Tony Rich Project, Nobody Knows
Wish I'd told her how I felt, then maybe she'd be here right now, but instead. . .
I pretended I'm glad you went away,
These four walls closing more everyday,
And I'm dyin' inside,
And nobody knows it but me,
Like a clown I put on a show,
The pain is real even if nobody knows,
And I'm cryin' inside,
And nobody knows it but me,
Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say,
How could I let my angel get away,
Now my world is just a tumblin' down,
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around,
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad,
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had,
And I'm missin' you,
And nobody knows it but me,
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two,
And I'm nobody without someone like you,
I'm tremblin' inside,
And nobody knows it but me,
I lie awake it's quarter past three,
I'm screamin' at night if I thought you'd here me,
Yeah, my heart is callin' you,
And nobody knows it but me,
How blue can I get, you could ask my heart,
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart,
A million words couldn't say just how I feel,
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still,
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad,
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had,
And I'm missin' you,
And nobody knows it but me,
Nobody, nobody, but me. . .
Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road,
Gonna find you where ever, ever you might go,
And I'm gonna unload my heart,
And hope you come back to me,
Yeah, sad when the nights are lonely. . .
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad,
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had,
And I'm missin' you,
And nobody knows it but me. . .
After Becky was done cleaning up the paint supplies, she slowly started to walk back to her rooms. During her whole Art class, she had been thinking about Severus. Why should I even care about him anymore, she would say to herself, if he can't trust me. . . well. . . the hell with him. Even if he does find out that I was telling him the truth, she thought, and we got back together. . . I wouldn't be able to rely on him to trust me if we got into anymore strange situations. . .
Becky had finally reached her room. She stood outside the door for a minute, thinking a bit more of what she would do if Severus came crawling back to her. . . like she wanted him to do in the first place. But, she just couldn't take him back. . . after what he did to her. Trust was one of the most important things in a good relationship. And Severus certainly didn't have the courage to have faith in her. Becky then suddenly had the impression that the reason he was like that. . .was because of his past. She surely didn't deny the possibility that he had these trusting problems because of events in his past when people would lie to him constantly. But still, she thought, he should know better than to think that I would lie to him!
"Becky?" a deep, croaky voice said behind her.
Becky knew who it was from the start. She turned around to see Severus Snape. His chest was rising and falling quite rapidly. She guessed that he must have ran down here in a hurry. His eyes were blazing with. . . was it repentance?
"I believe you," he droned deeply as he moved closer to her.
Becky backed up until her back was against the wall. Her heart started to beat profoundly fast.
"Why?" she asked slowly. "Did you go and ask Kolenkov?"
"Yes," he replied, annoyed with himself. "But I am deeply sorry for that and for not letting you explain in the first place," he took a deep, ragged breath and continued. "I shouldn't have even asked that bastard! I should have known that you wouldn't lie to me!"
Becky started to turn around and open the door to her room. She set her hand on the doorknob, but Severus hand clapped down over hers.
"Please," he begged. "Forgive me."
Becky opened the door and walked inside. She turned around and whispered, "I'm sorry, Severus."
She was about to close the door when Severus threw his arm in the way. She opened it back up again and gave Severus a sad smile.
"Becky. . .," he whispered. "I lo-," he paused here.
Becky stared at him with eyes that urged him to say it. Only say it if you mean it, Severus told himself. He suddenly reflected back on everything that Becky had done to him. He remembered the time he saved Becky from Voldemort. He would have never done that if he weren't madly in love with her. He also remembered the recent dance, and when she made him laugh harder than he ever thought possible. Nobody, except her, could ever make him laugh like that, let alone chuckle. He then recollected the way her mere presence made him excited in places he never knew existed. . .except a certain part. Severus remembered how she would look at him as though. . . she could look at nothing else but him. He loved everything about her. He absolutely loved the way she would make him feel so content. The way she would tell him she wanted him and no one else but him. The way she would melt into his arms, and get so excited just by hearing him speak. The way her knees buckled when he would just barely kiss her. The way she, amazingly, found him so incredibly sexy and handsome. But mostly, he remembered the time she told him she loved him. And he loved her too. And it was about time he let her know.
"I love you," he practically whispered.
Becky smiled with tears in her eyes and opened the door further. Severus took her hand and continued, "Becky, I love you more than I thought possible. Ever since I laid eyes on you, I've been truly, madly, and deeply in love with you. I didn't think it was even possible to love somebody with every fibre of my being, until you came along. I love you more than you can understand. And well. . . frankly, I love every single thing about you," he brought his hand up to her face and said quietly, "I love your beauty," he brought his hand down and let it rest on her waist, "Your body," he then let go and added, "Your personality, your kindness and- well. . . there's nothing I would want more than to be with you. And if I lose you. . .I know I'll regret it for the rest of my life."
Becky's watery eyes started to send tears of love and happiness down her rosy cheeks. She then suddenly choked out, "I love you!" and flung her arms around Severus. They held each other for a couple seconds, and she drew away, wiping her tears away. She looked at Severus' damp shoulder and laughed and she let some more tears fall.
"I'm sorry," she laughed. "I didn't mean to use your shoulder as a tissue."
Severus chuckled and said, "You can use me and my body for whatever you desire."
Becky suddenly noticed the dirtiness of the comment and hit Severus playfully on the shoulder. He laughed and pulled her to him, as he claimed her lips with his in a most frenzied, sensual kiss. She pulled away for a short breath, and then captured his lips back again. Severus' hands started to explore her perfect body while Becky caressed his taut chest. She then brought her hands up to his ebony, silky hair and started to tangle her fingers into it, while her tongue fought a war with his.
Suddenly somebody cleared their throat from the end of the corridor. Becky and Severus pulled away quickly. Severus ran a hand threw his tussled hair as Becky straightened her shirt out. They turned around to see Professor Mcgonagall. She had a very stern look on that said "What a great example for the students and faculty."
"Dinner had commenced 20 minutes ago," she firmly said. "And Albus had sent me down to see where you two were and. . . I imagine you have finished with. . .," she shifted uncomfortably, "whatever you were performing. . . so you should walk down to the Great Hall at once."
Becky giggled slightly, which made Mcgonagall glare at her. Severus had apparently recaptured his charming, sardonic self and brushed past Becky. Becky laughed mentally at the idea that Severus was still determined to hide their relationship from Minerva, even thought she had caught them in the act. Becky smiled to herself as she followed Severus to the Great Hall. She had her man back. . . and he had finally told her he loved her!
Wish I'd told her how I felt, then maybe she'd be here right now, but instead. . .
I pretended I'm glad you went away,
These four walls closing more everyday,
And I'm dyin' inside,
And nobody knows it but me,
Like a clown I put on a show,
The pain is real even if nobody knows,
And I'm cryin' inside,
And nobody knows it but me,
Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say,
How could I let my angel get away,
Now my world is just a tumblin' down,
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around,
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad,
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had,
And I'm missin' you,
And nobody knows it but me,
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two,
And I'm nobody without someone like you,
I'm tremblin' inside,
And nobody knows it but me,
I lie awake it's quarter past three,
I'm screamin' at night if I thought you'd here me,
Yeah, my heart is callin' you,
And nobody knows it but me,
How blue can I get, you could ask my heart,
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart,
A million words couldn't say just how I feel,
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still,
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad,
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had,
And I'm missin' you,
And nobody knows it but me,
Nobody, nobody, but me. . .
Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road,
Gonna find you where ever, ever you might go,
And I'm gonna unload my heart,
And hope you come back to me,
Yeah, sad when the nights are lonely. . .
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad,
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had,
And I'm missin' you,
And nobody knows it but me. . .
After Becky was done cleaning up the paint supplies, she slowly started to walk back to her rooms. During her whole Art class, she had been thinking about Severus. Why should I even care about him anymore, she would say to herself, if he can't trust me. . . well. . . the hell with him. Even if he does find out that I was telling him the truth, she thought, and we got back together. . . I wouldn't be able to rely on him to trust me if we got into anymore strange situations. . .
Becky had finally reached her room. She stood outside the door for a minute, thinking a bit more of what she would do if Severus came crawling back to her. . . like she wanted him to do in the first place. But, she just couldn't take him back. . . after what he did to her. Trust was one of the most important things in a good relationship. And Severus certainly didn't have the courage to have faith in her. Becky then suddenly had the impression that the reason he was like that. . .was because of his past. She surely didn't deny the possibility that he had these trusting problems because of events in his past when people would lie to him constantly. But still, she thought, he should know better than to think that I would lie to him!
"Becky?" a deep, croaky voice said behind her.
Becky knew who it was from the start. She turned around to see Severus Snape. His chest was rising and falling quite rapidly. She guessed that he must have ran down here in a hurry. His eyes were blazing with. . . was it repentance?
"I believe you," he droned deeply as he moved closer to her.
Becky backed up until her back was against the wall. Her heart started to beat profoundly fast.
"Why?" she asked slowly. "Did you go and ask Kolenkov?"
"Yes," he replied, annoyed with himself. "But I am deeply sorry for that and for not letting you explain in the first place," he took a deep, ragged breath and continued. "I shouldn't have even asked that bastard! I should have known that you wouldn't lie to me!"
Becky started to turn around and open the door to her room. She set her hand on the doorknob, but Severus hand clapped down over hers.
"Please," he begged. "Forgive me."
Becky opened the door and walked inside. She turned around and whispered, "I'm sorry, Severus."
She was about to close the door when Severus threw his arm in the way. She opened it back up again and gave Severus a sad smile.
"Becky. . .," he whispered. "I lo-," he paused here.
Becky stared at him with eyes that urged him to say it. Only say it if you mean it, Severus told himself. He suddenly reflected back on everything that Becky had done to him. He remembered the time he saved Becky from Voldemort. He would have never done that if he weren't madly in love with her. He also remembered the recent dance, and when she made him laugh harder than he ever thought possible. Nobody, except her, could ever make him laugh like that, let alone chuckle. He then recollected the way her mere presence made him excited in places he never knew existed. . .except a certain part. Severus remembered how she would look at him as though. . . she could look at nothing else but him. He loved everything about her. He absolutely loved the way she would make him feel so content. The way she would tell him she wanted him and no one else but him. The way she would melt into his arms, and get so excited just by hearing him speak. The way her knees buckled when he would just barely kiss her. The way she, amazingly, found him so incredibly sexy and handsome. But mostly, he remembered the time she told him she loved him. And he loved her too. And it was about time he let her know.
"I love you," he practically whispered.
Becky smiled with tears in her eyes and opened the door further. Severus took her hand and continued, "Becky, I love you more than I thought possible. Ever since I laid eyes on you, I've been truly, madly, and deeply in love with you. I didn't think it was even possible to love somebody with every fibre of my being, until you came along. I love you more than you can understand. And well. . . frankly, I love every single thing about you," he brought his hand up to her face and said quietly, "I love your beauty," he brought his hand down and let it rest on her waist, "Your body," he then let go and added, "Your personality, your kindness and- well. . . there's nothing I would want more than to be with you. And if I lose you. . .I know I'll regret it for the rest of my life."
Becky's watery eyes started to send tears of love and happiness down her rosy cheeks. She then suddenly choked out, "I love you!" and flung her arms around Severus. They held each other for a couple seconds, and she drew away, wiping her tears away. She looked at Severus' damp shoulder and laughed and she let some more tears fall.
"I'm sorry," she laughed. "I didn't mean to use your shoulder as a tissue."
Severus chuckled and said, "You can use me and my body for whatever you desire."
Becky suddenly noticed the dirtiness of the comment and hit Severus playfully on the shoulder. He laughed and pulled her to him, as he claimed her lips with his in a most frenzied, sensual kiss. She pulled away for a short breath, and then captured his lips back again. Severus' hands started to explore her perfect body while Becky caressed his taut chest. She then brought her hands up to his ebony, silky hair and started to tangle her fingers into it, while her tongue fought a war with his.
Suddenly somebody cleared their throat from the end of the corridor. Becky and Severus pulled away quickly. Severus ran a hand threw his tussled hair as Becky straightened her shirt out. They turned around to see Professor Mcgonagall. She had a very stern look on that said "What a great example for the students and faculty."
"Dinner had commenced 20 minutes ago," she firmly said. "And Albus had sent me down to see where you two were and. . . I imagine you have finished with. . .," she shifted uncomfortably, "whatever you were performing. . . so you should walk down to the Great Hall at once."
Becky giggled slightly, which made Mcgonagall glare at her. Severus had apparently recaptured his charming, sardonic self and brushed past Becky. Becky laughed mentally at the idea that Severus was still determined to hide their relationship from Minerva, even thought she had caught them in the act. Becky smiled to herself as she followed Severus to the Great Hall. She had her man back. . . and he had finally told her he loved her!