A Gangsta's A Gangsta
AN: I don't own anything, And you all thought it was over well let me tell you! Okay what I meant was that the end of wet kisses says that the ending isn't in me! So that means I can't have a sad ending no matta what! So here is the 12 chapter of A Gangsta's a Gangsta! I know that would have been a dramatic ending but I will try and make this just as good.a sacrifice for the one you love.. THANK YOU ASHLEY FOR BREAKING MY WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!!!!!
*Die Another Day*
Warm wind was blowing against my cheeks as I lay in the valley. The tall grass bending under the gentle breeze as I looked up at the star lit sky. I had been like that since I found my self-dieing on my father's grave. Looking up at the stars, counting them until the end of time. Waiting to see her face again, just once would last an eternity, my eternity in this so-called heaven. But tell me why is it that every living thing can be next to her, see her, smell her scent but I can't? Is this how I shall spend the rest of eternity just sitting staring up at the stars thinking of what I'm missing. Right, left, left, right, right, right, left, connect the dots and see the woman you love in the stars above. It felt like weeks since that night I died, every day I sit here watching the stars change and for constellations in my head all leading to her. "If the sun rises then the dream is over.." I whispered tracing the Faye constellation with my index finger. Nothing but blue and black night, with diamond like stars shinning against it. My finger was at the horizon line when something golden started to peak over it. I sat up immediately. "What?" I gasped, now standing. The sun rose, now fully exposed, the golden light blinding me. The warmth of the sun against my skin slowly turning to a cloth feeling. The sun's golden rays started to reseed and become less warm and inviting but instead harsh and unnatural. The sun then turned into the shape of a light bulb shinning in my face. I squinted letting my eyes adjust to the blaring light. "Welcome back to the world of the living Mr. Spiegel." I turned my head to where the voice was coming from and saw a young man dressed in a doctor's jacket smiling down at me. The beeping of the heart monitor echoed in my ears as I felt the cold metal in my arm shift. "Where am I?" I croaked my voice sounding ruff and unused. "The Mars Community Hospital. I'm Doctor Stein." He replied looking at a clear bag on a stand next to the bed I was in. I looked around at the clean white room. "What day is it?" I asked. "December 23 2071. You've been in a coma for around 3 years." "WHAT!!" I yelled hoarsely griping the metal sides of the hospital bed and sitting up. "Calm down if you ever want to use your voice again." Mr. Stein warned pushing me back against the pillows. "Wait, how did I get here?"
His expression softened almost like he felt sorry for me. "What? Was it Faye?" I asked panicked as the man sat down. "All I can do is give you this, and tell you what happened up until a few months." He looked down at a letter he had pulled out of his coat pocket. I grabbed for it seeing my name written in Faye's handwriting on the envelope. He pulled it away and told me to wait until he said what he needed to. "Miss Valentine brought you here 3 years ago. You where on the very doorstep of death when she brought you here. You needed a blood transfusion badly but we couldn't find a match. But then when we told Miss Valentine she offered hers as a match for a blood transfusion." He looked down at the letter again smiling. "She must have loved you dearly." "Is she ok???" I asked panicked. "You need quite a lot of blood and Miss Valentine was very weak after the transfusion and stayed here for a few days recuperating." He looked up at me smiling sincerely. "She stayed by your side for 2 years and several months until she though you would wake. She didn't tell me why she left. She just gave me this to give to you." He stood up and gave me the letter. "You'll be ready to leave the hospital in a few days." Mr. Stein left me alone to read the letter. My hands shook as I picked it up and started to open it. I tore it open slowly as her jasmine scent spilled out of it filling the hospital room with it. "Faye." I slowly pulled the purple paper out of the envelope. The paper was stained with tear droplets, smearing some of the letters on the paper. Ink running together like the words running through my mind as I read it slowly. Feeling every word cut deep into my heart.
Dear Mr. Orange Boxers:
Love is pain they say. Pain is hurt. Hurt is death. Death is the end of love and life. I'm not going to burden you with reasons for leaving because it is not your fault I have decided to go. Do not blame your self, I saved you so you could live and I don't want you to throw that all away by coming after me. I know I didn't listen to you when you asked me not to fallow you or come after you, but please listen to me! Don't look for me! I love you with all my heart and that is why I must let you go and you should just find someone who you can grow old with. All I know is I will always love you. I know you never wanted that blood. You wanted to deny it, to bleed it all away. But it is who you are Spike. You shouldn't deny it, embrace it and use that blood to your advantage. That is one thing I love about you, you are Spike Spiegel no one else can be you. I love that gangsta blood that runs through your veins, I love you. Remember Spike I will always be with you, running through your body, in your blood, your pure love filled blood. Please take care of your self.I'll watch after you every day.
Love
Faye Valentine
I held the letter in front of my eyes not believing what I read. After all we did to be together she would just leave? It's been 3 years, but it says she still loves me. Why? Why the hell would she just go? I couldn't think strait. Half of me wanted to tear the offending letter in half; the other wanted to keep it close to my heart for eternity. "I'm sorry Faye but I can't just sit here and let you find another." I whispered looking out at the dismal red planet I called home. I stood up carefully and painfully pulled out the IV in my vein and looked around for my clothes. They where lying on a chair in the far right corner. I put them on and walked to the window. "5 stories high. I've done higher." I mumbled opening the window. Rain blew in almost immediately. I tucked the letter in my shirt next to my heart. I climbed up and sat on the ledge of the window. I smiled and took a deep breath and jumped. "Wahooo!" I screamed falling waving my arms in circles as rain hit my face. I landed on my feet and bent my knees letting them absorb the shock. I waited a moment suddenly feeling the effects of not using my legs for 3 years. I started to wobble a bit and fell backwards. I held my head as the world started to spin. All up and down my legs a painful burning sensation took over. I sat on the we ground for around 10 minuets till the pain subsided and my head stopped spinning. I stood back up hunched slightly; I striated up and walked off into the rain. "I guess I live to die another day.."
".and if she runs away she fears she won't be followed." Vanessa Carlton, Rinse
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AN: If you are confused don't worry it'll all make since in the end. I'm SOOOOOOO sorry that was sooo short. Ok sorry if you like the dramatic ending better but this one will be good too I just can't handle a sad ending right now.ok PLEASE review telling me if you liked it or not.
AN: I don't own anything, And you all thought it was over well let me tell you! Okay what I meant was that the end of wet kisses says that the ending isn't in me! So that means I can't have a sad ending no matta what! So here is the 12 chapter of A Gangsta's a Gangsta! I know that would have been a dramatic ending but I will try and make this just as good.a sacrifice for the one you love.. THANK YOU ASHLEY FOR BREAKING MY WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!!!!!
*Die Another Day*
Warm wind was blowing against my cheeks as I lay in the valley. The tall grass bending under the gentle breeze as I looked up at the star lit sky. I had been like that since I found my self-dieing on my father's grave. Looking up at the stars, counting them until the end of time. Waiting to see her face again, just once would last an eternity, my eternity in this so-called heaven. But tell me why is it that every living thing can be next to her, see her, smell her scent but I can't? Is this how I shall spend the rest of eternity just sitting staring up at the stars thinking of what I'm missing. Right, left, left, right, right, right, left, connect the dots and see the woman you love in the stars above. It felt like weeks since that night I died, every day I sit here watching the stars change and for constellations in my head all leading to her. "If the sun rises then the dream is over.." I whispered tracing the Faye constellation with my index finger. Nothing but blue and black night, with diamond like stars shinning against it. My finger was at the horizon line when something golden started to peak over it. I sat up immediately. "What?" I gasped, now standing. The sun rose, now fully exposed, the golden light blinding me. The warmth of the sun against my skin slowly turning to a cloth feeling. The sun's golden rays started to reseed and become less warm and inviting but instead harsh and unnatural. The sun then turned into the shape of a light bulb shinning in my face. I squinted letting my eyes adjust to the blaring light. "Welcome back to the world of the living Mr. Spiegel." I turned my head to where the voice was coming from and saw a young man dressed in a doctor's jacket smiling down at me. The beeping of the heart monitor echoed in my ears as I felt the cold metal in my arm shift. "Where am I?" I croaked my voice sounding ruff and unused. "The Mars Community Hospital. I'm Doctor Stein." He replied looking at a clear bag on a stand next to the bed I was in. I looked around at the clean white room. "What day is it?" I asked. "December 23 2071. You've been in a coma for around 3 years." "WHAT!!" I yelled hoarsely griping the metal sides of the hospital bed and sitting up. "Calm down if you ever want to use your voice again." Mr. Stein warned pushing me back against the pillows. "Wait, how did I get here?"
His expression softened almost like he felt sorry for me. "What? Was it Faye?" I asked panicked as the man sat down. "All I can do is give you this, and tell you what happened up until a few months." He looked down at a letter he had pulled out of his coat pocket. I grabbed for it seeing my name written in Faye's handwriting on the envelope. He pulled it away and told me to wait until he said what he needed to. "Miss Valentine brought you here 3 years ago. You where on the very doorstep of death when she brought you here. You needed a blood transfusion badly but we couldn't find a match. But then when we told Miss Valentine she offered hers as a match for a blood transfusion." He looked down at the letter again smiling. "She must have loved you dearly." "Is she ok???" I asked panicked. "You need quite a lot of blood and Miss Valentine was very weak after the transfusion and stayed here for a few days recuperating." He looked up at me smiling sincerely. "She stayed by your side for 2 years and several months until she though you would wake. She didn't tell me why she left. She just gave me this to give to you." He stood up and gave me the letter. "You'll be ready to leave the hospital in a few days." Mr. Stein left me alone to read the letter. My hands shook as I picked it up and started to open it. I tore it open slowly as her jasmine scent spilled out of it filling the hospital room with it. "Faye." I slowly pulled the purple paper out of the envelope. The paper was stained with tear droplets, smearing some of the letters on the paper. Ink running together like the words running through my mind as I read it slowly. Feeling every word cut deep into my heart.
Dear Mr. Orange Boxers:
Love is pain they say. Pain is hurt. Hurt is death. Death is the end of love and life. I'm not going to burden you with reasons for leaving because it is not your fault I have decided to go. Do not blame your self, I saved you so you could live and I don't want you to throw that all away by coming after me. I know I didn't listen to you when you asked me not to fallow you or come after you, but please listen to me! Don't look for me! I love you with all my heart and that is why I must let you go and you should just find someone who you can grow old with. All I know is I will always love you. I know you never wanted that blood. You wanted to deny it, to bleed it all away. But it is who you are Spike. You shouldn't deny it, embrace it and use that blood to your advantage. That is one thing I love about you, you are Spike Spiegel no one else can be you. I love that gangsta blood that runs through your veins, I love you. Remember Spike I will always be with you, running through your body, in your blood, your pure love filled blood. Please take care of your self.I'll watch after you every day.
Love
Faye Valentine
I held the letter in front of my eyes not believing what I read. After all we did to be together she would just leave? It's been 3 years, but it says she still loves me. Why? Why the hell would she just go? I couldn't think strait. Half of me wanted to tear the offending letter in half; the other wanted to keep it close to my heart for eternity. "I'm sorry Faye but I can't just sit here and let you find another." I whispered looking out at the dismal red planet I called home. I stood up carefully and painfully pulled out the IV in my vein and looked around for my clothes. They where lying on a chair in the far right corner. I put them on and walked to the window. "5 stories high. I've done higher." I mumbled opening the window. Rain blew in almost immediately. I tucked the letter in my shirt next to my heart. I climbed up and sat on the ledge of the window. I smiled and took a deep breath and jumped. "Wahooo!" I screamed falling waving my arms in circles as rain hit my face. I landed on my feet and bent my knees letting them absorb the shock. I waited a moment suddenly feeling the effects of not using my legs for 3 years. I started to wobble a bit and fell backwards. I held my head as the world started to spin. All up and down my legs a painful burning sensation took over. I sat on the we ground for around 10 minuets till the pain subsided and my head stopped spinning. I stood back up hunched slightly; I striated up and walked off into the rain. "I guess I live to die another day.."
".and if she runs away she fears she won't be followed." Vanessa Carlton, Rinse
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AN: If you are confused don't worry it'll all make since in the end. I'm SOOOOOOO sorry that was sooo short. Ok sorry if you like the dramatic ending better but this one will be good too I just can't handle a sad ending right now.ok PLEASE review telling me if you liked it or not.