Desclaimer: I do not own Shinji (Cof! Cof! Cof!) or any of Neon Genesis Evangelion characters or situations. In fact I don't own anything! Ok... ok... Only this Fan Fiction... So, enjoy it!!!
"The walkman is on and the rain out there make my mind so cloudy... Everything is so confuse to me. She don't understand, she can't. Everybody have problems and we have to live with that but I don't know how. Misato-san says that I make people depart but I don't understand. Asuka has her problems and she is aggressive with everybody but she doesn't have problems with the NERV team. I try to understand her. Everybody does, but what about me?
It is easy to say that I'm weak and useless but nobody try to understand me. I don't have family. I just have Misato, Kensuke, Touji, Rei and... her. I don't know why it's hard talk to Asuka. She is important to me and she knows that!
My past it's always in my mind keeping alive in my memory all the pain that I feel inside. My mother... My father... Relatives... I don't know how is to be loved and I don't know how is to love, but I'll tell you something: I really have a worm and amazing feeling in my heart when I'm with her. I don't care if she is yelling with me... Now I almost can see her saying 'Shinji, you're so pathetic! I hate you. And I hate everything about you.' But you know what? I think I'm learning how is to love.
Please Asuka, help me to deal with my problems and to understand the life. I don't know how to face the world and as I can see you are better than I in this subject, right? I don't want to hear that I'm weak because I've been rejected all my life and I don't have anyone to care about me, could you please?"
Something... Shinji felt that someone listened to him, but the noise that he heard it was just the wind...
- I'd love to, Shinji-kun... I'd love to! - Asuka closed the door and came back to her room. - I'll help you, but teach me how is to love someone. How is to really love a person. - and then the little girl was touched by the wind of peace.