Twisted Affections
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Disclaimer: I don't own the characters in Zoids (Chaotic Century), but I do own my story.
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Chapter 5: The Awakening
"Fiona! You're awake!" "She is? How is she?" "She should be alright." "Hi there Fiona, it's me Axel!" There was horde of voices unfamiliar to her. Fiona stared blankly at her surroundings and studying the expressions on the three faces in above hers.
"Where am I?" she said. At first, it earned surprised expressions from Moonbay, Irvine and Axel, but they shrugged that off thinking it was a pretty common think to say. "We're in Axel's house. He said we could stay here until you recover," said the girl with tied up brown hair. "Yup! How are you feeling?" asked the elder of the two boys. "I-I'm fine, thank you," Fiona said, trying to get up to a sitting position. She felt weak. Her arms couldn't support her weight, and she struggled to sit up. But she didn't really have to because a boy with deep green eyes quickly went to her aid.
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BOOM!
Everyone turned their heads to see who had barged into the room. Fiona surveyed the person like how she did earlier. He was around the same age as the boy with deep green eyes. He had messy black hair and large black eyes. "Fiona!" he shouted. But before he could get near her, he was pushed back out of the room. "What are you still doing here? Go! You don't deserve to see her, VAN!"
"Van?" Fiona said. Everyone turned their gaze onto her. Fiona stared at the boy named Van.
"Yes, Fiona! It's me, remember?" he said trying to suppress Axel's push.
Fiona only shook her head.
"I don't remember knowing you... how do you know my name?"
*Gasp* It only took that statement for everyone to realise Fiona had lost her memory... again? Van's face totally changed. His smile faded almost immediately. 'S-She don't remember me?'
"Does that mean you don't remember us too, Fiona?" asked Moonbay.
Fiona nodded. Just then, Fiona heard something move outside the room. She had a sudden urge to run out there to see who it was.
"Fiona! Where are you going?" asked Axel as he saw Fiona running out of the room.
Fiona noticed another boy sitting on a chair. "R-Raven? I-Is that you?" Fiona stuttered. "Fiona? I see you are awake. Yes, I am Raven," he said coldly, and before he knew it, he felt being pushed a little.
-Van's POV-
I didn't really know what made Fiona rush out of the room so fast. But I found out very soon. Raven. Who was he to her? Did they know each other in the past? I don't know. But one think I do know is that Fiona likes him. I saw how she ran to him and wrapped her arms around him in a hug. She seemed so carefree at that moment. So contented, so-so... happy. I thought of the times she used to be with me, we laughed, we joked, and I really tried caring for her like the way she cared for me. However, it only seemed that she cared for me as a good friend and nothing more. Now she doesn't even remember me! I don't know why my heart ached so much. I've never felt more pain than this. I don't want to continue seeing this scene anymore. And so I walked away...
-Normal POV-
"Fiona," Raven started. "Yes?" she replied. "I have to leave," he said. Fiona nodded calmly. But in her heart, she wanted to be with him so much. 'Why? Why is it when I finally get to meet you again... you had to leave?' she thought. "I'm sorry." Raven said as he pulled away from Fiona and walked away. Just like that. No reason, no nothing. "Can I go with you?" Fiona asked after a moment of hesitation. But no reply from him. He just kept walking.
-Fiona's POV-
I saw him turn his back at me and walked away. Had he not realised what I feel for him? Had he simply forgotten our past? Had he not care for me anymore? I have so many questions, but no answers. All I can remember is him. My childhood. But I seemed to be missing a huge part of my life. Who were those people who seemed to know me? I don't know. And who is that guy named Van? I have no idea. But there was something about that Van guy... I seemed connected to him in a way. I don't care now. Now is when I continue to stare at Raven's retreating figure. If only he knew... but he don't. If only we hadn't parted... but we did. If only he would be the Raven I used to know... but he changed.
-Normal POV-
As the night caved in, Van sat under a tree staring into the darkness of the sky. He, Fiona, Moonbay and Irvine had left the village and now they were camping in some forest ground. It seemed like they were back on their journey. But Van no longer felt like it was a good thing. In fact, Fiona was still clueless about who he is.
-Van's POV-
I stared at the sky. The stars were beautiful, but I had no one to share this moment with. I feel lonely. It was then that I started to reminisce... The first time I saw Fiona, I felt an unknown feeling inside me. It was kind of like fate wanted me to find her or something. I did. She became my friend and traveled with me to find Zoid Eve. It was nice to have company during such long journeys, but I found her annoying and it pissed me off. But despite her curious nature, she was kind-hearted, caring, self-sacrificing, and funny at times. I felt comfortable near her. In times of battle when I thought I might lose, I would look at her and I find strength reviving in me. I liked to joke around and she always laughed at them. And as each day passes, I felt that her presence was common. Actually, now that I think about it, I took her for granted. Sometimes I really, really wanted her to just leave me alone. I even found her concern towards me irritating to a certain extent. But when she wasn't with me, I felt a huge void in my heart. I wanted her to sit beside me and comfort me. I wanted so much as to give her a hug, but I thought she would definitely mind. And then, I'll get angry with her for no good reason. Sometimes it's because she wasn't with me when I wanted her to. I've never really thought that she cannot read my mind totally. I hated it when all my feelings got mixed up. There were many times when I lost battles, and I would vent all my anger in scolding her. Had she felt hurt? Of course. But I didn't do anything. Now, I wanted to beat myself up for doing so. I tried caring for her the way she cared for me... but I can't. I wanted to apologise to her now, but she wouldn't know what happened. And so now, I finally regretted. After so many months, I realised everything now. How stupid can I get? These past few days had been a chain of events. I knew Axel liked Fiona, but I just don't want him to. I felt jealous! Jealous? Indeed I've never thought I'd be jealous of anybody. And then I found out she liked Raven. I felt my life crumpling down before me. What is it with me? Fiona is just another girl! She's just another of my friends and to her, I probably am another one of her friends. But my heart kept telling me I wanted her. That I needed her. That without her, there isn't a meaning to my life. And so it is true, I must admit, I wanted her. But there was something wrong with what I meant by wanting her. I don't just want her; I also want her to want me. How can it be possible now? Why hadn't I told her how I feel before? Now I really, really, really regretted! Perhaps this is just lust... perhaps this is all an illusion... perhaps my heart and mind are playing tricks on me or I'm under emotional stress...
But then again, perhaps... I love her. Love? Why never it came across my mind before? Now that I've sort of admitted it, it felt strange. I love Fiona? And I wish she would love me too? Yes. It's all clear now. Why I felt all those strange feelings in me, because- I LOVE HER...
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To be continued...
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A/N: please R&R. thanx ^_^
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Disclaimer: I don't own the characters in Zoids (Chaotic Century), but I do own my story.
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Chapter 5: The Awakening
"Fiona! You're awake!" "She is? How is she?" "She should be alright." "Hi there Fiona, it's me Axel!" There was horde of voices unfamiliar to her. Fiona stared blankly at her surroundings and studying the expressions on the three faces in above hers.
"Where am I?" she said. At first, it earned surprised expressions from Moonbay, Irvine and Axel, but they shrugged that off thinking it was a pretty common think to say. "We're in Axel's house. He said we could stay here until you recover," said the girl with tied up brown hair. "Yup! How are you feeling?" asked the elder of the two boys. "I-I'm fine, thank you," Fiona said, trying to get up to a sitting position. She felt weak. Her arms couldn't support her weight, and she struggled to sit up. But she didn't really have to because a boy with deep green eyes quickly went to her aid.
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BOOM!
Everyone turned their heads to see who had barged into the room. Fiona surveyed the person like how she did earlier. He was around the same age as the boy with deep green eyes. He had messy black hair and large black eyes. "Fiona!" he shouted. But before he could get near her, he was pushed back out of the room. "What are you still doing here? Go! You don't deserve to see her, VAN!"
"Van?" Fiona said. Everyone turned their gaze onto her. Fiona stared at the boy named Van.
"Yes, Fiona! It's me, remember?" he said trying to suppress Axel's push.
Fiona only shook her head.
"I don't remember knowing you... how do you know my name?"
*Gasp* It only took that statement for everyone to realise Fiona had lost her memory... again? Van's face totally changed. His smile faded almost immediately. 'S-She don't remember me?'
"Does that mean you don't remember us too, Fiona?" asked Moonbay.
Fiona nodded. Just then, Fiona heard something move outside the room. She had a sudden urge to run out there to see who it was.
"Fiona! Where are you going?" asked Axel as he saw Fiona running out of the room.
Fiona noticed another boy sitting on a chair. "R-Raven? I-Is that you?" Fiona stuttered. "Fiona? I see you are awake. Yes, I am Raven," he said coldly, and before he knew it, he felt being pushed a little.
-Van's POV-
I didn't really know what made Fiona rush out of the room so fast. But I found out very soon. Raven. Who was he to her? Did they know each other in the past? I don't know. But one think I do know is that Fiona likes him. I saw how she ran to him and wrapped her arms around him in a hug. She seemed so carefree at that moment. So contented, so-so... happy. I thought of the times she used to be with me, we laughed, we joked, and I really tried caring for her like the way she cared for me. However, it only seemed that she cared for me as a good friend and nothing more. Now she doesn't even remember me! I don't know why my heart ached so much. I've never felt more pain than this. I don't want to continue seeing this scene anymore. And so I walked away...
-Normal POV-
"Fiona," Raven started. "Yes?" she replied. "I have to leave," he said. Fiona nodded calmly. But in her heart, she wanted to be with him so much. 'Why? Why is it when I finally get to meet you again... you had to leave?' she thought. "I'm sorry." Raven said as he pulled away from Fiona and walked away. Just like that. No reason, no nothing. "Can I go with you?" Fiona asked after a moment of hesitation. But no reply from him. He just kept walking.
-Fiona's POV-
I saw him turn his back at me and walked away. Had he not realised what I feel for him? Had he simply forgotten our past? Had he not care for me anymore? I have so many questions, but no answers. All I can remember is him. My childhood. But I seemed to be missing a huge part of my life. Who were those people who seemed to know me? I don't know. And who is that guy named Van? I have no idea. But there was something about that Van guy... I seemed connected to him in a way. I don't care now. Now is when I continue to stare at Raven's retreating figure. If only he knew... but he don't. If only we hadn't parted... but we did. If only he would be the Raven I used to know... but he changed.
-Normal POV-
As the night caved in, Van sat under a tree staring into the darkness of the sky. He, Fiona, Moonbay and Irvine had left the village and now they were camping in some forest ground. It seemed like they were back on their journey. But Van no longer felt like it was a good thing. In fact, Fiona was still clueless about who he is.
-Van's POV-
I stared at the sky. The stars were beautiful, but I had no one to share this moment with. I feel lonely. It was then that I started to reminisce... The first time I saw Fiona, I felt an unknown feeling inside me. It was kind of like fate wanted me to find her or something. I did. She became my friend and traveled with me to find Zoid Eve. It was nice to have company during such long journeys, but I found her annoying and it pissed me off. But despite her curious nature, she was kind-hearted, caring, self-sacrificing, and funny at times. I felt comfortable near her. In times of battle when I thought I might lose, I would look at her and I find strength reviving in me. I liked to joke around and she always laughed at them. And as each day passes, I felt that her presence was common. Actually, now that I think about it, I took her for granted. Sometimes I really, really wanted her to just leave me alone. I even found her concern towards me irritating to a certain extent. But when she wasn't with me, I felt a huge void in my heart. I wanted her to sit beside me and comfort me. I wanted so much as to give her a hug, but I thought she would definitely mind. And then, I'll get angry with her for no good reason. Sometimes it's because she wasn't with me when I wanted her to. I've never really thought that she cannot read my mind totally. I hated it when all my feelings got mixed up. There were many times when I lost battles, and I would vent all my anger in scolding her. Had she felt hurt? Of course. But I didn't do anything. Now, I wanted to beat myself up for doing so. I tried caring for her the way she cared for me... but I can't. I wanted to apologise to her now, but she wouldn't know what happened. And so now, I finally regretted. After so many months, I realised everything now. How stupid can I get? These past few days had been a chain of events. I knew Axel liked Fiona, but I just don't want him to. I felt jealous! Jealous? Indeed I've never thought I'd be jealous of anybody. And then I found out she liked Raven. I felt my life crumpling down before me. What is it with me? Fiona is just another girl! She's just another of my friends and to her, I probably am another one of her friends. But my heart kept telling me I wanted her. That I needed her. That without her, there isn't a meaning to my life. And so it is true, I must admit, I wanted her. But there was something wrong with what I meant by wanting her. I don't just want her; I also want her to want me. How can it be possible now? Why hadn't I told her how I feel before? Now I really, really, really regretted! Perhaps this is just lust... perhaps this is all an illusion... perhaps my heart and mind are playing tricks on me or I'm under emotional stress...
But then again, perhaps... I love her. Love? Why never it came across my mind before? Now that I've sort of admitted it, it felt strange. I love Fiona? And I wish she would love me too? Yes. It's all clear now. Why I felt all those strange feelings in me, because- I LOVE HER...
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To be continued...
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A/N: please R&R. thanx ^_^