Doubts and Names

By Flame Shadow

*I do not own Cowboy Bebop………………….. You know the rest. This is a sequel to 'A Simple Kiss'. Enjoy. Reviews are welcomed.*

Jet's POV

Jet smiled to himself as he watched Spike sleep. He looked so carefree; you would never guess how much trouble he could cause. What made him smile even more was the fact that the beautiful young man next to him was his. Spike was his lover, his boyfriend. Boyfriend, it had a nice ring to it. Especially when you realize how lucky you are to grab such a great one. His concentration faltered when he felt the body next to him stir. He stole a quick glance to make sure he wasn't awake before leaning over to place a kiss on Spike's lips.

Spike rolled onto his side before mumbling, "Julia."

What the hell! Jet thought. Why is he thinking about her? Maybe it's just my imagination. Maybe he wishes I washer. Maybe he's just dreaming about the past. Or maybe he doesn't really love me. With that thought Jet froze. Maybe that was true. I mean Spike has never been that affectionate with him. And at first he hadn't wanted to tell anyone. Maybe jet was just a fling for Spike.

Suddenly Jet's stomach started doing flips. He ran to the bathroom and threw up everything. His mind was still reeling over what had happened. Even though Spike had told him that he was in love with him, he couldn't stop doubting. His doubts were overwhelming him. He had to find a place to think.

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Faye's POV

Faye was having issues with sleep. Her biggest issue was the fact that she couldn't sleep. She was trying to think of ways to pay her debt. There were no big bounties to catch which meant that for now she was primarily screwed. Pulling on her robe, she decided to go and get some fresh air.

The fresh air felt cool on her skin as she stepped out onto the deck. Everything was covered in darkness, with the exception of a few docking lights. It took her awhile to notice the figure standing to her left, but when she did, she was shocked.

"Jet," she said, as she came to stand next to him, "What are you doing out here? Aren't you suppose to be keeping Spike warm?" At that statement she noticed his shoulders tense up. Acting on her gut feelings she placed her hand on his arm and said, "What happened between you too?"

"I……….I was..," he paused to regain his composer, "I was lying in bed watching him sleep. I leaned over to kiss him and when I did, he said Julia. He said her name. Not mine." Tears weld us in his eyes, but he continued to speak, "I can't help but think about what if. What if he truly doesn't love me?"

"How can you say that Jet! He loves you! I know he does, I can see it in the way he looks at you. You mean everything to him."

"Then why did he say her name! Answer me that much! Why wouldn't he say mine?" Jet yelled, tears now streaming down his face, "I love him so much Faye. I love him."

"Jet I wish there was something I could say to make it better." She said her voice a whisper.

Then he turned to leave. At the door he stopped and said, "There's nothing either of us can do or say Faye. Nothing at all." With that, he disappeared into the ship.

Faye stared at the entrance of the ship even after he was no longer visible. She felt for him. He was a good man and she hated the fact that he had to go through this. Fuck! Why did Spike have to do that? Why did he have to say Julia's name. That really scared Jet. Unfortunately, there was nothing she could do. Spike and Jet had to work it out for themselves. Course a little push couldn't hurt.