Shadows and Ice, Nothing Nice
Tags Include: Yandere, OOC, Non-Canon.
Co-created with: Redeem (better get back to writing mate)
A/N: Material used here does not belong to me, Re:Zero belongs to Tappei Nagatsuki, while some other material or scenes belong to their respective doujin/fanfic author/group.
Hahaha… my once peaceful dream turned into a never-ending nightmare…that went from normalcy to this insanity…
Okaa-san…Oba-chan…I hope…you're doing…alright…
[ Subaru's POV, 30 Minutes Ago ]
What happens when you lose all free will? Trapped in some never ending loop you can't get out of?
Trapped between life and death, forced to run from it, until the thought of it tires you?
Why am I even saying this fact? Simple.
Being in a camp has its ups and downs, but I do love everyone here, Garf, Otto, Frederica, Ram, Rem, well, a lil love for that bastard Roswaal, but that will come at another time.
Emilia-tan….well, I love her in a romantic sense although she can be a bit clumsy at times. She was the first one to show me kindness when I was first transported here. I devoted every bit of my time just to see her at the top, no matter what happened….
Even if I have to use that accursed power….
Heh, What am I even saying when my life is at stake… oh well… At least I can shamelessly admit a secret of mine, ironic for a guy that can die and respawn, but oh well.
Ram was right. I can be perverse at times….
But I didn't want to risk doing it despite being whisked away to another world by her. She didn't realize that I was still a male with "urges" and privacy in the camp had become scarce in recent months, and the only way I could satisfy those urges was around midnight when no one was looking, or in the showers when I was alone.
Especially since Emilia, Ram, and Frederica have such keen senses of smell.
I'm not sure why...But whenever she's not studying, or has free time, she's helping out more around the camp, particularly with laundry.
She's been teasing me about the "milk spills" on my boxers which were my regrets. I'm hoping she doesn't know what it is...But still, it gives me another reason to limit my masturbation.
Now enough of that. I've found myself in a less-than-ideal situation, and it's not going well. When I think of this predicament, my lungs tighten and my muscles clench. I'm cold...naked...running away from...her... I hope she doesn't discover me here behind this tree, lest I end up caught in her clutches.
I was just in my bed sleeping, having a good dream, until she arrived. My dream turned into a complete nightmare, a complete 360° no scope MLG. I'm joking, but it's the only way I can cope right now. Besides, running away from that crazy naked psycho bitch took a toll on me. Now normally, this wouldn't be a problem with most of us, most of them would literally jump at that opportunity to have a naked girl in their presence.
I mean I'm like most guys, but if I had to be honest, their opportunity definitely didn't involve A GODDAMN LIFE-OR-DEATH SITUATION.
….
Haha...Okay, I'm probably losing my cool, This won't bode well for me...and more opportunities for her to catch me…hahahahahaha….crap...
Please let me wake up, all I could hear in this godforsaken dream was just the howling winds, rustling leaves under the moonlight, and branches being broken by some soft footsteps-
Wait a minute-
'FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, there's no way she can find me that quickly!' As my thoughts raced through my head, I felt my heart sink and my brain going into fight or flight mode as I peeked through the small hole that was burrowed in the tree. My suspicions were coming to realization.
Envy—or was it Satella…? I didn't know anymore, I didn't know who was who now, but one thing's for certain.
They were here for me, and nothing can stop them now
"Subaru-kun~ Where are you~"
Now normally a girl's cutesy voice would normally bring a man to his knees, filling the guy's heart with joy and excitement but in my case? It terrified the shit out of me. "Did they merge? Is that even possible?" I whispered to myself, "damnit! I need to get outta here!"
I only felt fear, anxiety, terror, horror, alarm, and panic. It was the exact opposite from what I imagined from those damned otome games.
She blended into the background. The way that her hair reflected the moon's light gave her silhouette a beautiful glow that was instantly sniffed out by the otherwise brilliant shine of her amethyst eyes that were dampened by this crazy and homicidal gleam.
I quickly tiptoed throughout the forest and with her being nearby I dared not to make a sound. I quickly hid inside a worn down log. I didn't care if I was dirty or ragged; what was most important now was my survival. I prayed to whatever god was left out there, hoping I would wake up from this nightmare.
As I wiggled throughout the log, I felt something crawling up on me. I didn't have time to check my surroundings, I thought Satella/Envy had already caught me, so I shrieked in fear while I pulled my leg out instinctively.
Only to discover it was just some bugs and some leaves that left me in terror
"Fucking Hell, fuck, fuck, fuck….she must've heard from a mile away! Please make it stop! I'm so fucking tired…" Tears were leaking from my eyes. I gave away my position just because of some goddamn bugs.
Su-ba-ru-kun~ please come out~
'Please stop with the sing-song voice! You've terrified me enough as it is! Your footsteps aren't helping either! And I'm sure as hell I'm not coming out!' I thought to myself, my heart racing like it was high on crack...actually, I never tried crack, but you get the idea.
At this point, It's too scary to be calm and collected. My own body couldn't stop shaking violently. Whether it was the freezing cold or my fears, I wasn't certain. I could never have imagined or even dreamed that a girl would be looking for me. But this…
This was not as I had pictured it!
"Subaru-kun~ Please stop hiding from me~"
"Go away, go away, go away, goaway, goaway, goaway, goawaygoawaygoawaygoaway!" I whispered a mantra, her voice mixed with lust and Envy as it echoed throughout the dead deserted forest, sending a wave of cold chills throughout my body.
"I know you're in hereeee~"
Envy's voice was nearby, indicating that she was now close to where I was hiding. My breath got ragged with each passing second she was nearby. I don't even have the mental capacity for me to do this—Let alone face her.
No, no, no, no, nonononono!...NO I'M NOT!
"Now where are you hiding~?" I peeked at them, before they started casually uprooting the first tree, my dread increasing at a rapid rate. I knew this elven woman was strong, but what the hell!? Nothing could've prepared me for this!
Adrenaline coursed through my veins, my breath getting increasingly ecstatic after I saw her uproot the second tree, fuck fuck fuck, what am I doing, I should be running, but after what I saw, my body couldn't move due to the sheer shock felt. Fuck me sideways.
"I~ Found~ You~"
"..!" I tensed up. Her sing-song voice was clear as the starry night skies and near where I was hiding, it knocked me out of my stupor. Now I was looking for any possible escape routes I can take, but unfortunately, life decided to say fuck you, and leave me to my miseries.
I received training from the Clind before, the whips and punishments were painful, but they were next to nothing compared to the horror I was in. Even RBD would not be able to get me out of this mess. All it would end up doing is restarting this whole rodeo—and with the knowledge she'll possess, escaping will prove much more difficult for me.
Since they were the ones that gave me that accursed power in the first place.
I threw a rock to create a distraction like in one of those shitty sneak segments in video games. I noticed a nearby bush. Lucky me, using the distraction, I quickly fled the log, and hid there. I can feel some pretty damn realistic splinters here and there. But that doesn't matter; if I get to live another day, that works for me.
When she came back and ripped the log I was previously hiding in, she was…surprised?...and down?...that I wasn't there, a void of nothingness, filled with bugs and leaves.
To top it all off, my sense of confidence and pride as a man slowly withering away.
"Huh...he wasn't even here…"
She cocked her head to the side and tapped her chin with her index finger. Unknown to her. I was, in fact, nearby where she was, still hiding behind the nearby bush I crawled into, itching and crawling bugs covering my body whilst doing my best to stay as still and silent as possible.
Lest she hears me and captures me.
I could tell we were on completely different levels from the start. A cat and mouse or Tom and Jerry kind of bullshit, with her as the monster Tom and me as Jerry, the mouse she preyed upon. I watched carefully behind my hiding spot in the bushes, hyperventilating as I felt the soft grass touch me, itching at every part of my skin, as I put a hand over my mouth to make sure she couldn't hear me.
I was trying to be as quiet as possible while watching and waiting for her to calm down from her quick speed. I don't know why but seeing her stop just puts me on edge, have they found me? Are they baiting me to come out? So many thoughts raced through my head, one worse than the other.
I peaked back to confirm our distance. She was looking around but for a moment, her gaze paused in my general area. It gave me more than enough time to see the look on her face…Her eyes…
She had a small empty smile and though it was only a glimpse with her bangs concealing them, there was a… cold and calculated look to her eyes. So frighteningly beautiful…almost like...
I shook my head at the very thought. Focus damn it! If you let your guard down for even a second, she'll devour you whole. She was like a hunter—nay, a stalker with how she kept herself at seemingly the perfect distance to give me a sense of security but also a creeping dread.
It was ironic, patience was not in her vocabulary when she was chasing me.
Heavens above, please, leave already! I can't hold this position for too long! I feel like I'm in hell the longer I'm in this nightmare. One second? A minute? An hour? Time was irrelevant to the equation right now. It was either her or me...
As I looked again, she continued walking, her footsteps rang like soft winds, with the sound of cracking branches and leaves with every step she took. I thought I had finally escaped her clutches…until...
"What…?"... I saw her slowly make her way here, as if she forgot something on the way to the forest. First looking up, then looking to the left, then looking to the right at all the other bushes and leaves. She slowly came near where I was hiding, I felt like passing out due to her presence. But she didn't seem to notice me…
Then she cracked her head 180° into the general direction I was hiding in. I prayed to whatever god to let me have mercy on me, but when I looked again, her eyes weren't just staring in my direction, it almost felt as if she was...
She was looking...directly at me!
I felt my heart sink into my chest. With a calm, but twisted smile that kept growing with every second, she pounced on me. I released a pained groan as I fell on my ass and tumbled down the hill with her latched onto me. When we finally stopped at the base of the hill, she released a giggle that could melt even the hearts of the most fierce men. "Found you~"
[ Third Person POV ]
As Subaru groaned in pain and opened his eyes, he could see her albeit more clearly.
Hair as white as the moonlight above and with amethyst eyes that twinkle in the dark staring at his, a beauty under the moonlight, but unfortunately, that was not what Subaru thought.
Plus her…*ahem* bare assets purposely exposed for Subaru to see.
There was no mistaking it.
He was looking at the Witch who started the Great Calamity 400 years ago—
—The Witch of Envy, Satella
Or in her own words, Subaru-kun's future wife
"I found you Subaru-kun~! Or should I say...Hubby~"
The obsessiveness and possessiveness of Satella/Envy were between the lines of crazy and borderline psychotic. Well, that was one way for Subaru to describe her.
That, and the other thing which I won't mention, back to the show.
[ Back to Subaru's POV ]
"You're so careless~ You actually thought I was clueless, but honestly I knew you were hiding on those bushes, I just wanted to surprise you, so I acted like I didn't find you~"
Okay...that was scary...yet horrifyingly arousing, but in my current situation, I'm more terrified than horny. This scene I caught myself in is almost similar to that anime with a bunch of demon girls… which one was it? DxD? Or was it that hentai Monster something something?
Okay, I'm getting off topic, as I was saying…
It wouldn't help if I was being held tightly by her elven strength, and to top it all off, her Authority, which would make things overall even more fucking batshit crazy! And this wasn't the kind of surprise you give out to someone, this almost reminded me of those damned jumpscares from Five Nights At Freddy's!
..Ahem…carrying on…
"How the hell was I supposed to know you already caught me!? And do me a favor and let me GO!" I screamed in defiance. I wasn't trying to act manly here, I just blurted out whatever the hell was on my mind.
"Ara~ this is what makes me love you more Hubby~ You already know what happens next; and still, you're this defiant towards me~ You're making me all wet down here, it's making me want you more and more~"
What the hell was this woman!? A sadomasochistic Witch!?
…actually…considering the amount of whips, ball gags, restraints, and all the other toys I found in her room, I can safely say that she...an innocent looking witch, is into kinky BDSM.
"Oh Subaru~ I have one simple request for you~"
As soon as she said those words, she gently loosened her tight grip on me. With her loosened hold on me, I was better able to comprehend my situation and think of ways to escape but as the clouds above parted and the moon lit up the forest of withered trees, my jaw dropped.
I tried to look away in a futile attempt to keep my libido in check but my eyes kept wandering back. Her silky-smooth skin, her luscious white hair, and her naked body straddled on my waist was hard to resist but I had to. For Emilia. I would never be able to face the kind and innocent Emilia if I succumbed to lust. But slowly, my eyes wandered down to her assets which began to further erode any self-control I may have had.
There was also this fragrance of cherry blossoms on her that were reminiscent of a highschool girl on a spring evening, ready to confess her feelings. Damnit. This witch thoroughly did her homework. She hit all of my wants and desires so easily… If it wasn't for my gripping fear and thoughts of Emilia, I would've pinned her down and fucked her senseless here and there…
But as reality is a bitch, I was reminded of her strength that could crush anyone within seconds. It was just a repetitive terror, my body didn't feel that breathtaking feeling, only despair.
It was then I noticed her hands wrapped around my neck, her grip tightened, choking me.
"Don't cheat. Don't flirt. Don't fuck or love anyone but me, Hubby~, I really don't like that~"
With each and every don't, her grip strength increased, I was perplexed; I didn't know what the hell she's talking about.
I tried prying her hands off me, but she's too strong, but then again, she is a half-elf as well as one of the 'Witches of Sin' to boot.
I felt my consciousness fading, my eyes almost blacking out, I found it increasingly difficult to breathe and my hands began to lose their strength. All I could do was sluggishly reach out into the air…
…I was afraid that if I closed my eyes, I would never open them again. I've died many times before but never to her. Never to the one that kept me alive—the one that I truly thought would never hurt me…
Her face was flustered, redness painted her cheeks, until she sang something in a sing-song voice before I passed out.
Hush~ my~ husband~ please~ hush~ Go~ back~ to~ sleep~ for~ your~ wife~ I'll~ tak…."
It was the last thing I heard before succumbing to my fate.
Hahaha…my once peaceful dream turned into a never ending nightmare…that went from normalcy to this insanity…
Okaa-san…Oba-chan… I hope…you're doing…alright…
And thus concluded his last thoughts, Subaru has retired, his pursuer finally caught up with him, at least back in reality, he'll have a slew of rest…
Or will he?...
[ Interlude ]
[ Emilia's POV ]
I didn't regret my decision.
I asked that clown tons of times if I could help around and do laundry, he was a bit hesitant at first, but he let me do it
At least now, I had access to MY Subaru's clothes, especially HIS underwear
In which some of them were coated in a sticky scent
I'd purposely tease him about it until the end of days, no way a bleachy smell going to be washed without my knowing
Those stains were a waste…just the thought of it being used on me turns me on.
But now, I felt something...off, like something was in the mist, trying to take MY precious knight.
And oh, I didn't like that, not one fucking bit.
Even when I tried resting or studying, MY knight was in trouble.
There was nothing I could do right now, I resumed my studies, I gripped my quill, to the point where it almost broke, and whispered to myself.
"Whoever or whatever is trying to take MY Subaru, mark my words. He's MINE, MINE, MINE..."
"... And no bitch will get in my way..."
To be continued...
[ Author's Notes ]
YELLO, yeah it's me, back from the dead, revitalized, and motivated, after a harsh breakup
i wanted to write again after I found the energy to do it again, and seeing most of the reviews, there was room for improvement, but overall y'all liked it, and i will be…mostly online to answer questions and improve upon this story
I went for a diary-like POV, if that exists, for what Subaru was feeling, maybe more on context, a bit of comedy, and alot of horror, cringey, but I hope it works.
Notice the bold on some of Satella's Dialogues? Yep, a reviewer pointed out that i didn't include Envy on the previous chapter 1, and i thought, why the hell not merge the two personas so that Subaru will be much more terrified
Now, enough of that, Don't be scared to approach me, I am open to lots of suggestions along the way. My goal for this rehauled chapter is around 2-3k words (which is complete), and 3-4k words on the next rehauled chapter. Whilst retaining horror, comedic, and smutty elements that were lacking back then
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Bye bye~
[ Omake ]
"Every man, woman and child will die by my hands, leaving us all alone to ourselves" Satella said
"A WORLD WHERE WE BELONG TOGETHER"
"That's a nice argument bitch, why don't you back it up with a source" Subaru said as he pointed his weapon at her
"My source is that i made it the fuck up." She declared with utmost confidence