When morning comes I'm dreading what my parents are going to be like. The
phone has already rung twice and mananged to wake Owen up both times, it
was the hospital just letting us know that Robert is starting to make some
improvements. Claire got up an hour ago and went to feed Owen in the living
room because it hurts her back feeding him in bed. She hasn't come back in
so I guess that means my mum's talking to her. I get up and walk along the
hallway, the house sounds really quite.
Gaynor: Morning Ian.
Where's Claire?
Gaynor: Morning Mum, how are you? Yes I'm fine thanks Ian!
Where's Claire?
Gaynor: I don't know.
You mean you haven't seen her this morning?
Gaynor: I just said I hadn't. She hasn't gone out again has she, we'll never get time with Owen at this rate!
Calm down Mum you'll see him later.
I walk towards the rooms where Jamie and Alyn are staying and knock before I go into Jamie's. He's fast asleep so I just leave him and go towards Alyn's room, I stop outside the door and can hear crying so I listen in. I can hear Alyn talking to someone so I go in. I see him sitting on the bed with Owen in his arms.
Where the hell is Claire?
Alyn: She had to go out.
Where?
Alyn: She didn't say.
I'm fuming and I take Owen from Alyn's arms and walk out letting the door slam behind me. I take Owen into the bathroom and give him a wash before starting to get him dressed then the nappies and changing stuff get chucked into a bag. I leave a note on the side telling everyone I've gone to the hospital. When I get there I'm told that Claire isn't there and hasn't been there at all today. I walk around the town in a daze looking for her, worring about where she could be. I go into a small cafe for a drink and that's when I notice her sitting talking to some bloke, its not until I get nearer that I realise its Lee.
Well Well long time no see!
Claire: H what are you doing here?
Looking for you.
Claire: But why?
Because I was worried that's why. I thought something really bad had happened to your dad but then I found out that wasn't true and I thought you just wouldn't go out and not take Owen so I came looking for you. I thought something really bad had happened to you then I get here and find you with him!
Claire: You could have just rung my mobile!
Just get up and meet me by the car, take Owen with you.
Claire: I'm talking to Lee.
I don't care just get out to that car.
I watch Claire get up and she takes Owen from me before walking off to the car. I sit down opposite Lee and finish of Claire's coffee before turning to face Lee.
You just stay away from us ok?
Lee: Why?
Because you've made my life hell, making everyone think we're the bad one's.
Lee: I never once said that!
Whatever Lee, just stay away from Claire.
When we arrive back home I kind of feel guilty, I was just really shocked to see Lee with Claire. I shouldn't have acted like I did but Claire won't listen to what I've got to say, she won't even speak to me. My whole family of course have sided with Claire and keep telling me that I was wrong but the whole point is I know that already they don't need to tell me. Dad's holding Owen and Claire's cooking dinner, Alyn and Jamie are playing on the Xbox and I'm about to go and talk to Claire. I walk into the kitchen unsure of what to say.
Claire: Piss off Ian.
I'm sorry, it's just that I love you so much and I want to protect you but I can't do that if I don't know where you are. When I saw you with Lee I was just so shocked and saw him as a threat. I'm still cross about the blaming issue aswell so that didn't help but if you want to see him again then I'm not going to stop you. I love you Claire and I love Owen and I don't want to lose you. Please forgive me.
Claire has a small tear running down her cheek and I wipe it away before bringing her into a hug. She hugs me back and I know i haven't lost her, I don't deserve her I really don't. I'm going to have to stop snapping at people like this, its not fair on them and I don't want Owen to grow up thikning that's the normal thing to do. I believe children can only be as good as their parents allow them to be, well that is until they become an adult themselves. If I don't bring Owen up properly he won't live his life to the full, I have to change for Owen's sake. Right now I need to be strong just incase something terrible happens to Robert and Claire needs my support. I was right all along I make a rubbish dad, I just knew I would!
Gaynor: Morning Ian.
Where's Claire?
Gaynor: Morning Mum, how are you? Yes I'm fine thanks Ian!
Where's Claire?
Gaynor: I don't know.
You mean you haven't seen her this morning?
Gaynor: I just said I hadn't. She hasn't gone out again has she, we'll never get time with Owen at this rate!
Calm down Mum you'll see him later.
I walk towards the rooms where Jamie and Alyn are staying and knock before I go into Jamie's. He's fast asleep so I just leave him and go towards Alyn's room, I stop outside the door and can hear crying so I listen in. I can hear Alyn talking to someone so I go in. I see him sitting on the bed with Owen in his arms.
Where the hell is Claire?
Alyn: She had to go out.
Where?
Alyn: She didn't say.
I'm fuming and I take Owen from Alyn's arms and walk out letting the door slam behind me. I take Owen into the bathroom and give him a wash before starting to get him dressed then the nappies and changing stuff get chucked into a bag. I leave a note on the side telling everyone I've gone to the hospital. When I get there I'm told that Claire isn't there and hasn't been there at all today. I walk around the town in a daze looking for her, worring about where she could be. I go into a small cafe for a drink and that's when I notice her sitting talking to some bloke, its not until I get nearer that I realise its Lee.
Well Well long time no see!
Claire: H what are you doing here?
Looking for you.
Claire: But why?
Because I was worried that's why. I thought something really bad had happened to your dad but then I found out that wasn't true and I thought you just wouldn't go out and not take Owen so I came looking for you. I thought something really bad had happened to you then I get here and find you with him!
Claire: You could have just rung my mobile!
Just get up and meet me by the car, take Owen with you.
Claire: I'm talking to Lee.
I don't care just get out to that car.
I watch Claire get up and she takes Owen from me before walking off to the car. I sit down opposite Lee and finish of Claire's coffee before turning to face Lee.
You just stay away from us ok?
Lee: Why?
Because you've made my life hell, making everyone think we're the bad one's.
Lee: I never once said that!
Whatever Lee, just stay away from Claire.
When we arrive back home I kind of feel guilty, I was just really shocked to see Lee with Claire. I shouldn't have acted like I did but Claire won't listen to what I've got to say, she won't even speak to me. My whole family of course have sided with Claire and keep telling me that I was wrong but the whole point is I know that already they don't need to tell me. Dad's holding Owen and Claire's cooking dinner, Alyn and Jamie are playing on the Xbox and I'm about to go and talk to Claire. I walk into the kitchen unsure of what to say.
Claire: Piss off Ian.
I'm sorry, it's just that I love you so much and I want to protect you but I can't do that if I don't know where you are. When I saw you with Lee I was just so shocked and saw him as a threat. I'm still cross about the blaming issue aswell so that didn't help but if you want to see him again then I'm not going to stop you. I love you Claire and I love Owen and I don't want to lose you. Please forgive me.
Claire has a small tear running down her cheek and I wipe it away before bringing her into a hug. She hugs me back and I know i haven't lost her, I don't deserve her I really don't. I'm going to have to stop snapping at people like this, its not fair on them and I don't want Owen to grow up thikning that's the normal thing to do. I believe children can only be as good as their parents allow them to be, well that is until they become an adult themselves. If I don't bring Owen up properly he won't live his life to the full, I have to change for Owen's sake. Right now I need to be strong just incase something terrible happens to Robert and Claire needs my support. I was right all along I make a rubbish dad, I just knew I would!