The servant placed his key into the lock and opened the door. The room was
dark, but it was very elegant and quiet. There was a desk full of drawers
and a vanity, a table with two chairs, and the bed was large with the
softest pillows you can find. Zelgadis entered the room and laid his bag
on the floor. The servant bowed and told Zelgadis not to hesitate if he
was in need of anything. He left and Zelgadis sat down in the chair that
was facing the window of his room. He was happy to be in such a
comfortable room, but he didn=t think that he would be getting much more
sleep tonight.
After his walk in the garden, the rest of the day was just a blur. Was he
alright? Had he lost his mind? He had actually hugged Amelia. He had
held her before when he had to carry her or shield her, but all of those
times were in emergencies when he had to act fast. He wasn=t sure if he
had avoided telling Amelia anything, or if he had told her everything. He
couldn=t stay here long. Sooner or later, he=d slip up and make a fool of
himself. But....she almost cried earlier today. No. That didn=t mean a
thing. He is one of Amelia=s friends. She would have cried if she thought
that any of her friends didn=t like her. He wasn=t different. He had just
been gone the longest.
Zelgadis held out his hand and quietly whispered, AFireball.@ A tiny ball
of fire formed over his palm. He used it to light the lamp in his room.
The soft light grew until it illuminated the whole room. He fell back onto
the bed and rested upon one of the pillows. He interlocked his hands and
placed them over his chest. He couldn=t sleep now.
AI=ll have to try and leave either tomorrow or the next day. I can=t wait
here too long.@ He closed he eyes and let loose his self-frustration with
a long sigh. But then something hit him. What would he do when he left?
Of course he would search for his cure, but now...now it hardly seemed
worth it. He had waited so long to see Amelia. He had hoped that his
feelings would fade over time, but they grew. And now that he had come to
see her, he wasn=t sure if he could bear leaving her again. If he left, he
may never see her again. Suddenly he opened his eyes, sat up, and pounded
his fist into the bed several times. What was he thinking!? She couldn=t
have feelings for him. And even if she did, nothing could ever come of it.
She was the princess of the most holy kingdom in the world, and he was a
demon. He wasn=t even worthy to be in her presence. There was only one
option, and that was to leave. He could even just disappear without her
knowing. It would break whatever heart he had, but that was coming no
matter what he did. He never should have given her that hug. It only set
him up for a deeper wound. He should never touch anyone. He would try and
find some way to escape this place before too long. As long as he remained
here, he would only feel more torment. It would hurt even more to leave,
but that would fade. He was a rock, after all. And a rock feels no pain*.
He stretched his arms out and let out a large yawn. Sleep was finally
catching up with him. He removed his cape, shoes, and shirt. Maybe he
would find a way to leave tomorrow. He rested his head back on the pillow
and closed his eyes. Why did things have to be so difficult? Why did she
have to be a princess? Why did he have to be a demon? It didn=t really
matter. This would all be over with soon. He would forget about her, and
he would grow hard and cold once again. Only fitting that the inside
should match the outside for him. He found some sick sense of comfort in
this, and sleep overtook him.
*I am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel
*I am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel
