Hehe I'm silly I forgot to change the rating yesterday so my mature
contented story was listed as g for an entire day. Hopefully no five year
olds logged in and read this, can five year olds read these days anyway?
Well I hope you like the first part-trust me it does get happier.
*An Hour Later. Rory is seated on the large chair by the phone hugging her knees to her chest and avoiding Jess' eyes, Jess is sitting on the armrest of the couch nervous and upset. For Jess while this new development was not planned or even discussed it is a welcomed occurrence and so he thought it would be for Rory. Unsure of why Rory is so upset about the possibility of having a child Jess felt it better to remain quiet and say nothing until they were sure.
After shifting in his seat for the hundredth time Jess clears his throat and speaks, "It's been 15 minutes, we should probably, um..."
Rory breaths in deeply, "I know."
"Should I...do you want em to go in with you."
For the first time in 45 minutes Rory looks up at Jess, "Please."
Jess holds out his hand for his wife, she takes it and without another word to one another they walk hand in hand into the bathroom to discover whether or not their lives are about to change forever.
Rory walks towards the counter where she placed the test 20 minutes ago, she looks back at Jess and takes a step back, "Y-you look."
Jess let's go of Rory's hand and leans forward peering down onto the counter. His eyebrow furrows and he sighs.
"What?" Rory asks her voice like that of a scared child.
"The box turned pink." He says plainly.
"Oh my God." Rory responds, her face stripped of all its color.
Jess turns to her, "Rory..."
"Move." Rory says with panic.
"Wha-" Jess begins but is cut off by Rory pushing towards him and leaning into the toilet bowl.
Jess bends down to where Rory his hunched over and holds back her hair.
A minute later Rory is wiping her mouth with a tissue while Jess rubs her back.
"I have to go." Rory states, her voice dry and scratchy.
"Where?" Jess asks, hurt emanating in his voice.
"I, I just need a little while, to to process this ok." Rory says sternly.
Jess' eyes soften on Rory remembering, his own teenage urges to run away. He knows all too well that the only way for Rory to come back to him is to let her go.
"Ok." He says solemnly.
Rory hugs Jess around the neck, stands up and exits, leaving Jess alone on the cold bathroom floor.
*45 minutes later Rory finds herself traveling down a familiar road towards her childhood home. As she pulls into the driveway she is greeted by her 42 year old mother who is sitting on the front steps.
"How'd you know I was coming?" Rory asks sadly hanging her head out of the open window.
"Jess called." Lorelai Gilmore replies wiping dirt off of her pants.
"Oh." Rory says shamefully, "What did he say?"
"Nothing really, just that you were upset and needed to "get away" so he figured you'd turn up here, I don't know why he'd think that.." Lorelai rolls her eyes at her daughter.
"He didn't say anything else?"
"Nope."
"Not why I was upset?" Rory asks with surprised.
"No I attempted to pry the information out of him but he wouldn't tell me, it must be real bad if you're here and not with him." Lorelai says harshly. "For what's it's worth he sounded like death on the phone."
"Oh." Rory whimpers.
Lorelai crosses her arms, "So what happened?"
Rory looks down at her shoes.
"Ror, what is it?"
"I-I'm pregnant." Rory sobs.
Lorelai smiles at her daughter, "You are?!"
"Yea, before when we were talking....I figure out that I was uh," Rory bits her lip, "And then I took a...and it, it turned pink."
"Oh baby." Lorelai replies her eyes getting misty.
Rory runs to her mother who opens her arms for her, "I just, I don't know what to do." Rory cries into her mother's jacket.
Lorelai pulls away from her daughter, "Wait what are we talking about here...what are you going to DO?"
"Oh God." Rory pulls away from her mother and begins to walk away.
"Rory! Talk to me."
"I can't believe you think I'd do THAT!" Rory says angrily.
"Well you're the one crying about and saying "what am I going to do?" there's really only one alternative to not doing THAT and that's DOING THAT!"
"Well I'm not going to DO THAT, I could never.."
"Then what's going on sweets? I thought you would be ecstatic about this."
"I thought I would be too." Rory wipes her tears away, "I feel like such a horrible person, women spends years trying to have babies and I get to have one..with out even trying and do you know what my first thought was when I put you on hold before...Damnit there goes my career." Rory begins to sob heavily as Lorelai pulls Rory towards her.
"Honey it's ok, that doesn't make you a bad person. Do you think I was doing cartwheels the day I found out about you?" Lorelai says sympathetically.
"That was different, mom. And Jess, poor Jess I couldn't even look at him he was so, so happy about it. He tried to hide it from me but I knew, I know that he wants this."
"Honey just because you have a baby does not mean you can't have a career."
"You're right, I can have a career...I can work weekdays at Wal-Mart or be a cashier at the Stop & Shop." Rory says coldly, "I was just starting to get noticed too...but see they don't let you take infants to Pakistan so you can cover the war overseas."
"Rory, I'm telling you you don't have to give up on your dream just because of the unexpected turn of events."
"We never even discussed it you know, we never really agreed on having kids we just said definitely not before the three year mark and preferably around the 5th year."
"Some things you can't control."
"What if I'm not good at it?" Rory asks finally looking her mother in the eye.
"That won't happen Rory."
"But..."
"Come on, enough of this you need to calm down, I'll make you something warm to drink and then you'll call Jess."
"Jess, God Jess, I was so horrible to him, he was so comforting and wonderful and I yelled at him and pushed him away he's never going to want to speak to me again."
"I doubt that he loves you."
Rory sighs heavily, "Can I pass on the drink, I need to go think."
"Sure baby, Go ahead but please don't make yourself feel anymore guilt honey you had an honest reaction it's not the end of the world." Lorelai says sympathetically.
"Thanks mom."
*20 minutes later.
Rory is sitting on the bridge, her feet dangling over the water, engrossed in thought she vaguely hears the rustling of leaves behind her. Jess approaches Rory from behind suspending a large metal thermos in front of her face. Rory shakes her head convinced that she is hallucinating.
"Yellow birds back again?" Jess asks wryly.
Rory whips around truly shocked at Jess presence. "You're here."
"Did you really think I wouldn't come?"
"Eventually, but not so soon...not after before."
"I left about a half hour after you." He replies seating himself next to her. "Here I procured you a beverage." Jess hands Rory the thermos.
Rory stares at it for a moment, "What is it?"
"Coffee." Jess states, "I know there's a rule about pregnant women and coffee but I couldn't remember what it was so..."
"Why are you being so nice to me?"
"Aren't I always nice to you?"
Rory gives Jess a stern look, "You know what I mean. I was horrible."
"You were upset, it happens."
"But you weren't."
"So, why should I be upset?"
"Because it wasn't in the plans."
"So, Rory just because it wasn't in the plans doesn't make it a bad thing, well not for me anyway...but you, you're really disappointed by this." Jess replies sadly.
Rory pulls her legs up and hugs them tightly to her chest, "Jess, I'm sorry it's just everything was working out amazingly, we're so happy and now this comes along.."
"Do you really think this is a negative thing?"
"Yes, come on Jess this is going to change everything!"
"It's an adventure Rory, a miracle even do you realize that no matter what this person is going to be a part of both of us, this is what love is about." Jess says passionately.
"I'm sorry, I know that I've hurt you more today by everything I've said and done then I did these last 8 years put together, and I know I'm being selfish but, you promised."
"What?" Jess breathes out heavily.
"You promised me I'd do it one day be a foreign affairs reporter and I know that it sounds childish now but it meant something to me when you said that, it meant something to me when you helped me study for all those exams and everything, and I guess I just always thought that that would happen for me, I thought that I'd really do it."
"Nothing says that you won't, Rory most overseas correspondents aren't actually sent anywhere before their close to forty, besides I don't expect you to stay home and be some 1950's house wife barefoot and pregnant for the rest of your life. Rory, by next September I'll be a member of the union and have daycare benefits plus I don't work summers or holidays or even weekends, Rory you're not having this kid by yourself."
"I know.."
"If you know so much than what's the problem."
Rory moves in closer to Jess, "I'm scared."
"Huh." Jess sighs, "You're not the only one."
"Yeah, but you deal with kids everyday you're a natural, but me....what if I do what I did the first time we visited Gigi."
Jess laughs out loud. "That's not going to happen."
"Sherry didn't speak to me for two months, she still won't leave her alone in the room with me."
"Rory it was an honest mistake, baby's squirm people are bound to drop them you just had the unfortunate luck to drop your 3 week old half-sister."
"What if I screw this kid up?"
"If anybody's going to screw them up, it's going to be me I'm the one with the track record anyway."
An awkward silence passes between the couple.
*5 minutes later.
"Do you hate me for having these thoughts?" Rory says looking up at Jess.
"I could never hate you, besides I'd be surprised if you weren't at least a little taken back."
"I love you you know, this had nothing to do with you."
Jess remains quiet.
"I mean if I'm going to have a baby I wouldn't want it to be with anybody but you."
Jess kisses Rory's forehead, "It's ok to be scared even a little unhappy about this Ror, but for God sakes don't be mad at yourself for having these feelings."
"I will get better you know, I mean I'll be happy about this...I just need to get comfortable with the idea."
"I know." Jess sys calmly rubbing Rory's back.
Rory shivers as the wind picks up.
"Yeah, I guess it's not too healthy for you to be out here now."
"I guess not." Rory replies as Jess helps her up.
"It's late I guess we should be getting back."
"Can we stop by my mom's first, I want to apologize to her first."
"Actually I told her we'd meet her at the diner for dinner, I figured as long as we're here we might as well stay the night."
"Good because I'm way too tired to sit in the car even if it is for only an hour."
"Well if you're too tired we can just drop you at the house and I'll go meet Luke and Lorelai at the diner."
"Are you kidding me? I'm starving and I'm eating for two now so you better believe I'm getting two burgers."
"That's going to be your excuse from now on isn't it?" Jess smirks at her.
"It's legit."
10 minutes later:
Rory, Jess, Lorelai and Luke are seated in the now empty dinner consuming burgers and fries. All apologies have been said, Lorelai filled Luke in as soon as Rory left for the bridge, the conversation has now turned from babies to Jess' new job.
"Hehe. Jess gets his butt pinched by minors" Lorelai teases. "How come you never let me pinch your butt?"
"Mom, please." Rory says with disgust.
"What?"
"Yeah come on no more putting bad thoughts in my head." Luke's gruff voice cuts in.
"You know the only butt I want to pinch is yours." Lorelai says to Luke.
"Ewwwwww." Jess and Rory says in sync.
Luke blushes, "Anyway...ow!" Luke sends Lorelai a murderous look, "Keep your hands to yourself or no more coffee."
"Evil Evil man."
"I don't know what I'm going to do *yawn* without coffee *yawn* coffee for 9 months." Rory yawns.
"There's always decaf" Luke encourages.
"That's sacrilege." Lorelai announces with offense.
Jess sits quietly holding Rory's hand as her eyes become heavy.
"I think we should probably go home, it's been a long day." Jess says to Luke.
"Ok, uh here, why don't you take the truck over, we can walk back." Luke suggests.
We can?!" Lorelai asks pretending to be upset.
"Thanks Luke."
"Not a problem." Luke replies.
Jess rouses Rory and leads her towards the door.
"Goodnight Rory." Luke says.
Rory waves sleepily at him as she exits the dinner.
Lorelai waits for them to pull away before speaking again, "So Luke what do you think? I'm going to be a grandma!"
"I think that kids gonna have some major issues."
"Yeah but either way it's going to be gorgeous."
20 minutes later: Rory's Old bedroom.
Rory is cuddling close to Jess yawning profusely.
"Come here." Jess pulls Rory close and kiss her cheek.
"I love you."
"I know."
"I still can't believe it though."
"What?" Rory asks sitting up slightly.
Jess pulls her back down, "How amazing you are."
"Shut up." She says swatting his chest.
Jess grabs her by the wrist, "I mean it, come on this is an amazing thing you're doing."
"Jess I thought we were going to lay of the baby talk until we at least got home."
"Just, just listen to me, you've already done so much for me, gone through so much pain already and now you're going to go through this the ultimate pain as a result of you loving me."
"Don't remind me." Rory says grumpily as she rests her head on Jess' chest.
"Come on Rory I'm trying to be romantic here." Jess says softly into her ear.
"Lets just go to sleep now and you can remind me of all the disgusting pregnancy-related stuff in the morning."
"Sorry." Jess whispers as he leans over and turns out the light.
"First thing tomorrow we're going out and getting you one of those books to read...one with all the pictures and I'm going force you to watch all those tapes and things." Rory says ribbing Jess affectionately before drifting off to sleep.
*An Hour Later. Rory is seated on the large chair by the phone hugging her knees to her chest and avoiding Jess' eyes, Jess is sitting on the armrest of the couch nervous and upset. For Jess while this new development was not planned or even discussed it is a welcomed occurrence and so he thought it would be for Rory. Unsure of why Rory is so upset about the possibility of having a child Jess felt it better to remain quiet and say nothing until they were sure.
After shifting in his seat for the hundredth time Jess clears his throat and speaks, "It's been 15 minutes, we should probably, um..."
Rory breaths in deeply, "I know."
"Should I...do you want em to go in with you."
For the first time in 45 minutes Rory looks up at Jess, "Please."
Jess holds out his hand for his wife, she takes it and without another word to one another they walk hand in hand into the bathroom to discover whether or not their lives are about to change forever.
Rory walks towards the counter where she placed the test 20 minutes ago, she looks back at Jess and takes a step back, "Y-you look."
Jess let's go of Rory's hand and leans forward peering down onto the counter. His eyebrow furrows and he sighs.
"What?" Rory asks her voice like that of a scared child.
"The box turned pink." He says plainly.
"Oh my God." Rory responds, her face stripped of all its color.
Jess turns to her, "Rory..."
"Move." Rory says with panic.
"Wha-" Jess begins but is cut off by Rory pushing towards him and leaning into the toilet bowl.
Jess bends down to where Rory his hunched over and holds back her hair.
A minute later Rory is wiping her mouth with a tissue while Jess rubs her back.
"I have to go." Rory states, her voice dry and scratchy.
"Where?" Jess asks, hurt emanating in his voice.
"I, I just need a little while, to to process this ok." Rory says sternly.
Jess' eyes soften on Rory remembering, his own teenage urges to run away. He knows all too well that the only way for Rory to come back to him is to let her go.
"Ok." He says solemnly.
Rory hugs Jess around the neck, stands up and exits, leaving Jess alone on the cold bathroom floor.
*45 minutes later Rory finds herself traveling down a familiar road towards her childhood home. As she pulls into the driveway she is greeted by her 42 year old mother who is sitting on the front steps.
"How'd you know I was coming?" Rory asks sadly hanging her head out of the open window.
"Jess called." Lorelai Gilmore replies wiping dirt off of her pants.
"Oh." Rory says shamefully, "What did he say?"
"Nothing really, just that you were upset and needed to "get away" so he figured you'd turn up here, I don't know why he'd think that.." Lorelai rolls her eyes at her daughter.
"He didn't say anything else?"
"Nope."
"Not why I was upset?" Rory asks with surprised.
"No I attempted to pry the information out of him but he wouldn't tell me, it must be real bad if you're here and not with him." Lorelai says harshly. "For what's it's worth he sounded like death on the phone."
"Oh." Rory whimpers.
Lorelai crosses her arms, "So what happened?"
Rory looks down at her shoes.
"Ror, what is it?"
"I-I'm pregnant." Rory sobs.
Lorelai smiles at her daughter, "You are?!"
"Yea, before when we were talking....I figure out that I was uh," Rory bits her lip, "And then I took a...and it, it turned pink."
"Oh baby." Lorelai replies her eyes getting misty.
Rory runs to her mother who opens her arms for her, "I just, I don't know what to do." Rory cries into her mother's jacket.
Lorelai pulls away from her daughter, "Wait what are we talking about here...what are you going to DO?"
"Oh God." Rory pulls away from her mother and begins to walk away.
"Rory! Talk to me."
"I can't believe you think I'd do THAT!" Rory says angrily.
"Well you're the one crying about and saying "what am I going to do?" there's really only one alternative to not doing THAT and that's DOING THAT!"
"Well I'm not going to DO THAT, I could never.."
"Then what's going on sweets? I thought you would be ecstatic about this."
"I thought I would be too." Rory wipes her tears away, "I feel like such a horrible person, women spends years trying to have babies and I get to have one..with out even trying and do you know what my first thought was when I put you on hold before...Damnit there goes my career." Rory begins to sob heavily as Lorelai pulls Rory towards her.
"Honey it's ok, that doesn't make you a bad person. Do you think I was doing cartwheels the day I found out about you?" Lorelai says sympathetically.
"That was different, mom. And Jess, poor Jess I couldn't even look at him he was so, so happy about it. He tried to hide it from me but I knew, I know that he wants this."
"Honey just because you have a baby does not mean you can't have a career."
"You're right, I can have a career...I can work weekdays at Wal-Mart or be a cashier at the Stop & Shop." Rory says coldly, "I was just starting to get noticed too...but see they don't let you take infants to Pakistan so you can cover the war overseas."
"Rory, I'm telling you you don't have to give up on your dream just because of the unexpected turn of events."
"We never even discussed it you know, we never really agreed on having kids we just said definitely not before the three year mark and preferably around the 5th year."
"Some things you can't control."
"What if I'm not good at it?" Rory asks finally looking her mother in the eye.
"That won't happen Rory."
"But..."
"Come on, enough of this you need to calm down, I'll make you something warm to drink and then you'll call Jess."
"Jess, God Jess, I was so horrible to him, he was so comforting and wonderful and I yelled at him and pushed him away he's never going to want to speak to me again."
"I doubt that he loves you."
Rory sighs heavily, "Can I pass on the drink, I need to go think."
"Sure baby, Go ahead but please don't make yourself feel anymore guilt honey you had an honest reaction it's not the end of the world." Lorelai says sympathetically.
"Thanks mom."
*20 minutes later.
Rory is sitting on the bridge, her feet dangling over the water, engrossed in thought she vaguely hears the rustling of leaves behind her. Jess approaches Rory from behind suspending a large metal thermos in front of her face. Rory shakes her head convinced that she is hallucinating.
"Yellow birds back again?" Jess asks wryly.
Rory whips around truly shocked at Jess presence. "You're here."
"Did you really think I wouldn't come?"
"Eventually, but not so soon...not after before."
"I left about a half hour after you." He replies seating himself next to her. "Here I procured you a beverage." Jess hands Rory the thermos.
Rory stares at it for a moment, "What is it?"
"Coffee." Jess states, "I know there's a rule about pregnant women and coffee but I couldn't remember what it was so..."
"Why are you being so nice to me?"
"Aren't I always nice to you?"
Rory gives Jess a stern look, "You know what I mean. I was horrible."
"You were upset, it happens."
"But you weren't."
"So, why should I be upset?"
"Because it wasn't in the plans."
"So, Rory just because it wasn't in the plans doesn't make it a bad thing, well not for me anyway...but you, you're really disappointed by this." Jess replies sadly.
Rory pulls her legs up and hugs them tightly to her chest, "Jess, I'm sorry it's just everything was working out amazingly, we're so happy and now this comes along.."
"Do you really think this is a negative thing?"
"Yes, come on Jess this is going to change everything!"
"It's an adventure Rory, a miracle even do you realize that no matter what this person is going to be a part of both of us, this is what love is about." Jess says passionately.
"I'm sorry, I know that I've hurt you more today by everything I've said and done then I did these last 8 years put together, and I know I'm being selfish but, you promised."
"What?" Jess breathes out heavily.
"You promised me I'd do it one day be a foreign affairs reporter and I know that it sounds childish now but it meant something to me when you said that, it meant something to me when you helped me study for all those exams and everything, and I guess I just always thought that that would happen for me, I thought that I'd really do it."
"Nothing says that you won't, Rory most overseas correspondents aren't actually sent anywhere before their close to forty, besides I don't expect you to stay home and be some 1950's house wife barefoot and pregnant for the rest of your life. Rory, by next September I'll be a member of the union and have daycare benefits plus I don't work summers or holidays or even weekends, Rory you're not having this kid by yourself."
"I know.."
"If you know so much than what's the problem."
Rory moves in closer to Jess, "I'm scared."
"Huh." Jess sighs, "You're not the only one."
"Yeah, but you deal with kids everyday you're a natural, but me....what if I do what I did the first time we visited Gigi."
Jess laughs out loud. "That's not going to happen."
"Sherry didn't speak to me for two months, she still won't leave her alone in the room with me."
"Rory it was an honest mistake, baby's squirm people are bound to drop them you just had the unfortunate luck to drop your 3 week old half-sister."
"What if I screw this kid up?"
"If anybody's going to screw them up, it's going to be me I'm the one with the track record anyway."
An awkward silence passes between the couple.
*5 minutes later.
"Do you hate me for having these thoughts?" Rory says looking up at Jess.
"I could never hate you, besides I'd be surprised if you weren't at least a little taken back."
"I love you you know, this had nothing to do with you."
Jess remains quiet.
"I mean if I'm going to have a baby I wouldn't want it to be with anybody but you."
Jess kisses Rory's forehead, "It's ok to be scared even a little unhappy about this Ror, but for God sakes don't be mad at yourself for having these feelings."
"I will get better you know, I mean I'll be happy about this...I just need to get comfortable with the idea."
"I know." Jess sys calmly rubbing Rory's back.
Rory shivers as the wind picks up.
"Yeah, I guess it's not too healthy for you to be out here now."
"I guess not." Rory replies as Jess helps her up.
"It's late I guess we should be getting back."
"Can we stop by my mom's first, I want to apologize to her first."
"Actually I told her we'd meet her at the diner for dinner, I figured as long as we're here we might as well stay the night."
"Good because I'm way too tired to sit in the car even if it is for only an hour."
"Well if you're too tired we can just drop you at the house and I'll go meet Luke and Lorelai at the diner."
"Are you kidding me? I'm starving and I'm eating for two now so you better believe I'm getting two burgers."
"That's going to be your excuse from now on isn't it?" Jess smirks at her.
"It's legit."
10 minutes later:
Rory, Jess, Lorelai and Luke are seated in the now empty dinner consuming burgers and fries. All apologies have been said, Lorelai filled Luke in as soon as Rory left for the bridge, the conversation has now turned from babies to Jess' new job.
"Hehe. Jess gets his butt pinched by minors" Lorelai teases. "How come you never let me pinch your butt?"
"Mom, please." Rory says with disgust.
"What?"
"Yeah come on no more putting bad thoughts in my head." Luke's gruff voice cuts in.
"You know the only butt I want to pinch is yours." Lorelai says to Luke.
"Ewwwwww." Jess and Rory says in sync.
Luke blushes, "Anyway...ow!" Luke sends Lorelai a murderous look, "Keep your hands to yourself or no more coffee."
"Evil Evil man."
"I don't know what I'm going to do *yawn* without coffee *yawn* coffee for 9 months." Rory yawns.
"There's always decaf" Luke encourages.
"That's sacrilege." Lorelai announces with offense.
Jess sits quietly holding Rory's hand as her eyes become heavy.
"I think we should probably go home, it's been a long day." Jess says to Luke.
"Ok, uh here, why don't you take the truck over, we can walk back." Luke suggests.
We can?!" Lorelai asks pretending to be upset.
"Thanks Luke."
"Not a problem." Luke replies.
Jess rouses Rory and leads her towards the door.
"Goodnight Rory." Luke says.
Rory waves sleepily at him as she exits the dinner.
Lorelai waits for them to pull away before speaking again, "So Luke what do you think? I'm going to be a grandma!"
"I think that kids gonna have some major issues."
"Yeah but either way it's going to be gorgeous."
20 minutes later: Rory's Old bedroom.
Rory is cuddling close to Jess yawning profusely.
"Come here." Jess pulls Rory close and kiss her cheek.
"I love you."
"I know."
"I still can't believe it though."
"What?" Rory asks sitting up slightly.
Jess pulls her back down, "How amazing you are."
"Shut up." She says swatting his chest.
Jess grabs her by the wrist, "I mean it, come on this is an amazing thing you're doing."
"Jess I thought we were going to lay of the baby talk until we at least got home."
"Just, just listen to me, you've already done so much for me, gone through so much pain already and now you're going to go through this the ultimate pain as a result of you loving me."
"Don't remind me." Rory says grumpily as she rests her head on Jess' chest.
"Come on Rory I'm trying to be romantic here." Jess says softly into her ear.
"Lets just go to sleep now and you can remind me of all the disgusting pregnancy-related stuff in the morning."
"Sorry." Jess whispers as he leans over and turns out the light.
"First thing tomorrow we're going out and getting you one of those books to read...one with all the pictures and I'm going force you to watch all those tapes and things." Rory says ribbing Jess affectionately before drifting off to sleep.