Title: Beyond Transgression, 1/10
Author: Chocolatequeen
Email: g_chocolatequeen@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: If I owned it, That Which Was Suggested That Did Not Happen would never even have been suggested… I just keep telling myself his contract has been renewed, so there's nothing to worry about. And if it hasn't, take pity and don't tell me!!
Rating:
Archiving: Just ask
Summary: The timeline for this story falls within ATY, and each section leads to the next. However, it is primarily a series of flashbacks and introspectives.
"in·gres·sion ([pic]n-gr[pic]sh[pic][pic]n) A going in or entering. 2. Right or permission to enter. 3. A means or place of entering." (American Heritage Dictionary
Chapter 1: Ingression (Sydney's POV)
I can still hear Sark's voice ringing in my ear, and for the millionth time, I ask myself how I got into this. "This" being SD-6, the CIA, lying, putting my friends in danger… "this" being my life.
I know what I told the FBI Tribunal about feeling like my life was going nowhere and wanting a purpose, but I wonder if that was the complete truth. Sometimes, I wonder if I was, in fact, born into this life, in the same way that a prince is born to be king. As the daughter of my parents, am I the heir apparent to the life of secrets and lies?
Perhaps it was genetic—maybe scientists will someday discover the Spy Gene, the one which commits your mind to actions before your heart can fully understand what the ramifications will be, claiming it is all for the good of the nation. If this is the case, I hope they realize what a huge genetic flaw this is and work on a cure.
But maybe it was just fate. Maybe this is the life I was supposed to live, and I was drawn into the web because I wanted to make a difference, to know that my life mattered in the bigger picture. All I know is that now, I desperately want to get out.
As I prepare to meet Vaughn, I realize that I am getting myself into something entirely new. I've always been open and honest with him, but not this time. My friend's life depends on me keeping a secret from the one person who I try to tell everything.
Even more than my father, he was there for me when I found out exactly what I had walked into at SD-6. My father told me what SD-6 is, Vaughn showed me. I'll never forget the knots in the pit of my stomach when I understood how far and deep it stretches and realized this wouldn't be a short mission.
At that point, I wondered if I was in over my head. Was the life of a double agent too much for me to handle? These doubts still resurface from time to time, but each time, he has been there for me. He walked into SD-6 to save me, and he's saved my sanity too many times to count.
And now I have to walk into our warehouse—the place that has always meant honesty between us—and lie to him. I don't want to do it, but it's the one chance I have to save Will. It's dangerous and risky, but this time I'm going in with my eyes wide open.
Author: Chocolatequeen
Email: g_chocolatequeen@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: If I owned it, That Which Was Suggested That Did Not Happen would never even have been suggested… I just keep telling myself his contract has been renewed, so there's nothing to worry about. And if it hasn't, take pity and don't tell me!!
Rating:
Archiving: Just ask
Summary: The timeline for this story falls within ATY, and each section leads to the next. However, it is primarily a series of flashbacks and introspectives.
"in·gres·sion ([pic]n-gr[pic]sh[pic][pic]n) A going in or entering. 2. Right or permission to enter. 3. A means or place of entering." (American Heritage Dictionary
Chapter 1: Ingression (Sydney's POV)
I can still hear Sark's voice ringing in my ear, and for the millionth time, I ask myself how I got into this. "This" being SD-6, the CIA, lying, putting my friends in danger… "this" being my life.
I know what I told the FBI Tribunal about feeling like my life was going nowhere and wanting a purpose, but I wonder if that was the complete truth. Sometimes, I wonder if I was, in fact, born into this life, in the same way that a prince is born to be king. As the daughter of my parents, am I the heir apparent to the life of secrets and lies?
Perhaps it was genetic—maybe scientists will someday discover the Spy Gene, the one which commits your mind to actions before your heart can fully understand what the ramifications will be, claiming it is all for the good of the nation. If this is the case, I hope they realize what a huge genetic flaw this is and work on a cure.
But maybe it was just fate. Maybe this is the life I was supposed to live, and I was drawn into the web because I wanted to make a difference, to know that my life mattered in the bigger picture. All I know is that now, I desperately want to get out.
As I prepare to meet Vaughn, I realize that I am getting myself into something entirely new. I've always been open and honest with him, but not this time. My friend's life depends on me keeping a secret from the one person who I try to tell everything.
Even more than my father, he was there for me when I found out exactly what I had walked into at SD-6. My father told me what SD-6 is, Vaughn showed me. I'll never forget the knots in the pit of my stomach when I understood how far and deep it stretches and realized this wouldn't be a short mission.
At that point, I wondered if I was in over my head. Was the life of a double agent too much for me to handle? These doubts still resurface from time to time, but each time, he has been there for me. He walked into SD-6 to save me, and he's saved my sanity too many times to count.
And now I have to walk into our warehouse—the place that has always meant honesty between us—and lie to him. I don't want to do it, but it's the one chance I have to save Will. It's dangerous and risky, but this time I'm going in with my eyes wide open.