Title: Meaningless
Summary: Anakin's point of view on saving his mother but losing his father Non Slash
Rating: G.
Major Angst AU I wonder at the will of the force, the thing as the chosen one I am meant to control, I saved my mother, death's claws gripping at her but I saved her, I got her back and now she's home.
But I have no home, and never will, I have lost my mentor my father and my best friend, Padmé will not give up, always searching for ways to find his soul. If we found Sabé would it make a difference would I have my master with me and I could joke with him and study and laugh and be happy. I said I wanted him to go away, I didn't admit that even to Padmé but she is so clever I'm sure she understood but I didn't mean it not really I never knew losing him could hurt so badly that the wounds would sever me to the bone and leave me gasping with it's intensity.
So I train and I study and I play the role of padawan trying to hide the fact that I can't breathe. Padmé understands how important Obi Wan is she always respected him and I never knew how much I truly depended on him, through my bravado I thought I could do anything but now I am learning that I can barely walk. People respect Obi Wan because he is strong in the force and because I am even stronger, they admire the fact that he works hard to become who he is to get anything he wants he works so hard. Too me it comes easy and that is a curse.
I don't want to give up, I want Obi Wan to be proud of me to show people I'm not evil not really. Obi Wan didn't always believe in me yet now I think he does, he is always by my side that dry humour that used to grate on me but now seems to enhance my emptiness.
I hope that Sabé is really not dead, her love for Obi Wan burns so strong, so bright and I hope he knows she loves him. Obi Wan was always slightly dense about how people felt about him. It saddens me that they aren't together she is like Obi Wan only a girl I like her a lot, I wanted us all to be happy. I guess that is a dream that life has destroyed
Summary: Anakin's point of view on saving his mother but losing his father Non Slash
Rating: G.
Major Angst AU I wonder at the will of the force, the thing as the chosen one I am meant to control, I saved my mother, death's claws gripping at her but I saved her, I got her back and now she's home.
But I have no home, and never will, I have lost my mentor my father and my best friend, Padmé will not give up, always searching for ways to find his soul. If we found Sabé would it make a difference would I have my master with me and I could joke with him and study and laugh and be happy. I said I wanted him to go away, I didn't admit that even to Padmé but she is so clever I'm sure she understood but I didn't mean it not really I never knew losing him could hurt so badly that the wounds would sever me to the bone and leave me gasping with it's intensity.
So I train and I study and I play the role of padawan trying to hide the fact that I can't breathe. Padmé understands how important Obi Wan is she always respected him and I never knew how much I truly depended on him, through my bravado I thought I could do anything but now I am learning that I can barely walk. People respect Obi Wan because he is strong in the force and because I am even stronger, they admire the fact that he works hard to become who he is to get anything he wants he works so hard. Too me it comes easy and that is a curse.
I don't want to give up, I want Obi Wan to be proud of me to show people I'm not evil not really. Obi Wan didn't always believe in me yet now I think he does, he is always by my side that dry humour that used to grate on me but now seems to enhance my emptiness.
I hope that Sabé is really not dead, her love for Obi Wan burns so strong, so bright and I hope he knows she loves him. Obi Wan was always slightly dense about how people felt about him. It saddens me that they aren't together she is like Obi Wan only a girl I like her a lot, I wanted us all to be happy. I guess that is a dream that life has destroyed