Farewell
By Yui-chan
I always wanted to have a child, so I would not have to be so lonely all the time. But he never let me... I tried to hate him for being so cruel to me... but I can't and I never will. He is my brother after all...
But why does he hate me this much? He always called me a slut and locked me up in his maze... Why did he do that to me? Doesn't he understand me? Doesn't he care about my feelings? Or even love me, just a little bit? I think he knows that I'm suffering but ignores it. Maybe, I'm really worthless for him... I don't know and it doesn't matter now...
But why was I never allowed to see someone? Why did I have to live in this maze, I hated this cold and empty place so much. Perhaps he wanted to separate me from everyone because he was ashamed of my existense. Yes, that has to be the reason. He was ashamed of me, his own sister.
I know it isn't his fault that he is acting like that... he became mentally ill and had to hate me for keeping the last rest of his mind safe. That had happened a long time ago... I'm wondering whether he will ever find his way back to his normal life...
And now I'm lying here on the ground... alone again... I can see the little Oger girl in the arms of Abaddon... she had left me, too. Why do all people always leave me? All my children had gone, too... I don't want to live on this way... I don't want to be left alone from everybody...
Why do I have to be lonely? Tell me Astaroth! You are the one who is always looking at me with disgust in your eyes! Do you think I would forget about you if I had someone else who loves me? Why are you looking at me with this coldness in your eyes everytime I look into your face?! Are you lonely yourself, too and don't want to tell anyone?! Don't you understand, that I care for you, that you're not alone?!
God, is this your punishment for me? If it is what I'm thinking I prefer to die, I'm sorry brother... I can't bare all this anylonger, I'm feeling so helpless and tired... there is nothing I want to live for...
I hope you won't lose your mind completely. I can't be there for you anylonger... I want to have some rest. Don't be mad at me for being so weak. I'm just feeling so empty, I'm sad because I will never see you again. I wish you to be happy... I'm glad you will survive, breaking the spell is the last thing I can to do help you, to show you my feelings...
I love you my dear brother...
...I always did, Astaroth...
Owari *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I don't think it's that good, but I hope you enjoyed it. ^__^ I love Astaroth and Astarte! They are two of my favourite characters...
By Yui-chan
I always wanted to have a child, so I would not have to be so lonely all the time. But he never let me... I tried to hate him for being so cruel to me... but I can't and I never will. He is my brother after all...
But why does he hate me this much? He always called me a slut and locked me up in his maze... Why did he do that to me? Doesn't he understand me? Doesn't he care about my feelings? Or even love me, just a little bit? I think he knows that I'm suffering but ignores it. Maybe, I'm really worthless for him... I don't know and it doesn't matter now...
But why was I never allowed to see someone? Why did I have to live in this maze, I hated this cold and empty place so much. Perhaps he wanted to separate me from everyone because he was ashamed of my existense. Yes, that has to be the reason. He was ashamed of me, his own sister.
I know it isn't his fault that he is acting like that... he became mentally ill and had to hate me for keeping the last rest of his mind safe. That had happened a long time ago... I'm wondering whether he will ever find his way back to his normal life...
And now I'm lying here on the ground... alone again... I can see the little Oger girl in the arms of Abaddon... she had left me, too. Why do all people always leave me? All my children had gone, too... I don't want to live on this way... I don't want to be left alone from everybody...
Why do I have to be lonely? Tell me Astaroth! You are the one who is always looking at me with disgust in your eyes! Do you think I would forget about you if I had someone else who loves me? Why are you looking at me with this coldness in your eyes everytime I look into your face?! Are you lonely yourself, too and don't want to tell anyone?! Don't you understand, that I care for you, that you're not alone?!
God, is this your punishment for me? If it is what I'm thinking I prefer to die, I'm sorry brother... I can't bare all this anylonger, I'm feeling so helpless and tired... there is nothing I want to live for...
I hope you won't lose your mind completely. I can't be there for you anylonger... I want to have some rest. Don't be mad at me for being so weak. I'm just feeling so empty, I'm sad because I will never see you again. I wish you to be happy... I'm glad you will survive, breaking the spell is the last thing I can to do help you, to show you my feelings...
I love you my dear brother...
...I always did, Astaroth...
Owari *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I don't think it's that good, but I hope you enjoyed it. ^__^ I love Astaroth and Astarte! They are two of my favourite characters...