TITLE: Forget Me Not
AUTHOR: Sanny
E-Mail: Sanny_c24@hotmail.com
STATUS: Complete
RATING: R
SPOILERS: Stargate Motion Picture, Children of the Gods, Cold Lazarus, A Matter of Time, The Nox, The Broca Divide, Beneath the Surface, Upgrades.
CONTENT WARNING: Drama, Hurt/comfort, Graphic medical situations, mention of torture, rape and sexual content.
DISCLAMER: I do not own SG-1, though I wish I had, this story is for enjoyment purposes only, no money was exchanged, the Stargate characters are owned by MGM, GEKKO and ShowTime, any other characters and the story belong to the author.
AUTHOR NOTES: Please read and review, reviews mean a lot to me so please don't be shy and leave one.
Forget Me Not – Chapter two
"Who are you?" He asked before falling asleep.
Sam froze in her spot. As soon as she was sure he was asleep again she slipped out of the room and went straight to Janet's office. Her bet that she'd find her in her office was correct she entered the room a bit too loudly and made her doctor friend jump from her chair as if a snake had bit her, poor thing was asleep too.
"Sam? Is everything all right?"
"No it's not Janet, Jack woke up just now"
"That's great" Janet rose from her chair again to go see for herself when Sam grabbed her arm tight.
"He doesn't know who I am Janet" the tears rolled down her face "he doesn't know who I am" she repeated silently as her friend wrapped her arms carefully around her for a soothing hug.
"Now Sam?" Janet mastered her most motherly yet authoritic voice "I will go check up on Jack as well as the fact that the nurses need to treat him, so in the next 2 hours his room is off limits. I want you to go take a shower, refresh a bit, eat and I do not want to see you here before 08:30 is that clear?"
"Yes Dr. ma'am" Sam saluted in mock to her friend and while drying her tears she stepped out.
"Good morning Jack, how are you feeling?"
"Who are you?"
"I'm Doctor Janet Fraiser, I'm your friend"
"Well then Doc, you tell me how I am"
"Let's see, can you move your head from side to side?" he did twice and then returned to face her once again "good, can you wiggle your fingers for me?" he moved his fingers, very slight movement it seemed he had no strength to grasp anything. "Now Jack I want you to please wiggle your toes for me". She went to the foot of the bed and uncovered his feet from under the blanket "OK Jack wiggle your toes now" she waited about a minute seeing no movement, when she wanted to ask him to do it again she heard him calling
"Doctor? Did I move them?" she didn't answer "Doc, I didn't feel anything, did I move them?" she bent next to him and took hold of his hand.
"No you didn't Jack, I'm sorry". He started crying. Janet has never seen this strong man cry before she even heard stories that he didn't cry when his son Charlie died, but she didn't believe that story. Jack was a man that was so kind, caring and loving that she didn't believe it, and now seeing him cry shamelessly she knew she was right in not believing the story. She wanted to take him in her arms and embrace him but all she could do was hold his hand and press her cheek to his, he cried a few more minutes before he gathered himself.
"It's not fair, I don't know who you are or where I am, I don't even know who I am except that you all keep calling me Jack, and now you tell me I can't move my legs…is it permanent?"
"I don't know Jack we'll have to wait and see, but don't forget…"
"Don't forget? I don't remember anything lady, please if you can't fix me, kill me, I don't want to live like this"
"Yes you do want to live Jack or you wouldn't have been fighting the way you have, just keep up the courage and work with me, OK?" he simply nodded afraid to speak words in case tears start rolling back. Two nurses entered the room and Janet left with a reassuring squeeze to his hand.
Janet knocked on General Hammond's door and waited, "enter" she heard his voice from within and opened the door peering inside, the General was reviewing an enormous amount of paperwork and debriefings, he looked up to see her closing the door behind her. "Yes doctor, what can I do for you?" he looked at her gesturing the chair in front of him; she sat down and looked him in the eye.
"Col. O'Neill is awake, Sir"
"That's great" he jumped from his chair but her raised hand made him fall back into it watching her intently as he heard her next words,
"He can talk Sir and it doesn't appear that he has suffered brain damage amazingly, but he has no memory at all of us or of himself" she paused to let this bit of news sink in before she continued with the rest of the bad news, "it also appears Sir that he may not be able to w..al..k ag..g..gain" she stuttered saying these terrible words to her commander. There was silence for a while before she heard him ask in a voice so low that she had to strain to hear him.
"Can you do anything to help him?"
"I don't think so Sir, not to the extent of him walking again". General Hammond sighed deeply "but", he raised his eyebrow at her "what about the Nox Sir, has there been any progress in fixing the stargate?"
"Maybe today, but, Since Colonel O'Neill has no memory, don't say anything to him or to Major Carter. I don't want them disappointed if we can't reach the Nox". Now Janet raised her eyebrow "Yes, I know she's in love with him and I know he was in love with her before this ordeal happened. I may be old Doctor but I'm not blind" she smiled and nodded rising to her feet she saluted her commander before exiting his office.
General Hammond lifted his phone ordering the officer on the other end to call Dr. Jackson to his office. 15 minutes later Daniel was sitting in the chair Janet vacated whipping his glasses clean with a small cloth
"Dr Jackson, do you know how Colonel O'Neill is doing today?"
"No Sir, I haven't been in to see him today, not that they let me in to actually see him, yesterday he was still in a coma"
"Well he woke up early this morning" Daniel's heart skipped with excitement but he did not move sensing there was more to be said, he waited.
"He doesn't remember anything and he will probably never walk again" he blurted the words out as fast as he could, leaving Daniel to try to grasp the things he heard, he was still quiet.
"I called you in here to ask you if you would volunteer to step through the stargate and talk to the Nox, that is when we get the gate working again", Daniel stood to his feet nodding at the General.
"I will be ready whenever the gate is operational General" he left the room and within the most intensive two hours of work since everything happened the gate was working and Daniel was back on the Nox planet with Teal'c as his cover.
They stepped through the green surroundings; everything was as it has been the first time they stepped through, Daniel stepped down the stairs and started calling out to Lia and Anteus, after about 10 minutes of yelling out their friends' name Lia appeared before him as if from nowhere.
"Greetings Daniel, Teal'c, what is so urgent?"
"Greetings Lia, please we need your help"
"You do not wish us to fight, Daniel?"
"No…of course not, Lia we know you do not fight, we would never ask you to, but you can heal, you healed all of us once", Lia bowed her head in agreement.
"Jack ... Col. O'Neill is hurt badly, please will you heal him?"
"Daniel, you know I cannot heal alone"
"I know, you can bring as many people as you need Lia"
"No Daniel, we need to be here, you will need to bring Col. O'Neill here"
"I don't know if he can be moved" Daniel hunched his head and back, there was a moment of silence before he spoke again "I will have to return home to ask"
"We will be here upon your return Daniel; you will only need to call my name as you have before"
"Thank you Lia" she bowed her head again and vanished, Daniel dialed Earth's coordinates and stepped through followed by Teal'c.
General Hammond was waiting at the base of the ramp when Daniel and Teal'c returned.
"Where you successful Dr. Jackson?" he asked impatiently
"Yes General, Lia and her friends will heal Jack, but, we need to bring him there, do you think he is stable enough to be moved? To gate travel?"
"We will have to ask Dr. Fraiser, but I doubt we have alternatives to choose from".
The briefing room was occupied with people and noises of talking when General Hammond silenced everyone and gave Daniel the opportunity to talk.
"I went to see Lia" he started
"The Nox?" Sam asked
"Yes, they are waiting for us to bring Jack to their planet where they can try to heal him" everyone was quiet General Hammond looked around the table stopping to stare at both Doctors as he asked
"What we need to know doctors is he stable enough to be moved?" Janet looked at David as he looked back at her.
"At the moment he is stable Sir" David answered as Janet added in a low voice
"They where able to bring back SG-1 once, back from the dead, they will be able to help if he crashes, won't they?"
"Be ready to depart in two hours" the General finished dismissing everyone. Sam rose to her feet and left the briefing room hastily, back to the I.C.U.
"Jack?" Sam went into his room; she got down on her knees to be at his level and looked into his eyes
"Sss…aaa…mmm" he whispered quietly.
"We have good news Jack we are going to take you where you can be healed, Jack? What's wrong? Are you feeling OK?" his eyes closed and he didn't answer.
"Janet, Janet?" she screamed for her friend from the top of her lungs as the doctor stepped through the door and immediately went to check what was wrong with Jack.
"He slipped into a coma again. Sam, there's too much pressure; it's either O.R. now or Nox now". She called two nurses and Dr. Warner, get him ready now David, take him straight to the Gate room" she picked up the phone "General Hammond, we have to take Col. O'Neill to the Nox right now or he will die"
"Go ahead doctor" the General said already leaving his office and going down the stairs to the control room
"Dial the Nox world right now" he ordered, as the chevrons locked one by one he could feel his heart racing.
The gurney with Jack came into the embarkation room. Jack was being kept alive with artificial resuscitation by Dr. Warner, the rest of SG-1 right behind him and Dr. Fraiser the last to enter just as the seventh chevron was locked and the wormhole was established, Dr. Warner and the two nurses stayed behind as the rest vanished into the circle.
"Lia, Lia" Daniel screamed her name, as she appeared with three Other Nox before them; they stepped towards Jack while the others stepped back watching in amazement at the scene. Lia and the others lifted their hands above Jacks still body as they started to faze in and out of view, it was 10 minutes of grueling nerve wrecking silent expectations when the Nox stopped and Lia stepped towards the waiting people.
"It will be a while before he wakes, we will take him to rest now, come, come" she gestured for all to follow her; they did so in absolute silence, each submerged in their own thoughts.
They arrived at the makeshift village within 25 minutes, Jack was placed in a hut on a soft bed of leaves, and the rest where invited to come with Lia and the others to eat.
"Lia? Is it possible for me to remain here?" Sam asked her in a low voice as they where exiting the hut
"Your feelings for Col. O'Neill have grown since we last met"
"They where there all the time, I was just trying to hide them before, for all kinds of reasons, but since this happened…" she didn't finish but Lia understood as she bowed her head.
"You are hurt as well" she observed
"Not to bad"
"We will heal you" Lia said as they arrived at the tree trunk used as a table with various fruits for them.
After they all had something to eat Lia signaled for Sam to come with them. She was laid on a soft bed as she saw the Nox raising their hands mere inches above her body. She felt her eyes growing heavy and closing regardless of her efforts to keep them open. When she managed to re-open her eyes she found herself in a small-darkened hut similar to the one they placed Jack in. She slowly tried to move her left shoulder, it didn't hurt anymore, and she gently wiggled her fingers then moved her elbow. She set up in her bed of leaves touching her left shoulder with her right hand; there was nothing there except healthy skin. She turned to the right to stand up and then she saw him, Jack was laid on a similar bed of leaves elevated from the ground, he was lying on his stomach and his eyes where closed.
Sam stepped closer and lifted some of the bandages that where covering Jack's back, there it was his back as it has been before they stepped onto P3X427 almost two weeks ago. Healthy skin and no apparent physical injury she felt for a pulse, it was slow and steady. She bent down and kissed his cheek, then bent further down and placed her lips to his in the softest way. She felt him moving under her lips and opened her eyes to stare at his as he instinctively pulled back as far as he could from his position lying on his stomach.
"What, what?" he murmured confused.
"I'm sorry Sir, I couldn't help myself when I saw you were healed" Sam thought his response might be the fact that the military regulations forbade fraternization between them.
"Where am I, who are you?" he asked confusion and actual fear in his eyes and voice as he looked around the primitively looking hut.
"Janet? Lia? Come here, there's something wrong with Jack" they all came running inside stopping at the entrance amazed at seeing Jack huddled in the far corner genuine fear in his eyes, being cornered as an animal by vicious predators.
"Don't hurt me, please?" he pleaded raising his hands in defense.
"Janet? What's wrong with him?"
"We are not going to hurt you Jack; we are all your friends here. I'm Janet, I'm a doctor. Will you let me near you?". She stepped toward him with her hands stretched forward, he lined against the wall but nodded his head slightly, and Janet came near and looked in his eyes with her penlight "do you recognize any of the people you see here?"
"No"
"We brought you here to make you better, you where seriously hurt Jack, do you remember that?"
"No" he looked so confused like a lost child looking franticly for his mother.
"We are all, your friend's here, Jack, this is Sam, Daniel, and Lia" she pointed each of the ones standing within the hut.
"Are you hungry Jack?" he contemplated the idea for a few seconds before nodding. "Go with Sam and Daniel outside, there is plenty for you to eat, OK?" he shook his head.
"Don't be afraid, we are your friends Jack, we will never hurt you". Sam said softly reaching her hand for his. He hesitated but finally took her hand in his and with her stepped out squinting at the sun that greeted him outside. They walked hand in hand the few yards to the tree trunk. Sam picked a beautiful peach looking fruit, she took a sniff of the succulent looking fruit and handed it to Jack, he took it from her hand looking at it and examining it before taking a small bite. It was good, sweet; he took a larger bite, the juice smearing his chin making him look like a little boy all messy and happy. Sam re-introduced Teal'c and Anteus while they sat and ate more fruits.
"I do not understand, we have never encountered lose of memory after healing" Lia was baffled
"He lost his memory before, but why wasn't it cured with the rest of him?" Janet answered and asked,
"We healed him physically, but we do not heal the mind" Lia said as Janet sighed
"OK Lia, thank you for healing him, now if we can just heal his mind"
"You are welcome to stay with us as long as you need"
"Thank you Lia but if Jack has amnesia familiar surroundings are the best thing for him"
"What is amnesia?"
"It's usually a temporary lose of memory, I just hope it is only temporary" the Nox nodded in understanding as they stepped out and walked towards the clearing. An hour later they where headed towards the stargate.
"Where are we going?" Jack asked not afraid anymore but still holding on to Sam's hand just in case,
"We are going home" Sam answered
"Home?" Jack contemplated that word "what's that?"
"It's where we all live, and where your friends are waiting for you" Sam smiled at him, as they approached the enormous ring, Jack took two steppes back
"What is that?"
"That is the way home Jack"
"Don't be afraid, it's cool" said Daniel using one of Jack's favorite words
"Cool" he repeated his eyes growing bigger as the giant wave of look-alike water came toward them and then retreated leaving a shimmering pool of standing water "Don't worry Jack everything is going to be all right" Sam and Daniel on each side of Jack stepped through followed by Teal'c and Janet. They thanked the Nox again before stepping through, and then they where gone.
Back on Earth, General Hammond greeted them, a smile broke on his face as he saw a standing, walking perfectly healthy Col. O'Neill, when he saw Sam and Daniel's faces bewildered his smile faded away.
"Good to have you back Col. O'Neill"
"Who are you?" Jack asked still holding Sam's hand refusing to let go.
"What is going on?" the General's face-hardened in confusion.
"We don't know Sir, Dr. Fraiser thinks it's some sort of amnesia" as she said the words Janet and Teal'c stepped on the ramp and walked down
"Doctor?" Hammond asked
"I don't know yet Sir, we need to take some tests and see, I hope it's only temporary",
"Very well" he sighed somewhat disappointed "OK keep me posted" he turned on his heels and went back to his office.
"Come on Jack let's go" Janet said
"Is Sam coming too?" the two women exchanged glances
"Yes, Sam is coming too" the three of them walked to the infirmary, Jack still refusing to release Sam's hand from his own. Each person they encountered on their way tried to greet Col. O'Neill and was quietly signaled to say nothing while the threesome kept on going.
The CT scan reveled nothing; the blood tests showed everything was fine and the EEG although erratic was fine.
"What did you find doctor?" General Hammond asked in the debriefing.
"There's nothing wrong with him, physically anyway, there's nothing that can explain this, we simply have to wait, give him some time to recover. Usually amnesia is temporary, and with the trauma his body went through, it is understandable"
"Why didn't the Nox heal this too?"
"They said they could only heal the physical"
"Very well, that will be all, dismissed" all present in the debriefing stood up and started leaving "Dr Fraiser" the General called her back; she remained as everyone else left the room "Doctor, should I start any action towards honorary dismissal?"
"No Sir, please, let's just see what happens; just put SG-1 on stand down"
"That won't be necessary Doctor; I'll put a temporary replacement commander on SG-1"
"No Sir, not unless you're prepared to replace Major Carter as well"
"Why's that? I thought the Nox healed her"
"They did Sir, Col. O'Neill has formed an attachment to her, as a son to a mother or protector, we can't separate them without causing emotional damage to Jack, oh sorry, Col. O'Neill"
"Very well Doctor, SG-1 on stand down till further notice"
"Thank you Sir" she left him alone.
"Good morning Jack" Janet entered his room, It was 09:00 and he was sitting at his table looking through a photo album, he did not acknowledge she was in the room so she stepped closer and looked over his shoulder. The album was open and a picture of Charlie stared at them, she looked at Jack, there were tears running down his cheeks and his fingers where caressing Charlie's face, staring, smiling at them from the picture.
"Jack? Do you know who this is?"
"Dead" he answered his voice trembling.
"Do you know his name?" Janet continued to investigate
"Cha…Char…lie" he finally said as he swung his chair around and wrapped his arms around her, crying.
"It's OK Jack, everything is going to be OK" she whispered into his ear as Sam walked in the door stopping dead in her tracks as the image registered in her mind. With a nod and a question in her eyes she asked Janet what was going on. Janet's signal was to wait as she gently pushed away from Jack
"Go wash your face, Jack, then we'll start working on that memory of yours" he did as she asked without saying a word. "He was looking at pictures, he saw Charlie, and he remembered his name and the fact that he was no longer alive"
"Is that a good thing?"
"It means he does have his memories somewhere inside his head, we just have to help him find them".
"Janet? Do you think hypnosis might work in Jack's case?"
"It's certainly something to think about, I'll talk to Dr. Macanzie". Jack re-entered the room.
"Hi Sam" he said his voice soft and low,
"Hi Jack" she answered back, the three of them walked to the infirmary where Dr. Macanzie met them, he smiled at Jack as he patted his shoulder,
"Let's get to work".
Jack was seated in a reclining chair and Dr. Macanzie started to hypnotize him; 3 hours later Jack was awake again.
"You did extremely well Jack, you can go now and I'll see you again in three days. Jack turned
"Are you coming Sam?" he asked as he started to walk towards the door
"I'll find you later Jack, you go on now" he shrugged his shoulders disappointed and left.
"Hypnosis was terrific Sir; his memories are intact only buried deep within him. However I don't think flooding him with them all at once is a good idea. We where able to reach age 5 Sir, now each time we hypnotize him we can advance forward, if the period was uneventful we can manage longer period's of time if it was eventful or stressing shorter".
"How long do you think that will take?"
"Well Sir, I can't be sure, if we advance an average of 5 years at a time and no more than two sessions a week it will take approximately 5 weeks, give or take a couple of weeks"
"Very well people, do your best and keep me informed, dismissed".
TBC