A/N: Okay, so this was originally a one shot I was going to do, but then it kind of turned into a story. So here's the first chapter and I'll be updating weekly. This is a short story. Enjoy and tell me what you think :)

She sat there numb. How could this have happened? They were doing great together. He was so sweet and did everything right. Why did this happen. The worst part about it was that it was through text that he had done it, broken up with her. She looked at the painful text one more time. 'I think we should just be friends? I mean I don't know? That's just what I think?' He Thinks? HE THINKS?! HE DOESN'T KNOW?! And what's with all the question marks?! No, she wasn't going to take this! She wanted answers and she wanted them now.

She got into her car and drove. She had hoped her makeup wasn't smeared from when she was crying. She realized that if he didn't have a liable excuse for this, he wasn't worth her time. She pulled up to the familiar farm house that she had once thought of as her own home. Once 'they' happened, it had become real. Now that 'they' were broken up, it felt like a stranger's home.

She stormed up the familiar porch steps and didn't even bother to knock. She walked right in and up to the couch where the stupid farmboy was sulking. "Clark Jerome Kent! You need to explain to me what this is about," she yelled as she shoved her phone into his face.

He gulped when he saw her angry face. He knew he would have to face what he had done eventually. Why had he sent that message? He didn't even know why he did it himself. He knew he regretted it the minute he pressed send. He gulped, "L-Lois what-"

"Don't Lois me! You explain this now! I can't believe you broke up with me, through a text! A TEXT! Really?! What were you not man enough to break up with me to my face?!" She was hysterical now. She didn't care what she said she just knew that it was his entire fault that she was feeling like this. He had looked at her as if she was the only woman in the world and then pulled a stunt like this. He could be a complete asshole at times. "I could at least understand if you had just called! I see you daily! You could have done this at work; yesterday when I was at the farm; you could've done it anytime between yesterday and the day before, but you didn't! No, you chose to do it through a text! I can't believe you would be so insensitive!"

She was rambling and he knew it. He deserved her yelling at him. The thing he hated seeing was the hurt in her eyes. The hurt that he had caused, were in her eyes. He wanted to hold her, say he was sorry, and beg for forgiveness, but he knew that he wouldn't get off that easily. He would still have to see the hurt in her eyes every day at work. He was so lost in his thoughts he had tuned her out. This made him feel even worse. 'Geez Kent, first you break up with her, through text no doubt, then you don't listen to her when she's confronting you about it. Can you be any more of an ass?'

"Are you even listening?! You have that far away look in your eyes, which tells me you didn't even hear a word I said!" Tears were starting to form in her eyes. She kept trying to swallow them back, but a few betrayed her and strayed down her cheek."I don't even know why I try," she said in a low defeated voice as she started to walk away.

"Lois, wait! I had to. I didn't feel like I had a choice in the matter," he said with pleading eyes. He watched as she turned around, but forgiveness was not in her eyes. No anger, pain, and betrayal were there. He almost couldn't look at her.

"You didn't feel like you had a choice," she said between gritted teeth. "You didn't feel like you had a choice?! I'll tell you who didn't have a choice, ME! You had the choice not to break up with me Clark! You had a choice! You made your choice! No one but you made it! So, don't go telling me that you didn't have a choice, because you did!" She went to turn around but Clark grabbed her arm. She turned around with tears in her eyes. She wanted to get out of there as soon as possible.

He couldn't bear to look at her. He had caused the tears in her eyes. He had caused Lois Lane to cry. He felt sick to his stomach. He felt like there was a chunk of kryptonite close by. "Lois, please. There are things about me you don't understand. I had no choice. It was to protect you. Please you have to listen. I don't want you out of my life Lois. I love you," his eyes went wide as he realized what he had just admitted. Oh no, that was not the right thing to say at a time like this. She was going to be furious.

She turned her head around slowly anger radiating off of her. "You love me?!" She let out a little ha towards him. "So, what you're telling me is that you love me and that's why you broke up with me. You love me too much for me to get hurt by whatever this is your hiding from me?! Clark, you sound insane!"

"Why is it that when you say it, it sounds so stupid?"

"Because it is! You go and break up with me, through a text I might add, and then you tell me that you love me! You tell me it is for my own safety and that you're only trying to protect me from whatever!" All Clark could do was nod. "I can't believe you!" She went to go leave but yet again, Clark's hand was holding firmly onto her arm. "Let me go!" When he was reluctant to do it she tried once more, "Let me go, now," she said in a low angry voice. He let go slowly but still wasn't ready to give up.

"Lois please don't leave me," he said in a hurt voice. "I need you Lois, please."

She looked at him and saw his puppy dog eyes. 'Oh no, he doesn't get off by giving me the puppy dog eyes, I'm the one that is hurt by him, not the other way around.' "Don't you dare look at me with those sad, hurt puppy dog eyes. You don't get the right to do that! There is no reason for you to be hurting at all! You broke up with me! What are you so afraid of Clark?! What are you so afraid of that you would break my heart instead of telling me?!" She watched as his expression changed. It went from sad to hurt to thinking back hurt again.

"What am I afraid of?! I'm afraid of what you'll think of me when I tell you what I'm keeping from you! I'm scared of what criminals might do to you if they found out! I'm scared that one day you won't just be unconscious or hurt, but dead! And most of all, I'm scared of this, of what we have," he stepped closer to her lowering his voice a little. "I have given my heart to one person my whole life. She took it and ripped it to shreds every time. I don't know if I can give you my heart because, I'm afraid once I do, it will break again."

She looked at him with sympathy and anger. Why did he always do this to her, make her not know what to feel? She had feared all of these things. Well, all except the secret one. She didn't understand what could be so big that it would make him too frightened to tell her. She thought that all this they'd work out together. That's what being a couple is right? Well, she didn't really know. The only other really serious boyfriend she had, had was Oliver. They never really talked about their fears though. She had tried but he was always running off somewhere. It had been different with Clark. They talked all the time about everything. He always knew when something was bugging her, so it was hard to keep her feelings to herself. She had always talked to Clark about his feelings, but this big secret he was keeping was always holding him back from telling her the whole story. It had just worked with them. They had just fit.

There was a long silence in the room. No one said anything; both lost in their thoughts. Finally Lois spoke up. It was more of a yell then she meant to say, "Clark, these are the things we, as a couple, should've worked out together! You don't have to act like you're alone all the time because you're not! Snap out of the brooding and just tell me how you feel!" She began to stomp out but then Clark spoke up.

"What I feel! You really want to know what I feel?!" Lois let out a furious nod. "This, this is how I feel!" He stepped forward and kissed her. He kissed her like his life depended on it, which it kind of did since Lois was his life.

She was shocked and just stood there not responding for a while. Finally she got into it and kissed him back. They had never kissed like this before. It was always nice and sweet. This one was as if he needed it more than anything. It was hot and fiery. It was passionate and, dare she say it, filled with love. She slowly and reluctantly pushed away. She knew she needed to know where they stood now.

"Clark, where does this leave us now?" She knew the ball was in his court now. He would have to make the decision on his own. She didn't know if she could see him every day if he chose to 'just be friends.' She didn't know if she could work with him if he chose that.

He thought about all that had been said tonight. All that had gone through his mind once he sent the text and knew he might lose her. No, he wanted this. Scratch that, he needed this. He felt he needed this more then he needed to breathe. "Lo, I should have never sent that text. Being the idiot I always am, I did and after that I feared I would lose you for good. That scared the crap out of me. Living without you is like living without breathing. I couldn't do it. I don't know if I could go on just being friends with you. I know that I won't get your full trust back right away, but I will show you I want this by earning it back. I just wish you will forgive me enough to take me back for being a complete ass. I don't know if I would ever be able to get over you. My life would be meaningless. Please, I can't lose you." His eyes were pleading. He meant every word. He said them from his heart.

She started chewing the inside of her cheek and thought. Could she forgive him? Could she take him back after what he had done? She knew she couldn't live with him being just her friend. No, she needed all of him or none of him. Could she live without him in her life? She took a deep breath as she got ready to answer him. "Clark, I...I mean it's just." She didn't know how she was going to say this. "I want you back, but how can I ever trust you again. I might always live in fear of, when is he going to text me next and break up with me. I just need to think about this okay."

He had his disappointed look on his face and she knew that he thought she meant no. "I'm not saying no," at this he got a hopeful expression on his face again. "But I'm not saying yes either. I just need to think okay. I need time away from this," she said as she motioned between them. "Please, just don't call me or visit me. I need to make this decision alone." With that she gave him one last look and walked out the door. He watched each step she took until she was out of his line of vision. Then, he listened to her heartbeat. He sat down on the couch numb. He curled up into a ball and fell asleep to the thumping of the heart he yearned to own again one day. He just hoped she'd give him a chance to win it back.

**

It had been a day since Lois walked out the door. He had woken up and watched the same spot she had been standing for hours. The phone suddenly rang. He sprang up and ran nearly at superspeed. "Hello, Lois," he said hopefully.

"No honey, it's mom. Were you expecting a call from Lois? I thought you and Lois were attached at the hip these days. Well, since you were a couple at least," she said with a little chuckle.

"Oh mom," he said so defeated, "I think I have made the biggest mistake of my life." He began to sob a little bit.

"Oh honey, what happened?"

"I was a stupid idiot. I don't know I was thinking and then she yelled. I pleaded and then she left," he said so fast he didn't even think he could comprehend it.

"Slow down Clark. Tell me the whole story from the beginning." What would make her son so hysterical? Had Lois broken up with him? Did she leave him? Did he leave her? Had he broken up with her?

"It all started with a stupid text that I sent her," he said slowly taking deep breathes to calm himself. "I had broken up with her for her own safety. I did it, being the idiot I am, through text."

"Wait, you broke up with her through a text! I thought I raised you better than that," she said a little disappointed. "That's one of the downsides to texting these days, it's so impersonal. Anyways, go on. What happened next?"

"Well, she came over and started yelling at me for it, which I deserved. Then I told her that I felt like I had no choice, which was a bad decision on my part," he swallowed back the lump that was forming in his throat. "She started saying how I had a choice, me and only me. She said that she was the only one who didn't have a choice in the matter. I had her arm and I wouldn't let her go. I told her I did it to protect her. Then I slipped and told her I loved her, which was not the best thing to say at a time like that. I asked her why when she says what I told her it sounded so stupid and she said because it was. I begged her not to leave, mom." He looked back at the spot where she had been standing. The scene played before him over and over again in his mind.

"She had asked me what I was so afraid of. I told her I was afraid of what would happen when I told her my secret; what criminals might do to her; that instead of being hurt or unconscious she might be dead; and I was afraid of what we had because I have only given my heart to one girl and she shattered it to pieces. She said something about how I need to quit acting like I'm alone because I'm not and to just tell her how I feel. I yelled something and then I kissed her. I kissed her like my life depended on it. After that it was really all a blur, mom. I begged, she said she needed to think things through and just left," he was now sobbing. "I don't want to lose her mom. I need her like I need air."

The other line was silent for a while as the women thought. "Clark honey, it sounds to me like you dug yourself into a hole. Lois is not Lana. They are two completely different women and you have to understand that. Just because the first one broke your heart doesn't mean that Lois will. Lois is strong honey. You have to trust her if you want her to love you as much as you love her." She paused for a moment and gave a little sigh. "I know you're scared about her safety, but you have to understand that no matter what you do, Lois tends to find danger. It doesn't matter if she knows about your powers or not. Lois is in danger anyway. She's a reporter, it kind of goes with the job. You would be better off telling her because she might be in less danger."

"That's the thing mom; I don't want people to hunt after her because of the Blur. I just can't lose her. Everyone that I have told my secret to has always looked at me differently afterwards. I don't know if I could stand Lois looking at me any differently."

"Honey, I know. Lois is strong and loving. I don't think that she will look at you any other way than she already does. You just need to give her time. I'm sure once she thinks it over everything will be okay again."

"I hope so. Mom, I have to go duty calls."

"Okay sweetheart but be careful and consider what I've said to you."

"Okay mom I promise I will. Love you, bye."

"Bye honey."

With that he sped off.

**

When he got to the scene it was horrible. There was fire and smoke everywhere. There were adults and children all around. Most the adults were crying for their loved ones. The fire was blazing. Whatever might have been in there, couldn't have survived a fire that bad. The building was falling apart. He listened with his super hearing. 'Female is still inside, brunette, about 5.9. We need immediate rescue units.

TBC