It all started a few months ago, when you came into town. I had no idea that you could change everything. I have my life in order, a wonderful and loving boyfriend, who I did love. I never missed a day of school. All that changed. You challenged me and made me want more. I started to question a lot. My relationship, life. I told myself that what I was feeling was intrigue and wonder. I never thought it could be more. I had to convince my mother, Luke, Dean, and the entire town that I just wanted yo as a friend. I had the worst time convincing myself. Then you moved away, back to New York. But that was all my fault and I felt so horrible. So I did the stupidest thing I could have. I went after you. I told you I just wanted you to say good bye, but the truth is I wanted to see you and I missed you. You came back the just before summer. I remember, because it was the day I ruined the lie I had and showed what I denied. I kissed you at Sookie's wedding. I, right then, knew I wanted you. I had to ignore it, for everyone's sake. The night of the Stars Hallow High dance I found out my true feelings and decided to hid them.
Remembering
I can still remember suddenly feeling a presence in the hallway, I flipped my hair back up, shaking it out of my face. I thought you were Dean coming to pick me up.
"Good, now that you're here you......" I said as I turned around.
I was shocked, when it turned out not to be Dean. Your eyes burned into me, I felt so self couscous. You looked so uncomfortable as you ran one hand through your dark messy hair. You looked so good standing there looking at me. I was having trouble with the necklace I wanted to wear and I asked you to help me put it on.
"Oh, since you're here can you help me clasp this? Unless, it's too tiny for your fingers, cause it was pretty tricky...." I began, but stopped blabbering instantly when you approached me quietly.
I could feel you get closer to me. I knew right then that asking you for help had been a horrible idea. A million tiny chills went all over when I felt you fingers lightly run over my neck as you grabbed the clasp. I could feel the heat of your breath as you worked and I could not move. I could not help watching you in silence. You looked so serious and worried that it had to be perfect. All that could have made it better was for you to have closed the gap between your lips and my skin. God, what was I thinking. As I watched you being so careful I never realized how delicate you truly are. I kept watching you, as you stepped closer I saw your head bend down, I thought that this might be it. Your fingers slipped from the necklace all over my neck and shoulders. I did finally step away. I turned to you, remember? And I wanted you to say something, anything but the doorbell rang and that was the end of that. And Now...
I got dumped in front of the entire town, by the one person I knew loved me. Now all I can do is sit here on the bridge you took me too the day you bought my basket. I know you are coming, I can hear you but if I look up you will see me crying. I do not want that. You break the unbearable silence.
Jess: Deans a jerk. Yelling at you like that, breaking up in front of everybody. The guys a total jerk.
Rory: No, he's not. He was right. Everything he said, all those things about you and me, all those things about, me lying to him, about me messing with his head. He was right. (looks at Jess) Wasn't he? ( Jess just stands there) Fine! He was right about me, then. Now, go away.
Jess: He was right, about, all of it.
Rory: So, what now?
Jess: Are you definitely broken up with Dean?
Rory: Yeah, I'm definitely broken up with Dean.
Jess: Okay. I have go take care of something now.
When you left I just sat there and cried.