"No, Ms. Stewart, you're not dead. You're alive." A nurse replied. Ms. Stewart? That wasn't my name. I wasn't a girl.
"What?" I asked. It was at that time that I realized that my voice sounded different. I couldn't help but notice that I could barely move with everything that I was hooked up to. It dawned on me that I seemed to not be in my own body. Maybe what I heard with my father and Beyonce wasn't a dream. At that point, the machine started to beep louder.
"I know you're surprised to be here but you need to calm down." The nurse declared. "Your mother and the doctor are on their way."
I took some breaths. I probably wouldn't be able to tell them that I wasn't this Ms. Stewart. It was sad that I didn't even know my name. Well I knew my name, but I didn't know this girl's name. I moved my arms a little bit, to my chest. I could feel the breasts there. They felt smaller than Rachel's, probably closer to the same size as Quinn's. The then realized that I shouldn't be doing such a thing especially with people watching me.
"I'm sorry. I just feel weird." I stated. It would probably take some time to get used to that voice. I didn't know if this would be my life now. Was I stuck in this girl's body?
"Olivia!" A woman said as she ran over and gave me a hug. I assumed that she was the girl's mother, even though she looked much younger than my mother. She started to cry some. "I can't believe that you're alright. I was so scared. I thought I lost you."
I then thought of how my own felt because she did lose her child. Would I ever even see her again? I didn't even know where I was. I then started to cry myself. She then pulled apart from me and seemed to see the puzzled look on my face.
"You're looking at me like you don't recognize me." She stated.
I knew that I couldn't tell her that I wasn't her daughter. The question was could I lie and pretend to be this girl who I literally knew nothing about? I wanted to be an actor, but I was pretty sure that it would be total improv and I was not good at that.
"I…I don't." I admitted as I wiped the tears from my eyes. I hoped that it would make sense for me to have amnesia. "I don't remember anything."
"You may be suffering from amnesia." A man interrupted. I looked to the doorway and saw someone that I did know…well kind of. It was Mike's father, Mike Chang Sr. "We'll need to do some tests to make sure."
At that time, I heard my stomach rumble.
"Can I get something to eat first?" I asked with a blush.
"Let me go get you something." Olivia's mother replied. I know that she was supposed to be my mother, but I couldn't think of her that way. I just couldn't.
"I want to get it myself." I stated. I didn't know why I was being so bold. Maybe it was because I wanted to get used to the body that I was in. "Can you unhook me from these machines?"
"Ms. Stewart you have suffered a very traumatic injury." Dr. Chang explained. "It probably is not wise for you to be moving around."
"But I don't even know if I can walk." I admitted. "I want to be able to find out."
There was also the part that I wanted to spend as little amount of time in the hospital as possible. It just made me feel uncomfortable. I watched as the nurse unhooked me from the machine.
I slowly moved my legs and found that I didn't immediately touch the ground. So I was short. I expected it because of the way that they didn't touch the end of the bed but it felt kind of surreal. I put them on the ground and I found that I was a little wobbly. The nurse went over to the wall and got a walker, like one of those things old people use. As humiliating as it was to use, it did help me walk. And I did also know that there was a guarantee that no one I knew would see me like this.
I made my way to cafeteria which honestly looked a lot like the cafeteria at McKinley with a lot less people. I probably wasn't going to be in for the greatest food ever. The last time I had been to a hospital was when Quinn was in her accident. I still had no idea what had happened to Olivia to land her in the hospital in the first place. I grabbed a plate of fried chicken only to see Olivia's mother staring at me,
"What?" I asked.
"It's just that you're a vegetarian or at least you were." She told me.
"Oh." I replied. I had had some of Rachel's vegan food before and I honestly wasn't a fan. "Should I take it back?"
"If this is what you want to eat, go ahead." She declared. "Honestly, I'm just happy that you're here with me."
I felt bad every time someone mentioned that but I couldn't tell any of them that I wasn't Olivia. The other thing was about my family. They would never get the closure that they wanted or needed.
"So we need to discuss something." She stated. "The school year is almost over. Did you want to go back to McKinley or did you just want to wait."
McKinley. So she went to McKinley. Going back there would probably bring me a lot of pain but it was probably necessary. There would be people that I knew there. Maybe it would even give me a glimpse of my old life. It could also help me figure out the life that I had now. Even though I didn't know them, I didn't want to drive away the people that loved Olivia. It wouldn't be fair to them.
"I think so." I replied.
Once I finally got to be alone, I started to sing to myself. I didn't know what my voice would sound like. The song was about my sort of identity crisis in a way. I wanted to be myself, but I also wanted to be Olivia and I wanted to let people know who I was. Mr. Schue once said that there was a song for every occasion.
And I'd give up forever just to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that aint coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Okay, she sounded good. At least that was one thing that I could still do. I would have a lot of challenges in the next few days. The biggest one was that I didn't have any idea how to be a girl. I didn't know anything about makeup, bras, clothes or periods. Girls really did have it harder. I would have to learn those pretty fast and I wasn't exactly the best student. The other thing is I really didn't want to mess up Olivia's grades. Maybe I would have to study more or something. At least being in the hospital, I wouldn't have to worry about what I was supposed to wear.
So over the next few days, I was shown some old photos and videos of when Olivia was a kid. They were supposed to help my memory, but obviously they didn't. I couldn't be the girl that they wanted to be. There was one photo that did catch my eye, not because I remembered it but because of what in it. Olivia was wearing a McKinley High Cheerleading uniform. She was a Cheerio.
I also learned some more about her family. For starters, the reason that she looked so young was that she was. She was 32 years old, which meant that she had Olivia when she was a teenager. Her father had gone to prison for the act. She didn't really go into detail for that but I was guessing that it was not consensual. The other thing was that her mother had a 25 year old girlfriend named Kelsey. Thankfully Olivia did not have a boyfriend because that would have been incredibly awkward to deal with. It sounded like she had a great life and I wished that she had been able to keep living it.
The other thing that people didn't really talk about was the accident that Olivia had been in. Part of me wanted to know, but part of me also didn't. What happened in Olivia's life before didn't really matter. I had to move on and try to live it as best as I could.
The doctors actually advised that I wait to return to school until after the summer. I wasn't sure why because I was pretty sure that I could back but it was better than trying to study for exams for classes that I didn't know anything about.
Over the summer, her parents decided to take me to Disneyland. Well it was more around the time that the school year would be ending. I had actually always wanted to go to Disneyland or Disney World but had never been able to because my mom didn't have the money. However, there was one thing that caught my eye when I looked at the calendar of events. I decided to bring it up to the two of them. They probably thought that I was crazy.
"You want to go to a show choir competition?" Kelsey asked me in disbelief..
"I know it's weird, but I found out that one of the girls on the cheerleading squad was going to be performing there and I kind of wanted to see her." I lied. It was the best that I could come up with. It probably made it sound like I had a bit of a crush on Kitty. The truth was that I hadn't really thought about dating much because I had mainly been focused on learning to be a girl. I was still getting used to shaving my legs. I mostly wanted to see New Directions win at Nationals.
Except they didn't. The strange thing that I saw was that they didn't seem to have enough members. I had heard that Britney had gotten into college somehow but I didn't know where Sugar or Joe had gone. Some group named Throat Explosion had won…I don't even want to think about that name.
So it seemed that even with everything that I had done, none of it had matter. It made me not want to enjoy Disneyland, even though I did. There was even a performance by Debby Ryan. Disneyland really was the happiest place on Earth.
When it came time for school to start, I was wearing a crop top or something and a high-waisted black miniskirt. As weird as it sounded, skirts were actually surprisingly comfortable. I had barely walked in when I heard a familiar yelling.
"OLIVIA!" Sue exclaimed. "In my office now!"
By her office, she meant the principal's office, as in she was the principal. How the hell had that happened. I found that she had fired Mr. Schue, which didn't seem like it was legal unless it was because he really didn't seem to know what had been teaching.
"Why aren't you in your uniform?" She asked me.
"It kind of got ripped during the surgery." I explained. I assumed that everyone at the school had been told about my memory loss. "I didn't think you would want me to back though. I don't remember anything about being a cheerleader: none of the routines or anything."
"Just because you don't remember the routines doesn't mean that you can't do them." She said. I was pretty sure that that was exactly what it meant. I couldn't do something that I didn't know how to. "You have a lot of talent and now that we have more money since that pesky Glee club is gone, we can have even better routines. Now go change."
She threw the garments at me, which I supposed I shouldn't have been surprised by. I had to go to the girls' locker room, which felt very strange, even though I had gotten used to being in this body. No one was in there, but I still wanted to change in a stall. As I was doing so, one thought entered my mind. I wanted to, no I needed to bring back the Glee club.
So Finn is now Olivia. She's played by Lucy Hale and her mother is played by Michelle Monaghan. I know that this chapter covered a lot, but I wanted to get to school and I figured the best time would be in the immediate aftermath New Directions ending. So how is she going to bring back the Glee club and will anyone find out who she really is? Please don't forget to review.