My parents have now been here 122 hours, thrity three mintues and counting.
That's how much fun I'm having at the moment. Robert is still in hospital
but is improving greatly, we've taken Owen to see him several more times
and he absolutely loves his granddad. Me and Claire had a long talk about
things and me not thinking I'm a good dad but she managed to convince me
that I am. It was a lovely talk and I'm glad we had it. Its hard because
we're not getting much privacy at the moment, my parents are starting to
realise we need more space and are going out in the evenings. They took
Owen to the park the other day but he cried and cried so they had to bring
him home.
Gaynor: Ian can I have a word?
Sure Mum.
Gaynor: I'd like you to have a chance to celebrate your birthday.
Mum its ok, Owen was a celebration in his own little way.
Gaynor: No I want you and Claire to go out and enjoy yourselves.
What about Owen?
Gaynor: If Claire puts him to bed before you go out then he'll be fine.
Well we can only be gone for four hours then.
Gaynor: Why?
Claire needs to feed Owen!
Gaynor: She can just put some milk in the fridge. It's all sorted you can go out tonight, I've already spoken to Claire about it.
I walk into the bedroom and Claire is lying on the bed I stand watching her for a while before sitting next to her. I know that tonight's going to be great even though I'm slightly worried about leaving Owen with them because he doesn't seem to like my parents much. Its probably just because he misses Claire when they take him out so he cries for her.
We've decided to go to a posh little restaurant in London , its a chinese and sells lovely food. The atmosphere in there is just so relaxing and perfect for a romantic night together. Claire's taking ages to get ready as usual but then again I'm not ready either, I'm having a bit of trouble doing my tie because I never really wear one. I'll have to ask Claire to help me which means we'll be later than we already are. Claire walks into the hallway and my jaw drops, she looks drop dead gorgeous. She's wearing a stunning black dress and shoes with a small handbag. I just want to forget the meal and not even bother to go out I'd be perfectly fine right here with her, Claire smiles at me and takes my hand. We go into the nursery to kiss our son goodnight.
Are you sure he's going to be alright?
Claire: Not really but I just want us to have a good night out together after all he is in safe hands.
Yeah I'm sure he'll be ok.
Claire: He looks so cute when he's sleeping, just like his dad!
Aww yeah he does look cute but I don't.
Claire: Believe me you do.
I kiss Claire passionately then we say goodbye to my parents then set off to the restaurant. We order our meal then start to talk about wedding plans, I want to get married as soon as we can but I also respect what Claire wants and I'm willing to compremise. Claire said next year in August would be nice but I've managed to get her to agree to next June so we'll have to start planning and booking a church soon or we'll be out of luck. Owen's going to look so cute in a little suit and I know Claire's going to look gorgeous, I just can't wait for that day, the day Claire officially becomes Mrs Watkins. Its going to be one of the happiest moments of my life but even still nothing can compare to mine and Claire's first night together and the birth of our son.
The meal was lovely and we got to catch up a bit on things as we haven't been able to talk much alone at home. We've decided that we're going to go back to work soon but Owen will have to come with us. Claire's mum has offered to come on tour with us and look after Owen so that we can still see him but don't need to worry about him whilst we're on stage. But I bet that won't stop me worring about him, Claire told me that, that in itself is showing I'm a great dad and maybe just maybe she's right. If anyone ever took Owen and Claire away from me then I know for sure I wouldn't be able to carry on with my life.
After the gun iccedent I thought I'd never see her again but she proved me wrong. She was back here this evening telling my brother how fit she thought he was and how she's my girlfriend. Jamie took me aside when I arrived home and told me all about her visit whilst Mum told Claire how unsettled Owen had been. Its taken me about two hours now to explain to Jamie about what's been going on, I've sworn him to secrecy. Of course Claire now about all of it but I don't want anybody else to find out. Owen wouldn't drink his milk from the bottle and is now extremely hungry but now he won't take milk from Claire either and has an extremely high temperature. I think we're going to end back up at the hospital before the night is through. I pray to God we don't but I also don't want my son to die, that wouldn't be fair. I can't lose him now not after everything we've been through recently.
Gaynor: Ian can I have a word?
Sure Mum.
Gaynor: I'd like you to have a chance to celebrate your birthday.
Mum its ok, Owen was a celebration in his own little way.
Gaynor: No I want you and Claire to go out and enjoy yourselves.
What about Owen?
Gaynor: If Claire puts him to bed before you go out then he'll be fine.
Well we can only be gone for four hours then.
Gaynor: Why?
Claire needs to feed Owen!
Gaynor: She can just put some milk in the fridge. It's all sorted you can go out tonight, I've already spoken to Claire about it.
I walk into the bedroom and Claire is lying on the bed I stand watching her for a while before sitting next to her. I know that tonight's going to be great even though I'm slightly worried about leaving Owen with them because he doesn't seem to like my parents much. Its probably just because he misses Claire when they take him out so he cries for her.
We've decided to go to a posh little restaurant in London , its a chinese and sells lovely food. The atmosphere in there is just so relaxing and perfect for a romantic night together. Claire's taking ages to get ready as usual but then again I'm not ready either, I'm having a bit of trouble doing my tie because I never really wear one. I'll have to ask Claire to help me which means we'll be later than we already are. Claire walks into the hallway and my jaw drops, she looks drop dead gorgeous. She's wearing a stunning black dress and shoes with a small handbag. I just want to forget the meal and not even bother to go out I'd be perfectly fine right here with her, Claire smiles at me and takes my hand. We go into the nursery to kiss our son goodnight.
Are you sure he's going to be alright?
Claire: Not really but I just want us to have a good night out together after all he is in safe hands.
Yeah I'm sure he'll be ok.
Claire: He looks so cute when he's sleeping, just like his dad!
Aww yeah he does look cute but I don't.
Claire: Believe me you do.
I kiss Claire passionately then we say goodbye to my parents then set off to the restaurant. We order our meal then start to talk about wedding plans, I want to get married as soon as we can but I also respect what Claire wants and I'm willing to compremise. Claire said next year in August would be nice but I've managed to get her to agree to next June so we'll have to start planning and booking a church soon or we'll be out of luck. Owen's going to look so cute in a little suit and I know Claire's going to look gorgeous, I just can't wait for that day, the day Claire officially becomes Mrs Watkins. Its going to be one of the happiest moments of my life but even still nothing can compare to mine and Claire's first night together and the birth of our son.
The meal was lovely and we got to catch up a bit on things as we haven't been able to talk much alone at home. We've decided that we're going to go back to work soon but Owen will have to come with us. Claire's mum has offered to come on tour with us and look after Owen so that we can still see him but don't need to worry about him whilst we're on stage. But I bet that won't stop me worring about him, Claire told me that, that in itself is showing I'm a great dad and maybe just maybe she's right. If anyone ever took Owen and Claire away from me then I know for sure I wouldn't be able to carry on with my life.
After the gun iccedent I thought I'd never see her again but she proved me wrong. She was back here this evening telling my brother how fit she thought he was and how she's my girlfriend. Jamie took me aside when I arrived home and told me all about her visit whilst Mum told Claire how unsettled Owen had been. Its taken me about two hours now to explain to Jamie about what's been going on, I've sworn him to secrecy. Of course Claire now about all of it but I don't want anybody else to find out. Owen wouldn't drink his milk from the bottle and is now extremely hungry but now he won't take milk from Claire either and has an extremely high temperature. I think we're going to end back up at the hospital before the night is through. I pray to God we don't but I also don't want my son to die, that wouldn't be fair. I can't lose him now not after everything we've been through recently.