THE END.

I am done writing this fic. plain and simple. there is no more to it.

so, please, stop emailing me. seriously. it's not on hiatus, and I will never have another chapter up.

why?

the answer is simple - I've moved on to better things. this was a great fic to work on while it lasted, but before long it wasn't fun anymore - it was just a burden, something that I HAD to write to make the people who read it happy. I guess I'm not meant to write series… because it's very hard for me.

I hate HAVING to write. I prefer to write when I find myself inspired to do so. I may write some more Big-O stuff in the future, but I very much doubt I will ever finish this story. I'm not sure where it's going anymore, for one thing. another is that my writing style has changed a bit since I started writing this, so it would seem weird to continue it.

for those of you who wish to know what the fic would have revealed, here goes:

the majority of paradigm's children were taken to a lab in the subway to learn how to use the Big(s). during experimentation one day, something (not sure what) went horribly wrong, causing the mass slaughter of the children. it was such a traumatic even that the citizens of paradigm lost their memories. roger was the only one to survive, because his parents got him out of the lab, dying in the process. (ever notice how most people in the series are either a lot older or a lot younger than roger?) dorothy was created by old wayneright to replace his daughter, lost in the event. he went a bit insane during the process. rosewater is the scientist who developed the Big(s), and he and angel are working together to try and restart the program. it's not working. the significance of the church is that they were always against the Big development program, and were thus destroyed by rosewater. this is why the church and the neighborhood around it are in such disrepair. the people gather there if they have the memory of mourning for the children.

this is the course of events the fic would have taken, had I finished it:

roger discovers the secrets of the church from angel. rosewater tries to get him to help with the Big program. he says no. rosewater gets the military on his side. bad stuff, ne? they go after roger, trying to tell him of the benefits of the program, and how it could bring life back to paradigm. roger, with his memories of green and nightmares of destruction, says no, once more, and tries to leave the city. the military stops him on the way out. the new Big(s) go on a rampage because their pilots are not experienced enough, destroying the city. dorothy is killed trying to protect roger from dastun, who has taken rosewater's side. this proves her human feelings - both for roger and for the welfare of the city. roger takes dorothy to the old church and lays her on the alter. he writes beside her "all these wars are over." he then leaves for a better place. paradigm is left in ruins.

the end. like I said, there is no more. at least for now.

thanks for reading, and if you'd like something more recent, go check out the other stuff I've got up here.

-megumi