon talking and it felt so good. Whenever we talk, it is like we've known each other our entire lives. We should be so different because of our backgrounds but yet, we're so similar in a way! It's like having a brother you know.
We exchanged stories about our childhood today. I wondered how it'd have been to see him grow up. Such a dreamer! I wonder how Han might have been as a kid too. He must have been such a bully.
Luke told me lots of stories from Tatooine. How he never knew his parents, how he was raised by his uncle. What was it like to be raised by him. He finally told me about his father. How he was a great Jedi Knight and a friend to General Kenobi and how he was betrayed and killed by Darth Vader. Whenever he comes to my mind, a shiver runs down my spine. A monster. The very personification of evil. Was that thing ever a man? Is there a man inside it? I hope with all my heart that he will somehow be defeated some day.
I mostly listened to Luke and kept to myself. It was so good to listen to him. Han listened too (when he wasn't playing or picking on me like a kid). And he even told us some stories about him too as a kid. And that's something we rarely see him talking about. He always has something to say for everybody, except for himself. The man is a complete mistery. Whereas Luke is so open about everything. What a pair they make. Or better yet, what a trio we make.
All in all, I had a wonderful day. I wonder if when we finally have peace, I'll feel like this. I hope so. *
I'll be away for a week and be back next Thursday! Happy New Year everyone!
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I don't understand, Ani. A whole planet, destroyed and you did not do anything to prevent it? How?"Anakin glanced at his grandfather.
"It's not that simple and you know it. And I'm not here to defend myself to you either. Nothing I may say will ever justify my actions. But that's not the point here. We're here because of you and not because of me."
"I don't agree with that. If it weren't for you I wouldn't need to be here. We might as well start with you then." Anakin said defiantly.
"True but not easy. As I told you, I want to show what you may become. And that's how it started for me too you see. Fear... Anger...An outburst here, another there...It seems harmless at first. You feel like you have the right to feel a bit angry at times. How selfish and arrogant I was. But that's not the problem. Of course we're allowed to feel. The thing is balance, Anakin. We must find balance. That's what I've found when it was almost too late. Through your uncle."
"How was that?"
"I'm gonna show you, don't worry. All in due time."
"Then I still have to learn cause I can't understand how am I to achieve this balance."
"Yes." Said Ani with a smile. "You still have to learn. A lot by the way" he smirked.
"It must be the middle of the night on Coruscant. Is anything wrong Leia?" Luke Skywalker asked his sister in a concerned voice. "Is it Anakin?"
"More or less, Luke. Sorry to disturb you. It's" she hesitated before saying "I've been having these dreams you know. They're getting to me."
"What kind of dreams?"
"Well, I'm in the Death Star again. I can see myself being interrogated by our father and then I see Alderaan being destroyed again but that's nothing new except perhaps because I've been dreaming about this after all these years. The thing is Anakin is there. He's seeing everything. And I can feel his feelings of fear and helplessness as if it were real." She sighed. "What could it mean?"
"I don't know, Leia. Are there any leads to where he might be now?"
"No...it's like he disappeared. But I'd know if anything had happened to him."
"Yes, you would." Luke reassured her. "Do you want me to come down to Coruscant and help? We're sort of needing a break from Yavin anyway."
"If you and Mara could come, it'd be great, Luke. I don't know why but I feel like we should be together now. Weird, uh?" She attempted a tired smile.
"Not at all. We've been away from each other for too long, anyway. We'll arrive in two days, Coruscant time. Ok?"
"All right. Thank you Luke. It'll be nice to see you and Mara again. Love you."
"Love you too, sis." He was turning the com off when he said "And Leia? Don't worry. Anakin's fine. I know it."
"I believe you." She answered gratefully. "May the Force be with you, Luke. Bye."
Anakin Solo had a ration bar in one hand and his mother's journal on the other. He opened it randomly and read:
*As exceptional as it might may sound, I had an awfully ordinary day today. *Laughs* I can't believe it. We're fugitives and outcasts in the middle of a galactic war and what did me, Luke and Han do today? We actually had a break. We played Sabbac all day long. Well, Han and Chewie played anyway. I and Luke stayed out of this. Mostly. I lost a few credits, hehe. It was incredible. No emergencies. No lives lost. I had a great time. Even Han wasn't acting like a scoundrel today. Actually, he was very nice. *
Anakin had to stop to have a good laugh here. He couldn't believe his mother's early opinions of his father! And he noticed that these comments regarding him had gone on for quite a long time. It must have been really funny to see the two of them together. He wondered how they managed not to kill each other then. And it went on:
*I have to aknowledge that he's ok sometimes. Why does he have to keep making all those stupid remarks? Why can't he be nicer and kinder? Like Luke, for example.
Speaking of Luke, we spent most of the afternoon talking and it felt so good. Whenever we talk, it is like we've known each other our entire lives. We should be so different because of our backgrounds but yet, we're so similar in a way! It's like having a brother you know.
We exchanged stories about our childhood today. I wondered how it'd have been to see him grow up. Such a dreamer! I wonder how Han might have been as a kid too. He must have been such a bully.
Luke told me lots of stories from Tatooine. How he never knew his parents, how he was raised by his uncle. What was it like to be raised by him. He finally told me about his father. How he was a great Jedi Knight and a friend to General Kenobi and how he was betrayed and killed by Darth Vader. Whenever he comes to my mind, a shiver runs down my spine. A monster. The very personification of evil. Was that thing ever a man? Is there a man inside it? I hope with all my heart that he will somehow be defeated some day.
I mostly listened to Luke and kept to myself. It was so good to listen to him. Han listened too (when he wasn't playing or picking on me like a kid). And he even told us some stories about him too as a kid. And that's something we rarely see him talking about. He always has something to say for everybody, except for himself. The man is a complete mistery. Whereas Luke is so open about everything. What a pair they make. Or better yet, what a trio we make.
All in all, I had a wonderful day. I wonder if when we finally have peace, I'll feel like this. I hope so. *