I woke up a little while ago to find Claire snuggled up close to me, she
spent the night here with me but nothing happened, I don't think either of
us had the energy. I run my hand through her hair and smile at her, I can't
believe how much happier she makes me now that were more than friends. I
had a dream last night and I actually remembered it, which is very unusual
for me, maybe it was a sign. I dreamed that Claire had a little boy, my
little boy on my birthday. Oh well it probably meant nothing, I mean its
August now and I don't think we'll be moving that fast. I'd be over the
moon if it did happen though.
Claire is just waking up well stirring anyway and we're meant to be going shopping today, which means we will be out for hours! But I don't really mind, I can buy her loads of new things well that's if she lets me. Claire opens her eyes and smiles at me, I lean down and kiss her on the lips.
Morning gorgeous.
Claire: Morning.
Are we still going to go shopping today?
Claire: If you like, I'd much rather stay in bed with you all day.
Well if that's what you want!
Claire must really love me, nothing normally stops her from going on a shopping trip. I felt so good when she said she'd rather spend the day in bed with me, I don't think anything will happen but you never know. I'm thinking of asking Claire to move in with me because at the moment she is living with her parents. I really would love her to live with me, I think it would make everything complete and then we could get married and have children, everything will be just great. I would ask Claire to marry me but I know she would be scared off by a proposal because its too early into the relationship even though I have loved her with all my heart for over five years.
I think I've finally plucked up the courage to ask Claire to move in with me, I really hope she says yes. I look down at her and she looks up at me, her eyes seem to shine and tell me she loves me. I take the opportunity to steal a kiss from her before moving her closer to my body and think over what I'm going to say. Before I can say what I want to say Claire is kissing me passionately and running her hand up and down my chest, I'm quite stunned but that doesn't mean I want her to stop. Slowly she takes off my top and gets on top of me kissing my chest and my neck but all of a sudden she stops.
Claire: Ian, am I hurting you?
I look at her lovingly and think to myself even if you were hurting me I wouldn't care as long as I had you in my arms. She looks at me blankly and I think she's hoping that I don't say yes.
Of course you're not!
She continues to kiss me and I run my hand up and down her thigh, the whole time thinking about how sexy she is and how much I love her, I can see that she feels the same way. She slides her hand down my boxers and grabs hold of me, my eyes widen and I feel like everything is finally working out for me and I just want to spend the rest of my life with her.
I wake up with thoughts of what has just happened floating through my mind. Claire is still on top of me and is breathing softly, I can't believe it actually happened so soon! I'm waiting for her to wake up then I'm going to ask her to move in.
About an hour later she finally wakes up and I just come out with it, I figure it's easier that way instead of mumbling on about something.
Claire, will you move in with me?
I don't like the look, which has formed on Claire's face, it's not a look of happiness or shock it's a look of anger and sadness. She gets off of me and slides out of the bed before starting to put her clothes on. I don't know what to say to her or how to look at her. I can't bring myself to say anything at first but then I realise I have to otherwise I'm going to lose her. As I start to speak I'm aware that my voice is very shaky.
Claire?
Claire: What?
Well will you move in with me?
Claire: I can't believe you actually asked me.
What do you mean?
Claire: After everything Mark done to me. I'm just not ready to commit to someone yet. I do love you though Ian and I want to be with you I'm just not ready to move in with you.
Fine! If that's what you want.
Claire: Ian don't be like that. I'll come and see you tomorrow.
Don't bother I wont be here.
Claire: *crying* I thought you of all people would understand.
Claire runs into the bathroom and locks the door. I can't help feeling guilty for making her have to decide like that but I also didn't expect her to react like this. I've decided that I'm going to go back to Wales tomorrow to give Claire a break from me and then maybe time will be a healer.
Claire is just waking up well stirring anyway and we're meant to be going shopping today, which means we will be out for hours! But I don't really mind, I can buy her loads of new things well that's if she lets me. Claire opens her eyes and smiles at me, I lean down and kiss her on the lips.
Morning gorgeous.
Claire: Morning.
Are we still going to go shopping today?
Claire: If you like, I'd much rather stay in bed with you all day.
Well if that's what you want!
Claire must really love me, nothing normally stops her from going on a shopping trip. I felt so good when she said she'd rather spend the day in bed with me, I don't think anything will happen but you never know. I'm thinking of asking Claire to move in with me because at the moment she is living with her parents. I really would love her to live with me, I think it would make everything complete and then we could get married and have children, everything will be just great. I would ask Claire to marry me but I know she would be scared off by a proposal because its too early into the relationship even though I have loved her with all my heart for over five years.
I think I've finally plucked up the courage to ask Claire to move in with me, I really hope she says yes. I look down at her and she looks up at me, her eyes seem to shine and tell me she loves me. I take the opportunity to steal a kiss from her before moving her closer to my body and think over what I'm going to say. Before I can say what I want to say Claire is kissing me passionately and running her hand up and down my chest, I'm quite stunned but that doesn't mean I want her to stop. Slowly she takes off my top and gets on top of me kissing my chest and my neck but all of a sudden she stops.
Claire: Ian, am I hurting you?
I look at her lovingly and think to myself even if you were hurting me I wouldn't care as long as I had you in my arms. She looks at me blankly and I think she's hoping that I don't say yes.
Of course you're not!
She continues to kiss me and I run my hand up and down her thigh, the whole time thinking about how sexy she is and how much I love her, I can see that she feels the same way. She slides her hand down my boxers and grabs hold of me, my eyes widen and I feel like everything is finally working out for me and I just want to spend the rest of my life with her.
I wake up with thoughts of what has just happened floating through my mind. Claire is still on top of me and is breathing softly, I can't believe it actually happened so soon! I'm waiting for her to wake up then I'm going to ask her to move in.
About an hour later she finally wakes up and I just come out with it, I figure it's easier that way instead of mumbling on about something.
Claire, will you move in with me?
I don't like the look, which has formed on Claire's face, it's not a look of happiness or shock it's a look of anger and sadness. She gets off of me and slides out of the bed before starting to put her clothes on. I don't know what to say to her or how to look at her. I can't bring myself to say anything at first but then I realise I have to otherwise I'm going to lose her. As I start to speak I'm aware that my voice is very shaky.
Claire?
Claire: What?
Well will you move in with me?
Claire: I can't believe you actually asked me.
What do you mean?
Claire: After everything Mark done to me. I'm just not ready to commit to someone yet. I do love you though Ian and I want to be with you I'm just not ready to move in with you.
Fine! If that's what you want.
Claire: Ian don't be like that. I'll come and see you tomorrow.
Don't bother I wont be here.
Claire: *crying* I thought you of all people would understand.
Claire runs into the bathroom and locks the door. I can't help feeling guilty for making her have to decide like that but I also didn't expect her to react like this. I've decided that I'm going to go back to Wales tomorrow to give Claire a break from me and then maybe time will be a healer.