(Ok I know most of you are asking why aren't Cordy and Fred in the fic or maybe not but I thought I would fill you in they're not in her because I wanted a little mysterious thing for when the Angel, Lorne, Gunn, Wesley, and Connor go back to L.A. Don't worry neither of them are dead in my fics they found some help for A.I. Anyways on with the story so Rain's dead, Connor is mad at Angel, Buffy is depressed because she lost her friend, The Summers hate losing their only little girl, the sisters lost their youngest to heaven where the mother is, and Xander and Willow don't know what to do. I hope you enjoy! I think I might have just 2 more chapters to this story then I'll start the sequel. I wanted to put the funeral in this one.)
Connor sat on Rain's bed and watched as her family packed stuff into boxes. "Thanks I'm sure Rain will love what you picked out for her." Jewels voice interrupted the silence.
"Yeah sure."
"Here have these things. They were her favorites." Jewels handed him a mixed CD, a teddy bear, and pictures in a box. "O, here's her journal you could probably learn more about her."
"Thanks so after the funeral you're moving to L.A. go figure that's where I live."
"Yeah if you give me your number I could call and tell you our address so you could visit any time." Jewels sat down next to him.
"Ok I will. I miss her I really can't believe she's gone." Connor put his head in his hands.
"I know sweetie none of us can." Jewels put her arm around Connor's shoulders.
"I remember how Rain said that she wanted to be a doctor so she could save people's lives instead she grew up to be a slayer who saved the world and nobody knows. It's not fair!" Justin slammed a box closed.
"Justin it's going to be ok." Jewels hurried over to her son.
"The sad thing is I love and miss her so much but she's not even blood." Justin fell on his knees and started crying.
"I know Shh..." Jewels wrapped her arms around him. "She's with her real mom so that's good." Jewels tried to smile.
Mallory walked into the room slowly. "I spent so many fun times in here but I remember we fought about how she was such a tomboy and I told her she would never be beautiful like me. The next day she came up to me and said she was sorry for our fight I tried to say I was sorry too but she said I had nothing to be sorry for I was only telling the truth. I've never forgiven myself for being so cruel to her." Tears fell from her eyes. "I'll never be able to tell her how sorry I am." Ryan put an arm around her shoulder. "The school told our class, they say a car hit her. It's horrible she died saving the world but no one knows that."
"What's horrible is they aren't blaming Angel for her death." Connor stood up.
"Connor..." Jewels started slowly.
"None of you will ever change my mind it's Angel's fault for Rain's death. See you later." Connor walked away. Mallory followed him down the stairs and out the door.
"Rain wouldn't want you to blame you're dad." She yelled.
"Don't tell what she would want! You wouldn't know you weren't there for her!" He turned around.
"You're mad at me aren't you? It's because I didn't know she was going to die."
"Yes how didn't you know?"
"How was I supposed to know?"
"You could have asked!"
"O, what am I supposed to do? Hey Rain are you going to die anytime soon?" Tears rolled down Mallory's cheek.
"I'm sorry." Connor sat the box down and hugged Mallory. "I just love her and miss her so much." Tears glided down Connor's cheeks.
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
"Yeah me too she was my best friend and I hate this whole thing."
"Hey, umm.... Mine name is Tyler I am looking for Rain Summers do you know if she's home?" Tyler Grant walked onto the Summers porch where Connor and Mallory stood hugging.
"How did you know Rain?" Connor moved away from Mallory.
"Her brother and her gave me a ride home when I was drunk one time and what do you how did I know Rain?"
"Tyler my name is Mallory and this is Connor I was Rain's best friend and he was her boyfriend. Rain is dead." Mallory bit her bottom lip.
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
"That's impossible I just saw her two days ago running down the street so lively." Tyler sat down on the step.
"Well you're lucky you weren't so connected." Connor picked up the box.
"Look I may have only talk to her a few times but that doesn't mean I didn't like her she was like a little sister to me." Tyler was standing in front of Connor.
"Yeah but you weren't in love and practically engaged to her either." Connor pushed past him.
"You guys were practically engaged!" Mallory yelled.
"Yes the ring." Connor showed the Claddagh ring he wore. "I gave Rain one too they may be considered friendship rings to some people but to mine if a girl wears it on her left hand then she practically engaged. Guess what hand Rain's is on?"
"The left but she didn't know."
"Yeah actually she did I told her more about the ring the day in the park when we took pictures."
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
"Ok if you're engaged then what did you pick for her to wear?"
"What?" Tyler and Connor asked in unison.
"Come on that's the way to know if a guy is truly meant for a girl if he can pick out the right clothes."
"Ok I picked her Baby blue Angel Academy Tee and her blue jean flares, for her jewelry a cross necklace with a blue lining, and she wearing black leather boots."
"Rain must have had it bad." Mallory smiled. "That's her favorite shirt and she loves jean flares."
"Perfect we were so great for each other they decided to take her away. I've got to go Angel and Kay want to start packing to go back to L.A."
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
"Nice to meet you. When's the funeral?" Tyler looked at them.
"Saturday about 2 days from now." Connor started walking down the street.
"Hey Connor!" Connor looked up to see Dawn walking toward the cemetery.
"Hey Dawn what are you doing?"
"Buffy she went to visit our mom's grave I'm going to get her because Spike is worried sick. Where are you going?"
"Back to the hotel. Angel and Kay want to pack to go back to L.A."
"Well if you want you can come with me to get Buffy and I'm sure she wouldn't mind giving you a ride to the hotel."
"All right." Connor and Dawn walked together towards Joyce's grave.
Buffy hair was up in a ponytail; she was in a leather jacket and jeans. She bent down and set white roses on the grave.
"Buffy, Spike is wondering when you're coming home?" Dawn walked up to her sister's side.
Have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
As tears rolled down Buffy's cheeks she looked at Connor and Dawn she shook her head slowly. "I miss her I can't take losing somebody else." She put her arm around Connor's shoulders. "She loved you so much she doesn't want anything to happen to you."
"I know but Spike and Dawn love you they're worried you should go home and get some rest."
"Ok but let me take you to the hotel first. What's this?" Buffy looked at the box Connor held.
"Some of Rain's favorite things and her journal, her mom let me have them."
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
"That was sweet of her. Let's go Spike has probably already smoked a pack." Buffy turned around with the teenagers following.
"She's looking over me from heaven right?" Connor walked along side Buffy.
"Yeah she's smiling down on you." Buffy wiped tears away.
Have you ever find someone
You dreamt of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
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"I would love to be standing next to you." Rain frowned as she watched Connor and Buffy get into Buffy's car.
"Don't worry sweetie Connor and you can always be together in his dreams." Rain's real mom wrapped her arm around Rain's shoulder.
"That's not good enough." Tears slid down Rain's cheeks.
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes
And dreamt that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody
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"Thanks for the ride she you two later." Connor stepped out of the car and turned to face the hotel.
He walked slowly inside. "There you are." Connor looked up to see Gunn.
"Hey Gunn."
"You're dad is looking for you." Gunn came up to Connor.
"He's not my dad." Connor walked slowly to the elevator.
"You're sounding more like a teen every day."
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
"Connor where have you been?" Angel asked as Connor stepped in the room.
"I was helping the Summers pack up Rain's things." Connor lifted up his duffel bag and started packing.
"What's in the box?" Angel frowned at his son.
"Some of Rain's things Mrs. Summers gave them to me."
"Connor, Gunn, Wesley I would appreciate it very much if he don't speak about Rain in L.A. especially in front of Cordy and Fred let's not get them all worked up."
"You just don't want them thinking you're a killer." Connor glared at Angel.
"No Connor I just don't want to make this bigger then it already is."
Have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
"Fine whatever." Connor put some more clothes in his bag. Something fell when he picked up one of his shirts. "What is this?" Connor picked it up it was another Claddgh ring.
"Where did you find that?" Angel took it from Connor.
"It fell from my shirt."
"I gave this to Kay when we where in France."
"Well how did it get in my shirt?" Connor looked puzzled. "Wait a minute I wore this shirt the night I slept in Kay's house the same night Rain picked something off the dock that must have been it."
"Why would Rain give it to you?"
"Well she knew she was dying maybe she wanted me to find whom it belonged to for her."
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
There was a knock on the door and Wesley answered it, Kay walked in. "Hey guys."
"Kay this belongs to you." Angel handed her the ring.
"Where did you find that? I've been looking all over for it."
"We think Rain found it and handed it to me without me noticing." Connor smiled at Kay.
"How are you holding up?" Kay walked over to him giving him a pity look.
"I'm hanging in there sometimes I feel like killing myself but I know that's not what she wants me to do."
Kay hugged him close. "I'm sorry."
"I know you are but it's not your fault."
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep
"Thank you by the way for letting Gabby come with us she's very grateful." Kay smiled at Angel.
"No problem Wesley seems to like her." Angel whispered.
"Are you all packed?" Gunn asked Kay.
"Yeah we are."
"Ok then I'll come by tomorrow to but your stuff in the truck. I'm going to call Fred and tell her we're coming home in two days."
"I'm going to go check on Lorne and see if he's ready." Wesley and Gunn left the room.
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
"I just going to get out of here maybe I'll go see Spike and Buffy. I'm done packing anyway." Connor moved past Kay and Angel.
"Would you like a ride?" Kay asked.
"To the doorstep please and thank you." Connor turned around.
Kay snapped her fingers and Connor was on Buffy's porch. He knocked on the door and Dawn opened it with a smile. "Hey can't resist us?" She laughed. "Come in."
"No I just needed to get away from Angel and Buffy, Spike, and you make me feel better. You're more like family then he is."
Have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
"Connor I was suspecting you." Buffy walked into the hall.
"Sorry but you know." Buffy nodded.
"Come in Spike and me are watching Passions. He tapes them so I can watch them when I get home from work."
"Hey Spike." Connor sat down next to the blond vamp.
"Hey mate. Do ever watch Passions?"
"No but when Rain wasn't at school she did it was her favorite soap." Connor frowned.
"It's ok." Buffy sat on the other side of Spike and leaned against him.
Dawn sat down next to Connor. "We all miss her." Dawn rubbed Connor's back.
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
"The first night I told her I loved her she promised me that no matter what when she turned 18 that we would get married even if we had to elope to do it." Connor smiled.
Buffy looked up into Spike's blue piercing eyes and nodded. "Not to change the subject or anything but luv and I have something to say we're engaged."
"Congratulations that's wonderful!" Dawn smiled.
"Yeah that's great! You'll have to tell me when the wedding is that way I can come."
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
The phone rang and Buffy picked it up to hear Angel. "Hey yes he's here." Buffy put her hand over the receiver. "Connor it's for you."
"Hello?"
"Hey Connor I just wanted to know that you were all right."
"I'm fine and I found out some good news."
"What's that?" Angel asked surprised.
"Spike and Buffy are engaged." Connor smiled at a shocked Buffy.
"What!" Angel yelled. "Let me talk to Buffy!" Connor handed the phone back to Buffy.
"Hey Angel. Yes I'm marrying Spike. What do you mean why? Because I love him and he loves me that's why!" Buffy hung up the phone.
Have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
"Are you all right luv?" Spike brushed some of Buffy's hair out of her face.
"Yes but Angel has the nerve to say I was drunk when I said yes!"
"That poof!" Spike stood up quickly and grabbed his duster.
"Where are you going?"
"To beat the bloody pulp out of him!" Spike growled.
"Spike sit down you're not going anywhere." Buffy stood up.
"Luv he's insulting us both and I don't care that he's my sire he deserves to be taught a lesson."
"You're not helping the situation by beating the bloody pulp out of him!"
"Bloody hell you're still on his side!"
"No I'm not!"
"Yes you are no matter how much love I give you peaches will always be ahead of me in your heart!"
"That's not true!"
"Bloody hell it isn't!" Spike ran up stairs and slammed a door.
Buffy ran out the front door and slammed it. "Damn Angel!" Connor hissed. "He's going to pay! For Spike, Buffy, and Rain." Connor stood up and ran out the back door.
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
(What's Connor going to do to Angel? Will anyone stop him? Are Buffy and Spike going to be able to work things out? All Rain wants is to be with Connor but she's stuck in limbo with her mom. Will the Scoobies get her out? Review to find out!)