I would 1st like to say thank you to Forge and Selene AS for reading and
reviewing my story. I hope that more people like it and review.
Now on with the story.
Chapter 2: Lily's decision
Lily walked down to the Quidditch pitch and sat there, the sliver letter opener in one hand. Truth be told, she hated pain but she couldn't imagine pain worse than what she felt right now.
She held up the opener in both hands and saw the stars reflected on it, they were so beautiful. She wanted to know where James was but knew that if she saw him, he would try and stop her so she decided to get it over and done with. They would understand. It was biting cold outside and Lily only had her nightie on.
Lily fingered the point and cut herself on purpose, she had used a charm to sharpen it and now it just sliced though her finger as if it was butter. What did people care what she did? She was just a common mudblood to them and they all picked on her, her parents were her only refuge (and James) but she would never see them anymore. With that last tragic thought, Lily slit her wrists and sank the blade into the crevice just above her heart. If she was going to die, she wanted it slow and painful.
* * * * *
Jenna and Josie were running around Hogwarts when they bumped into James. They were crying and when they saw him, they shouted. (Because they were twins, they knew what the other was thinking)
"Lily's gone James!!! She got a letter this afternoon when you left her and it said that her parents had been killed by Voldemort and that her sister had emancipated her from the family. God James she was distraught and now she's missing!!! I am so worried she has done something to herself. WE HAVE TO FIND HER!!!!"
James looked more worried by the second, what if he was too late? He knew how devoted she was to her parents. He bellowed
"Come on! Where have you looked?"
"We have looked in the common room and the great hall" said Josie.
"Okay then, we should split up, we'll cover more ground that way. I'll look outside, Jenna you look in the hallways and Josie look in the Dungeons! AND HURRY!"
* * * * *
James had been looking all over the place outside, he hadn't heard from Josie or Jenna so he knew she hadn't been found yet. He worry was getting beyond control when suddenly he spotted flaming red hair. He thanked god she was alright. From where he stood, she looked like she was gazing at the stars. It was as he got closer that he saw the glint of the hilt of the dagger still wedged in her flesh. He ran to her but she wasn't breathing and there was no pulse. His first instinct was to remove the knife (he didn't know if was a letter opener) but figured she would loose too much blood that way and just hoped against hope that she was just unconscious.
"Lily wake up, oh God please don't be dead!" cried James
It was then that he saw her wrists were cut and without even knowing it, started to cry. Depending on how long she was out here, she could have been dead a long time ago. James wrapped up her wrists and took her as fast as he could to Madame Jeffers.
* * * * *
James burst into the hospital ward and shouted
"Madame Jeffers!!! Oh god please, I think she's dead!"
Madame Jeffers rushed out in her flannel gown and went pale as soon as she saw Lily.
"Dear god, what happened to her?"
James was still in tears but managed to choke out how her parents had been killed and how her sister had had her emancipated.
"I don't think she wanted to live anymore"
"Well let me see what I can do for her!" Said Madame Jeffers as she floated Lily onto the bed and magically wound tubes around her and into her.
"Is she alive?" said James, not even trying to hide the fact that he was crying now.
"Just barely, its touch and go for the next 48 hours, feel free to stay with her if you want. I think that would be best. I find that talking to her would help too."
So James stayed with Lily, holding her hand through the whole deal because if it had happened to him, he would want her there with him.
* * * * *
Josie and Jenna burst into the hospital ward 2 hours later when they had heard my Professor Binns that Lily was in hospital and they might want to go an see her. They were in their creased robes and crying. The first thing they saw was James holding Lily's hand but he was asleep. Josie could see the dried tears on his cheeks but didn't say anything. Jenna went up to James and shook him awake.
"James, wake up. I see Madame Jeffers said that you could stay here?"
James blinked and remembered what had happened to Lily and his eyes filled with tears again.
"Yeah, she said to talk to her, but you can stay if you want to."
"No, we will come and see her in the morning. We think u need to get some things off you chest for now?" Smiled Josie knowingly.
"Yeah I guess I do, thanks" said James to Jenna and Josie's retreating backs.
James looked down at Lily and realised that he did have things to say to her. He decided that he should say it now when she couldn't hear so at least he would have heard it out loud. And so he began.
"Well Lily, I guess I really messed up huh? I should have saved you earlier and now you could die and you might never hear what I have to say. So straight to the point, I love you and I always have. I know that you could never love me after all, we're just friends right? And I can live with that if you just survive. From the moment I first set eyes on you, I never cared about anyone else. I know I have had my fair share of girlfriends and admirers but I never loved any of them. The funny thing is that Sirius always knew, I guess I was never very subtle around him. I don't want you to die. I know that saying this to you while you are away dreaming of the perfect guy is very surreal but I know I can never say this to your face. It would just hurt too bad hearing from you that you don't care."
Tears fell silently down James' face, he squeezed Lily's hand and amazingly she squeezed it back. He got up and ran to Madame Jeffers quarters, banged the door open and shouted
"Madame Jeffers, Lily just squeezed my hand!! Is she awake?"
Madame Jeffers rushed over and checked the monitor; suddenly it started beeping loudly and slowly turned to James and said in a very sad voice.
"I am so sorry James, but it seems that she has gone into a cardiac arrest, you'll have to leave while I try and save her, it's too risky for you to stay here now." She had a tear in her eye as she saw James leave.
Chapter 2: Lily's decision
Lily walked down to the Quidditch pitch and sat there, the sliver letter opener in one hand. Truth be told, she hated pain but she couldn't imagine pain worse than what she felt right now.
She held up the opener in both hands and saw the stars reflected on it, they were so beautiful. She wanted to know where James was but knew that if she saw him, he would try and stop her so she decided to get it over and done with. They would understand. It was biting cold outside and Lily only had her nightie on.
Lily fingered the point and cut herself on purpose, she had used a charm to sharpen it and now it just sliced though her finger as if it was butter. What did people care what she did? She was just a common mudblood to them and they all picked on her, her parents were her only refuge (and James) but she would never see them anymore. With that last tragic thought, Lily slit her wrists and sank the blade into the crevice just above her heart. If she was going to die, she wanted it slow and painful.
* * * * *
Jenna and Josie were running around Hogwarts when they bumped into James. They were crying and when they saw him, they shouted. (Because they were twins, they knew what the other was thinking)
"Lily's gone James!!! She got a letter this afternoon when you left her and it said that her parents had been killed by Voldemort and that her sister had emancipated her from the family. God James she was distraught and now she's missing!!! I am so worried she has done something to herself. WE HAVE TO FIND HER!!!!"
James looked more worried by the second, what if he was too late? He knew how devoted she was to her parents. He bellowed
"Come on! Where have you looked?"
"We have looked in the common room and the great hall" said Josie.
"Okay then, we should split up, we'll cover more ground that way. I'll look outside, Jenna you look in the hallways and Josie look in the Dungeons! AND HURRY!"
* * * * *
James had been looking all over the place outside, he hadn't heard from Josie or Jenna so he knew she hadn't been found yet. He worry was getting beyond control when suddenly he spotted flaming red hair. He thanked god she was alright. From where he stood, she looked like she was gazing at the stars. It was as he got closer that he saw the glint of the hilt of the dagger still wedged in her flesh. He ran to her but she wasn't breathing and there was no pulse. His first instinct was to remove the knife (he didn't know if was a letter opener) but figured she would loose too much blood that way and just hoped against hope that she was just unconscious.
"Lily wake up, oh God please don't be dead!" cried James
It was then that he saw her wrists were cut and without even knowing it, started to cry. Depending on how long she was out here, she could have been dead a long time ago. James wrapped up her wrists and took her as fast as he could to Madame Jeffers.
* * * * *
James burst into the hospital ward and shouted
"Madame Jeffers!!! Oh god please, I think she's dead!"
Madame Jeffers rushed out in her flannel gown and went pale as soon as she saw Lily.
"Dear god, what happened to her?"
James was still in tears but managed to choke out how her parents had been killed and how her sister had had her emancipated.
"I don't think she wanted to live anymore"
"Well let me see what I can do for her!" Said Madame Jeffers as she floated Lily onto the bed and magically wound tubes around her and into her.
"Is she alive?" said James, not even trying to hide the fact that he was crying now.
"Just barely, its touch and go for the next 48 hours, feel free to stay with her if you want. I think that would be best. I find that talking to her would help too."
So James stayed with Lily, holding her hand through the whole deal because if it had happened to him, he would want her there with him.
* * * * *
Josie and Jenna burst into the hospital ward 2 hours later when they had heard my Professor Binns that Lily was in hospital and they might want to go an see her. They were in their creased robes and crying. The first thing they saw was James holding Lily's hand but he was asleep. Josie could see the dried tears on his cheeks but didn't say anything. Jenna went up to James and shook him awake.
"James, wake up. I see Madame Jeffers said that you could stay here?"
James blinked and remembered what had happened to Lily and his eyes filled with tears again.
"Yeah, she said to talk to her, but you can stay if you want to."
"No, we will come and see her in the morning. We think u need to get some things off you chest for now?" Smiled Josie knowingly.
"Yeah I guess I do, thanks" said James to Jenna and Josie's retreating backs.
James looked down at Lily and realised that he did have things to say to her. He decided that he should say it now when she couldn't hear so at least he would have heard it out loud. And so he began.
"Well Lily, I guess I really messed up huh? I should have saved you earlier and now you could die and you might never hear what I have to say. So straight to the point, I love you and I always have. I know that you could never love me after all, we're just friends right? And I can live with that if you just survive. From the moment I first set eyes on you, I never cared about anyone else. I know I have had my fair share of girlfriends and admirers but I never loved any of them. The funny thing is that Sirius always knew, I guess I was never very subtle around him. I don't want you to die. I know that saying this to you while you are away dreaming of the perfect guy is very surreal but I know I can never say this to your face. It would just hurt too bad hearing from you that you don't care."
Tears fell silently down James' face, he squeezed Lily's hand and amazingly she squeezed it back. He got up and ran to Madame Jeffers quarters, banged the door open and shouted
"Madame Jeffers, Lily just squeezed my hand!! Is she awake?"
Madame Jeffers rushed over and checked the monitor; suddenly it started beeping loudly and slowly turned to James and said in a very sad voice.
"I am so sorry James, but it seems that she has gone into a cardiac arrest, you'll have to leave while I try and save her, it's too risky for you to stay here now." She had a tear in her eye as she saw James leave.