Disclaimer and notes in the Prologue.
Finally updated. Holidays were busy, *insert typical excuses* Sorry! Finally saw TTT though, so that should help me write! Be warned, I like to use quotes from the book though now.. As I can't remember every line in the movie… hehe.
Promoting the LJs, as always:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/miss_lacey/
My friends and I have also created a small RPG/Round Robin Community spun off Confessions here.
http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=thornhold
It's based upon the events on a possible ending to this arc. (Possible, meaning I probably won't use it. lol)
Anyway, just read the user info in the link above if you're curious for more.
So yes, let us get to it, shall we?
Shadow975: The Boromir in Lacey's world arc.. Maybe. Been toying with it, even though I'm not sure if I'll finish it.. Have to see. Hehe..
Pellagolloien: Hee, thankees! Oh, I'm going to try to use the movie as best as my memory allows, but I'll probably use book touches here and there to help me.. (Unlike the FotR arc, where I had DVD & Subtitles.. lol) Oh, I sent an email about the journal thing, in case you didn't see it, I thought I'd mention that here.
Starbrat: Thanks, but alas, it'll probably be even more out of canon as it goes.. Going to do my best to try and make it work as much as possible without being too.. Wrong.
GreyLadyBast: For B arc, there might be another, still not positive on that.. And I love the Kender Mourning Song.. Heck I love all the songs in Dragonlance.. I'm a junkie.. Lol Oooh, sleep deprived? I hear that.. I'm almost always sleep deprived.. Sadly that's how I write.. Lol
Lil' odd me: I'll try to update a bit more often, at least as much as I'm able to.. Hehe.
Winterfox: Ooh, thanks for pointing out the errors, lol, I don't use a beta reader, and while I reread the parts at least 4 times before posting, my eyes can still completely over look things. *shakes head* Heck, I forget whole words, thinking I've written them when I didn't. I'm nutty that way. Lol. Anyway, muchly appreciated!
Kayli: Lacey is a strange one.. She's got more issues then National Geographic.. As for what Boromir thinks in her world.. Well.. Who knows? But I bet it's fun to have a Sean Bean look alike in your home.. lol
Psycho Goddess: Lacey and Boromir? That's a scary thought.. "Boromir, get your ass in gear, I didn't get you that job at Pizza Hut for no reason!" ".." *giggles* I prefer Boromir alive myself.. And when I saw Faramir in TTT, I was like.. "Hottie! But, you aren't as hot as Boromir!" Of course then I resumed the standard fan girl drooling over Legolas. Even while he was off screen.. *coughs & smiles*
Talagand AKA the Nameless One: Lol, thanks, and Lacey needs more then a drink.. I'm thinking an entire bar. lol
Taraeldaiel: I'm glad you liked it!! I had fun writing it. ^_^
Manx: Lol, I'm no legend, and I'm not really sure about a plot.. Lol, but I am having fun. Or at least trying to! ^_^
Israfel: Talent? Me? Well, thank you! We dealers need talent.. So we buy it cheap on E-Bay.. Lol.
KoUsagi: Lol, I'm merely one of 3 Uber Goddesses. (And there is only three, no matter what any one claims! Lol) ^_^
Chicorytee: It's not the end for A, that's for sure. I still have to meddle with ME while I can, before Gandalf curses me with a thousand Oompa Loompas breeding like rabbits in my house.. *insane*
Lol, anyway that's all for today, and now on to the fic and the reason why I shouldn't write while on flu meds! Uber hugs and thank you all very much for the feedback!
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Chapter 14A - What Time Is It?
We rode on to the spot where the Riders had torched the corpses of our Hobbit-nappers.
The men were filled with despair.
Me? I just slid off my horse with a tired sigh. I'll say this much, I've never been is this good of shape in my life. If I can survive this, I can survive anything. Right?
~Survive? Is that what you want?~
Oh look, the voice is back. Hi.
It ignored me and continued with it's nagging quest.
~Why is it you still stand? There is no role for you to play here.~
I watched as Aragorn tracked Pippin's trail. Gimli followed, and I noticed Legolas casting me a shadowed look before joining them.
~They don't trust you. They don't want you here.~
I don't want me here either, I thought as I numbly wandered over to them.
~Then stop stalling.~
"Oh just fuck off." I muttered. I wasn't in the mood for this.
Aragorn stopped.
Oops.
He turned to me, "Do have something you wish to say?"
I sighed. I was tired of all this. The novelty was gone. I shrugged and pointed to the forest. "They went in Fangorn Forest."
"And how do you know that, girl?" Gimli asked.
I waved a hand around the green that surrounded us. "Look around, do you see any other way they could have gone to hide?"
Aragorn stared at me, not believing my reason, but he let it slide. "She is correct. They went into the forest."
With an air of wariness, we trekked into the woods. The voice was silent, but the trees, not so. As we searched the forest, I was struck with a wave of dizziness.
I stopped at the tree closest to me and grabbed it as the dizziness grew. No one noticed, as they were so focused on the hobbits.
Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes and forced whatever it was to go away. It did. Only when I opened my eyes, I found we were not alone, and we weren't even in the forest anymore.
Gandalf was with us and we were with our horses.
"What the.." I whispered. What the hell had happened? How did I jump from then to now? I let out a whimper as I stepped away from them all.
Legolas was closest and heard me move first. "What is it?"
~What will you tell him? That you're going insane? That you're on the way to white coat city?~
My mouth opened and I let out a cry as I grabbed Gandalf by his robes. I stared at him and he calmly looked at me.
"What's wrong with me?" I asked desperately. "Why can't I go home? Why won't the voice leave me alone? Why are you letting me stay with you, when you KNOW I don't belong??!!" I let him go and fell to my knees. "Why couldn't I save Boromir?"
Gandalf's eyes were filled with pity, "Child, not even I can answer those questions as of yet. But know this, you have only played part of your role."
"Part?" I whimpered again.
~He's only trying to make you feel better. So you'll be less of a burden. You know what you need to do.~
I shook my head. "I'm not listening to you. I'mnotI'mnotI'mnot."
I could feel Gimli's eyes on me. "What's wrong with her?"
"Her guilt is devouring her." Aragorn said.
"Perhaps.." Legolas began. That caught my attention, and the voice's as well. I looked up and found his blue eyes on me. He spoke softly and in Elvish, which caused Aragorn to give me a sharp look.
Standing back up, I bit my lip. "Fine. You know what? Forget it. Little Lacey stays clueless like always. Story of my life. Just ignore me and let me go insane while we go to Edoras." I forced myself back onto Maeglin's saddle and ignored the looks I received. "Can we go? NOW?"
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I had another time loop.
It was while we were riding. One minute we were in the valleys, the next I found myself in Edoras.
I was getting scared. What was happening?
~Your mind can't deal with what you did. You killed a girl. You killed her and enjoyed it and now you can't handle it.~
Not true. I didn't enjoy it! I didn't want to, I didn't mean to..
~You wanted to. How many times did you wish to hurt them? You waited and you took your chance. Admit it! You're nothing more then a--
A hand was on my wrist, causing the voice to shut up. "Lacey." Legolas was looking up at me.
Apparently everyone had dismounted and he was looking concerned.
Stop it, I wanted to scream at him. Stop looking at me like that. But I didn't. Instead, I let him help me down and I gave him a nod of thanks. I tried to sidestep by him, but his hand remained clamped on my wrist.
Those eyes of his had me trapped, even more then his hand did. "You wished to know why we allow you to stay with us."
I nodded mutely.
"A simple reason really." Legolas's lips turned into a devilish smirk. "Although your tongue is as sharp as my blades, I doubt it would do much good against an Orc."
My eyes were wide and then I cracked a smile.
"That, Lacey, is something that should be seen more often." He said before leaving me standing there, completely dumbfounded.
"Are you going to swallow the flies that enter your mouth, or are you going to join us?" Gimli teased as he walked by.
My mind wandered as I tagged along. Okay, am I missing something now? Because what the hell was going on? Seriously, I'm supposed to be ignored and unwanted, not teased and well.. spoken to.
We were met at the doors by several guards, causing me to pay attention.
"I must bid you lay aside your weapons before you enter."
I watched as everyone handed over their weapons. A soldier entered my personal space and eyed me expectantly.
I shrugged and opened my cloak. I did a little turn and rolled my eyes. "Not armed, iron head."
His eyes strayed to my pouch. "What's in there?"
I opened it up and let him see the empty bag that it appeared to be. "See? Nothing. Now get out of my personal space. You're stealing my air."
He walked away stiffly and I grinned. My attention was soon caught by Gandalf trying to keep his staff though.
"Foolishness!" said Gandalf. "Prudence is one thing, but discourtesy is another. I am old. If I may not lean on my stick as I go, then I will sit out here, until it pleases Theoden to hobble out himself to speak to me."
I swear I saw a vein throbbing in the guard's forehead and I stifled my laugh. But then it hit me.
Gandalf didn't say that in the movie. That was a book line. In fact a lot of the things since the end of the Fellowship seemed to be off.
What the fuck was going on? Maybe it was a mesh verse.
Or maybe I WAS insane.
I waited for the voice in my head to agree, but surprisingly it was silent. I decided to enjoy it while I could and we entered the throne room of Theoden.
As we entered the chambers, I caught sight of the creepy looking lurker guards following our footsteps.
I wondered if I was still invisible in fights..
"The courtesy of your hall is somewhat lessened of late, Theoden, King." said Gandalf.
Grima Wormtongue, the nasty looking fellow who looked in need of a bath, leaned over to the king and whispered.
I couldn't help but flinch. I mean sure, I'm no prize, and I was in need of some soap and water myself, but good god, Theoden looked dead, Grima looked like he'd rolled around in a grease puddle, and did I mention I wanted to start screaming about Chucky?
So yeah, I watched the Child's Play movies. Horror Queen, that's me. You slice them, I'll watch them.
"Why.. Should I welcome you.." Theoden's voice rasped slowly, "Gandalf.. Stormcrow?"
Grima coddled him. "A just question, my liege." The sleaze ball rose from his spot, "Late is the hour, in which this conjurer chooses to appear." He met face to face with Gandalf. "Lathspell I name you, Ill-News; and ill news is an ill guest I say."
"Be silent and keep your forked tongue behind your teeth." Gandalf snapped. I wanted to see him bitch slap him, but of course he didn't. "I have not passed though fire and death to bandy crooked words with a witless worm."
I felt the familiar dizziness come back again. I willed it away, but by the time it had, I found myself staring at the back of one the lurker guards.
Slightly better then last time, maybe only a minute had passed, as Aragorn, Legolas and Gimli were knocking the guards around as Gandalf tried to free Theoden from Saruman's grasp.
I was ignored again. The guard was right in front of me and he didn't see me!
~Who would want to?~
"Oh shut the fuck up." I muttered as I spun the guard around. Before he blinked, I kneed him in the groin and smirked as he fell to the floor with a groan. "Fuckwit."
I kicked him in the stomach while he was down for good measure, and for sheer sadistic amusement.
~Enjoying yourself?~
Yes. Go away now.
~Just like you enjoyed watching Mary die at the hands of the elf she loved?~
She didn't love him. She just wanted to fuck and run.
~Are you so sure? Did you ask her?~
It was pretty obvious, I thought. But doubt started nagging at me..
~Did you enjoy it when the life faded from Sue's eyes even as the blood soaked your gloves?~
NO! Stop saying I did! I didn't! SHUT UP!
~They were better then you. Prettier. Smarter. More talented. You hated them both and you wanted them dead. Say it! Then finish it!~
"No!"
"M'lady?"
Time had passed again. I was in a bedroom and a servant girl was watching me. "You wished to clean up did you not?"
I nodded slowly, as I tried to get my thoughts together. I sent her away as soon as I could, telling her I'd send for her when I wanted to join the others.
After I finished cleaning myself up, and making myself a bit more presentable I stood at the door. Who was I kidding, I wasn't needed anyway. I leaned against the door as a chill swept through me.
Then I released a moan as I slid down the back of the door, and buried my head in my hands.
I was losing it. Completely.
Time was getting jumbled, that damn voice, my guilt, my loneliness..
~Why not give in? Maybe if you did.. You'd be sent home.~
My confusion froze.
Was that possible? I mean.. Mary and Sue's bodies just vanished.. Maybe they were sent home. Maybe I could..
I reached into my pouch and pulled out Mary's sword. The firelight from the torches flickered off it, causing the blade to look somehow.. Inviting.
I traced a finger across the flat of the blade. It would be so easy.
~Go home. It could be the only way.~
With a snarl I threw the sword across the room and it fell to the floor with a clatter. "Go to Hell."
I stood up and exited the room, feeling slightly better.
Finally updated. Holidays were busy, *insert typical excuses* Sorry! Finally saw TTT though, so that should help me write! Be warned, I like to use quotes from the book though now.. As I can't remember every line in the movie… hehe.
Promoting the LJs, as always:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/miss_lacey/
My friends and I have also created a small RPG/Round Robin Community spun off Confessions here.
http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=thornhold
It's based upon the events on a possible ending to this arc. (Possible, meaning I probably won't use it. lol)
Anyway, just read the user info in the link above if you're curious for more.
So yes, let us get to it, shall we?
Shadow975: The Boromir in Lacey's world arc.. Maybe. Been toying with it, even though I'm not sure if I'll finish it.. Have to see. Hehe..
Pellagolloien: Hee, thankees! Oh, I'm going to try to use the movie as best as my memory allows, but I'll probably use book touches here and there to help me.. (Unlike the FotR arc, where I had DVD & Subtitles.. lol) Oh, I sent an email about the journal thing, in case you didn't see it, I thought I'd mention that here.
Starbrat: Thanks, but alas, it'll probably be even more out of canon as it goes.. Going to do my best to try and make it work as much as possible without being too.. Wrong.
GreyLadyBast: For B arc, there might be another, still not positive on that.. And I love the Kender Mourning Song.. Heck I love all the songs in Dragonlance.. I'm a junkie.. Lol Oooh, sleep deprived? I hear that.. I'm almost always sleep deprived.. Sadly that's how I write.. Lol
Lil' odd me: I'll try to update a bit more often, at least as much as I'm able to.. Hehe.
Winterfox: Ooh, thanks for pointing out the errors, lol, I don't use a beta reader, and while I reread the parts at least 4 times before posting, my eyes can still completely over look things. *shakes head* Heck, I forget whole words, thinking I've written them when I didn't. I'm nutty that way. Lol. Anyway, muchly appreciated!
Kayli: Lacey is a strange one.. She's got more issues then National Geographic.. As for what Boromir thinks in her world.. Well.. Who knows? But I bet it's fun to have a Sean Bean look alike in your home.. lol
Psycho Goddess: Lacey and Boromir? That's a scary thought.. "Boromir, get your ass in gear, I didn't get you that job at Pizza Hut for no reason!" ".." *giggles* I prefer Boromir alive myself.. And when I saw Faramir in TTT, I was like.. "Hottie! But, you aren't as hot as Boromir!" Of course then I resumed the standard fan girl drooling over Legolas. Even while he was off screen.. *coughs & smiles*
Talagand AKA the Nameless One: Lol, thanks, and Lacey needs more then a drink.. I'm thinking an entire bar. lol
Taraeldaiel: I'm glad you liked it!! I had fun writing it. ^_^
Manx: Lol, I'm no legend, and I'm not really sure about a plot.. Lol, but I am having fun. Or at least trying to! ^_^
Israfel: Talent? Me? Well, thank you! We dealers need talent.. So we buy it cheap on E-Bay.. Lol.
KoUsagi: Lol, I'm merely one of 3 Uber Goddesses. (And there is only three, no matter what any one claims! Lol) ^_^
Chicorytee: It's not the end for A, that's for sure. I still have to meddle with ME while I can, before Gandalf curses me with a thousand Oompa Loompas breeding like rabbits in my house.. *insane*
Lol, anyway that's all for today, and now on to the fic and the reason why I shouldn't write while on flu meds! Uber hugs and thank you all very much for the feedback!
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Chapter 14A - What Time Is It?
We rode on to the spot where the Riders had torched the corpses of our Hobbit-nappers.
The men were filled with despair.
Me? I just slid off my horse with a tired sigh. I'll say this much, I've never been is this good of shape in my life. If I can survive this, I can survive anything. Right?
~Survive? Is that what you want?~
Oh look, the voice is back. Hi.
It ignored me and continued with it's nagging quest.
~Why is it you still stand? There is no role for you to play here.~
I watched as Aragorn tracked Pippin's trail. Gimli followed, and I noticed Legolas casting me a shadowed look before joining them.
~They don't trust you. They don't want you here.~
I don't want me here either, I thought as I numbly wandered over to them.
~Then stop stalling.~
"Oh just fuck off." I muttered. I wasn't in the mood for this.
Aragorn stopped.
Oops.
He turned to me, "Do have something you wish to say?"
I sighed. I was tired of all this. The novelty was gone. I shrugged and pointed to the forest. "They went in Fangorn Forest."
"And how do you know that, girl?" Gimli asked.
I waved a hand around the green that surrounded us. "Look around, do you see any other way they could have gone to hide?"
Aragorn stared at me, not believing my reason, but he let it slide. "She is correct. They went into the forest."
With an air of wariness, we trekked into the woods. The voice was silent, but the trees, not so. As we searched the forest, I was struck with a wave of dizziness.
I stopped at the tree closest to me and grabbed it as the dizziness grew. No one noticed, as they were so focused on the hobbits.
Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes and forced whatever it was to go away. It did. Only when I opened my eyes, I found we were not alone, and we weren't even in the forest anymore.
Gandalf was with us and we were with our horses.
"What the.." I whispered. What the hell had happened? How did I jump from then to now? I let out a whimper as I stepped away from them all.
Legolas was closest and heard me move first. "What is it?"
~What will you tell him? That you're going insane? That you're on the way to white coat city?~
My mouth opened and I let out a cry as I grabbed Gandalf by his robes. I stared at him and he calmly looked at me.
"What's wrong with me?" I asked desperately. "Why can't I go home? Why won't the voice leave me alone? Why are you letting me stay with you, when you KNOW I don't belong??!!" I let him go and fell to my knees. "Why couldn't I save Boromir?"
Gandalf's eyes were filled with pity, "Child, not even I can answer those questions as of yet. But know this, you have only played part of your role."
"Part?" I whimpered again.
~He's only trying to make you feel better. So you'll be less of a burden. You know what you need to do.~
I shook my head. "I'm not listening to you. I'mnotI'mnotI'mnot."
I could feel Gimli's eyes on me. "What's wrong with her?"
"Her guilt is devouring her." Aragorn said.
"Perhaps.." Legolas began. That caught my attention, and the voice's as well. I looked up and found his blue eyes on me. He spoke softly and in Elvish, which caused Aragorn to give me a sharp look.
Standing back up, I bit my lip. "Fine. You know what? Forget it. Little Lacey stays clueless like always. Story of my life. Just ignore me and let me go insane while we go to Edoras." I forced myself back onto Maeglin's saddle and ignored the looks I received. "Can we go? NOW?"
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I had another time loop.
It was while we were riding. One minute we were in the valleys, the next I found myself in Edoras.
I was getting scared. What was happening?
~Your mind can't deal with what you did. You killed a girl. You killed her and enjoyed it and now you can't handle it.~
Not true. I didn't enjoy it! I didn't want to, I didn't mean to..
~You wanted to. How many times did you wish to hurt them? You waited and you took your chance. Admit it! You're nothing more then a--
A hand was on my wrist, causing the voice to shut up. "Lacey." Legolas was looking up at me.
Apparently everyone had dismounted and he was looking concerned.
Stop it, I wanted to scream at him. Stop looking at me like that. But I didn't. Instead, I let him help me down and I gave him a nod of thanks. I tried to sidestep by him, but his hand remained clamped on my wrist.
Those eyes of his had me trapped, even more then his hand did. "You wished to know why we allow you to stay with us."
I nodded mutely.
"A simple reason really." Legolas's lips turned into a devilish smirk. "Although your tongue is as sharp as my blades, I doubt it would do much good against an Orc."
My eyes were wide and then I cracked a smile.
"That, Lacey, is something that should be seen more often." He said before leaving me standing there, completely dumbfounded.
"Are you going to swallow the flies that enter your mouth, or are you going to join us?" Gimli teased as he walked by.
My mind wandered as I tagged along. Okay, am I missing something now? Because what the hell was going on? Seriously, I'm supposed to be ignored and unwanted, not teased and well.. spoken to.
We were met at the doors by several guards, causing me to pay attention.
"I must bid you lay aside your weapons before you enter."
I watched as everyone handed over their weapons. A soldier entered my personal space and eyed me expectantly.
I shrugged and opened my cloak. I did a little turn and rolled my eyes. "Not armed, iron head."
His eyes strayed to my pouch. "What's in there?"
I opened it up and let him see the empty bag that it appeared to be. "See? Nothing. Now get out of my personal space. You're stealing my air."
He walked away stiffly and I grinned. My attention was soon caught by Gandalf trying to keep his staff though.
"Foolishness!" said Gandalf. "Prudence is one thing, but discourtesy is another. I am old. If I may not lean on my stick as I go, then I will sit out here, until it pleases Theoden to hobble out himself to speak to me."
I swear I saw a vein throbbing in the guard's forehead and I stifled my laugh. But then it hit me.
Gandalf didn't say that in the movie. That was a book line. In fact a lot of the things since the end of the Fellowship seemed to be off.
What the fuck was going on? Maybe it was a mesh verse.
Or maybe I WAS insane.
I waited for the voice in my head to agree, but surprisingly it was silent. I decided to enjoy it while I could and we entered the throne room of Theoden.
As we entered the chambers, I caught sight of the creepy looking lurker guards following our footsteps.
I wondered if I was still invisible in fights..
"The courtesy of your hall is somewhat lessened of late, Theoden, King." said Gandalf.
Grima Wormtongue, the nasty looking fellow who looked in need of a bath, leaned over to the king and whispered.
I couldn't help but flinch. I mean sure, I'm no prize, and I was in need of some soap and water myself, but good god, Theoden looked dead, Grima looked like he'd rolled around in a grease puddle, and did I mention I wanted to start screaming about Chucky?
So yeah, I watched the Child's Play movies. Horror Queen, that's me. You slice them, I'll watch them.
"Why.. Should I welcome you.." Theoden's voice rasped slowly, "Gandalf.. Stormcrow?"
Grima coddled him. "A just question, my liege." The sleaze ball rose from his spot, "Late is the hour, in which this conjurer chooses to appear." He met face to face with Gandalf. "Lathspell I name you, Ill-News; and ill news is an ill guest I say."
"Be silent and keep your forked tongue behind your teeth." Gandalf snapped. I wanted to see him bitch slap him, but of course he didn't. "I have not passed though fire and death to bandy crooked words with a witless worm."
I felt the familiar dizziness come back again. I willed it away, but by the time it had, I found myself staring at the back of one the lurker guards.
Slightly better then last time, maybe only a minute had passed, as Aragorn, Legolas and Gimli were knocking the guards around as Gandalf tried to free Theoden from Saruman's grasp.
I was ignored again. The guard was right in front of me and he didn't see me!
~Who would want to?~
"Oh shut the fuck up." I muttered as I spun the guard around. Before he blinked, I kneed him in the groin and smirked as he fell to the floor with a groan. "Fuckwit."
I kicked him in the stomach while he was down for good measure, and for sheer sadistic amusement.
~Enjoying yourself?~
Yes. Go away now.
~Just like you enjoyed watching Mary die at the hands of the elf she loved?~
She didn't love him. She just wanted to fuck and run.
~Are you so sure? Did you ask her?~
It was pretty obvious, I thought. But doubt started nagging at me..
~Did you enjoy it when the life faded from Sue's eyes even as the blood soaked your gloves?~
NO! Stop saying I did! I didn't! SHUT UP!
~They were better then you. Prettier. Smarter. More talented. You hated them both and you wanted them dead. Say it! Then finish it!~
"No!"
"M'lady?"
Time had passed again. I was in a bedroom and a servant girl was watching me. "You wished to clean up did you not?"
I nodded slowly, as I tried to get my thoughts together. I sent her away as soon as I could, telling her I'd send for her when I wanted to join the others.
After I finished cleaning myself up, and making myself a bit more presentable I stood at the door. Who was I kidding, I wasn't needed anyway. I leaned against the door as a chill swept through me.
Then I released a moan as I slid down the back of the door, and buried my head in my hands.
I was losing it. Completely.
Time was getting jumbled, that damn voice, my guilt, my loneliness..
~Why not give in? Maybe if you did.. You'd be sent home.~
My confusion froze.
Was that possible? I mean.. Mary and Sue's bodies just vanished.. Maybe they were sent home. Maybe I could..
I reached into my pouch and pulled out Mary's sword. The firelight from the torches flickered off it, causing the blade to look somehow.. Inviting.
I traced a finger across the flat of the blade. It would be so easy.
~Go home. It could be the only way.~
With a snarl I threw the sword across the room and it fell to the floor with a clatter. "Go to Hell."
I stood up and exited the room, feeling slightly better.