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A/n: Hello, how are you doing? Hope you are fine and ready for this chapter. Mind you, but this is by far the longest chapter that I've ever written in my life. This chapter goes out to my dear sugar honey bun KyteAura! That wonderful chic reads every single ExT there is in FF.net I'm telling you! Hehehe and she give tremendous support to us authors. I'm sure many other authors do agree with me. Lol! So KyteAura, my darling Tomoyo- chan (due to some random guild in neopets) do enjoy this little ficcie.
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*Continuation*
Title of Fiction: Porcelain Tears of Polaris (Poosuren Koimizu Hokkyokusei)
*-*------- = = = = Broken Spirits towards a Broken Soul = = = = -------*-*
Obstacles comes through my path .......
I do not care for I have nothing to be attached to ..........
I may seem cold in that way .........
But if you look at me properly ........
You'll see a girl who's afraid to love .......
Because she is too afraid of what love would do ......
To her....
And the one who loves her ........
* *
Days go by like it had always gone. She had been on the smiling mode for almost everyday. It was a pretty sight to see.
Tomoyo, the smiling star.
She had been truly happy during the whole week despite the horrible chemotherapy that she had to go through. She had begun to experience nothing but physical pain. However, it was nothing that she couldn't handle. The blood that she coughed out had also come out in clods but she ignored it.
After all, it did not matter.
Time was the essence and she knew that she had to tell someone.
Just didn't know that the someone would be him.
She thought that it would have been so easy to not let her emotions out.
She was wrong; it had been harder than she had thought.
* * *
Just about a couple days ago, she was invited to Eriol's mansion for tea.
Of course, she did not decline the offer. Nakuru made the tastiest Earl Grey tea and she was content to spending more time with Eriol. It seems that he was quite troubled. Of course, being his secretive self, he would not reveal anything to her. She just smiled and waited for him to tell.
"Hiragizawa-kun, tell me, what has been troubling you this few days? You seem restless", Tomoyo asked.
He smiled at her, the trademark one. The one that made every girl in Tomoeda high swoon and melt there and then. The one that he smiled to keep the people around him comfortable.
"Nothing at all. Just some minor little problems", he answered, truthfully.
"Are you sure?" she asked, raising an eyebrow on him.
He shot her another smile and sipped his tea.
"Absolutely positively sure", he answered.
She let him off. She respected his decision since he didn't want to tell him. She knew better than to force it out of him. He was one with all the mystery and secrets behind his spectacles and those dark azure eyes of his.
To her, he had grown a lot. He was tall of course, the same height as Syaoran and Yamazaki. A perfect height of 6'4, English perfection. His natural navy blue hair was just the way it was a few years ago. It was naturally straight and of course, naturally middle parted, giving him the young boyish looks that he captures his admirers with.
He was not one with sports but he was one with art. His artwork, paintings, drawings and sketches were always at the scale of perfection. He had done many beautiful pastel paintings which were hung in the school's art rooms.
Music was his other passion that she had noticed. The piano was his key element and his key tool. His performances in school and his private performances to her were utterly magnificent. The pieces that he played brought more than just emotions to the listener but it had brought life to the piece with different sways of flows. She was lucky enough to hear him play.
The other secret that she had kept of him was one about his past love. Kaho Mizuki or Mizuki-sensei was the woman that he had grown to love. It was a bitter break up. She who has promised to stay by her side had broken the promise by leaving him saying that they do not belong together. She could not love Eriol for who he was because she was only in love with Clow Reed. It had broken his heart permanently but it mended in time.
Tomoyo was the one who helped him through it. She was the one who pulled him out of it. She was there when it all happened. She happened to stop by and Nakuru had let her in. When she stopped by at the room, she heard a soft voice explaining everything. Then, Mizuki-sensei left and was never to be seen again. Eriol was broken. He didn't know how to act.
She spent about two weeks with him in the mansion, comforting him till he snapped out of it. She was there to extricate him from the pain that was in his heart. She was comforting. She let him be alone for a few days before really getting to help him. She was there, being her effeminacy self. He had first tried to block her from helping him but that didn't work. She had gotten through his barriers than no one else had.
Together, they had tea at the open garden along with Nakuru and Spinel Sun. Like usual, Nakuru and Spinel Sun were bickering over some random stuff that Nakuru had been doing. Nakuru was pouting and calling Spinel by his nickname 'Suppi-chan'. He was obviously annoyed. Nakuru ended up stalking off, angrily into the house.
It was an adorable sight to see. Then, Tomoyo asked Eriol to walk with her in the gardens that never seem to die with the seasons. It was already towards the end of spring and the garden looked spectacular. The roses were beautiful, the lavenders were fragrant, the lilies were attractive, the orchids were enchanting and the rest of the flowers were just breath taking.
It was really, a sight to see. The last time she was in the garden was with Sakura and Syaoran along with Eriol, of course. They were doing a group project on different species of flowers for Science and had to go get a few different kinds and flowers to press dry for their presentation.
Still, she never seems to get sick of the garden. It was like heaven to her and she was like the Goddess who danced in the gardens although she was only walking and touching every single flower with her soft, gentle fingers.
Spinel Sun and Eriol was observing the girl from where they were standing. Spinel Sun had agreed to follow them and he had seen a very slight difference in Tomoyo. He decided to make a few comments on it to his master. He seems to have taken account with the way she interacted with the flowers. It was as though as she was cherishing it for its life as if she will never see them again.
"Eriol-sama, doesn't Daidouji-san seem a bit to cheery for some reason?" he asked.
Eriol nodded his head as they both observed Tomoyo.
"I sense her aura weakening, Master. It worries me that she seems to be hiding something again", Spinel said.
"I have noticed it too, Spinel but I will not force it out of her. Knowing her, she will keep it until she is ready to tell and I do not wish to pry into her mind to find out without her consent", Eriol said.
The flying creature nodded and sat on Eriol's shoulder. Eriol walked towards Tomoyo who was enjoying herself with the charming sight of the plum blossoms. She was so in content with the flower. She reached out and grazed the flower, feeling the delicate texture with her long fingers. She leaned forward to smell it; the fragrance took her to another utopian era. It was simply marvelous.
"I must insist, Daidouji-san that you stay for the night here with us", Eriol stated.
"Oh Hiragizawa-kun, I do not wish to be a bother to you", Tomoyo answered.
"A bother? What makes you think you are a bother to me? I must insist that you do stay the night with us", Eriol said.
"Well.. Alright, I will stay since mother isn't home anyway. Let me make a phone call and I shall join you for the night", Tomoyo said.
Tomoyo smiled and the three walked back into the mansion. Eriol told Nakuru about Tomoyo spending the night with them and instantly, she went on a hyper mode. She hugged Tomoyo in hysterics. That caused Tomoyo to smile even more.
* * * *
That night she helped Nakuru and Eriol with cooking the dinner. Spinel Sun watched and tasted the food. Together, they managed to avoid the usual burning down kitchen incidents that Nakuru had always make. They made an Italian meal and a dessert to hit it off. Tomoyo and Eriol's skills in cooking were absolutely a big help to the meal. They were both busy in making the sauces and the perfect dish.
Nakuru was the one to cut the vegetables, meet and prepare the ingredients while Tomoyo and Eriol cooked. The three settled for Spaghetti Bolognaise and Alfredo Fettuccini. For desert, they made Tiramisu. It was a rather busy timing to cook with all that was to be done.
Nakuru watched as both Tomoyo and Eriol got themselves busy with cooking the meal. Tomoyo got to boiling the hot water and cooking the spaghetti and white Fettuccini. It took quite a bit for it to cook as it was dried. Tomoyo made Nakuru watch it boil as she added salt into the water.
With the noodles being made ready, Eriol was already heating up the pan with olive oil. He was making the Bolognaise sauce for the spaghetti. He fried the chopped garlic and onions until it brought a nice fragrance and added some herbs into it as well. He stirred it for a while and added in the minced pork and beef into it. With the fire being nice and hot, the meat seems to cook easily. He stirred it as he added it the tomato puree. Just after that, he let it simmer for a while. He added the salt and sugar to it and closed the lid.
Tomoyo went to busy herself with the Alfredo sauce. The Alfredo sauce was basically a three cheese sauce. A mix of Parmesan, Mozzarella and normal cheese was cooked and melted into a sauce. The olive oil was added in first into the small pot. The olive oil was the most important ingredient in Italian dishes, it is said to bring the flavors from the soil to the food.
Tiny chopped pieces of garlic were fried with the mushrooms. Salt and sugar was added of course. Slight herbs like thyme and chives were added in to bring aroma. Then, she added in the three cheeses that were already melted into the mix and gave it a nice stir. She added a bit of water and let the sauce boil and thicken.
By the time the spaghetti and fettuccini was done, the sauce was also done. Spinel Sun helps by setting up the table at the dining hall. He also helps by setting up the cutleries on the table. Both the chefs gave Nakuru a taste of their sauce and she started jumping up and down due to the delicious taste lingering in her mouth. When it was done, the three set up to work on the Tiramisu.
The Tiramisu was some sort of an egg and cream pudding. It was also some sort of a soufflé but not really one as well. The three settled in for a small dish of it. In a bowl, Tomoyo whisked the egg and cream together along with a couple of spoons of sugar. She added a bit of coffee powder and Kahlua into it to give it the flavor.
Eriol and Nakuru cut the sponge fingers and laid it into the plate for layering. When Tomoyo was done stirring the cream together, she sprayed the cream on top of the sponge fingers and let it have a generous amount of cream. Another layer of sponge fingers were added and the rest of the cream was spread nicely on top.
Since the tiramisu was supposed to be left overnight in the fridge for the flavor to blend, Eriol whisked a bit of his magic to make it the way it was supposed to be without having to leave it overnight. The Tiramisu was done and was left in the fridge while the three went to serve the rest of the food.
Dinner was superb. The dishes turned out pretty well and it was delicious. The four chatted away as they enjoyed their food, happy that it had all turned out pretty well. Nakuru couldn't help but go hyper as she savored the food. Spinel Sun made a comment about Nakuru being a daft for being so into her food. He also commented that if she doesn't stop eating, she's going to be so fat that she can't fit into the door.
Nakuru was angry but she allowed it to slip. She knew how to get him back for it when it comes to dessert. She is going the stuff the Tiramisu in his mouth and watch as he act all hyper and drunk. Eriol and Tomoyo exchanged glances and exchanged smiles as they continue to eat their dinner.
* * * * *
The chords and running scales of Pachelbel's Cannon in D major was heard in the middle of the night throughout the mansion. Tomoyo was awakened the gentle tune of the piece. She knew instantly that it was Eriol. She grabbed the borrowed robes of Nakuru and headed downstairs to the hall where she knew Eriol was at, playing the piece. She made her way through the dark halls.
The specific piece was one of her many favorites. It was simple and sweet by hearing but to play it was complicated. When she got to the room, she saw Eriol sitting on the bench with his fingers playing on the keys. She found an armchair and sat on it, watching him play the enchanting tune. She liked the way Eriol had managed to bring emotions into the piece. It was touching and beautiful.
As he ended the piece with running chords, Tomoyo clapped to his superb playing. He turned around to see her, sitting on the chair just by the window where the moonlight had shine to her face, creating a very beautiful goddess smiling at him. He shook his head, trying to discard the thought that he had fallen for her. He had asked her to go out with her once but she had gently rejected him saying that it was better that they stay friends. He had respected her decision but never stopped loving her.
"What are you doing up so late, Hiragizawa-kun?" she said.
Another smile from the pianist.
"Just some running thoughts in my head", he answered.
"Care to share them with me?" she asked.
He made his way towards her and sat by the bay window just next to her.
"I was thinking of you actually", he said.
"Me?" she asked, questioningly.
"Yes you, my dear Daidouji-san", he said.
A quick blush crept on her cheeks as she looked into his eyes. She had a slight fear in falling in love. Truth was, she did have feelings for him but had not pursue it as to her illness. She had rejected him the other time telling him that she would prefer it better if they stay friends because of some personal reasons that she would not disclose. He did not ask her to explain on furthermore and had respected her decision.
"What about me, Hiragizawa-kun?" she asked.
"Well, let's just say that lately I've notice your aura weakening and I am rather suspicious about your health. Do tell, Daidouji-san, are you alright?" he asked.
She didn't know what to answer him. The secret that she had kept so well. It was just about to be blown, just like that? A mixture of hesitation and longing crept inside of her, swirling in deep fusion. She looked back into his eyes.
Suddenly, a pain struck her chest as if someone pounding a hammer on her. She winced in pain, grabbing her chest. She closed her eyes, filling the air in her lungs being sucked out. She began coughing hysterically.
Eriol panicked as he watched her wince in pain and cough in madness. Her aura as he sensed began to drop. He watched her cough into her hands and saw dark red droplets dripping down her hand. His eyes widened. She looked as if she couldn't breath.
He held his hand to her chest and concentrated on it. His energy was placed into hers and it had help calm her down a bit. Her coughs stopped and her breathing seemed to be normal again. She had her eyes closed as she felt the painful sensation leave her.
The quick pain had managed to answer Eriol's answer. He helped her to the bathroom to clean up the blood on her hands. There was silence throughout the short trip there. She let the water run as she washed the blood off her hands and her mouth. She gurgled the water in her mouth and spit it out. She knew that she had to tell Eriol.
He helped her again as she was weak into her room. She kept tumbling down as if she was too weak. Then, Eriol just put his arm under her knees and picked her up. She muffled a weak protest but had known better as she was weak. She wrapped her arms around his neck as he carried her.
"Hiragizawa-kun, you cannot tell Sakura or the others about this", she muttered, weakly.
He was silent as he carried her into her room. He did not answer her at all. He set her down on the bed and put the duvet on her. Then, he sat down just on the side of her bed, waiting for her to tell him about her condition.
She looked up at him, with her amethyst orbs. She was weak and she was in pain. She had kept the secret for quite sometime and she knew that it was no coincidence that Eriol had found out. Maybe she had wanted him to find out the moment he invited her for the night. She had wanted to tell him about it for so long. She took a deep breath and looked into his eyes. Dark azure met amethyst.
"Eriol..... I'm dying", she said.
At that moment, his facial expressions changed to disbelief. She reached out for his hand and held it. She had felt what he was feeling. The feeling of empathy when someone was about to lose their life was harsh.
"How?" he asked.
"I have lung cancer. Malignant Mesothelioma to be exact. I'm on stage 4 of the cancer and the cancer cells have already spread out to my organs and tissues", she said, tears forming.
"Why didn't you tell me? Or us?" He asked.
She covered her eyes and just cried. He instantly wrapped his arms around her as she cried. She held on to his shirt as if it was the last thing that she could hold on to.
"I... I... I just couldn't bring myself to tell you. Eriol-kun.... Please help me... I'm desperate.. I don't know how to feel or what to do..." she said, crying.
"Ssh, it's alright", he said, comforting her and himself.
He held her in his arms for the night. She started to tell him about her condition and had mentioned how much time she had left. She told him that she didn't want any attachments as it would be hard for her to let go. He had understood her.
"I have found so much that I can let go and I just don't think that I want any attachments that will make it hard for me to let go. If I die, I would want to rest in peace", she said.
"So that was why you rejected me?" he asked.
She nodded her head. He was still holding her. Her head rested on his chest as her back was pressed against him. He held her by the waist as she rested her hands on his.
"But did you feel anything for me?" he asked.
"Yes, I did", she answered, softly.
"Then, why won't you let me share your last moments with you?" he asked, gently.
Tears began to fall again. She couldn't answer him. She didn't know what to answer him. It would be hard for her. This one something that she couldn't help but feel. He turned her around so she would face him. She looked into his eyes, unable to lie about her feelings anymore.
"They say that the eyes are the windows to one's soul", he murmured, tracing her jaw line with his finger.
"Is that really true?" she said.
He wiped away her tears with his thumb and traced her jaw line once again.
"I do believe so", he whispered.
"Then, tell me what do you see in mine", she said, softly.
He leaned in and looked even more deeply into her eyes. He held her face in his hands and felt her shiver.
"I see a girl longing to be loved but is afraid to love", he murmured.
She gave out a sad smile.
"But she knows that she has someone loving her no matter how hard she tries not to love him back", he said.
"I never said I could never love you back", she said.
"Tomoyo, please let me in. Let me be the one to share the rest of your life with you", he begged her.
Another tear trickled down her cheek.
"I.. I ...."
Before she could answer him, he had already leaned in to claim her lips. The kiss was filled in with emotions impassioned for far too long. He let the kiss be a sweet one so that she would always remember it with her. He knew that it was special because it was her first kiss. Her delicate lips were captured by his but she had allowed herself to respond to his soft calls.
The night was cold. Together, they both tried to figure things out. Both scared for each other. She was with him and it was all that had mattered to her. She had been afraid of not being able to let go but now, she didn't care. Her mind and her heart were not on the same terms. He had took her to somewhere that she had not been before. It had felt secure and warm.
That night was one of much warmth despite the coldness of the air. She had told him, the one person that had held her heart her deepest secret. She had also let him into her heart for that one night. What they had that night was special, something that they would both share forevermore.
* * * * * *
School was like the usual. The same things happen. She got to her locker and opened it. It had been two days since she had spent the night at Eriol's. That morning she had left. He didn't come after her. He gave her space to think. That night was something special to her. It was more than just a night where secrets were let out, emotions were let out as well. She had walked to school not meeting anyone at all. It was still a bit empty as it was quite early. She had come to have more time alone.
She grabbed her things and came to her locker. She got the combination in and opened it. Today was no different, letters and envelopes fell down and were inserted into the special box. However, the dark red rose that usually lay in her locker was replaced by a dark navy blue one with a note as well. She held the envelope and took the note out. She unfolded the paper, reading the contents of it that was written in perfect linings.
It takes more than courage to love,
It takes more than steps to get above,
Secrets can only cover so much,
Why do you keep yourself to extents of such?
-Eriol Hiragizawa.
She folded the note and left it in the locker. She turned around, feeling his presence. She jumped a little, startled by his presence.
"Ohayo Daidouji-san", he said, in a rather cold tone.
"Ohayo Hiragizawa-kun", she answered.
An awkward silence followed by a group of giggling girls. She looked into his eyes then, away from his gaze.
"Do you mind accompanying me for a walk? I would like to have a little talk with you", he said.
She nodded as he offered his arm. She took it and together they walked out to the school's compound. They were silent as they made their way to the top of the fields. Slowly, his hand had found hers and she did not do anything about it. She just let him hold her hand. They walked together through the fields in silence. He held her hand but didn't say anything.
"So what did you want to talk about?" she asked.
They continued walking on as he spoke.
"How do you want our relationship to go? Shall we stay on friendship or shall we move on?" he asked.
"I don't know, Eriol", she answered, truthfully.
They stopped and he looked at her deeply in the eyes. He held both of her hands.
"I need time Eriol but I want to still share what we have", Tomoyo said.
"Ok, so what does this exactly make us?" Eriol asked.
"I would like us to remain as friends, Eriol. Please.... I don't think I can take another heartbreak", she said, sadly looking away.
It wasn't exactly an answer that he was looking for. He looked at her, in sadness. She still would not accept him. Even after that night with what they had shared, she still would not let him in. A lone tear trickled down her cheek.
"Please do understand that I just can't share this with you no matter how much feelings I have for you. I am so sorry, Eriol", she said, tears falling down her cheek.
He held her into his arms and gave her a light hugged. He felt his heart break into a million pieces. It was hard for her as much as it is hard for him. She did not want any attachments and she had vowed that she will not have any the moment she found out of her illness.
"Why did God have to make me fall for you at the wrong time?" he murmured.
She cried on his chest with tears falling down with pain in her own. She started gasping for air and coughing hysterically on his shirt. Blood spilled as she grabbed on to his shirt for dear life. He held her closer, letting his energy help her. The pain on her chest kept drumming on to her. Her eyes wide open with hard tears. The pain was just so tremendous. Her lungs had begun to lose air.
"Eriol.... Help me ... I- I- .. Eriol", she stuttered in between gasps.
As darkness consumed her sight, she collapsed. In Eriol's arms she lay, with the pain still pounding on her chest. Her limp and almost lifeless body had collapsed on his. Immediately, he used his magic and transported them to the nearest hospital. He ran towards the doctors and they took care of her from there.
He was left with worry and a heart ache. It had pained him to see her that way. The fact that she won't let him love her was another heartbreaker.
* * * * * * *
The hospital seemed like a hectic place no matter how calm the people look.
Doctors in white coats.
Nurses in their uniform.
Patients with their white gown.
The sight of people rushing around was an incredibly stressing sight. Eriol stood outside the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) room. Tomoyo was inside with a couple of specialist working on her. Sonomi Daidouji was later seen rushing down the hallway towards him. She looked stressed and very worried.
"What happened? How? Is she alright?" she asked, questions flying out.
Then, she saw Eriol and recognized him as one of her daughter's close friends besides Sakura. She quickly went to him. She saw his pale and saddened look. It seems that he had discovered Tomoyo's illness the hard way.
"Daidouji-san, they are working on her inside. I got her here as soon as I could", Eriol said.
"Thank you, Hiragizawa-kun. I would not have want to know what would have happened if you did not bring her here", Sonomi said.
He gave her a sad but courteous smile. She returned the favor. She looked through the glass window. The sight of several doctors working on her daughter was heartbreaking. She had kept it for so long. Her daughter had begged her not to let anyone know. She had specifically told her that she did not want sympathy because it would lead to attachments and she would not be able to let go.
Then, she looked at the boy standing next to her. He looked pale and worried. He also looked very sad. The first thought that came to her mind was love. She saw love in the boy with the way he was looking intensively through the glass. He had also a look of fear in his eyes. Perhaps, the fear of losing the girl that he was looking at.
"Hiragizawa-kun, you have feelings for my daughter, ne?" she asked, directly.
He was taken back a bit, but nodded.
"She told you, I assume", she said.
He nodded, again.
"I have a feeling that she loves you too, Hiragizawa-kun. Because she had not told anyone about it besides the ones that already knew. I doubt that even Sakura-chan knows about this", Sonomi said.
He didn't move. He just stood there.
"She does not return my feelings, Daidouji-san. She refuses to return it even if she does feel that way. She does not want attachments and I shall respect her decision on it", Eriol answered.
"I'm sure she has told you how long she can last until?" she questioned.
"Not long enough to stay for Christmas", he muttered.
Sonomi admired the young boy who seems to be wiser than his own age. She looked at him, sadly. He was still looking at the window, one hand pressed against the glass. What she saw was enough to convince her that it was love and it was a heartbreaking one.
Such a sad one.
It should not have been bestowed upon them.
They're only barely 18.
18 is where life ends and where it begins.
Is it true?
* * * * * * * *
"Eriol-sama?" a voice said.
"Yes, Ruby Moon", he answered.
"We have visitors", Nakuru said.
"Visitors? At such an ungodly hour?" he asked.
Nakuru nodded her head.
"Bring them in", Eriol said.
Nakuru nodded and left the room. Eriol was in a rather worried mood. Tomoyo was still unconscious in the hospital. He had come back because her mother asked him to do so. He was tired and Daidouji-san did not want him to get sick as well. He sat on his red armchair, looking out the distant skies at the bay window. Spinel Sun rested on his side, doing the same. Spinel had also been rather sad after what Eriol had told both him and Nakuru about Tomoyo's condition. All thoughts swayed away as the two much unexpected guest, appeared.
"Eriol-sama", two voices greeted.
Eriol turned around, startled to see Ceroberus and Yue standing at the door.
"Why.. Yue? Ceroberus? What a lovely surprise?" Eriol said.
"Eriol-sama, we wanted to talk to you about Daidouji-san", Ceroberus said.
Again, he was startled. Not expecting that the two guardians of the Clow mistress would come to him to talk about 'her'. He told them to sit as Nakuru came in as well. Ruby Moon and Spinel Sun had emerged in their true form.
"We sense a sad aura within you and we sense her aura weakening", Yue said, in his icy cold voice.
"We would like to know the truth from you what our mistress does not know", Ceroberus said.
"I'm surprised to know that you even care, Yue", Ruby Moon taunted.
Being Ruby Moon, she was very skeptical about Yue. She doesn't like him and he does not like her. Same goes for Spinel Sun and Ceroberus. They were basically rivalries.
"There's a lot that you do not know about me, Ruby Moon. So, do not go assuming that you do. Daidouji-san is our mistress' best friend and both Ceroberus and I have a special bond with the girl as well throughout the years", Yue answered.
"We can sense her as we can sense Sakura even if she is born without magic. We can sense that she is dying just like we did when Clow-sama was dying", Ceroberus said.
"Then, why did you come to me when you have already known?" Eriol asked.
Both Ceroberus and Yue exchanged looks. Spinel Sun and Ruby moon did the same and the four exchanged glances.
"We also sense something else, Eriol-sama", Spinel Sun said, quietly.
"Then, tell me", Eriol said.
"We sense grief in you as well and that is why we have all come here to try and comfort you", Ceroberus said.
Eriol was shocked. All four guardians were here, in his grief. They were trying to comfort him. He was touched. He smiled lightly at the four. He patter both Ceroberus and Spinel Sun.
"We all sense and know how you feel for her. It saddens us as well to know the fate that she holds. If there was anyway we could have saved her from her fate, we would but as you said, death is inevitable as well", Yue said.
"It worries us to see you like this, Master", Ruby moon said.
Ruby Moon was close to tears. She covered her face in grief. All four guardians had the same sad expression on their faces. The four did care for Tomoyo as much as they did for their own masters. They had created a bond with her during the past few years and had grown to share a love for her as they would have for their own masters. Eriol didn't know how it was possible but it had happened.
"You all know that I do love her but she would not let me. I cannot do anything but watch her and love her from afar. I respect her decision and her wishes even if it is against my own", he said, sadly.
A single tear fell down his cheek. It was a heartbreaking sight for all four of the guardians to see. They had never seen him like this before. He sat calm in his red armchair, looking out the dark skies. He looked calm and collected, full with passion and emotions. He might seem like he was carefree but inside, they knew that he was breaking.
His heart was shattering.
He knew that hers was as well.
So why is it so hard to not be together?
All he ever wanted at that specific time was just to hold her and spend the rest of her life at her side, loving her like no one could ever do but she had not allowed it. It was hard. The lone tear had fallen and was accompanied by several others. They said that men do not cry, it is a weakness but here sat a strong one crying tears for his beloved.
The droplet of tear fell from his cheek down to his hand.
As he looked outside, he found the Northern Star or Polaris as some would call it.
He saw a shooting star, shooting across the sky.
That was when he closed his eyes and made a wish.
'I wish that she would let me be by her side till the very her very last breath'.
*continuation*
A/n: Part 2 out of three! I hope you enjoy that one. *Passes out tissue papers* so do review! :D Now, if you will excuse me, I need to go cry my tears out because this chapter was heartbreaking for me. *runs to KyteAura and ruby_servantof_Eli and cries on their shoulder*
A/n: Hello, how are you doing? Hope you are fine and ready for this chapter. Mind you, but this is by far the longest chapter that I've ever written in my life. This chapter goes out to my dear sugar honey bun KyteAura! That wonderful chic reads every single ExT there is in FF.net I'm telling you! Hehehe and she give tremendous support to us authors. I'm sure many other authors do agree with me. Lol! So KyteAura, my darling Tomoyo- chan (due to some random guild in neopets) do enjoy this little ficcie.
P/s: I would also like to ask if you have MSN and you think this story should continue, add me and talk to me because I can get real lonely sometimes. So yea, read the story and give it a think. :D *CHEERS*
*Continuation*
Title of Fiction: Porcelain Tears of Polaris (Poosuren Koimizu Hokkyokusei)
*-*------- = = = = Broken Spirits towards a Broken Soul = = = = -------*-*
Obstacles comes through my path .......
I do not care for I have nothing to be attached to ..........
I may seem cold in that way .........
But if you look at me properly ........
You'll see a girl who's afraid to love .......
Because she is too afraid of what love would do ......
To her....
And the one who loves her ........
* *
Days go by like it had always gone. She had been on the smiling mode for almost everyday. It was a pretty sight to see.
Tomoyo, the smiling star.
She had been truly happy during the whole week despite the horrible chemotherapy that she had to go through. She had begun to experience nothing but physical pain. However, it was nothing that she couldn't handle. The blood that she coughed out had also come out in clods but she ignored it.
After all, it did not matter.
Time was the essence and she knew that she had to tell someone.
Just didn't know that the someone would be him.
She thought that it would have been so easy to not let her emotions out.
She was wrong; it had been harder than she had thought.
* * *
Just about a couple days ago, she was invited to Eriol's mansion for tea.
Of course, she did not decline the offer. Nakuru made the tastiest Earl Grey tea and she was content to spending more time with Eriol. It seems that he was quite troubled. Of course, being his secretive self, he would not reveal anything to her. She just smiled and waited for him to tell.
"Hiragizawa-kun, tell me, what has been troubling you this few days? You seem restless", Tomoyo asked.
He smiled at her, the trademark one. The one that made every girl in Tomoeda high swoon and melt there and then. The one that he smiled to keep the people around him comfortable.
"Nothing at all. Just some minor little problems", he answered, truthfully.
"Are you sure?" she asked, raising an eyebrow on him.
He shot her another smile and sipped his tea.
"Absolutely positively sure", he answered.
She let him off. She respected his decision since he didn't want to tell him. She knew better than to force it out of him. He was one with all the mystery and secrets behind his spectacles and those dark azure eyes of his.
To her, he had grown a lot. He was tall of course, the same height as Syaoran and Yamazaki. A perfect height of 6'4, English perfection. His natural navy blue hair was just the way it was a few years ago. It was naturally straight and of course, naturally middle parted, giving him the young boyish looks that he captures his admirers with.
He was not one with sports but he was one with art. His artwork, paintings, drawings and sketches were always at the scale of perfection. He had done many beautiful pastel paintings which were hung in the school's art rooms.
Music was his other passion that she had noticed. The piano was his key element and his key tool. His performances in school and his private performances to her were utterly magnificent. The pieces that he played brought more than just emotions to the listener but it had brought life to the piece with different sways of flows. She was lucky enough to hear him play.
The other secret that she had kept of him was one about his past love. Kaho Mizuki or Mizuki-sensei was the woman that he had grown to love. It was a bitter break up. She who has promised to stay by her side had broken the promise by leaving him saying that they do not belong together. She could not love Eriol for who he was because she was only in love with Clow Reed. It had broken his heart permanently but it mended in time.
Tomoyo was the one who helped him through it. She was the one who pulled him out of it. She was there when it all happened. She happened to stop by and Nakuru had let her in. When she stopped by at the room, she heard a soft voice explaining everything. Then, Mizuki-sensei left and was never to be seen again. Eriol was broken. He didn't know how to act.
She spent about two weeks with him in the mansion, comforting him till he snapped out of it. She was there to extricate him from the pain that was in his heart. She was comforting. She let him be alone for a few days before really getting to help him. She was there, being her effeminacy self. He had first tried to block her from helping him but that didn't work. She had gotten through his barriers than no one else had.
Together, they had tea at the open garden along with Nakuru and Spinel Sun. Like usual, Nakuru and Spinel Sun were bickering over some random stuff that Nakuru had been doing. Nakuru was pouting and calling Spinel by his nickname 'Suppi-chan'. He was obviously annoyed. Nakuru ended up stalking off, angrily into the house.
It was an adorable sight to see. Then, Tomoyo asked Eriol to walk with her in the gardens that never seem to die with the seasons. It was already towards the end of spring and the garden looked spectacular. The roses were beautiful, the lavenders were fragrant, the lilies were attractive, the orchids were enchanting and the rest of the flowers were just breath taking.
It was really, a sight to see. The last time she was in the garden was with Sakura and Syaoran along with Eriol, of course. They were doing a group project on different species of flowers for Science and had to go get a few different kinds and flowers to press dry for their presentation.
Still, she never seems to get sick of the garden. It was like heaven to her and she was like the Goddess who danced in the gardens although she was only walking and touching every single flower with her soft, gentle fingers.
Spinel Sun and Eriol was observing the girl from where they were standing. Spinel Sun had agreed to follow them and he had seen a very slight difference in Tomoyo. He decided to make a few comments on it to his master. He seems to have taken account with the way she interacted with the flowers. It was as though as she was cherishing it for its life as if she will never see them again.
"Eriol-sama, doesn't Daidouji-san seem a bit to cheery for some reason?" he asked.
Eriol nodded his head as they both observed Tomoyo.
"I sense her aura weakening, Master. It worries me that she seems to be hiding something again", Spinel said.
"I have noticed it too, Spinel but I will not force it out of her. Knowing her, she will keep it until she is ready to tell and I do not wish to pry into her mind to find out without her consent", Eriol said.
The flying creature nodded and sat on Eriol's shoulder. Eriol walked towards Tomoyo who was enjoying herself with the charming sight of the plum blossoms. She was so in content with the flower. She reached out and grazed the flower, feeling the delicate texture with her long fingers. She leaned forward to smell it; the fragrance took her to another utopian era. It was simply marvelous.
"I must insist, Daidouji-san that you stay for the night here with us", Eriol stated.
"Oh Hiragizawa-kun, I do not wish to be a bother to you", Tomoyo answered.
"A bother? What makes you think you are a bother to me? I must insist that you do stay the night with us", Eriol said.
"Well.. Alright, I will stay since mother isn't home anyway. Let me make a phone call and I shall join you for the night", Tomoyo said.
Tomoyo smiled and the three walked back into the mansion. Eriol told Nakuru about Tomoyo spending the night with them and instantly, she went on a hyper mode. She hugged Tomoyo in hysterics. That caused Tomoyo to smile even more.
* * * *
That night she helped Nakuru and Eriol with cooking the dinner. Spinel Sun watched and tasted the food. Together, they managed to avoid the usual burning down kitchen incidents that Nakuru had always make. They made an Italian meal and a dessert to hit it off. Tomoyo and Eriol's skills in cooking were absolutely a big help to the meal. They were both busy in making the sauces and the perfect dish.
Nakuru was the one to cut the vegetables, meet and prepare the ingredients while Tomoyo and Eriol cooked. The three settled for Spaghetti Bolognaise and Alfredo Fettuccini. For desert, they made Tiramisu. It was a rather busy timing to cook with all that was to be done.
Nakuru watched as both Tomoyo and Eriol got themselves busy with cooking the meal. Tomoyo got to boiling the hot water and cooking the spaghetti and white Fettuccini. It took quite a bit for it to cook as it was dried. Tomoyo made Nakuru watch it boil as she added salt into the water.
With the noodles being made ready, Eriol was already heating up the pan with olive oil. He was making the Bolognaise sauce for the spaghetti. He fried the chopped garlic and onions until it brought a nice fragrance and added some herbs into it as well. He stirred it for a while and added in the minced pork and beef into it. With the fire being nice and hot, the meat seems to cook easily. He stirred it as he added it the tomato puree. Just after that, he let it simmer for a while. He added the salt and sugar to it and closed the lid.
Tomoyo went to busy herself with the Alfredo sauce. The Alfredo sauce was basically a three cheese sauce. A mix of Parmesan, Mozzarella and normal cheese was cooked and melted into a sauce. The olive oil was added in first into the small pot. The olive oil was the most important ingredient in Italian dishes, it is said to bring the flavors from the soil to the food.
Tiny chopped pieces of garlic were fried with the mushrooms. Salt and sugar was added of course. Slight herbs like thyme and chives were added in to bring aroma. Then, she added in the three cheeses that were already melted into the mix and gave it a nice stir. She added a bit of water and let the sauce boil and thicken.
By the time the spaghetti and fettuccini was done, the sauce was also done. Spinel Sun helps by setting up the table at the dining hall. He also helps by setting up the cutleries on the table. Both the chefs gave Nakuru a taste of their sauce and she started jumping up and down due to the delicious taste lingering in her mouth. When it was done, the three set up to work on the Tiramisu.
The Tiramisu was some sort of an egg and cream pudding. It was also some sort of a soufflé but not really one as well. The three settled in for a small dish of it. In a bowl, Tomoyo whisked the egg and cream together along with a couple of spoons of sugar. She added a bit of coffee powder and Kahlua into it to give it the flavor.
Eriol and Nakuru cut the sponge fingers and laid it into the plate for layering. When Tomoyo was done stirring the cream together, she sprayed the cream on top of the sponge fingers and let it have a generous amount of cream. Another layer of sponge fingers were added and the rest of the cream was spread nicely on top.
Since the tiramisu was supposed to be left overnight in the fridge for the flavor to blend, Eriol whisked a bit of his magic to make it the way it was supposed to be without having to leave it overnight. The Tiramisu was done and was left in the fridge while the three went to serve the rest of the food.
Dinner was superb. The dishes turned out pretty well and it was delicious. The four chatted away as they enjoyed their food, happy that it had all turned out pretty well. Nakuru couldn't help but go hyper as she savored the food. Spinel Sun made a comment about Nakuru being a daft for being so into her food. He also commented that if she doesn't stop eating, she's going to be so fat that she can't fit into the door.
Nakuru was angry but she allowed it to slip. She knew how to get him back for it when it comes to dessert. She is going the stuff the Tiramisu in his mouth and watch as he act all hyper and drunk. Eriol and Tomoyo exchanged glances and exchanged smiles as they continue to eat their dinner.
* * * * *
The chords and running scales of Pachelbel's Cannon in D major was heard in the middle of the night throughout the mansion. Tomoyo was awakened the gentle tune of the piece. She knew instantly that it was Eriol. She grabbed the borrowed robes of Nakuru and headed downstairs to the hall where she knew Eriol was at, playing the piece. She made her way through the dark halls.
The specific piece was one of her many favorites. It was simple and sweet by hearing but to play it was complicated. When she got to the room, she saw Eriol sitting on the bench with his fingers playing on the keys. She found an armchair and sat on it, watching him play the enchanting tune. She liked the way Eriol had managed to bring emotions into the piece. It was touching and beautiful.
As he ended the piece with running chords, Tomoyo clapped to his superb playing. He turned around to see her, sitting on the chair just by the window where the moonlight had shine to her face, creating a very beautiful goddess smiling at him. He shook his head, trying to discard the thought that he had fallen for her. He had asked her to go out with her once but she had gently rejected him saying that it was better that they stay friends. He had respected her decision but never stopped loving her.
"What are you doing up so late, Hiragizawa-kun?" she said.
Another smile from the pianist.
"Just some running thoughts in my head", he answered.
"Care to share them with me?" she asked.
He made his way towards her and sat by the bay window just next to her.
"I was thinking of you actually", he said.
"Me?" she asked, questioningly.
"Yes you, my dear Daidouji-san", he said.
A quick blush crept on her cheeks as she looked into his eyes. She had a slight fear in falling in love. Truth was, she did have feelings for him but had not pursue it as to her illness. She had rejected him the other time telling him that she would prefer it better if they stay friends because of some personal reasons that she would not disclose. He did not ask her to explain on furthermore and had respected her decision.
"What about me, Hiragizawa-kun?" she asked.
"Well, let's just say that lately I've notice your aura weakening and I am rather suspicious about your health. Do tell, Daidouji-san, are you alright?" he asked.
She didn't know what to answer him. The secret that she had kept so well. It was just about to be blown, just like that? A mixture of hesitation and longing crept inside of her, swirling in deep fusion. She looked back into his eyes.
Suddenly, a pain struck her chest as if someone pounding a hammer on her. She winced in pain, grabbing her chest. She closed her eyes, filling the air in her lungs being sucked out. She began coughing hysterically.
Eriol panicked as he watched her wince in pain and cough in madness. Her aura as he sensed began to drop. He watched her cough into her hands and saw dark red droplets dripping down her hand. His eyes widened. She looked as if she couldn't breath.
He held his hand to her chest and concentrated on it. His energy was placed into hers and it had help calm her down a bit. Her coughs stopped and her breathing seemed to be normal again. She had her eyes closed as she felt the painful sensation leave her.
The quick pain had managed to answer Eriol's answer. He helped her to the bathroom to clean up the blood on her hands. There was silence throughout the short trip there. She let the water run as she washed the blood off her hands and her mouth. She gurgled the water in her mouth and spit it out. She knew that she had to tell Eriol.
He helped her again as she was weak into her room. She kept tumbling down as if she was too weak. Then, Eriol just put his arm under her knees and picked her up. She muffled a weak protest but had known better as she was weak. She wrapped her arms around his neck as he carried her.
"Hiragizawa-kun, you cannot tell Sakura or the others about this", she muttered, weakly.
He was silent as he carried her into her room. He did not answer her at all. He set her down on the bed and put the duvet on her. Then, he sat down just on the side of her bed, waiting for her to tell him about her condition.
She looked up at him, with her amethyst orbs. She was weak and she was in pain. She had kept the secret for quite sometime and she knew that it was no coincidence that Eriol had found out. Maybe she had wanted him to find out the moment he invited her for the night. She had wanted to tell him about it for so long. She took a deep breath and looked into his eyes. Dark azure met amethyst.
"Eriol..... I'm dying", she said.
At that moment, his facial expressions changed to disbelief. She reached out for his hand and held it. She had felt what he was feeling. The feeling of empathy when someone was about to lose their life was harsh.
"How?" he asked.
"I have lung cancer. Malignant Mesothelioma to be exact. I'm on stage 4 of the cancer and the cancer cells have already spread out to my organs and tissues", she said, tears forming.
"Why didn't you tell me? Or us?" He asked.
She covered her eyes and just cried. He instantly wrapped his arms around her as she cried. She held on to his shirt as if it was the last thing that she could hold on to.
"I... I... I just couldn't bring myself to tell you. Eriol-kun.... Please help me... I'm desperate.. I don't know how to feel or what to do..." she said, crying.
"Ssh, it's alright", he said, comforting her and himself.
He held her in his arms for the night. She started to tell him about her condition and had mentioned how much time she had left. She told him that she didn't want any attachments as it would be hard for her to let go. He had understood her.
"I have found so much that I can let go and I just don't think that I want any attachments that will make it hard for me to let go. If I die, I would want to rest in peace", she said.
"So that was why you rejected me?" he asked.
She nodded her head. He was still holding her. Her head rested on his chest as her back was pressed against him. He held her by the waist as she rested her hands on his.
"But did you feel anything for me?" he asked.
"Yes, I did", she answered, softly.
"Then, why won't you let me share your last moments with you?" he asked, gently.
Tears began to fall again. She couldn't answer him. She didn't know what to answer him. It would be hard for her. This one something that she couldn't help but feel. He turned her around so she would face him. She looked into his eyes, unable to lie about her feelings anymore.
"They say that the eyes are the windows to one's soul", he murmured, tracing her jaw line with his finger.
"Is that really true?" she said.
He wiped away her tears with his thumb and traced her jaw line once again.
"I do believe so", he whispered.
"Then, tell me what do you see in mine", she said, softly.
He leaned in and looked even more deeply into her eyes. He held her face in his hands and felt her shiver.
"I see a girl longing to be loved but is afraid to love", he murmured.
She gave out a sad smile.
"But she knows that she has someone loving her no matter how hard she tries not to love him back", he said.
"I never said I could never love you back", she said.
"Tomoyo, please let me in. Let me be the one to share the rest of your life with you", he begged her.
Another tear trickled down her cheek.
"I.. I ...."
Before she could answer him, he had already leaned in to claim her lips. The kiss was filled in with emotions impassioned for far too long. He let the kiss be a sweet one so that she would always remember it with her. He knew that it was special because it was her first kiss. Her delicate lips were captured by his but she had allowed herself to respond to his soft calls.
The night was cold. Together, they both tried to figure things out. Both scared for each other. She was with him and it was all that had mattered to her. She had been afraid of not being able to let go but now, she didn't care. Her mind and her heart were not on the same terms. He had took her to somewhere that she had not been before. It had felt secure and warm.
That night was one of much warmth despite the coldness of the air. She had told him, the one person that had held her heart her deepest secret. She had also let him into her heart for that one night. What they had that night was special, something that they would both share forevermore.
* * * * * *
School was like the usual. The same things happen. She got to her locker and opened it. It had been two days since she had spent the night at Eriol's. That morning she had left. He didn't come after her. He gave her space to think. That night was something special to her. It was more than just a night where secrets were let out, emotions were let out as well. She had walked to school not meeting anyone at all. It was still a bit empty as it was quite early. She had come to have more time alone.
She grabbed her things and came to her locker. She got the combination in and opened it. Today was no different, letters and envelopes fell down and were inserted into the special box. However, the dark red rose that usually lay in her locker was replaced by a dark navy blue one with a note as well. She held the envelope and took the note out. She unfolded the paper, reading the contents of it that was written in perfect linings.
It takes more than courage to love,
It takes more than steps to get above,
Secrets can only cover so much,
Why do you keep yourself to extents of such?
-Eriol Hiragizawa.
She folded the note and left it in the locker. She turned around, feeling his presence. She jumped a little, startled by his presence.
"Ohayo Daidouji-san", he said, in a rather cold tone.
"Ohayo Hiragizawa-kun", she answered.
An awkward silence followed by a group of giggling girls. She looked into his eyes then, away from his gaze.
"Do you mind accompanying me for a walk? I would like to have a little talk with you", he said.
She nodded as he offered his arm. She took it and together they walked out to the school's compound. They were silent as they made their way to the top of the fields. Slowly, his hand had found hers and she did not do anything about it. She just let him hold her hand. They walked together through the fields in silence. He held her hand but didn't say anything.
"So what did you want to talk about?" she asked.
They continued walking on as he spoke.
"How do you want our relationship to go? Shall we stay on friendship or shall we move on?" he asked.
"I don't know, Eriol", she answered, truthfully.
They stopped and he looked at her deeply in the eyes. He held both of her hands.
"I need time Eriol but I want to still share what we have", Tomoyo said.
"Ok, so what does this exactly make us?" Eriol asked.
"I would like us to remain as friends, Eriol. Please.... I don't think I can take another heartbreak", she said, sadly looking away.
It wasn't exactly an answer that he was looking for. He looked at her, in sadness. She still would not accept him. Even after that night with what they had shared, she still would not let him in. A lone tear trickled down her cheek.
"Please do understand that I just can't share this with you no matter how much feelings I have for you. I am so sorry, Eriol", she said, tears falling down her cheek.
He held her into his arms and gave her a light hugged. He felt his heart break into a million pieces. It was hard for her as much as it is hard for him. She did not want any attachments and she had vowed that she will not have any the moment she found out of her illness.
"Why did God have to make me fall for you at the wrong time?" he murmured.
She cried on his chest with tears falling down with pain in her own. She started gasping for air and coughing hysterically on his shirt. Blood spilled as she grabbed on to his shirt for dear life. He held her closer, letting his energy help her. The pain on her chest kept drumming on to her. Her eyes wide open with hard tears. The pain was just so tremendous. Her lungs had begun to lose air.
"Eriol.... Help me ... I- I- .. Eriol", she stuttered in between gasps.
As darkness consumed her sight, she collapsed. In Eriol's arms she lay, with the pain still pounding on her chest. Her limp and almost lifeless body had collapsed on his. Immediately, he used his magic and transported them to the nearest hospital. He ran towards the doctors and they took care of her from there.
He was left with worry and a heart ache. It had pained him to see her that way. The fact that she won't let him love her was another heartbreaker.
* * * * * * *
The hospital seemed like a hectic place no matter how calm the people look.
Doctors in white coats.
Nurses in their uniform.
Patients with their white gown.
The sight of people rushing around was an incredibly stressing sight. Eriol stood outside the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) room. Tomoyo was inside with a couple of specialist working on her. Sonomi Daidouji was later seen rushing down the hallway towards him. She looked stressed and very worried.
"What happened? How? Is she alright?" she asked, questions flying out.
Then, she saw Eriol and recognized him as one of her daughter's close friends besides Sakura. She quickly went to him. She saw his pale and saddened look. It seems that he had discovered Tomoyo's illness the hard way.
"Daidouji-san, they are working on her inside. I got her here as soon as I could", Eriol said.
"Thank you, Hiragizawa-kun. I would not have want to know what would have happened if you did not bring her here", Sonomi said.
He gave her a sad but courteous smile. She returned the favor. She looked through the glass window. The sight of several doctors working on her daughter was heartbreaking. She had kept it for so long. Her daughter had begged her not to let anyone know. She had specifically told her that she did not want sympathy because it would lead to attachments and she would not be able to let go.
Then, she looked at the boy standing next to her. He looked pale and worried. He also looked very sad. The first thought that came to her mind was love. She saw love in the boy with the way he was looking intensively through the glass. He had also a look of fear in his eyes. Perhaps, the fear of losing the girl that he was looking at.
"Hiragizawa-kun, you have feelings for my daughter, ne?" she asked, directly.
He was taken back a bit, but nodded.
"She told you, I assume", she said.
He nodded, again.
"I have a feeling that she loves you too, Hiragizawa-kun. Because she had not told anyone about it besides the ones that already knew. I doubt that even Sakura-chan knows about this", Sonomi said.
He didn't move. He just stood there.
"She does not return my feelings, Daidouji-san. She refuses to return it even if she does feel that way. She does not want attachments and I shall respect her decision on it", Eriol answered.
"I'm sure she has told you how long she can last until?" she questioned.
"Not long enough to stay for Christmas", he muttered.
Sonomi admired the young boy who seems to be wiser than his own age. She looked at him, sadly. He was still looking at the window, one hand pressed against the glass. What she saw was enough to convince her that it was love and it was a heartbreaking one.
Such a sad one.
It should not have been bestowed upon them.
They're only barely 18.
18 is where life ends and where it begins.
Is it true?
* * * * * * * *
"Eriol-sama?" a voice said.
"Yes, Ruby Moon", he answered.
"We have visitors", Nakuru said.
"Visitors? At such an ungodly hour?" he asked.
Nakuru nodded her head.
"Bring them in", Eriol said.
Nakuru nodded and left the room. Eriol was in a rather worried mood. Tomoyo was still unconscious in the hospital. He had come back because her mother asked him to do so. He was tired and Daidouji-san did not want him to get sick as well. He sat on his red armchair, looking out the distant skies at the bay window. Spinel Sun rested on his side, doing the same. Spinel had also been rather sad after what Eriol had told both him and Nakuru about Tomoyo's condition. All thoughts swayed away as the two much unexpected guest, appeared.
"Eriol-sama", two voices greeted.
Eriol turned around, startled to see Ceroberus and Yue standing at the door.
"Why.. Yue? Ceroberus? What a lovely surprise?" Eriol said.
"Eriol-sama, we wanted to talk to you about Daidouji-san", Ceroberus said.
Again, he was startled. Not expecting that the two guardians of the Clow mistress would come to him to talk about 'her'. He told them to sit as Nakuru came in as well. Ruby Moon and Spinel Sun had emerged in their true form.
"We sense a sad aura within you and we sense her aura weakening", Yue said, in his icy cold voice.
"We would like to know the truth from you what our mistress does not know", Ceroberus said.
"I'm surprised to know that you even care, Yue", Ruby Moon taunted.
Being Ruby Moon, she was very skeptical about Yue. She doesn't like him and he does not like her. Same goes for Spinel Sun and Ceroberus. They were basically rivalries.
"There's a lot that you do not know about me, Ruby Moon. So, do not go assuming that you do. Daidouji-san is our mistress' best friend and both Ceroberus and I have a special bond with the girl as well throughout the years", Yue answered.
"We can sense her as we can sense Sakura even if she is born without magic. We can sense that she is dying just like we did when Clow-sama was dying", Ceroberus said.
"Then, why did you come to me when you have already known?" Eriol asked.
Both Ceroberus and Yue exchanged looks. Spinel Sun and Ruby moon did the same and the four exchanged glances.
"We also sense something else, Eriol-sama", Spinel Sun said, quietly.
"Then, tell me", Eriol said.
"We sense grief in you as well and that is why we have all come here to try and comfort you", Ceroberus said.
Eriol was shocked. All four guardians were here, in his grief. They were trying to comfort him. He was touched. He smiled lightly at the four. He patter both Ceroberus and Spinel Sun.
"We all sense and know how you feel for her. It saddens us as well to know the fate that she holds. If there was anyway we could have saved her from her fate, we would but as you said, death is inevitable as well", Yue said.
"It worries us to see you like this, Master", Ruby moon said.
Ruby Moon was close to tears. She covered her face in grief. All four guardians had the same sad expression on their faces. The four did care for Tomoyo as much as they did for their own masters. They had created a bond with her during the past few years and had grown to share a love for her as they would have for their own masters. Eriol didn't know how it was possible but it had happened.
"You all know that I do love her but she would not let me. I cannot do anything but watch her and love her from afar. I respect her decision and her wishes even if it is against my own", he said, sadly.
A single tear fell down his cheek. It was a heartbreaking sight for all four of the guardians to see. They had never seen him like this before. He sat calm in his red armchair, looking out the dark skies. He looked calm and collected, full with passion and emotions. He might seem like he was carefree but inside, they knew that he was breaking.
His heart was shattering.
He knew that hers was as well.
So why is it so hard to not be together?
All he ever wanted at that specific time was just to hold her and spend the rest of her life at her side, loving her like no one could ever do but she had not allowed it. It was hard. The lone tear had fallen and was accompanied by several others. They said that men do not cry, it is a weakness but here sat a strong one crying tears for his beloved.
The droplet of tear fell from his cheek down to his hand.
As he looked outside, he found the Northern Star or Polaris as some would call it.
He saw a shooting star, shooting across the sky.
That was when he closed his eyes and made a wish.
'I wish that she would let me be by her side till the very her very last breath'.
*continuation*
A/n: Part 2 out of three! I hope you enjoy that one. *Passes out tissue papers* so do review! :D Now, if you will excuse me, I need to go cry my tears out because this chapter was heartbreaking for me. *runs to KyteAura and ruby_servantof_Eli and cries on their shoulder*