Chapter 53

TW: More mentions of sexual coercion in this chapter.

Sansa Stark POV

I was able to sleep okay on the first night. Ramsay was trying to get me alone, but there were so many people around and so much going on that I was able to get out of it. We're going hiking today, and we might go for a swim in the river later. If not today, then definitely tomorrow.

I'm putting my hiking shoes on while the other girls are getting ready. They're all laughing and making jokes, it makes me wonder how they can be so happy. I've felt a lot like I have no control over anything in my life besides what I eat and how much I excercise, so I'm going to hold onto that very tightly.

Ramsay, Theon, Jaime, Cersei, Margaery, Daenerys and I are hiking up a really beautiful trail. It's a lot steeper than I was expecting, but when we get to the top it's supposed to have a really nice view.

"I'm really glad we did this," Margaery says when we get to the top. "I feel like we could all use some time to get away."

"Definitely," Dany responds. "I'm really scared to graduate."

"Why?" Margaery asks.

"I feel like everyone is moving on and I'm stuck here," Dany says. "I have to wait a year for college, and I'll be behind everyone else."

"You're doing it for your dad, though," Cersei says. She's reaching the top with Jaime, they were lagging behind. Cersei looks like she's out of breath. "We'll be waiting for you when you get there." Dany just smiles at her.

"Are you guys ready to head back?" Margaery asks.

"You guys can," Ramsay says. "I want to rest for a bit." I start to get up, but he stops me.

"What?" I ask.

"You aren't just going to leave me are you?" He asks. I pause.

"Yeah, we should always at least stay with a buddy," Jaime says. "Just in case something happens."

"Okay," I respond, sitting down next to Ramsay. "I'll stay." The group walks off and it's just me and him.

"Hey," Ramsay says after a long pause of silence. "Look behind you." I look and there's a somewhat hidden and wooded area.

"What?" I ask.

"I have an idea."

"What is it?"

"What if we went into that wooded area, and did some stuff?" He's kissing my neck now.

"I am not having sex outside," I respond. "No way."

"Well we could do other things," he says. "It would be hot."

"No," I say. "That's too weird."

There's a pause. "Well, we could either have an adventurous story to tell," he says. "Or I could tell everyone how boring you are."

I think about that, they'd probably kick me out of the group if he told him that. And we're on a hiking trail where no one is around, it's not like I have a leg to stand on if I try to fight him.

"Okay," I say. Ramsay seems happy at that answer, and we go to the wooded area.

…

We didn't end up going swimming today, but I'm sure we will tomorrow. I can't believe I gave a blowjob on a hiking trail, I never thought I'd be that kind of girl. We're all hanging out and grilling some food for dinner when the guys start grilling Podrick about his supposed foursome on New Year's Eve.

"Did you really have a foursome?" Jaime asks him.

Podrick nods. "Yeah," he says. "They said it was really good."

"What did you do?" Ramsay asks. "Maybe it'll teach Sansa a thing or two." God, I'm so embarassed. Jon glares at Ramsay but doesn't say anything.

"That's between me and them," Podrick responds. "I don't kiss and tell." There's a series of yells from the guys because they want to know details. I'm not sure why they care so much. I mean, yeah it's a crazy story, but it's been long enough and it's kind of gross to me that he did that in the first place.

"Jaime, Theon," Ramsay says. "Will you come with me to get water? I want to tell you a story." They just nod and Ramsay winks at me before walking off with them. God, I feel so gross. They eventually come back and I can tell Jaime and Theon know what I did earlier. I hate this.

Jon Snow Stark POV

Daenerys and I sit next to each other by the campfire on the second night too, I'm starting to really enjoy talking to her. She has so many interests, and we actually have a lot in common. She eventually gets up to go asks Margaery something, and once I'm alone, Theon walks over and sits down next to me.

"Hey, Jon," he says. "How's it going?" I'm a little confused, why is he talking to me?

"Oh, I'm okay," I respond. I know I sound standoffish, but he's the one who ditched me when we were best friends. "You?"

"I'm good. So you're getting along with Dany, huh?"

"Why do you care?" I ask.

"Just trying to make conversation," he responds. "Sorry."

"I just don't know what you want from me. You abandoned our friendship the moment we got to highschool because Ramsay said he would make you popular," I say. "We grew up together, Theon. You spent more time at my house than your own. I guess you want to talk to me again, now that I'm approved by the group."

There's a pause. I didn't expect to go off on him like that, but a lot of feelings have been bottled up for a while. "I've always felt bad about that," Theon eventually says. "For what it's worth, Ramsay is an asshole. Sometimes I hate him, but it's easier to stay than to try fight him."

"Yeah well, who could have seen that coming?" I say. I know that was rude, but he can't just try to be friends with me again like nothing happened. Theon just gets up and walks away. Right after he leaves, Daenerys comes back and sits next to me.

"What was that about?" She asks.

"I used to be really close with Theon in middle school," I respond. "We were basically attached at the hip."

"Really?"

"Yeah, then Ramsay offered him a chance at popularity and he took it."

"Oh," she responds. "I'm sorry. You know, Ramsay's all talk. He wants you to think he's an asshole, but he really isn't as bad as he seems."

I don't believe that, but I do believe Daenerys wants to see the good in people. "So do you know what you want to study when you do go to school?" I ask. It seems like a boring question, but I want to keep talking to her.

"I think I'll study business or economics," she replies. "I want to work for a nonprofit or a charity once I graduate from college."

"That sounds awesome. I really admire that you want to do something to benefit the community."

"Thanks. It's important to me to give back, for sure." She smiles at me. We keep talking until everyone decides to go to bed. I think I'm really starting to like her.

Sansa Stark POV

Ramsay and I are snuggling by the fire. Jon was eyeing us last night, but tonight he's too busy talking to Daenerys and she's too busy swooning over him. I don't know what parallel universe I'm living in if my brother dates Daenerys Targaryen.

"Do you want to go back to my tent?" Ramsay whispers in my ear. "No one's in there, they're all out here." He starts kissing my cheek, I can tell he's a little tipsy. I don't want to, so I ignore him at first.

"Sansa?" He asks.

I just shrug. "Okay," I say. "If you want to." We get up and walk towards his tent. In that moment, I'm hoping Jon will notice what's going on and do something to stop it.

Ramsay doesn't waste any time when we get to the tent. My idea of romance or even good sex doesn't include doing it in a sleeping bag while it's humid with my brother 40 feet away, but it is what it is I guess. I'm trying to tune out and wait for him to be done when Theon walks in.

"Reek!" Ramsay yells at him before changing his expression. "Actually, you can watch. I don't care." God, I want to throw up all over him. Thank God Theon doesn't take him up on that, he just rushes out of the tent.

After Ramsay finishes, we don't cuddle or anything. You'd think he'd at least give me that. We walk back out to the campfire and sit down where everyone is. I make eye contact with Jon, he's still talking to Daenerys. I think he has suspicions, my hair is really messy and I think there's a stick in it. He doesn't say anything, though. Thank God, I don't need him to humiliate me in front of everyone.

A/N: I know this one was rough, things are about to get a lot better for Sansa. I promise.