Chapter 1: I'm so sorry

"Is this what heroes do, arrest their mothers on Christmas" Kate's mother interrogated as the police cuffed her

"I'm sorry mom, I love you" Kate said, this broke her heart but it was the right thing to do

"I love you too" she said as the police shoved her in the car and drove off

Kate rubbed the part of her head that was slammed into the wall, she suddenly had a bad realization "CLINT" she screamed as she ran back to the ice rink, last time she saw him he was getting attacked by Yelena.

She ran as fast as she could, injuries or not she had to make sure he was alright. She suddenly tripped and rolled onto the sidewalk, Rockefeller center was just visible down the street. She slowly got up and picked up her bow.

BANG

Kate's heart stopped. She sprinted to the railing and she froze. Her mind went completely blank as she saw CLint fall to the ground, and Yelena standing above him with a gun in her hand. Kate started breathing heavily, she tightened her grip on her bow, her mind focused on one thing. She reached into her quiver only to realize she had no more arrows.

Yelena looked up and they locked eyes. Kate wanted to see regret or anything resembling sadness, but all she saw was that smug grin that stalked her the past couple days. "Hello Kate Bishop" she said waving

'Hello Kate Bishop', 'Hello Kate Bishop', 'HELLO KATE BISHOP' the apathy in that made her blood boil.

"I am sorry about Barton, but come on he had it coming" Yelena continued, making it worse with each word

"Ohh" a small moan came from her right. She looked to see the gangster who kidnapped her and Clint, the one with bushy hair. And his gun was lying on the ground near her feet. On impulse Kate picked up the gun and started shooting toward Yelena

"AHH" Yelena screamed. Kate smashed the trigger repeatedly until she was sure she was out of bullets. Kate looked away from the sight to see she had missed five shots but hit Yelena in the shoulder once. Kate leaped over the railing and started sprinting toward her. Yelena ran away, holding her shoulder the whole time

Kate threw the gun at the back of Yelena's head but she kept running. Yelena started to run up the steps, seeing her last opportunity Kate leaped forward and grabbed Yelena's ankle causing her to trip and hit the stairs. Kate crawled on top of her and tried to hold her. However Yelena fought back, even with a hurt shoulder and possible concussion she was still much physically stronger than her by a long shot. Yelena threw Kate over the stairs railing and she crashed into the ice.

It took Kate a moment to get up, she would have landed right on her head if she didn't cushion it with her arm. She got up, but Yelena was gone. "YELENA….YELENA" she screamed but there was no response.

She sprinted back to Clint, seeing him lay there motionless and blood coming out. Kate dropped to her knees and stared at him. Within seconds tears started gushing out her eyes "Clint I…I'm so sorry"

Kate watched as the police carried away the body bag, she wanted to follow so badly but she couldn't. She caused this, was she gonna ruin his deathbed as well.

"Umm excuse me mame" a reporter said approaching her "I was hoping we could ask you a few questions"

"Sure" she said with a little sniffle

"Do you have a id on who murdered Hawkeye?" the reporter asked

"Yelena Belova, a Black Widow assassin" she answered with anger in her voice, the reporter seemed surprised at this but kept going

"And what was your relation to Mr. Barton, are you two family?"

"No" she said with a small gulp "I saw us as friends, or partners" she said started but started to whimper "but I wasn't either, I turned my back and left him alone and he he got killed, what was I thinking I'm a terrible friend, I should've just let him go back home, I'm sorry I just.." she said beginning to cry

"I think that's enough questions" Kate's fireman friend Grills said approaching and pushing the reporters notepad away "why don't you head home Kate" he said in a comforting voice.

Kate made her way back to her mother's apartment, she didn't care about the weird looks everyone gave her as she walked in her purple jumpsuit. She finally made it back, not a sound to be heard. She made her way to her room, not bothering to turn the lights on, and plopped on her bed. Tears started flowing out as she remembered her last day with Clint. He called her his partner, wore the superhero costume, and he vowed to stay and help her. He Vowed to stay and help HER. He would've been with his family, he would have enjoyed Christmas with them, he could've been at a safe distance from Yelena. But he wasn't and it was her fault. She laid there and didn't move for two hours before she finally went to sleep

"It has been three days since we lost yet another Avenger" the news woman said in a fake sadness voice. Footage of their battle with the tracksuits played as Kate layed on the couch , the apartment had gotten a little messy but it wasn't like she was going to have guests anytime soon.

Kate took another look at her cell phone and took a deep breath. She dialed in the number Clint had and listened to the ring

"Hi, you've reached the Bartons. We can't come to the phone right now…."

She hung up. She couldn't decide what was worse, Clint's wife and kids too destroyed to answer the phone, or them seeing her name and refusing to answer. It didn't matter, both options crushed her. That was her fourth time trying to contact them, and her fourth time not getting the chance to say anything

"Hello"

Kate fell out of her seat at the sound of a new voice

"Whoa hold up" it sounded like a woman with an american accent

Kate reached out to grab her bow, but her arm froze. She physically couldn't move it and a strange red aura was covering her arm. Suddenly her whole body was being lifted off the ground "look at me, look at my face" the woman said, Kate looked at her and recognized her instantly

"You're Wanda Maximoff"

Wanda nodded "I am Clint's friend" she said setting her down "I am not going to hurt you"

If you told Kate this was going to happen two years ago she would have smiled, now she was just in shock "what are you doing here"

She didn't answer immediately, Wanda clearly understood how confused Kate was. She sat them both down and made them tea "I came here hoping for your help" she finally said

"My help"

"Yes, I want you to help me hunt down Yelena…and kill her" Wanda confessed

"NO" Kate yelled as she stood up and slammed the table. "I'm sorry" she said sitting back down "but I never want to see her face again"

"And you have every right to feel that way" Wanda said in a comforting voice "I won't make you come it's your decision, it's just I thought you would want to be apart of it"

Kate sighed, an Avenger was asking her for help after she completely failed another one. "I'm sorry Ms. Maximoff but I'm not worth it"

"Alright, I..I understand I do" Wanda said before writing something down on her napkin "just think about it" she said revealing she wrote her phone number down. She grabbed her jacket and left.

Kate took a long look at the phone number in deep thought.