As we walked into Jake's hospital room I felt myself get very nervous. I couldn't breathe. I started to shake and panic waved over me. I guess Paul could notice because he wrapped his arm tightly around me and pulled me close.
I can't do this i can't do this Bumblebee we don't have a choice it's your body your choice tho you can do anything you want okay ?
I am not kiling our baby or giving our child up i cant do that and i cant do this i am so conflicted im terrified paul fucking terrfied I know bumblebee but we got to tell jake because there is a 50% chance it mine and a 50% chance it's his so common
He walked closer to the door and opened it jake's eyes looked right at me but he didn't say anything at all he just stared .i slowly walked closer
Jake we need to talk Oh now you want to talk. I have been wanting to talk to you for weeks and you always shut me out and now all the sudden you want to talk! Of course now you want to talk when it convenient for you . he shouted Jake ….please don't Why not you been such a bitch latley and i dont get it i know i fucked up okay i know i cheated but i tried my best to make it up to you witch i be doing my whole fucking life apperntly so you need to get off your fucking high horse and knock this bullshit off ..i love you okay but i cant do this if your gonna keep doing this
I couldn't talk anymore i started shaking and tears were rolling down my face i started to shake and almost hyperventle
I looked at paul trying to let him know i wanted to leave but he wouldn't let me he blocked the door No you need to tell him we are not going home till you do i don't care you need to tell him Tell me fucking what jake replied I wouldn't speak i kept looking around frantic trying to find a way to escape i couldn't do this right now, i couldn't tell him not after our whole conversion that just happened there was no way possible i was scared he was going to leave either way i would have paul but i loved both of them the same amount we were bounded together forever
Bumblebee tell him now I think we should go please i Bella tell him or i will I didn't speak i didn't want to say anything at all i was worried jake would snap i was worried of what all could happen or didn't happen i was scared i just wanted to go back to the house and go to bed
Fine since you're playing games and not answering me or jake ill tell him Jake bella is pregnant Wait what? Is that why she has been so fucking moody lately?
Possibility or she still mad at you i'm not sure
I glared at paul and he kissed the top of my head Bell come here honey jake said I shock my head no and stayed where i was
I didn't want to go over by him i was terrified not of him himself but the thought of getting close to him again and him doing what he did again to me i couldn't do it .i looked at the door and noticed that paul moved
So i ran was it a bad idea yes was it the only thing i could think of at the moment also yes did i regret it yes i ran all the way to a little park in la push and sat myself down trying to catch my breath suddenly i saw emly i didn't want to see her or talk to anyone or see anyone for the matter but i am guessing paul or jake called sam and emily because she looked panicked but then relieved when she saw me she ran over to me and wrapped her arms around me i just fell apart in her arms sobbing I can't do this. I can't do this. I am too young. I can't do this. I know we got married and I know we wanted kids someday but not right now, not when everything is rocky. I can't do this .
Bella you can do this i know you're strong enough to do so okay let's get you back to the hospital the boys are worried sick about you even sam is
Is Sam really worried ?
Well of course he is your brother bella okay he loves you he wanted to beat the boys up Why did he want to do that Because one of them got his little sister pregnant I couldn't help but laugh that was sam my overprotective wolf brother who would do anything to keep me safe i heard a howl from the woods and speak of the devil a he emerges out of the woods i slowly walk up to him and he licks my cheek
Eww sam really that gross He sniffs me all over sam i am okay really can you take me home He huffs I take that as a no then?
He looks at me and i can see he was scared shitless Fine we go to the hospital i guess but i don't want to see jake okay?
After he gets low to the ground, he lets me sit on his back. I wave bye to her, and she just laughs and waves back. Sam walks slowly with me on his back, as if he's being extra careful.
Sam, you know I am not that breakable, you know you can go a little faster He huffs again I was i knew what you were thinking atm so i could talk to you we Show up to the hospital and see paul pacing outside the doors with jake
What is jake doing up i asked sam forgetting he couldn't reply Paul noticed us and ran towards me you could tell he has been crying paul upset surely not
Paul what's wrong and why is Jake up from his bed?
He wanted to phase and chase after you but sue and sam wouldn't let him and i wanted to go and get you but sam wouldn't let me why did you run off bell
Oh now i am bell fine i go home Stop it you know what i meant come here he picks me off sam's back and sam slowly enters the woods and phases back and comes over
I think you paul and jake need to have a long talk about what you are going to do I think that's a good idea jake says I look over and see him struggling paul can you put me down please i promise i wont run away at least not right now i cant run very far unlike you three i went over to jake and put my hand on his cheek please go lay down
Fine buy your coming with me i yelped as he pulled me along him Jake i can't keep up slow down please Why should I ? you keep hurting me over and over again i just did one fucking mistake your the one who keeps leaving Jake…..
No bella i am not slowing down so you better keep up he kept pulling me i saw sue look over but she didn't stop him we got to the room and he pushes me to sit in the chair and lays on the bed are you happy?
Not really at this moment why jake so you can throw a other fucking thing in my face this doesnt really effect you guys ! i just want to go home and sleep but no i am forced to sit here because i found one of my husbands almost fucking dead!
It's the first time I have cried this much since Edward left, I felt sick to my stomach when he looked at me dead in the eyes. JAKE, I thought you were dead! I screamed at him if it weren't for Leah, you would probably be dead, I couldn't carry you, and I wasn't going to leave you there alone, so if I don't know what you want, okay?
Slowly, he picks me up and whimpers with my weight. He pulls me close and sniffs my hair. He lays his head near my neck and sniffs me again. down so i am on top of him he wraps his arm around me and kisses my head and i just lose it i cry into his chest
Honey i am here now okay i got you paul is here as well he outside talking to sam but he's here the only one leaving is you
I am scared
I am not gonna lie i am a little scared too but we will get through this okay he slowly rubs my back i
I guess we fell asleep or I did but when I woke up I felt funny. I saw Paul laying on the chair asleep and Jake still asleep. I patted his arm. Jake, I need to get up. I don't feel right. Jake jake jake hello?
As he slowly moves his arm, I get up and once again I feel myself passing out, however, before I fall, warm arms wrap around me and Paul cradles me against him as everything goes black.