A/n: Hope ya like…
Chapter Three
The Day AfterIt was still quite early in the morning and I had taken refuge in Mirkwood. Near a small pond that wasn't close to the edge of the forest, nor was it so deep to be threatened by the spiders and I sat there staring at my reflection in disgust. I could not face Thalion; I actually slept in the forest just to avoid him. Lossenethir covered for me. I told him I had to be alone for a while.
I listened to the birds chirp sweetly; listened to the water as I ran my finger across the surface. I lay down on my back and watched the sky through holes in the canopy. I made myself clear my mind and think of nothing but there and then. No Thalion, no forbidden love just me lying in the grass by a pond.
That soon proved to be unsuccessful as my mind began to wander. I began to think about Thalion and our life together over the years. You know, about how it was just us as brothers not anything else. He was my partner in crime, or was it that I was his partner in crime? I loved our pranks, especially the ones we pulled on Celebiathion. He always had the best reactions to them.
Then Thalion's eyes found their way into my mind. I always loved his eyes. Everyone thinks they are the mirror image of my own, but they are not. His are so much more passionate than my own. He always said my eyes were gentle and caring. His eyes were always filled with a mischievous glint, passion about something, arrogance or defiance and sometimes there was a mixture of them, but that was toward everyone else. I would receive the beautifully serene, loving look he reserved for only me.
Only me… That made me think about all the times he looked at me. All the times I thought were looks of brotherly adoration and nothing more, all the times I would scold myself for wanting something more from those looks, they were for me, only me and that there was something meant by it.
Then that brought me back to my dilemma. It is wrong to love kin, especially your brother, I thought sadly, but how can something that feels so right be so wrong?
I stared at the sky as tears began to form in my eyes for a second time in the past twenty-four hours. Everything was so complicated. Everything was so unfair. If only I could change the world, if only I could be normal. But I'm not normal! I thought angrily. I started venting my rage by shouting about everything I thought was unfair. Then, for some strange reason, I dozed off.
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I slowly came to consciousness and I suddenly became aware that I couldn't feel the sun on my face. I was too far away from my sword to do anything too substantial to whatever was there, yes I knew something was the because I could hear the soft breath of whatever it was. I was afraid to move, even open my eyes but I thought I had to do it sometime. I slowly opened my eyes and looked into the smiling but still troubled eyes of my brother.
"Thalion!" I said quickly as I sat up nearly whipping him with my hair.
"Maikalindë!" He said as he sat back on his knees.
"What are you doing here?" I asked quietly lowering my gaze from his eyes.
"I was worried when I couldn't find you yesterday. I asked Lossenethir and he said that you were in the forest," he said simply and I nodded looking slightly absent minded. Oh Lossenethir how could you? I thought slightly angry. I didn't know what to say to him. Really, what could I have said?
We sat in very awkward silence for quite some time. Finally, Thalion spoke.
"We're going camping tomorrow," he said quietly. That came from out of nowhere, but that's what he probably came to tell me.
"Thalion, listen… We need-," I started.
"I know. Maika, I don't know how you feel. Lossenethir said I should give you space for a little while. I gave you all night and I was going to give you today and tomorrow, but every moment I'm away from you I feel like I am missing half of myself. I cannot be away from you for long because it is agony. I know I don't know how you feel, but I know how I feel and I love you. It doesn't matter that we're brothers. At least not to me. Sure, it'll bother other people and I don't know how our brothers will take it and-," Thalion said quickly and was about to keep going. My heart soared at what he was suggesting.
"Thalion?"
"If you don't want to I completely understand-," He just kept going.
"Thalion?"
"Hmm? Yeah?"
"You're babbling," I pointed out quietly. He smiled.
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A/N: O.k. I know this may have happened a little quicker than one might have liked but oh well… Well tell me what ya think… That's all for now… Thanks for reading and reviewing… Thanks again, Luv Gia