"Donna, what have I done?!" Jackie cried as soon as Donna entered her kitchen.
Donna jumped back, because the kitchen was dark. She switched on the lights, and found Jackie sitting in a chair, crying into a crumbled tissue. Donna took off her coat, went to the fridge, got out two bottles of coke, and she sat down in front of Jackie before she handed her one. Jackie took it and took a swig. The cold liquid trickled down her throat. She looked at Donna, with tears rising once more to her eyes.
"Donna, how could I have hurt Steven so much! Why did I say it? Why did I even think it? Why have I done something so stupid?" Jackie said, putting her head on Donna's shoulder. Donna took her by the shoulders and straightened her up.
"Jackie, I need to know one thing before I know what to tell you exactly. Do you still love Kelso?"
Jackie replied, tears chocking her:
"No Donna! I love Steven, I love him so much! And now, he's just gonna leave me, 'cause he'll never forgive me! My dad's in prison, my mom isn't back yet, and Steven is gonna leave me. I'm gonna be alone! I'm gonna die alone with my cats Donna!"
"Jackie, you gotta tell Hyde why you said it. I mean, you owe it to him to tell him. Maybe it's not as bad as you think, but you gotta go to him, and talk it out instead of you hiding here!"
"Donna, the big point is, I don't know why I did it! I have no idea. It kinda popped out! 'Get off my boyfriend!' I mean, it was the stupidest thing I've ever said, ever!"
"Yeah." Donna said.
"Donna, you're supposed to be my friend!"
"Yeah, but Jackie it's true! Hyde's my friend too, and you shouting that about Kelso means in a way that you still consider Kelso to be your boyfriend. And that was as if you slapped Hyde."
"Donna, I don't consider Michael. At all. It's just that, when I saw him kissing that blonde bitch, the bitch he chose over me, all the pain I had bottled up because of him just resurfaced. I'm totally in love with Steven , but I still have all this pain inside, it's just bottled up. I never looked at it, and I never tried to resolve my feelings for Michael. I just ignored them, as if nothing happened, you know? Donna, he was my first love, my first lover, mostly the first everything. It's really hard to get used to him kissing someone else. I don't care about him, but it's like a habit. Like, for example, if you used to smoke and gave up, you wouldn't miss the smoking part, you'd just miss the habit, you know?"
Donna looked at her, kinda shocked.
"Oh my god, Jackie, you have to say all that to Hyde. He'll understand. I even think he loves you."
"He does?" Jackie asked.
"I'm pretty sure he does." Donna said, earnestly.
Hyde was still up and pacing. After thinking about it over and over, he had come to the conclusion that he loved Jackie. And, that didn't make the pain go away. It just made it hurt more. All the books he read, everything he had learned and believed in started falling apart. Being Zen wouldn't help. He knew what he felt, and he knew that Love existed, that it wasn't some secret conspiracy made by the capitalists to keep the women subservient. It was true, it was real, and it hurt.
Donna jumped back, because the kitchen was dark. She switched on the lights, and found Jackie sitting in a chair, crying into a crumbled tissue. Donna took off her coat, went to the fridge, got out two bottles of coke, and she sat down in front of Jackie before she handed her one. Jackie took it and took a swig. The cold liquid trickled down her throat. She looked at Donna, with tears rising once more to her eyes.
"Donna, how could I have hurt Steven so much! Why did I say it? Why did I even think it? Why have I done something so stupid?" Jackie said, putting her head on Donna's shoulder. Donna took her by the shoulders and straightened her up.
"Jackie, I need to know one thing before I know what to tell you exactly. Do you still love Kelso?"
Jackie replied, tears chocking her:
"No Donna! I love Steven, I love him so much! And now, he's just gonna leave me, 'cause he'll never forgive me! My dad's in prison, my mom isn't back yet, and Steven is gonna leave me. I'm gonna be alone! I'm gonna die alone with my cats Donna!"
"Jackie, you gotta tell Hyde why you said it. I mean, you owe it to him to tell him. Maybe it's not as bad as you think, but you gotta go to him, and talk it out instead of you hiding here!"
"Donna, the big point is, I don't know why I did it! I have no idea. It kinda popped out! 'Get off my boyfriend!' I mean, it was the stupidest thing I've ever said, ever!"
"Yeah." Donna said.
"Donna, you're supposed to be my friend!"
"Yeah, but Jackie it's true! Hyde's my friend too, and you shouting that about Kelso means in a way that you still consider Kelso to be your boyfriend. And that was as if you slapped Hyde."
"Donna, I don't consider Michael. At all. It's just that, when I saw him kissing that blonde bitch, the bitch he chose over me, all the pain I had bottled up because of him just resurfaced. I'm totally in love with Steven , but I still have all this pain inside, it's just bottled up. I never looked at it, and I never tried to resolve my feelings for Michael. I just ignored them, as if nothing happened, you know? Donna, he was my first love, my first lover, mostly the first everything. It's really hard to get used to him kissing someone else. I don't care about him, but it's like a habit. Like, for example, if you used to smoke and gave up, you wouldn't miss the smoking part, you'd just miss the habit, you know?"
Donna looked at her, kinda shocked.
"Oh my god, Jackie, you have to say all that to Hyde. He'll understand. I even think he loves you."
"He does?" Jackie asked.
"I'm pretty sure he does." Donna said, earnestly.
Hyde was still up and pacing. After thinking about it over and over, he had come to the conclusion that he loved Jackie. And, that didn't make the pain go away. It just made it hurt more. All the books he read, everything he had learned and believed in started falling apart. Being Zen wouldn't help. He knew what he felt, and he knew that Love existed, that it wasn't some secret conspiracy made by the capitalists to keep the women subservient. It was true, it was real, and it hurt.