Hope for Dreams
AN: I don't own Gundum wing.
One second. Not even that. In such a miniscule amount of time, all my dreams were shattered. The moment he pressed that button, everything came crashing back to reality. And the reality was I didn't deserve him or happiness.
As I twirled the self destruct button in my hand, I contemplate the value of such a small piece of machinery. Funny that this one small button could destroy my life in so many ways. Could shatter both my heart and body in under a second. But, somehow, I was tempted to push the button. Because, somewhere in my mind, I doubted that this button could be the end of me. As a gundum pilot, it was possible that I would die tomorrow, or even sooner than that. Death was always looming over me. But fearing death is like fearing the sun. No matter what you do, you will die someday. And no matter what you do, the sun will rise again. Fear truly is a pointless emotion.
Heero Yuy. The perfect soldier. I worship him not out of envy but lust. Pure lust. A soft knock sounds from my door, but my eyes remain closed. I feel no need to even open them again. To see the destruction that plagues my life and everything I love. But the person at my door enters any way, shaking me into reality.
"I know how bad you must feel," Quatres' sensitive voice rings thorough the air, "losing him before you had a chance."
Tears roll down, I am unable to contain the emotions I have kept inside all these years. I sob into my pillow, holding it close to myself.
"But I thought you may want to know. We haven't found his body. He may not even be dead!"
I sprang to life again; a ray of light had entered the darkness. Perhaps there is still hope for my dreams!
Please review!!
AN: I don't own Gundum wing.
One second. Not even that. In such a miniscule amount of time, all my dreams were shattered. The moment he pressed that button, everything came crashing back to reality. And the reality was I didn't deserve him or happiness.
As I twirled the self destruct button in my hand, I contemplate the value of such a small piece of machinery. Funny that this one small button could destroy my life in so many ways. Could shatter both my heart and body in under a second. But, somehow, I was tempted to push the button. Because, somewhere in my mind, I doubted that this button could be the end of me. As a gundum pilot, it was possible that I would die tomorrow, or even sooner than that. Death was always looming over me. But fearing death is like fearing the sun. No matter what you do, you will die someday. And no matter what you do, the sun will rise again. Fear truly is a pointless emotion.
Heero Yuy. The perfect soldier. I worship him not out of envy but lust. Pure lust. A soft knock sounds from my door, but my eyes remain closed. I feel no need to even open them again. To see the destruction that plagues my life and everything I love. But the person at my door enters any way, shaking me into reality.
"I know how bad you must feel," Quatres' sensitive voice rings thorough the air, "losing him before you had a chance."
Tears roll down, I am unable to contain the emotions I have kept inside all these years. I sob into my pillow, holding it close to myself.
"But I thought you may want to know. We haven't found his body. He may not even be dead!"
I sprang to life again; a ray of light had entered the darkness. Perhaps there is still hope for my dreams!
Please review!!