Voice of Elf and Gulls Cry

by Katarzyna K Yue

The cry of Gulls is a truly haunting sound, for it hides in it past pain and no acknowledgment and the voice of Elf a haunting memory. {A/L Slight Slash}

1. Voice of Elf and Gulls Cry One

Title: Voice of Elf and Gulls Cry
Author: Katarzyna K Yue
Email: katarzynayue@aol.com
Disclaimer: Not mine. Really. Don't hurt me. I only lot's of LOTR merchandise which I am still spending tones of money on and now am broke XD I have actually got a job in order to get more stuff!
Pairing: Aragorn/Legolas
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Umm ROTK?
Warnings: Slight slash

Summary: The cry of Gulls is a truly haunting sound, for it hides in it pain and no acknowledgment.

Author's Notes: Well wow my first ever LOTR fic! Just a note, this follows LOTR but the ending is AU obviously. Also instead of Legolas going to sea after Aragorn passes away many years later, I have made it so that he actually does leave before, just right after ROTK.
I was inspired to write the fic by the song 'Voice of Elf' please download it and play it when you read this! It will add more effect and feeling to it! You probably have to listen to it more than once since this is quite long and the song short.

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~'This means talking in Elivsh'~
A/N: This is in third person but also has Legolas's thoughts in it which are noted with 'this'

~'Voice of Elf' from Record of Lodoss War starts to play~

~Legolas POV~

Legolas Greenleaf long under tree
In joy thou hast lived. Beware of the Sea!
If thou hearest the cry of the gull on the shore,
Thy heart shall then rest in the forest no more.

The sea…how he had wanted nothing more than to visit the sea, its endless depths and see new worlds…

But t'was for not…his heart had made him stay…his mind fighting with it to make him go to the Gull's cry…alas his heart won over his mind.

He could not go…not when his heart yearned for another in the land of middle-earth…not when he only wanted to be with this person…not when knew he loved this person more than his desire to go to the call of the sea…the call of his heart was stronger.

The man he loved had lived a happy life in middle-earth with his wife and kin and yet…recently when the Gull's had called him…that was when his loves mind and appearance had changed for worse. He had stayed for his love, watching in the distance at his happy life…but despite his not leaving his friend…his love…went into deep depression and had not wanted to speak to anyone for many months, not even he himself…
He did not know what was wrong…he had stayed had he not? Then why was Aragorn like this? Perhaps Aragorn did not like him being there, maybe he only meant for him to stay in middle=earth and not with him. So many questions he had roaming his mind, none answered…for his friend never acknowledged his presence, never even spoke to him…only sometimes he called his name and started to speak of why he wondered he himself had wanted to leave on the Gulls cry.

'I answered many times to his call, and yet it never seemed to satisfy him, I would say 'T'was my decision to see new land, I will never stop loving the forest but the Gulls cry for me to come to them and I yearn to see the sea, but I have stayed have I not my friend? I will always be by your side till your death.'
And yet at his answer Aragorn had just merely started holding his hands to his face and wept, telling me to leave him alone and to not torture him with my words.

'Tis still strange to my why he would act this way, nor not answer any of my own questions…did he despise me so? And if so…for what reason?'

Walking through the halls of the castle, he came upon the voices of Aragorn and Arwen, could it be possible that the lovers who he knew loved each other so were fighting? {1}
Stopping outside the door he began to listen, they both were talking in quiet voices but soon elevated at the mention of himself. Legolas hated to be the source of their problems…perhaps he should leave, as he once had thought he should…

~'Arwen, tis not fair that you look upon Legolas everyday and yet I am not able to see him at all, it pains me greatly my love'~
~'Nay Aragorn you could see him if you wanted to, tis not only me that sees him day in day out, everyone of our friend's…the fellowship, everyone who wants to see him do…You are the only one that does not want him to be seen in front of your eyes, will you not at least acknowledge his presence?'~
~'How am I to do such a thing, when he has done the worst thing possible to me, he once was going to leave middle-earth to see a land of his own and now he cannot, I never stopped him, but I warned him of what Galadriel said, but no matter he wanted to go and yet as you say he has stayed here against his will too. He has committed the greatest offence to me, the offence of thinking I would stop him and as you say not acknowledge him for it, how am I to see what I cannot bear to?'~

Legolas could listen no more, he pushed the door aside and stood below it's frame, his body being highlighted by the moon, almost to an eerie glow. Arwen just looked sadly towards him, she must have thought that he heard everything which he should not have. She quickly departed from the room without a word, he tried placing a reassuring hand on her shoulder but she merely shook her head and walked away…Arwen had always been strong, she had never needed comfort.
Looking towards Aragorn, he just merely sat there a few moments looking after Arwen and shock the look on his face as he glanced at the doorway where the Elf stood. He merely shook his head, most likely to shake away the shock on his face and stood. Walking slowly he came towards Legolas, trying desperately to bore holes into his body with his piercing gaze, it was a look of be wilderness and as if he was trying to search something he could not see…he then left. He walked out the doorway past Legolas and in the direction towards the rooftops.

Legolas had to settle this with Aragorn now… for he too was hurting.

Walking the halls of the castle, he carried himself with Elven grace to its highest roof tops, to stand there in the winds pull and the smell of the salt of the sea and to glance upon the beauty of trees mingled with blue ocean. Once to his destination he saw the figure he had been looking for doing what he had intended to, he as looking towards the sea, looking at it as if trying to ask a question that was not being answered…he knew the look, for he wore it whenever he looked at Aragorn.
Setting himself beside his friend, he felt the other suddenly shudder from the winds cold and then just turn towards him and then back to the sea.

~'Aragorn…will you not speak to me? I have many questions I want answered by you and yet you will not gi—'~ He was cut off by Aragorn when he said ~'Why do you torture me so? I cannot see you like everyone does and you only torture me with your presence, I feel you around me all the time, if I cannot see you then why torture me so and stay?'~
~'But Aragorn I wanted to stay and I knew a part of you wanted me too did you not? I would not leave you until you died I promised that, I did not seek out the Gulls cry…I stayed with you! Did you not want that?'~
~'I wanted you to stay when I heard the news of you leaving for the lands; I could not bear you leaving. Your were too precious to me Legolas, I always wanted you by my side, I never wanted to leave and I know most of all that that was selfish of me. But you were my one pillar of strength, the fellowship the other, Arwen the next and my kin the last. But you were first to build pillar that held up the dying temple that I am, you held me up with your presence and friendship and yet now I have lost you.'~

~'Nay Aragorn! You have not lost me for I am here! Please do not torture me friend and speak of why you act this way? Do you not see how it hurts Arwen and your child? Your distance shall spear away your other pillars and then what will you be left with?'~
~'I know Legolas that you would not want me to crumble, nor to act this way, but how can I not when I know you are lifeless before me?! Your nothing but a mere shadow of the past, a Elven spirit that walks the land of the living, seen by others who acknowledge your presence and yet no matter how hard I try I can never see you! And I would never want too! You presence hurts me so, how am I too look upon the face of a dead person who does not even know of his own death nor come to terms with it?! I cannot bear it…anymore…'~

With that a body fell, realization came to mind, tears to face and a body to ground, wings curling around the body to save it from it's cruel intentional fate. Invisible faces seen and last words exchanged, for is the fate of one Legolas Greenleaf. {2}

{1} He had never heard them fight before, he only ever caught when Arwen always walked away. Thinking it was because of Aragorn's distance.
{2} If you want that whole part explained better of what happened and other parts of the fic, then you all can always ask for Aragorn's version.



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Um okay…did anyone like it? Probably not…
I know I know I killed Legolas, and if your all confused about Legolas's death and Aragorns words then please review and tell me if I should write it from Aragorns point of view and his memories.
This idea just came to me when I listened to the song 'Voice of Elf' which is featured on the Record of Lodoss War CD and got me into the mood to write a sad fan fiction, music like this one always get to me, the more like this song they are or similar the more it urges me to write, it just gives me that spark. So please leave reviews on what you thought which also feed my urges to write and tell me if I should write Aragorn POV.
Thanks! ~Katarzyna~