//_// = Telepathy
~_~ = Parseltongue
*_* = Thoughts
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Severus turned to Lily as they got off the train. Severus lifted Lily's hand to his lips and kissed her knuckles. He leaned over to her ear and whispered something that made Lily smile. Severus kissed her on the lips before letting her go to her parents. A thin and tall bald headed middle- aged man watched Severus through narrowed eyes. Severus bowed slightly to him before turning to where his own father was. Salius scowled at him and this time Severus scowled back.
Several questions were fired at Severus upon arrival at the manor. Severus ignored them and went to his room. Salius, not one to tolerate being ignored, slapped Severus across the face, the force knocking him to the ground. Severus glared up at his father, eyes turning white. He spoke in a low icy tone, a tone only used when he was extremely angry and dangerous.
"I've no patience for this. Strike me again and I will immobilise you. I wish to unpack and write a letter before we are summoned before our dark lord. Now if you'll excuse me." Severus picked himself up off the floor and headed for his bedroom, leaving his dumbstruck father behind.
Severus sighed as he locked his bedroom door with numerous charms. *One day he's going to push me too far! * He silently unpacked his school things and pulled out a parchment of paper to start writing his letter to his sister. Like the last summer, he wrote of the events that occurred in the school year and of his murderous feelings towards Lucius. As he finished his letter, agony fell upon him as his arm surged with pain. Severus sealed the letter quickly, blocking out the pain, and gave it to Raven whom was waiting by the window. Raven nodded once and took off into the sky.
Severus grabbed his cloak and went downstairs to meet his father. Together they apparated to their master's side. Both bowed and kissed the hand of Voldemort, the name he started to call himself, before taking their rightful place in the circle.
"We have a devote that wishes to join our cause. He has promised his loyalty and his life to us. Today we shall decide whether we'll benefit from his loyalties or suffer from it. Step forward Lucius." Severus immediately started growling and Lucius turned to face him. "You! What are you doing here mudblood lover?" Severus growled and attacked Lucius. Voldemort ordered two of the other death eaters to separate them. Severus continued to growl, but it was inaudible to human ears. "Explain!" Voldemort demanded. Lucius started first, as the death eaters released them.
"Snape's in love with a mudblood by the name of Lily Evans!" "Is this true Severus?" Voldemort questioned. Before Severus could defend himself, Lucius continued. "I saw it with my own eyes. I was about to rape the bitch and he stopped me." Voldemort glared at Lucius for a second before turning to Severus for an explanation. "You are so simple minded Lucius! Anyone can rape another person, but what I was trying to do was something much more than that and you almost ruined it!" "Oh I'm sorry did I almost ruin your little 'friendship'?" Lucius taunted. Severus shook his head and moved to where his original place was in the circle. "It's pointless to explain such a sophisticated plan that your undersized brain couldn't possibly hope to comprehend." Voldemort watched Severus intrigued. "Explain your plan to me Severus." He ordered. Severus smiled at Voldemort before explaining his plan. He had prepared for the questions he might be asked regarding his relationship with Lily.
"As I said before, anyone can rape someone. The victim usually is traumatised for a while, but will eventually heal. I'm trying to go for something more permanent. Lily believes I'm in love with her and she in love with me. She's already given me her heart and dare I say her soul as well. Eventually during the next year, she'll give me her body as well. Currently, she's a virgin and everyone remembers their first time in that orgasmic bliss. That's when I'll strike. I'll shag her and forget about her the next morning. It'll hurt her deeper than anything ever will. She'll never forget that night! Her life will be ruined!" Voldemort smiled and nodded his approval.
"I like your style and I understand that Lucius almost ruined it, but his knowledge in the dark arts will be most valuable. You are also great, but your talent lies in your potions. I hope this won't be a problem. I'd hate to have to eliminate two of my most valuable servants." Severus reluctantly nodded his consent and so did Lucius. That night Lucius was branded with the dark mark. After everyone had left, Severus was asked to stay behind.
"Severus I'm so proud of you and who you've become. Your mother would have been proud as well." Severus visibly froze. He remembered the aurors and how Tom had supposedly killed those people for his mother. "Tom, how could you have killed all those people? They were innocent! You didn't even kill the bloody aurors!" "I know. It'll hurt them more seeing their family killed like that. It's the perfect revenge. I know you wanted to kill them yourself, but you'll be able to do that later. Let it hurt for a few more weeks before ending their miserable lives." Severus stared at his friend in surprise. *You really don't care do you, Tom? What have you become? * Tom mistook Severus' expression as one of adoration and smiled. "I'm sure you would have thought of it sooner or later." Severus just shook his head.
"Are you an animagus yet?" Tom questioned suddenly. Severus shook his head. "I've either been too busy or am too tired to complete it. I've tried before, but my energy always seems to get drained. I can never complete the transformation. The most I've got is wings." "You've just never had a good teacher before. I'll help you. Just keep transforming until I tell you to stop. I'll keep you from killing yourself and since I'm the outside observer, maybe I'll be able to find out what's draining you. You've done bigger spells than this. This should be easy! Why don't you come back tomorrow and we'll do it in the forest?" Severus thought for a moment before nodding hesitantly. Tom just beamed at him and sent him home.
That night Severus wrote to Lily about his plans on becoming an animagus. He left out that his teacher happened to be "Lord Voldemort", whom everyone was afraid of. Severus thought of what Tom might do to Lily if he ever found out Severus' true feelings for her. So far, the only solution he could come up with was to end his relationship with her and follow through on the plan he had presented to Tom at that meeting. *It'll break her heart. but it must be done! *
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The next morning, true to his word, Severus went to visit Tom. They ventured deep into the forest and practised there. Severus relaxed his body and started the transformation. His body was immediately wrecked with agony, but he pushed on. He felt his spine adjusting to the wings that had just sprouted from his back. As soon that they had fully formed, the pain centred on his pelvic bone. Severus knew it would be a tail. As soon as he felt that that part of the transformation was done, Severus paused it to take a deep breath.
He had red leathery wings, wings that looked like they belonged to a bat. The only difference is that his wings were a lot bigger than that of a bat's. The flesh covering the bones of the wings were covered in black scales. His tail was also covered in black scales. The tip of his tail held a silver menacing looking claw. Severus experimentally snapped his claw open and close. He turned to Tom for the signal to continue. When it was given, Severus concentrated and resumed the transformation.
Next Severus felt as though his spine was on fire as they reshaped. Severus felt his magic slowly seeping out of him as spikes from his spine punctured through layers of flesh and skin to reach the open air. Severus began to feel his eyes shut and tried to stop the transformation. He was so exhausted that he couldn't will his body to co-operate with his mind. Slowly everything faded to black. He vaguely heard someone shout to him and slap him in the face before all went dark.
(Dream)
"Severus, Severus wake up!" It was a voice. It sounded as though it belonged to a woman. Severus slowly opened his eyes, but immediately regretted it as blinding light filled his vision. He blinked a few times as his eyes fought to adjust to the change. When his vision finally focused, Severus saw that it was indeed a lady whom the voice belonged to. It was in fact his sister! Severus took a moment to let the image of his sister imprint itself into his mind. It had been so long since Severus was able to see her!
Salena looked so much like their mother. She had long moonlight hair and smooth silky alabaster skin. She had raven eyes and long curled eyelashes. She had their mother's nose (thank Merlin!) and luscious ruby lips. Salena wore a light white top and a light black skirt. Her top had long sleeves that ran down her arm. Excess light cloth drooped down her wrist. The top exposed her well-toned abs. Her skirt was made of the same light material as her top, except it was black. There were large slits on either side of her thighs that ran half way up her thigh. A thin gold band at the hem of the skirt hugged her hips tightly. Around her arm was a green vine -like coil while it's twin was at her slender ankles.
"Stop oogling at me! There are important things I have to say to you before you wake up. It's about your animagus form. You know what you're going to turn into, why do you fight it? It's only natural and you have to admit it fits. Anyway, that's why your magic is being drained. It's too weak for your dragon body. You have to transform your magic as you transform your body. The body cannot live without the magic. Understand this before you transform. I can't bare to lose you too." The last part was whispered and Severus barely caught it. Severus silently hugged his sister.
"I'm sorry Salena. I did not know. All right maybe I did, but I didn't know about the magic part. That's why I'm glad I have an intelligent sister like you!" Severus lifted Salena's face so he could look into her eyes. Tears were flowing down her soft silky face. Severus wiped them away gently. "I'm so sorry luv. I didn't know this would happen. I'd never leave you all alone in this cruel world, I promise." Salena nodded and hugged her brother.
"You should go. Tom's trying to wake you up. Don't tell him about your animagus form. I fear what he'll do with the knowledge. He's changed so much from what I remember as a kid. I once saw him as a father and now I don't even know him anymore. I fear he'll betray you if you defy him. Be careful brother. You must go now! Write to me tonight!" Severus was then pulled back into reality.
"Severus! Are you awake yet?" Severus blinked and stared up into the face of a worried Tom. "What happened?" Severus questioned quietly. "You passed out during your transformation. I'm sorry, I couldn't see what went wrong. You've been out for 3 days!" Severus sat up in his bed. "3 days?" Tom nodded and helped him to his feet. Severus thanked him and walked over to the window. Raven landed on his shoulder and nibbled on his ear.
"Well I can't stay very long. I've already been by your side for the three days and I must get back to my duties. Stop by when you feel better. Perhaps we'll hold off the animagus training for a while." Severus nodded his understanding and Tom apparated with a pop.
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Tom sent Severus on missions to steal information from the ministry. Tom knew that Severus was trained to be stealthy and used him as a spy. He then forced Severus to take his first life. It was one of the aurors that had killed his mother. Severus thought he would be satisfied with it, but he only felt ill. He truly hated killing. When Tom tried to force him to kill the other aurors, Severus couldn't do it. Instead he brewed numerous of powerful poisons for Tom. Of course, as soon as he brewed them, he went straight to Albus with the cure and taught him how to minister it.
The first night Severus had gone to him, Albus had questioned his reasons. "Why do you choose to do this Severus?" Severus looked him right in the eye and answered truthfully.
"I want to help my friend. He was once someone very important to me and he has done more for me than anyone ever could. He's lost and I have to help him find his way back. I do this to keep an eye on him and to try to convince him this is wrong. In the meanwhile I have to do what I can to ensure those innocent lives are not lost and this is the only way I can. Those poisons were made by me, I can't let people die by my hands."
"Then act as a spy for me, for that is what you are already doing. You'll inform me of major events that Tom may be planning. I too wish to help him, after all he was under my command at this school. You should go before your father suspects anything." Severus snorted. "My father, notice I'm gone?" Severus laughed and Albus chuckled sadly. Severus then told him of his plan to become an animagus.
"That's a great idea! I'm sure you'll get it eventually. Just keep practising." Severus smiled at the old man's enthusiasm. "All right! I suppose I should go. Good Bye!" Severus slipped on his mother's cloak and travelled deep into the forest. He visited his friends and they accompanied him to the border where the anti-apparation spell ended. Severus apparated to the manor and decided to retire to his room for the remainder of the night.
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For the remaining of the summer, Severus tried to transform into a dragon, without the help of Tom. Finally on the last week before he had to return to school, Severus completed his animagus transformation. Severus remembered to allow his magic to change as his body transformed. He could see his magic turn from azure to amber. Black scales covered his body and silver spikes thrust through to the surface. His face changed and was covered in spikes as well. He looked exactly like the dragon in the painting above the fireplace of the slytherin common room. Severus grew and kept on growing until he filled the room. Since Severus was still considered "young" in dragon years, his body was not all that big. It fit perfectly in his room, while a full-grown dragon would have filled half the manor itself.
When Severus' transformation was fully completed, he strained to look in the mirror. The image that greeted him placed him in a state of awe. He had seen many grown dragons before, but to see one's self as a dragon, was truly remarkable. Severus heard his father approaching his room and quickly transformed back. He returned everything to the way it was and began writing a letter to his sister about his transformation. When his father saw that Severus was just working on something, he left him alone. Severus couldn't wait to be able to show his form to Lily and Albus!
TBC.
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Severus turned to Lily as they got off the train. Severus lifted Lily's hand to his lips and kissed her knuckles. He leaned over to her ear and whispered something that made Lily smile. Severus kissed her on the lips before letting her go to her parents. A thin and tall bald headed middle- aged man watched Severus through narrowed eyes. Severus bowed slightly to him before turning to where his own father was. Salius scowled at him and this time Severus scowled back.
Several questions were fired at Severus upon arrival at the manor. Severus ignored them and went to his room. Salius, not one to tolerate being ignored, slapped Severus across the face, the force knocking him to the ground. Severus glared up at his father, eyes turning white. He spoke in a low icy tone, a tone only used when he was extremely angry and dangerous.
"I've no patience for this. Strike me again and I will immobilise you. I wish to unpack and write a letter before we are summoned before our dark lord. Now if you'll excuse me." Severus picked himself up off the floor and headed for his bedroom, leaving his dumbstruck father behind.
Severus sighed as he locked his bedroom door with numerous charms. *One day he's going to push me too far! * He silently unpacked his school things and pulled out a parchment of paper to start writing his letter to his sister. Like the last summer, he wrote of the events that occurred in the school year and of his murderous feelings towards Lucius. As he finished his letter, agony fell upon him as his arm surged with pain. Severus sealed the letter quickly, blocking out the pain, and gave it to Raven whom was waiting by the window. Raven nodded once and took off into the sky.
Severus grabbed his cloak and went downstairs to meet his father. Together they apparated to their master's side. Both bowed and kissed the hand of Voldemort, the name he started to call himself, before taking their rightful place in the circle.
"We have a devote that wishes to join our cause. He has promised his loyalty and his life to us. Today we shall decide whether we'll benefit from his loyalties or suffer from it. Step forward Lucius." Severus immediately started growling and Lucius turned to face him. "You! What are you doing here mudblood lover?" Severus growled and attacked Lucius. Voldemort ordered two of the other death eaters to separate them. Severus continued to growl, but it was inaudible to human ears. "Explain!" Voldemort demanded. Lucius started first, as the death eaters released them.
"Snape's in love with a mudblood by the name of Lily Evans!" "Is this true Severus?" Voldemort questioned. Before Severus could defend himself, Lucius continued. "I saw it with my own eyes. I was about to rape the bitch and he stopped me." Voldemort glared at Lucius for a second before turning to Severus for an explanation. "You are so simple minded Lucius! Anyone can rape another person, but what I was trying to do was something much more than that and you almost ruined it!" "Oh I'm sorry did I almost ruin your little 'friendship'?" Lucius taunted. Severus shook his head and moved to where his original place was in the circle. "It's pointless to explain such a sophisticated plan that your undersized brain couldn't possibly hope to comprehend." Voldemort watched Severus intrigued. "Explain your plan to me Severus." He ordered. Severus smiled at Voldemort before explaining his plan. He had prepared for the questions he might be asked regarding his relationship with Lily.
"As I said before, anyone can rape someone. The victim usually is traumatised for a while, but will eventually heal. I'm trying to go for something more permanent. Lily believes I'm in love with her and she in love with me. She's already given me her heart and dare I say her soul as well. Eventually during the next year, she'll give me her body as well. Currently, she's a virgin and everyone remembers their first time in that orgasmic bliss. That's when I'll strike. I'll shag her and forget about her the next morning. It'll hurt her deeper than anything ever will. She'll never forget that night! Her life will be ruined!" Voldemort smiled and nodded his approval.
"I like your style and I understand that Lucius almost ruined it, but his knowledge in the dark arts will be most valuable. You are also great, but your talent lies in your potions. I hope this won't be a problem. I'd hate to have to eliminate two of my most valuable servants." Severus reluctantly nodded his consent and so did Lucius. That night Lucius was branded with the dark mark. After everyone had left, Severus was asked to stay behind.
"Severus I'm so proud of you and who you've become. Your mother would have been proud as well." Severus visibly froze. He remembered the aurors and how Tom had supposedly killed those people for his mother. "Tom, how could you have killed all those people? They were innocent! You didn't even kill the bloody aurors!" "I know. It'll hurt them more seeing their family killed like that. It's the perfect revenge. I know you wanted to kill them yourself, but you'll be able to do that later. Let it hurt for a few more weeks before ending their miserable lives." Severus stared at his friend in surprise. *You really don't care do you, Tom? What have you become? * Tom mistook Severus' expression as one of adoration and smiled. "I'm sure you would have thought of it sooner or later." Severus just shook his head.
"Are you an animagus yet?" Tom questioned suddenly. Severus shook his head. "I've either been too busy or am too tired to complete it. I've tried before, but my energy always seems to get drained. I can never complete the transformation. The most I've got is wings." "You've just never had a good teacher before. I'll help you. Just keep transforming until I tell you to stop. I'll keep you from killing yourself and since I'm the outside observer, maybe I'll be able to find out what's draining you. You've done bigger spells than this. This should be easy! Why don't you come back tomorrow and we'll do it in the forest?" Severus thought for a moment before nodding hesitantly. Tom just beamed at him and sent him home.
That night Severus wrote to Lily about his plans on becoming an animagus. He left out that his teacher happened to be "Lord Voldemort", whom everyone was afraid of. Severus thought of what Tom might do to Lily if he ever found out Severus' true feelings for her. So far, the only solution he could come up with was to end his relationship with her and follow through on the plan he had presented to Tom at that meeting. *It'll break her heart. but it must be done! *
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The next morning, true to his word, Severus went to visit Tom. They ventured deep into the forest and practised there. Severus relaxed his body and started the transformation. His body was immediately wrecked with agony, but he pushed on. He felt his spine adjusting to the wings that had just sprouted from his back. As soon that they had fully formed, the pain centred on his pelvic bone. Severus knew it would be a tail. As soon as he felt that that part of the transformation was done, Severus paused it to take a deep breath.
He had red leathery wings, wings that looked like they belonged to a bat. The only difference is that his wings were a lot bigger than that of a bat's. The flesh covering the bones of the wings were covered in black scales. His tail was also covered in black scales. The tip of his tail held a silver menacing looking claw. Severus experimentally snapped his claw open and close. He turned to Tom for the signal to continue. When it was given, Severus concentrated and resumed the transformation.
Next Severus felt as though his spine was on fire as they reshaped. Severus felt his magic slowly seeping out of him as spikes from his spine punctured through layers of flesh and skin to reach the open air. Severus began to feel his eyes shut and tried to stop the transformation. He was so exhausted that he couldn't will his body to co-operate with his mind. Slowly everything faded to black. He vaguely heard someone shout to him and slap him in the face before all went dark.
(Dream)
"Severus, Severus wake up!" It was a voice. It sounded as though it belonged to a woman. Severus slowly opened his eyes, but immediately regretted it as blinding light filled his vision. He blinked a few times as his eyes fought to adjust to the change. When his vision finally focused, Severus saw that it was indeed a lady whom the voice belonged to. It was in fact his sister! Severus took a moment to let the image of his sister imprint itself into his mind. It had been so long since Severus was able to see her!
Salena looked so much like their mother. She had long moonlight hair and smooth silky alabaster skin. She had raven eyes and long curled eyelashes. She had their mother's nose (thank Merlin!) and luscious ruby lips. Salena wore a light white top and a light black skirt. Her top had long sleeves that ran down her arm. Excess light cloth drooped down her wrist. The top exposed her well-toned abs. Her skirt was made of the same light material as her top, except it was black. There were large slits on either side of her thighs that ran half way up her thigh. A thin gold band at the hem of the skirt hugged her hips tightly. Around her arm was a green vine -like coil while it's twin was at her slender ankles.
"Stop oogling at me! There are important things I have to say to you before you wake up. It's about your animagus form. You know what you're going to turn into, why do you fight it? It's only natural and you have to admit it fits. Anyway, that's why your magic is being drained. It's too weak for your dragon body. You have to transform your magic as you transform your body. The body cannot live without the magic. Understand this before you transform. I can't bare to lose you too." The last part was whispered and Severus barely caught it. Severus silently hugged his sister.
"I'm sorry Salena. I did not know. All right maybe I did, but I didn't know about the magic part. That's why I'm glad I have an intelligent sister like you!" Severus lifted Salena's face so he could look into her eyes. Tears were flowing down her soft silky face. Severus wiped them away gently. "I'm so sorry luv. I didn't know this would happen. I'd never leave you all alone in this cruel world, I promise." Salena nodded and hugged her brother.
"You should go. Tom's trying to wake you up. Don't tell him about your animagus form. I fear what he'll do with the knowledge. He's changed so much from what I remember as a kid. I once saw him as a father and now I don't even know him anymore. I fear he'll betray you if you defy him. Be careful brother. You must go now! Write to me tonight!" Severus was then pulled back into reality.
"Severus! Are you awake yet?" Severus blinked and stared up into the face of a worried Tom. "What happened?" Severus questioned quietly. "You passed out during your transformation. I'm sorry, I couldn't see what went wrong. You've been out for 3 days!" Severus sat up in his bed. "3 days?" Tom nodded and helped him to his feet. Severus thanked him and walked over to the window. Raven landed on his shoulder and nibbled on his ear.
"Well I can't stay very long. I've already been by your side for the three days and I must get back to my duties. Stop by when you feel better. Perhaps we'll hold off the animagus training for a while." Severus nodded his understanding and Tom apparated with a pop.
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Tom sent Severus on missions to steal information from the ministry. Tom knew that Severus was trained to be stealthy and used him as a spy. He then forced Severus to take his first life. It was one of the aurors that had killed his mother. Severus thought he would be satisfied with it, but he only felt ill. He truly hated killing. When Tom tried to force him to kill the other aurors, Severus couldn't do it. Instead he brewed numerous of powerful poisons for Tom. Of course, as soon as he brewed them, he went straight to Albus with the cure and taught him how to minister it.
The first night Severus had gone to him, Albus had questioned his reasons. "Why do you choose to do this Severus?" Severus looked him right in the eye and answered truthfully.
"I want to help my friend. He was once someone very important to me and he has done more for me than anyone ever could. He's lost and I have to help him find his way back. I do this to keep an eye on him and to try to convince him this is wrong. In the meanwhile I have to do what I can to ensure those innocent lives are not lost and this is the only way I can. Those poisons were made by me, I can't let people die by my hands."
"Then act as a spy for me, for that is what you are already doing. You'll inform me of major events that Tom may be planning. I too wish to help him, after all he was under my command at this school. You should go before your father suspects anything." Severus snorted. "My father, notice I'm gone?" Severus laughed and Albus chuckled sadly. Severus then told him of his plan to become an animagus.
"That's a great idea! I'm sure you'll get it eventually. Just keep practising." Severus smiled at the old man's enthusiasm. "All right! I suppose I should go. Good Bye!" Severus slipped on his mother's cloak and travelled deep into the forest. He visited his friends and they accompanied him to the border where the anti-apparation spell ended. Severus apparated to the manor and decided to retire to his room for the remainder of the night.
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For the remaining of the summer, Severus tried to transform into a dragon, without the help of Tom. Finally on the last week before he had to return to school, Severus completed his animagus transformation. Severus remembered to allow his magic to change as his body transformed. He could see his magic turn from azure to amber. Black scales covered his body and silver spikes thrust through to the surface. His face changed and was covered in spikes as well. He looked exactly like the dragon in the painting above the fireplace of the slytherin common room. Severus grew and kept on growing until he filled the room. Since Severus was still considered "young" in dragon years, his body was not all that big. It fit perfectly in his room, while a full-grown dragon would have filled half the manor itself.
When Severus' transformation was fully completed, he strained to look in the mirror. The image that greeted him placed him in a state of awe. He had seen many grown dragons before, but to see one's self as a dragon, was truly remarkable. Severus heard his father approaching his room and quickly transformed back. He returned everything to the way it was and began writing a letter to his sister about his transformation. When his father saw that Severus was just working on something, he left him alone. Severus couldn't wait to be able to show his form to Lily and Albus!
TBC.