Chapter 3 - Jess' POV
Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls or anything in Gilmore Girls.
A/N: This is Jess' POV at the same time as Dean's and Rory's were. This chapter starts further back in time, at Sookie's wedding, because not as much happens with Jess on the day Rory and Dean talk as happens to Rory and Dean. (Sorry if that makes no sense, you'll see!) Again, please review and I hope you like it!
That day was really great. I've honestly loved Rory almost ever since I met her. That day at Sookie's wedding-when she kissed me-I was so happy, but really surprised at the same time. And then she ran away, and I wanted to run after her, except she would have hated me if I'd done that.
I waited all summer for her to come back from D.C. I met her accidentally at Doose's market one night, and I knew as soon as I saw her that being-or pretending to be-with Shane was really stupid. Rory was pretty mad at me, and I wanted to tell her how sorry I was. But I didn't. I was actually pretty mean, and Rory left, angrily, as quickly as she could. I didn't know what to do.
And then, at the dance marathon-I kept kissing Shane, and I was watching Rory dance with Dean, Iike I wanted to dance with her, and watching them hurt. A lot. I wanted to cry. Rory kept talking to Dean, and looking at me. I almost jumped up and shoved Dean away from her.
I told Rory to pay attention to her boyfriend and then Dean stepped away from her.
"She can't," he said. "I'm not her boyfriend anymore." Dean started yelling about how she liked me and I liked her. Then he left. He was pretty upset. I admit, I felt almost sorry for him. I know he loves Rory. Rory looked horrified for a second. And then she ran away. Rory, I thought.
I found her at the dock. She was crying. I wanted so much to sit next to her and put my arm around her and let her cry. But I knew she wanted to be alone. If Rory did that (what Dean did to her) to me, I know I would.
I told her that Dean was a jerk.
"No he's not," she said. She said he was right. About everything. About liking me and lying to him. I couldn't say anything. I was so glad to hear it, you have no idea. Then she said that Dean had been right about her, anyway.
'He was right,' I agreed. I asked her if she was broken up with Dean. I was immediately sorry I'd said it. I didn't want to hurt her any more than I knew I already had. But she answered that she had definitely broken up with Dean. I told her there was something I had to do, and I left. I was honestly sorry for Rory. I knew that that felt like.
And then that day after Rory got back from her trip to Yale. She was at Luke's with Lorelai. I said I had to go get a part for my car, knowing that Rory would understand. I leaned against a wall and pulled out a cigarette. I was about to smoke it, and then I thought of Rory. I put it in my pocket instead.
Rory came over and asked me if I was going to smoke it. I kissed her. She told me she was glad I didn't smoke it. I was really glad too. Rory pulled away and told me she had to go. I was scared I'd hurt her again. My eyes filled with tears. I asked Rory if I had done anything wrong. She smiled and quickly said no, that she'd really loved it.
'Come here,' I said. I hugged her and kissed her again, and then she let go of me after a while and left. I was crying, just slightly, but I wasn't exactly sure why. I don't think Rory noticed.
I stayed there for a while, thinking about Rory, and then left, smiling, to go back to Luke's.
I will love Rory forever. I always have.
-Jess Mariano
Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls or anything in Gilmore Girls.
A/N: This is Jess' POV at the same time as Dean's and Rory's were. This chapter starts further back in time, at Sookie's wedding, because not as much happens with Jess on the day Rory and Dean talk as happens to Rory and Dean. (Sorry if that makes no sense, you'll see!) Again, please review and I hope you like it!
That day was really great. I've honestly loved Rory almost ever since I met her. That day at Sookie's wedding-when she kissed me-I was so happy, but really surprised at the same time. And then she ran away, and I wanted to run after her, except she would have hated me if I'd done that.
I waited all summer for her to come back from D.C. I met her accidentally at Doose's market one night, and I knew as soon as I saw her that being-or pretending to be-with Shane was really stupid. Rory was pretty mad at me, and I wanted to tell her how sorry I was. But I didn't. I was actually pretty mean, and Rory left, angrily, as quickly as she could. I didn't know what to do.
And then, at the dance marathon-I kept kissing Shane, and I was watching Rory dance with Dean, Iike I wanted to dance with her, and watching them hurt. A lot. I wanted to cry. Rory kept talking to Dean, and looking at me. I almost jumped up and shoved Dean away from her.
I told Rory to pay attention to her boyfriend and then Dean stepped away from her.
"She can't," he said. "I'm not her boyfriend anymore." Dean started yelling about how she liked me and I liked her. Then he left. He was pretty upset. I admit, I felt almost sorry for him. I know he loves Rory. Rory looked horrified for a second. And then she ran away. Rory, I thought.
I found her at the dock. She was crying. I wanted so much to sit next to her and put my arm around her and let her cry. But I knew she wanted to be alone. If Rory did that (what Dean did to her) to me, I know I would.
I told her that Dean was a jerk.
"No he's not," she said. She said he was right. About everything. About liking me and lying to him. I couldn't say anything. I was so glad to hear it, you have no idea. Then she said that Dean had been right about her, anyway.
'He was right,' I agreed. I asked her if she was broken up with Dean. I was immediately sorry I'd said it. I didn't want to hurt her any more than I knew I already had. But she answered that she had definitely broken up with Dean. I told her there was something I had to do, and I left. I was honestly sorry for Rory. I knew that that felt like.
And then that day after Rory got back from her trip to Yale. She was at Luke's with Lorelai. I said I had to go get a part for my car, knowing that Rory would understand. I leaned against a wall and pulled out a cigarette. I was about to smoke it, and then I thought of Rory. I put it in my pocket instead.
Rory came over and asked me if I was going to smoke it. I kissed her. She told me she was glad I didn't smoke it. I was really glad too. Rory pulled away and told me she had to go. I was scared I'd hurt her again. My eyes filled with tears. I asked Rory if I had done anything wrong. She smiled and quickly said no, that she'd really loved it.
'Come here,' I said. I hugged her and kissed her again, and then she let go of me after a while and left. I was crying, just slightly, but I wasn't exactly sure why. I don't think Rory noticed.
I stayed there for a while, thinking about Rory, and then left, smiling, to go back to Luke's.
I will love Rory forever. I always have.
-Jess Mariano