Title: I Could Give All to Time

Author: Sardius

Category: Angst/Romance

Warnings: PG-13 for now (AU)

Pairings: Yohji/Aya

Disclaimer: Not mine! Not mine! Even though I want those pretty boys to myself. *ties Yohji and Aya together* hee.

Author's Note: YA! I'm back by demand. *L's at my own stupidity* Thanks guys! Glad to know this fic has made to the top three Sardius should update list! *LOL* I'm so excited ppl love this fic because I had been meaning to write it out for ages and I had this idea stuck in my head. Hope no one had written this before…but er..oh well, let's give it a try anyway.

*glomps Lilla* Oh my wonderful friend, what can I do without you??? Thanks for fixing my grammar again. ^____^

Chapter Two: A Meeting with the Orchid.

I couldn't tear my eyes away from the calendar. My body was frozen in wonder as I tried to realize if this is some nightmare I have walked into.

This shouldn't have been possible! How could I…. how could I return back in time.

'Is this a dream? Maybe when I wake up I will be in Aya's room again…maybe I…

"YOHJI-KUN!!!! Wake up! Aya is down in the shop already!"

I flinched when I heard the knocking again. Omi was outside my door waking me up for my usual Monday morning shift with Aya.

But Aya is dead…isn't he?

I stumbled out of bed, quickly grabbing any clothing that was nearby and opened the door. Omi was still outside waiting for me with his arms crossed, ready to raise his hand to knock on the door again. The sudden swing of the door made him almost lose his balance.

"What's the date today?"

"Nani? What are you talking about?"

"What's the date? I need to know the date."

The chibi looked at me curiously like I was having some sort of fever or something. I'd rather know I'm having a fever than wonder what the hell is going on.

"Errr…it's August the 20th. Why?"

August 20th…august 20th. That couldn't be. I had returned back to a month or so before Aya's death. Then it all clicked to me.

Black robed figure…something about a bargain, about savings Aya's life. I had somehow agreed to it and then all of a sudden I had just felt this burning pain in my heart. Then…. then I woke up and here was I now.

"Yohji-kun? Are you all right?"

"Huh? What? Nothing. Nothing is wrong."

What could I say? That I knew that Aya was going to die soon? That today it was going to rain and Omi would come back home, soaking wet complaining about the weather and its getting his school books all wet? That Ken would be late from soccer training with the kids and Aya would get all pissed off.

I felt as if everything was a déjà-vu.

Omi looked at me strangely again but just shrugged. Probably thought I had had too much to drink last night.

"Well I'm off to school. You better go down to the shop, Aya is already complaining about all the arrangements needing to be done today."

But before the kiddo left I shouted back to him.

"Hey chibi, it's going to rain today you should bring an umbrella."

Omi just raised his eyebrows at me and looked at me strangely again. "Rain? But its so sunny today Yohji-kun! Are you sure you're all right?"

"Err…yeah. Don't worry kiddo. I'm fine."

I am definitely not fucking fine.

"Sure?"

No.

"Yo if you want to take my shift instead go ahead, otherwise I think," I looked at my watch and smirked at the chibi, "you're going to be late."

Omi's eyes widened after glancing at his watch and he shrieked. "Oh no! I'm going to be so late and I was meeting Ryo-san today as well." The chibi raced past me and bolted down the stairs, his footsteps could be heard pounding loudly down the hallway, ending up with the slam of the door.

I stood there in the hallway looking at the spot where the chibi had just been standing moments before and cursed softly to myself. "K'so." I cannot believe I am in this situation. How could this be? There had to be something strange that had happened to me before I came here. But the only images I got were a black clad figure and a sea of nothingness.

As I made my way down the stairs to the shop, my heart was thumping loudly. The only thing that would convince me that this was actually a dream would be seeing Aya alive with my own eyes.

When I finally arrived at the bottom of the stairs, I felt like every parts of my body had just frozen at the sight before me.

Aya was standing behind the counter, like he usually did every morning as he opened the shop. His hands delicately handled the stems of lilies and tulips, pulling them together efficiently. His skin was pale against the bright sunlight shining into the shop through the window. Instead of wearing the ugly orange sweater, the redhead was dressed in a green shirt and dark blue jeans.

He looked absolutely beautiful.

"Aya…" I whispered.

So amazed was I, that I was afraid to even raise my voice when I saw the pale figure turning his head towards me and scowl.

"Yohji. You're an hour late. I already have all these arrangements to work on, you have to help…Yo…Yohji!"

In a few strides I was in front of the redhead and had him wrapped up in my arms. Aya struggled and cursed at me, muttering 'shi-ne' every minute or so. But all I could do was hold him all the tighter, afraid he would disappear on me again.

Oh Kami-sama! He is real. Aya's not dead! He's not dead!

I buried my face against his soft crimson hair and whispered, "It's you, isn't it? Please tell me you are really right in front of me.'

That this is isn't some dream I'm having.

The redhead poked me in the ribs till I let him go and glared at me, yet deep inside the amethyst eyes there was a hidden look of uncertainty.

"What the hell are you babbling Kudou?"

"I…."

I just realised what an utter fool I had been, rushing into the Koneko and throwing my arms around Aya who had no idea what the hell was going on.

Well neither did I.

"Gomen…I…I'm clearly I'm not in my right mind oday."

I tried to keep myself distracted by moving the pot plants outside of the shop and watering them down. Then I realised a certain figure was behind me and I looked up to see Aya gazing at me in concern.

"Yohji…are you okay?"

I almost had to laugh at that comment. Aya out of all people asking if I was all right when he was always the stubborn idiot that locked himself away in his room.

"I'm fine."

"You sure?'

Why the hell is everyone asking me that today?

"Yes! Stop asking me that. I…just forget what happened before. I had a late night out drinking and didn't know what I was doing.'

Aya didn't say anything to me after that and went back behind the counter. Somehow I felt like I had hurt his feelings telling him off like that. But then that was Aya and…how could I tell him that somehow I came back from the future to prevent his death? As if he would believe me out of all people.

Black figure. Yes it was him I saw the last time I lost consciousness. I have to find him again to know what the hell he did to me. I have….

"Aya stop. You're going to cut yourself."

But before I could put the pots down I heard the redhead curse loudly behind me. I looked up to see Aya sucking his finger, the other hand still holding onto the rose that had just pricked him.

I went over to the cupboard and grabbed a bandage from the first aid kit and took the finger out of his mouth. Only by the time I had the finger all wrapped up, I realised what I was doing and froze.

What the hell was I thinking touching Aya? I knew how much the redhead hated to be touched. I had already made a fool of myself after hugging him this morning and now I was treating him as if he were… you know the evil old-fashioned form I seldom see around my lover.

Because this could be the only time you have left with him.

I remembered that last entry he had written in his journal. How he had crossed out my name over and over again, only for it to be written all over the page. Aya had wanted to confess his love to me after the mission was over. He had wanted to tell me all along but had been afraid of what I would say to him.

But by then it had been too late.

I stood staring into his beautiful purple eyes. Did he still have these feelings for me?

If what I believe is true, that I have actually returned back to time, can I change everything?

"How did you know?"

"What?" I asked. I hadn't realised I had been holding onto the pale hand for that long so I quickly let go. "What are you talking about?"

I tried to make myself seem calm by smiling and causally reaching into my pocket to draw out a cigarette. As I was lighting the damn thing and trying so hard not to let my hand falter, Aya once again questioned me.

"How did you know I was going to cut myself?"

"I didn't."

God that was the worst lie you ever gave Kudou.

"I was just about to ask you to help me so I told you to stop working."

I knew the redhead didn't believe a single word I'd just said and for once I felt not in control of a situation.

Before I headed back to where I was working, I heard Aya murmur, "Thank you."

We didn't talk for the rest of the day.

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It had been terrible having that whole shift with Aya. Part of me just kept glancing at the redhead, admiring his graceful movements. How his brows were drawn tight together in concentration, how he occasionally licked his lips, the way he moved his body so fluently.

Everything about him was intoxicating.

And I couldn't get enough of it.

Damn you Kudou. You are such an idiot sometimes. Sooner or later, Aya will know what's going on and then what are you going to say. Hey Aya, you're going to die soon and I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me as well?

Fuck.

Where the hell is that bastard? What has he done to me?

'Are you speaking to me my prince?'

That…. that voice!

I stood up from where I was sitting and looked all around me. Somehow as I was thinking about Aya, I had wandered on the streets and had ended up hiding myself in a park. But as I stood there looking at the people walking past me, I did not see the black-figure anywhere.

I heard a soft laugh behind me.

Oh my dear boy, how you amuse me.

"Where are you?"

I kept turning around to find him but there was nothing to see. No one. Not anyone in sight. I looked up to see the sky had slowly darkened. There was no one left in the park but for me.

Where am I?

'Look inside yourself, find me and see.'

Then suddenly a strong gust of wind blew onto my face as I tried to block it off with my arms.

'I have always been there. Watching you, listening to every single thoughts to all your heart's desires.'

'Come to me.'

And like in the dream I had had before, I followed the voice until I saw the familiar figure dressed in black. Not a hint of his face was shown, hidden, as it was beneath the hood he drawn upon his features.

Then I saw a smirk lingering on his lips and he spoke in a raspy voice, "We meet again my prince."

I could only stare at him and wished so much to myself that I had my wire with me so that I could strangle the man.

"What have you done to me?"

The figure seemed to find my frustration all the more amusing. "What have I done to you? I have done what you wanted so much after your orchid's death, I have done what you have willingly agreed to."

"This is absolutely ridiculous! What have you done to me old man?"

I yanked my hair down so I could feel the pain it caused me, making me wonder if I was dreaming again.

The figure sighed. "I have told you that this is not a dream. What happens to your body happens to the living world."

I tried to make myself believe in all of this. But somehow I just couldn't. I couldn't make myself believe that I have gone back in time. Even after today everything felt so strange to me. Like when I knew when Ken would come home, when Aya would cut his finger today while making his arrangements, or that Omi was going to get wet because of the rain.

All these thoughts kept running in my head. I felt as though I was a precog or something.

"Perhaps you do not quite understand what our bargain clearly means."

Then to my astonishment, a liquid hand appeared beneath the black velvet sleeves and drew a circle into a pool of water. I gasped and looked down to realise I too was standing on that pool of water, but for some reason I wasn't falling in.

The ripples in the water swirled gently together until it went around and around in circles till all I saw was a total darkness. Then slowly the waves crested and broke and as the water calmed again I found myself seeing Aya dressed in his mission gear.

"AYA!", I screamed.

But the redhead could not hear me as he raised his katana aiming it towards the target. I tried screaming for him to run, to leave me behind but to no avail. Then everything just repeated itself and I saw Aya getting shot as he pushed me out of the way.

"NO! AYA! No."

I didn't realise there were tears running down my cheeks as I was on my knees looking at the swirl of the water that had shown Aya's death. I couldn't tear myself away from those beautiful eyes that were now almost empty as the life faded away from them.

"No no no. Please not again." I whimpered.

Then after I had wished so strongly for the image to disappear, I found myself once again in total darkness, the dark figure standing before me.

"That was our bargain. For you to return back in time to prevent the Orchid's death."

'You want to prevent his death don't you?'

"Yes." I looked up at him, "Yes I do."

Then he just smiled at me and slowly began to fade away.

'Then see to it that you keep your part of the bargain.'

"Wait!" I shouted after him.

 But it was useless. Already I knew he was gone.

I got up shakily from where I was kneeing down, the afternoon sunlight bathing me from the sky, banishing away the darkness that was once there. I glanced at my watch and realised I had to go back to the Koneko soon.

But as I kept walking towards the shop, I heard a voice once again whispering in my mind.

'Never forget what you had promised me my prince. Never forget.'

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TBC~~~~

Well that was another chapter. Phew and I made it! Go me! Still keeping up with me people? Hope you liked the new chapter. Had been meaning to get it out for a while and kinda felt weird typing this at uni where everyone else is been productive and working. Oops. Anyhow next update is FM and will be my last update for the year. So will be posting the new endings up next week. But I will try my hardest. No promises if I can finish it, if I can't sorry. But I will simply try my best. Man…. never thought writing fics could be so stressful *L* Ja!

Sardius