Chapter One
Many times in my life I have noticed that I was different and that I didn't always belong. I knew that I felt different from most people. That I was more patient, more gentle, and easier to let things just roll off my back. The problem was that I just didn't know how to express what I was feeling at the time. The reality was, that when I needed to be strong and say my peace I was never strong enough to do it. Inuyasha who was the person I loved the most in this world I could never really tell him how I felt. I could never really tell him why what he did hurt me. I would, for the most part, suck it up, put a smile on my face and continue along my merry way. When deep down, all I wanted to do was tell him just how much he had hurt me.
Time is fleeting and I never knew how much until the bone eaters well had close up and I was no longer able to go back to see my family and was stuck in this time period. I had friends here, but I would never see the people who had truly been my family. Inuyasha become more distant as time went on. He was less and less around and more with Kikyou. Sango and Miroku had become a family and already had their fair share of children to keep them busy. The only other person I could rely on was Kaede. She was growing old and running out of things to teach me. Rin would come over to stay and say hi to us all, but she had gone back to be with Sesshomaru. I was feeling rather alone in this world and all I really wanted in those times were to go home to my family, again I kept silent and I never spoke up. Brushing what had happened to me like it was no big thing.
It was only four months ago when Sesshomaru brought Rin to see Kaede and me, and Sesshomaru had offered me something I never thought I would get from him. That was time and an invite to travel with him and Rin back to his realm, back to the western lands. I'm not sure why he had asked me, maybe it was because he saw me alone and sad every time he came around. Maybe it was because Rin had asked. I'm not entirely sure, but I jumped at the chance for another adventure. Inuyasha was not pleased that I had agreed to go with his half-brother. I was however not pleased that he was always away from me and the village. He had protested until Kaede mentioned Kikyou and she mentioned that I had not stopped him from going to see her. Everyone else was happy for me and for the first time in a long time I was able to do something for myself.
That brings me to this moment now as I stood looking at the huge castle in front of me that apparently belonged to Sesshomaru. It was large in size and looked elegant and pristine. The fields that rolled towards the castle were thick with green moss and grass. It was for all intense purposes the most beautiful place I had ever laid eyes on. We stood there giving me a moment to take awe and look at what would become my home for a while to come.
"Wow." I breathed under my breath.
"We will be staying here for a time. I have important matters to deal with." Sesshomaru moved towards the castle not missing a beat when it came to his military time and pace.
Traveling with Sesshomaru was different than it was with Inuyasha. first of all, there was a lot more silence. As well I and Rin traveled on Ah Un's back and rarely stopped. We would stop for food and rest, but to be honest, it was more for Rin and Ah Un than me and Sesshomaru. Normally I would hate the silence, but it was nice to travel with others who could just appreciate the simple things and not argue about it all. Sesshomaru kept a steady pace and was very much on time with his breaks and destinations.
We walked towards the doors of Sesshomaru castle and noticed generals bowed towards him and he approached. The doors opened up and straight away we were revealed to a. wonderful courtyard and two big shoji doors. Sesshomaru grabbed Rin off Ah Un's back and motioned for her to enter the castle herself. He then placed a hand out for me to grab to jump off and follow him inside. Something else I never thought Sesshomaru would do for me. I took his hand and jumped off Ah Un's back and dropped his hand the moment my feet touched the ground, his touch feeling like electricity had swallowed me whole. We glanced up at one another and he turned away from me. We walked towards the large shoji doors and entered.
The castle was clean with hardwood floors and beautiful tapestries and curtains. He motionehd for me to follow him. I nodded and walked toward him as he requested. "I'll show you to your room. We have two wings in this place. The east wing and the West wing." He went silent allowing me time to ask a question if needed. "My quarters and Rin's are o the West wing. Yours will also be on the West wing." He stopped and looked back at me.
"Okay." I smiled at him and he nodded and continued to walk onwards. Nothing more was said between us until we arrived at the supposed quarters I would be residing in.
"This is where you'll stay. Rin is in the room beside you on the left and I am in the room beside you on the right." He looked at me again. "I was thinking of asking you to Tudor Rin. You obviously have an educational background. I think it wise that Rin learns." I smiled up at him his face still as stoic as ever.
"That's a great idea Sesshomaru. I can for sure do that." He nodded at my reply and allowed me to proceed into the quarter provided. "Maybe it would be best for you to learn some combat skills." I turned around before really getting to look at the room. I looked directly at Sesshomaru's eyes. "We can start training tomorrow morning, once you've rested from traveling." I smiled at him. "I'd love to Sesshomaru." He nodded and began to walk away until I called out for him. "Why did you ask me to come with you here?" He looked like he wasn't going to answer and then did. "You seemed so alone in the village, and Rin mentioned it would be a waste to let you waste away there on your own." I nodded understanding what I had thought, that Rin had pulled the strings for her new adventure. "Right." I breathed out. "To be honest, I am not sure what my half-brother has been thinking. He should have mated you straight away." He moved closer to me and looked down. "I felt it was best to give you a place you could be useful so that maybe you wouldn't feel so sad and alone." with that he turned and walked away leaving me with more questions than before.