Dear Oz ,
Hey. It's me Willow. I got your letter a few days ago. I barely just got back from Westbury, England with Giles. He really helped me through a tough time. I know you didn't mean to criticize me in the letter, but honestly you really helped me think about things. Something really went over me that night that Tara died. I just wanted revenge on Warren.
I can't explain the pain and hurt that was surging through my veins at that moment. I loved Tara, Oz. Just like I loved you. And a part of me still does. I just couldn't help it. A part of me was lost forever the night she died. A part of me die when you left. You told me you had the whole wolf thing under control. But you really didn't Oz
. You tried to attack Tara, the Initiative got you and practically wanted to dissect you. After you left, I tried to do a spell to make the hurt go away, that spell went awry. It just things got so screwed p and didn't help the pain one bit.
I felt like I was drowning in a pool of depression. I loved you. You helped me during graduation, you helped me through life. You accepted me after the whole Xander thing. But there were times when I needed you when you weren't there. Especially during Buffy's death. And yeah, part of me regrets bringing back Buffy from the dead when she was so at peace.
She's finally happy to be alive and be in the world where people love her. You don't know the feeling I felt when I saw you with Veruca. I felt me heart tear into pieces. That same day I walked around town feeling numb and blurry. Oz, you were my first love and you'll always will be
. But I needed you during so many times, that I felt vulnerable. And I'm glad you felt a little piece of comfort with that girl in China. And I'm also glad you're trying to help Jordy. He does deserve a normal life.
When I was in England a few weeks ago, after the whole scary-veiny Willow thing, Giles took me to a coven where these witches taught me about the proper use of magic. One day when I was with Giles, I pulled up a magic flower from Paraguay, and I told Giles how everything in this earth was connected, the roots and everything.
A little while later, I felt the hell mouth. And it had teeth, literally. I told Giles how the hell mouth was "going to swallow up hole". We never mentioned it until the day I left London. I came back to Sunnydale, worried about how the SG would react.
I made myself disappear from ll that worry. Buffy and Xander didn't find me until Anya told them and I made my self visible to them. Luckily Buffy anf I talked, and she made me strong again. But sometimes I feel like I want YOU around. You kept me steady in the toughest of times. I would really like to see you again. But to tell the truth, I really don't know how I would react.
There times I want to talk to you, be in your arms again. Pretend the breakup never happened, pretend that you were never a wolf that changed three nights a month, pretend that there was no hell mouth or evil in this world. I hope you can really find that balance between monster and man. I'll be there when you do.
I hope I can really live life normal as possible again. I really miss you, and please take care of yourself.
Remember, you were my first love.
You will always be.
Love, Willow Rosenburg
Hey. It's me Willow. I got your letter a few days ago. I barely just got back from Westbury, England with Giles. He really helped me through a tough time. I know you didn't mean to criticize me in the letter, but honestly you really helped me think about things. Something really went over me that night that Tara died. I just wanted revenge on Warren.
I can't explain the pain and hurt that was surging through my veins at that moment. I loved Tara, Oz. Just like I loved you. And a part of me still does. I just couldn't help it. A part of me was lost forever the night she died. A part of me die when you left. You told me you had the whole wolf thing under control. But you really didn't Oz
. You tried to attack Tara, the Initiative got you and practically wanted to dissect you. After you left, I tried to do a spell to make the hurt go away, that spell went awry. It just things got so screwed p and didn't help the pain one bit.
I felt like I was drowning in a pool of depression. I loved you. You helped me during graduation, you helped me through life. You accepted me after the whole Xander thing. But there were times when I needed you when you weren't there. Especially during Buffy's death. And yeah, part of me regrets bringing back Buffy from the dead when she was so at peace.
She's finally happy to be alive and be in the world where people love her. You don't know the feeling I felt when I saw you with Veruca. I felt me heart tear into pieces. That same day I walked around town feeling numb and blurry. Oz, you were my first love and you'll always will be
. But I needed you during so many times, that I felt vulnerable. And I'm glad you felt a little piece of comfort with that girl in China. And I'm also glad you're trying to help Jordy. He does deserve a normal life.
When I was in England a few weeks ago, after the whole scary-veiny Willow thing, Giles took me to a coven where these witches taught me about the proper use of magic. One day when I was with Giles, I pulled up a magic flower from Paraguay, and I told Giles how everything in this earth was connected, the roots and everything.
A little while later, I felt the hell mouth. And it had teeth, literally. I told Giles how the hell mouth was "going to swallow up hole". We never mentioned it until the day I left London. I came back to Sunnydale, worried about how the SG would react.
I made myself disappear from ll that worry. Buffy and Xander didn't find me until Anya told them and I made my self visible to them. Luckily Buffy anf I talked, and she made me strong again. But sometimes I feel like I want YOU around. You kept me steady in the toughest of times. I would really like to see you again. But to tell the truth, I really don't know how I would react.
There times I want to talk to you, be in your arms again. Pretend the breakup never happened, pretend that you were never a wolf that changed three nights a month, pretend that there was no hell mouth or evil in this world. I hope you can really find that balance between monster and man. I'll be there when you do.
I hope I can really live life normal as possible again. I really miss you, and please take care of yourself.
Remember, you were my first love.
You will always be.
Love, Willow Rosenburg