BPOV

Should I text him?

I mean, it was 2:30 am. He might be asleep by now.

And even if he was awake, if I told him now that I was already regretting my decision, he might be going to kill me!

I mean, not that I'd blame him!

First I rejected him when he was trying to pour his heart out in front of me.

Few hours later, I said I felt the same, and we had our first kiss and we went on our first date.

Few hours after that, I decided to end everything.

And now... Again after just a few more hours, I was regretting my impulsive decision!

My mood swings must be giving him a whiplash!

But I mean, we both were still alive after all the fights and arguments we've had over the years, so I guess I'd survive this?

Yeah, it was worth taking a risk!

"Are you awake?" I sent him the text.

"Yes." He replied almost immediately.

Okay?

"Can we talk?" I sent it.

And I received a call immediately after that. I braced myself to face his anger!

"What do you want to talk about?" He asked.

"What are you doing?" I asked. Such a great question to ask!

"Cursing myself!" He said, "I'm thinking about how different things might have been if I were brave enough to open up about my feelings earlier."

"Edward..." I sighed, "I'm so sorry. I began overthinking about what Esme said, and how everyone is going to react, and I just... panicked. I didn't want to end it. Please, please, believe me!" I said desperately.

"I know, I shouldn't have tried to rush this," he said.

"No, it's not your fault! I just panicked," I said, "I want this. I really want to work on this. It's just... I panicked about what if this doesn't work?"

"It's never going to work if we don't even give it a chance," he said.

"I know..." I said, "Can you please give me another chance? Can we please get back on track?" I asked like an idiot.

"You should ask that to yourself. You're the one who's having doubts," he said.

"I know..." I said, feeling embarrassed, "I know I want this, no matter what!"

"Okay then..." he said, "So I guess we're back on track."

"And... We're meeting tomorrow after work?" I just wanted to be sure!

"Yes," he said.

"Wow! That went quite well," I chuckled weakly, "I was honestly waiting for you to blast me!"

"That's because you have no idea about how I feel about you, and how serious I'm about this. You should know that you're very, very important to me, and I'm willing to try and do anything for you."

Was he always really this sweet or had something changed recently?

Whatever it was, it was more than enough to make me smile like an idiot!

"Hmmm..." I said, still smiling like an idiot.

"Can you do me a favor?" He asked.

"Hmmm?"

"If you change your mind about this again, can you please wait till tomorrow morning to inform me?" He said, "My body and mind seriously need a few hours of peaceful sleep now."

I chuckled.

"Well, I can try, but I can't promise anything," I said.

"Get the fuck out of here," he said, "Let me sleep now."

"Now it feels like I'm talking to Edward Cullen!" I chuckled, "I don't know who was the sweet guy I was talking to just a moment ago!"

"Yeah I realized I'm way above my threshold for saying nice things per day," he said, "So now... Get lost and let me try to get some sleep!"

"Good night," I smiled.