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"NOOOOOOOOO!"
The pain.
The pain of her heart blown to a billion pieces. The pain that shot through her veins and every fiber of her being. The pain which she had NEVER felt before. Not even Bryce's death felt anywhere near this. A pain where she knew will always be with her till her day of reckoning. Either by old age or a mission gone bad. The pain, where she wished she had died. The pain where the CIA would view her as a 'burn out' and find a means of disposing of her; she would welcome it. The pain that would make her vulnerable; not focused and susceptible to severe injuries or worse. She knew she wouldn't last long. She had nothing to live for. Everything she had was lost. All of it. Gone.
Then, by a miracle of miracles, Chuck burst onto the rooftop with an army of heavily armed agents. She was shocked. Stunned beyond belief. She was drunk happy. She couldn't see straight. She just wanted to run and fly into his waiting arms. But Sarah, the girl who was madly in love with her Chuck, had to activate Agent Walker and ask him if he had the Cypher. Chuck replied that he was fine (thanks for asking, Sarah) and played it off as the kind lovable man that he always was. "Of course I have it. It's me."
'What a piece of work I am. The first thing I ask him was the Cypher. Great job, Sam...you POS.' '
Chuck handed the Cypher to Sarah and he noticed her fidgeting. Something was bothering her and he wanted to help. He also noticed that she was staring at him much longer than other times before this incident. As if she wasn't letting him out of her sight. He had a good idea what it was. But he didn't say anything. They all headed to the staircase and always a gentleman, he gestured in chivalry by bending forward and extended his arm out to the exit as to say 'milady, after you.' Her heart skipped a beat as she thought it was a loving gesture but no, she had to be all business like.
"No, go ahead of me."
His grin came crashing down and he simply nodded with a thin smile. "Ok."
'What the hell is wrong with me?! WHY am I doing this to him?! I thought he died and this is how I show my love?!
They went down the stairs and Sarah kept staring at him. Her eyes were glassy. She was replaying what she saw. She had to hold it together. She thought back the other time she thought Chuck died when the Nerd Herder blew up. Her knees got weak and she almost collapsed. But her nerd came out from nowhere saying how cool was it that the Herder blew up away from them and saved Morgan. He saw her devastated face and apologized profusely. But THIS incident was a billion times worse because she'd had a wonderful time, having a romantic dinner with the man she might not ever see again and they were about to kiss. All because he said he had other secrets he wanted to share with her and if she left, she wouldn't know about them. "What are you saying, Chuck?"
"What I always wanted to say, Sarah." Her heart warmed and she was about to suck his face when everything went to hell, and then she saw Colt drop Chuck.
As they were descending, she slightly cleared her throat and Chuck turned back and looked at her. He knew that look. He knew exactly why she was being emotional. She pleaded with her eyes to please not say anything and to keep going. He simply nodded and continued downward. They reached the bottom and were all in front of the building, exchanging info as they put Colt and his men in unmarked prison vans. He was still laughing and talking about how good that Carmichael guy was. The vans took them away and it was the three of them left.
Chuck went up to Casey and extended his hand. "Thanks again for saving me. I..."
Casey shook his hand and cut him off. "Never mind, Bartowski. Just doing my job."
Sarah saw all this and noticed Chuck was a little hurt. It seems the hurt never stops coming for this man. The two people he cared about were hurting him the most. Not Ellie, Devon or Morgan. They would never ever hurt him. She swallowed trying to control herself for she was still pinching herself for how she treated Chuck on the roof. She knew her life was over when she thought she lost him and this is how she appreciates him? By being a bitch? She had to make it up to him. But would he accept her? Would she have the nerve to say something that would give an inkling on what could happen between them. Something for him to have hope for. Something to hold on to. So, she decided to do something about it.
Casey left saying he had to go to Castle first and submit his report. She could've gone with him but she was not letting Chuck go home alone and...also, she wanted to be with him. (who was she kidding?)
"Chuck?"
"Yes, Sarah?"
Here goes nothing. "I..I want to bring you home...and, and then I'm going to my apartment, clean up and continue our date."
Chuck thought he misheard. "W...What?"
Shyly looking down and then directly into his eyes. clearing her throat..."I said, I want to continue our date. We were rudely interrupted Chuck...if...if that's ok with you, that is?"
"Sarah, you don't have to..."
"NO CHUCK!" He was shocked by her outburst. He was getting a little nervous.
She took a deep breath. "I'm sorry Chuck. That, that came out wrong. 'ahem' No Chuck. Please I want to do this...for us. Ok?"
Chuck's smile was about to split his face and Sarah gasped. That smile. The one that was only reserved for her was back. She was so turned on but she still felt shitty treating him the way she had before.
He gently grabbed her hands causing her to shiver and those electric sparks going through her palm. She closed her eyes for a second. Chuck noticed...he always noticed all things Sarah.
"Ok, I'll make some dinner and we can watch some TV after, or anything else you'd like to do." Sarah bit her lip as she smiled though her eyelashes. His eyes jumped wide open and his neck and face were almost purple.
She giggled and grinned. She thought it was the most adorable thing. She loved it when he would be embarrassed because of her. She knew how he felt about her and maybe she could say something to Chuck too tonight...maybe.
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She drove in her usual speed demon self. (of course) She was in her element. Driving her Porsche was exhilarating and poor Chuck was always white knuckled holding on the door handle and the left seat's side. (of course) She glimpsed to her right and smiled oh so slightly. She didn't do it intentionally. She just loved driving that way and no matter how many times Chuck rode with her in that fashion, he could never get used to it. She reminded herself that Chuck freaks out and she backed off the throttle to let him calm down...a little. From 125 MPH to a slow 100 MPH.
She took his left hand and gave him a reassuring squeeze. A squeeze that calmed her too. He looked at their hands and gave her another smile with her name on it. She gulped. This man had such an effect on her that she couldn't deny it. Chuck Bartowski was her Kryptonite. Then suddenly, he gently maneuvered their hands towards the steering wheel and left her right hand there. As if to say 'both hands on the wheel, lady.' She laughed and thought that was adorable and he was grinning. That didn't mean she liked that disconnection. Oooh no, Chuck had to pay.
She down shifted and gained speed again. Chuck once again held for dear life. She was smiling and Chuck gave her the side eye. 'Really?' They burst out laughing.
Sarah cherished moments like these. They didn't have to say a word. They just...knew. This is the Chuck that she loved. She HATED when she had to be official, when Agent Walker had to step in. That meant Chuck getting hurt emotionally and she didn't like it. But if it meant him being safe, she rather have him hurt than dead and that sent a goose chill up her spine and with that, she thought about what happened today. How she almost lost Chuck...again.
Chuck, sensing what Sarah was going through placed his left hand on her arm and gave a soft squeeze. That felt so good that she shut her beautiful blue orbs for a second, took a deep breath and calmed down. She slowed down again, sniffed and gave a subtle 'thank you' nod, letting him know that she was ok. He gave her another delicate squeeze and put his hand back on his lap. She drove the same 'slow' speed for the rest of the way.
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She parked the car in front of Chuck's apartment complex and Chuck was about to get out when she grabbed his arm with a serious look. Chuck swallowed wondering what happened.
"Uh, Sarah? What's wro"...
With fire in her eyes. "Is anyone home right now?"
Chuck didn't understand why she asked. She's left him in front of this very spot many times before, so why now?
'Hmmm...oh...Oh!'
He thought he couldn't love this woman more than he already did.
"Uhm, yes Sarah. Ellie and Awesome are home."
She raised her left eyebrow.
"Are you suuuure?"
He nervously laughed. "Uhm...they said that they were going to be home, soooo..."
"Uh huh, right. And what if they had an emergency call to the hospital and they had to leave, then what Chuck, huh? Tell me, what would you have done?"
This was getting ridiculous. He knew she was still shook up about today, but God...
He took a cleansing breath. "I, I would have just gone in, Sarah?! What else would I have done?!"
Sarah now crossed her arms and nodded in disappointment. "Really. After what happened today, you just gonna waltz right in there as if NOTHING happened? What if an enemy was in there, huh Chuck? Then what?"
Oh boy, what in tarnation was going on here? He had to help her understand that it'll be fine and that he needed to prepare dinner for their...second half (?) date?
He was about to say something when...
"Call your sister." It wasn't a request.
"W...why?"
"Call. Your. Sister."
With a heavy sigh, he reached in his pocket, grabbed his phone a called Ellie.
"Hey Chuck. What's up?" She popped the P.
"Nothing sis, just wondering if you were home, y'know. hehehehe..."
"Oh?...why?" She thought for a second. "Bringing Sarah here?!" Her excitement was vibrating his phone.
"Uh...something like that...ooouch!" He had to pull the phone away from his ear.
"Nononono...bring her here! Devon and I will be going out soon so you'll have the place all to yourself!" He heard Awesome say from the background. "Alright Chucksterrrrr, you da man!"
Sarah heard everything. She blushed and Chuck mouthed 'sorry' but Sarah liked Ellie a lot and Devon too. She knew they were rooting for them. Sarah was rooting for themselves too.
"Ok, El. See you in a few."
"Right Chuck. Tell Sarah hi and that I miss her."
Well, that was unexpected. She looked away and held back some tears. Sarah's heart was warmed. This family has welcomed her from day one and God forbid anyone cause any harm to them. She vowed to protect Chuck and his family. Woe to the enemies.
He hit the end call button and looked at Sarah.
Sarcastically he whined. "Happy noooow?"
Trying to shake off the heartwarming. She smiled. "Yes, very."
He got out of the car and walked towards the apartment. He stopped because he didn't hear the engine start. He slowly turned around and Sarah was still there. He raised his eyebrows. 'what?'
She extended her arm and pointed at the apartment door for him to get a move on. He could actually see her raised left eyebrow.
He sighed and jogged the rest. He put the key in, turned the door, looked back and raised his eyebrows. 'Ok, now? Sheesh.'
Satisfied, she nodded and turned on the engine and smiled. She left and he closed the door only to be hit with Herricane Ellie.
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She got back to Maison 23 in 10 minutes flat. (she always timed herself...just in case she needed to bring Chuck there...to protect him...yeah, that was it.) But during those 10 minutes she replayed the events of the day, again. Her eyes were stinging and she let out a single sob. She blamed herself for not protecting him more carefully and how stupid she was for not bringing her gun on the date, she thought.
'Stupid, stupid, stupid!'
But, she didn't because it was a REAL date. No missions. No stake outs. No nothing. Just them. Oh, how she wished they'd have kissed. She wanted to grab his hair and pull him hard into her mouth...but they were in a restaurant. So that was that. If things worked out well, then maybe she would've used her record time getting to Maison 23 with Chuck. She ached for him. But of course, as luck had it, Colt ruined everything. She couldn't believe it.
She entered her building and almost ran to her place. She had to look nice for Chuck. She pushed the 'up' button and it felt like forever. Finally, it arrived. The door opened and she jumped in. The elevator felt like it purposely went slow. To antagonize her. Irritating her. She was hopping with impatience when it finally reached her floor. The door barely opened and she squeezed out.
'Damn apartment had to be so high up? Thanks CIA.' Dripping with sarcasm.
She opened and slammed the door shut. Did a quick scan just to make sure no intruders. Satisfied, her clothes were flying off as she ran to the shower. She didn't even wait for the water to warm up, she just dove right in, head first. Done, she jumped out of the shower and quickly started drying her hair. As she was drying, she saw herself in the mirror. Starred for a moment. Starred at herself. She swallowed, her lower lip quivered and she cried. She sobbed uncontrollably. She walked to her bed and fell face down on the pillow and continued to sob. Her words were muffled in the pillow.
"Chuck, I love you! If anything happened to you today, I would have died! I need you! I want you to be mine! To be yours!"
She continued to sob and then she finally calmed down. Still lying in bed, face down. Her pillow absorbed her tears. She turned face up and starred at the ceiling. She closed her eyes and thanked whatever deity was up there for saving her Chuck. She then got up and wiped her tears. 'I have to go see Chuck; he's waiting for me.' She went back to the bathroom, took a deep breath and continued to prepare herself. Put on her makeup, dress, heels and got the hell out of there...but that damn elevator!
She was so far gone.
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Chuck was so excited for tonight's date, part deux of the second first date, or something like that. It was confusing. Anyway, he wanted it to be perfect. He wanted to impress. He wanted it to be special. Special for the one girl that has changed his life for the better. Sure, the missions can be dangerous and today just proved it, but it came with something very important for him that made it all worth it.
Sarah.
She was the one that brought life back into his soul. A sense of worth. To help people. To help Sarah too, with her baggage. To be there any and every time even if she didn't ask for it, he was going to be there no matter what. So yes, he wanted this to be very special...for a very special girl.
Ellie was begging Chuck to let her help him and he said he wanted it to be all him and that he always wanted to make dinner for Sarah. Ellie gushed and was emotional for her brother and for Sarah. She wanted these kids to finally stop fooling around and make it official. Awesome was giving high fives where Chuck's arm was starting to hurt. Not to mention his hand too. Awesome's hand was like hitting granite. Ellie being the loving sister asked one more time to help. Chuck shooed them away and they FINALLY left. He went back to the table arrangements, rehearsing what he wanted to ask Sarah, about going on a trip in Europe by train since he was free and the new Intersect was coming online. But Chuck stopped. He heard the floor squeak or at least he thought he did.
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Sarah was speeding to Chuck's place because she had to give the bad news about the Trojan horse that blew up in the Intersect room, killing eight agents and Graham. She was about to cry again and ruin her makeup because she had to break off the date...again. At the last minute, Beckman called Sarah about the Graham incident. Sarah couldn't believe it. Her mentor was dead and she had to tell the bad news to Chuck that he was not free. That he was still the only Intersect. She pounded the steering wheel with frustration. Of all the dirty luck, this had to happen! She arrived at Chuck's place and almost ran to the door. She took a deep breath and knocked. Chuck heard her knock, smiled and went to the door. He opened the door only to see a sad and concerned Sarah. He asked what was it and she explained everything. He sighed and gave her a hug. He asked her if she would at least come in and have something to drink. After the shit show that just happened, she said yes.
"I...I can't believe that he's gone, Sarah. He said I was free. That I could have my old life back. To have a life with y..." He held back the last word but she knew exactly what he was about to say. She wanted to be with him too.
"I'm so sorry, Chuck. I'm as shocked as you are." She looked at the table arrangements and she was touched. Everything was beautiful. How this ONE man went far and beyond for her. No one has ever did anything like this, EVER. She was about to cry but she had to be strong. This man kept drenching her heart with love. He kept bulldozing down more of her walls and he was doing a damn good job of it. She was feeling a little overwhelmed.
"Chuck, can I use your ladies' room?" Chuck thought it was so cute her calling the bathroom the 'ladies room'.
"Sure, of course, Sarah. You never have to ask. You know where it is. Mi casa y su casa" he said, with a smile. She smiled too and excused herself. As she entered the hallway leading to the bathroom, she froze. A bodily smell that she has smelled before. Definitely, not Chuck's. She knew his smell. (she blushed) No, this was very familiar but she couldn't put her finger on it.
Chuck wondered why was Sarah standing there? Did she see something? He was starting to freak out.
"Uh Sarah, what's goin..."
"SHHHHH!"
Yes, he was freaking out.
She was concentrating. She needed him to quiet...something Chuck is not used to. Sarah sensed something was off and she withdrew her gun. Chuck's eyes bulged. 'WTF is going on?' She moved slowly towards Chuck's bedroom, gun raised and the floor squeaked. Chuck's head shot up and looked right at Sarah. He didn't imagine it! He DID hear that squeak before! Someone WAS here! Chuck was panicking.
Sarah sensed Chuck wanted to say something but she wasn't finished yet. She had to make sure that it was all clear. She continued her advance and entered Chuck's room. Everything looked normal...except the Morgan door. Sarah and Chuck would always leave the Morgan door 'open'. Meaning the door was closed but the latch open. That way, if she needed to come in, she didn't need to pick it, wasting time. (This was their way. Their 'thing'. Only they knew about their little secret Morgan door latch thingy.) But the latch was CLOSED. Someone thought that they can cover their trail by making it look like it wasn't opened.
Bingo. Busted.
"Clear." Sarah said.
This was not good. Not good at all. Now SHE was starting to freak out. But she had to be cool, calm and collected. For her and especially Chuck's sake. He wanted to say something to Sarah but she went past him. He knew she was in her element. So, he waited until she was satisfied. She checked all the other rooms and everywhere else and Sarah was back.
"Ok Chuck all clear. I smelled a familiar smell in the hallway but I couldn't put my finger on it."
Now Chuck was ready to tell her. "Sarah?" She turned and looked at him. Giving all her attention to him.
"Yes, Chuck?"
"Uhm, when I was preparing the table and rehearsing my speech about you coming with me to Europe on a train tour..."
Sarah's mouth gaped wide open. 'HE wanted ME to go on a trip to Europe...in a romantic train tour?! Don't cry girl, keep yourself together. This man will be the death of you.'
Chuck saw this. "Sarah? Are you ok?"
Blushing and clearing her throat, she said. "I...I'm fine, Chuck. Please...continue." 'Damn him for being so caring.'
Giving her a skeptical look. "Sooo, yeah...and when I placed the flowers on the table, I heard THAT floor squeak and then"...
Sarah interrupted him. "Wait, what?! You heard a squeak? Where?!"
"Over where you were."
Sarah went back to where Chuck pointed out. "Around here, Chuck?"
"Yeah, there."
Sarah walked again in that area and the squeak happened. Sarah looked back at Chuck and raised her eyebrows as to say 'you sure?'
Chuck rapidly nodded. Sarah's eyes bulged. Someone was here trying to do something to Chuck! It all makes sense now! The Morgan door, the squeak and the smell...
'Oh my God! No, it can't be! Please, it can't be!'
Sarah's panicked eyes and then became stone cold. She had to be. Agent Walker always wins. But she needed evidence just to make one hundred per cent sure what she thought was the intruder was indeed who she thought it was. She turned to her nerd.
"Chuck, I need for you to do something that you're not supposed to do. I know you're a computer genius with or without the Intersect. I need you to break into Casey's surveillance system. We need to see some footage."
Chuck thought that she was losing her mind. "Sarah, why would we need to..."
"CHUCK!" Starling him. She looked apologetic. "I'm sorry, Chuck. But this is very important. We need to get that footage before he erases it. I doubt he's in his apartment now, so you need to get in that system ASAP."
Chuck was getting nervous. 'Does she know I'm the Piranha?'
"S- S- Sarah? Would we...I get into trouble if I do this?"
"No Chuck, I'll make sure you don't. But we have to move fast. Please Chuck." Her eyes were pleading. How can he refuse with the woman he loves?
"Ok Sarah, I'll do it."
A/N! I was gonna continue this and make it a looong one-shot, but I decided to leave it here! Hope I didn't disappoint...or not! lol!
A/N dos! The whole Casey almost shooting Chuck blah has bugged the carp out of me for a long time and it still does! The show NEVER brings it up again or have Casey confess at least to Chuck, since he changed and became of one Chuck's best friends! It was Chuck that Casey has his daughter, Alex! That ALONE should have triggered his lady feelings and say something to the man that changed his life for the better! UGH!
I will try to get chapter II ASAP! Thank ya'll! :D