Real Me (temporary title)
(refer to files 7-11 of book 36)
Chapter 4
by aoi.hoshi
Warning: Yaoi/shounen-ai warning. Do not read if you think you might not react well towards it.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Aoyama Gosho. I own half the plot because it's based on a plot by Aoyama Gosho. Ignore bad grammar and limited vocabulary. Sorry this is not a detective story, I'm only good at love stories. YAOI love stories. And i realize it's repeatitive. I swear Hattori won't faint again.
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"Hattori, wake up!"
Kudo's voice... Great dream. Hattori squeezed his eyes shut, hoping he would never wake up so the dream would continue.
"Stupid, wake up, I said!"
It sounds so lifelike! Hattori felt very proud of himself for the realistic dream. That would be a good way for him to remember Kudo by.
"Oi oi oi!"
Ouch. Someone was slapping him. Hattori frowned. The person continued pushing and smacking him.
"Stop it, idiot!" Hattori sat up and barked.
"Idiot? Fine."
Hattori's mouth opened wide as he saw the smirking face in front of him. He was convinced that it was a dream.
"Kudo! Don't let me wake up!" Hattori grabbed Kudo's hand.
"Idiot," Kudo withdrew it immediately. "This is not a dream, and you don't seem as sick as Kazuha made you out to be."
Hattori touched his forehead. True, his fever was almost gone. Was it the effects of the pills Ran gave him, or was it because he got to see the person he longed to see? He did not know either.
"What are you doing here? I thought you died!"
"I don't know... All I remember is that it was extremely painful, and I blacked out after the explosion... But when I woke up I found myself in the lift. The top of the lift was bent in from the rubble that fell on it, but it still managed to shield me. I managed to find my own way out while the police were still working on other areas. See, I'm not even hurt, just a little dirty from climbing through all that mess."
Hattori was almost speechless. What kind of amazing guy was that? What he was saying so simply was something so impossible (a/n: yes, i do realize its impossible^_^). Hattori felt like laughing and crying at the same time. "Where's Ran?"
"I called her and told her to go check if Conan's alive or dead at the police station. She'd be back soon, so let's get going!"
"Get going?" Hattori asked, puzzled.
Before he could ask anymore questions, Kudo was already dragging him out of the door. Resigned, Hattori shrugged and followed after him.
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"Beautiful, isn't it?"
"..." Hattori gave Kudo a -_- look (a/n: said my english is lousy! cant describe that expression!). "What's so beautiful about a cemetary?!"
Kudo smiled. "It's filled with memories of people. Everybody would have to end up here someday. This is a place with many many stories."
"That's good," Hattori said monotonously.
"Hattori, one day I will die too," Kudo said. "And when that happens, you'll be remembering me as you place flowers on my grave. And all you'll be thinking off will be my good points. Nobody remembers bad points of dead people."
"Touchwood! You just almost died, and you are talking about death again!" Hattori exclaimed, scowling.
Kudo laughed at Hattori's reaction. "But it's a fact that I will die someday. Before I do that I'd have to settle some matters first."
"What?"
"How did you feel when you heard that I was dead?"
"I..." looking at Kudo's serious expression, Hattori swollowed the sarcastic comments about losing a rival. "I felt really scared. I felt like I had to save you, had to protect you. I really don't want to lose you. You are so important to me."
Kudo was silent. Hattori looked at him uncertainly. Did he overdo it with his honesty?
"Hattori, do you know what loving someone is like?" Kudo said quietly. "It's about wanting the best for that person regardless of what you had to give up. Even your life."
Hattori nodded slowly.
"Hattori, I love you."
For a moment, the air seemed to freeze. The two boys just stood looking at each other. No words exchanged. No words needed. They both understood.
"Kudo... You're so important to me," Hattori stepped towards Kudo and hugged him. The feeling of Kudo in his arms was so real that it touched him to tears. For the first time he understood why he felt so much towards Kudo. This was real love. Real love that made him risk his life just to get to Kudo's side when he was in most danger.
"Hattori, I'm sorry," Kudo's voice sounded choked. "I won't be able to love you anymore from now on."
Hattori pulled away and gave Kudo a questioning look.
"I've asked Haibara. She said the explosion made my cells mutate again. They made me grow back to my normal size, but they become vulnerable to the APTX-4689 (a/n: is it right? cant be bothered to check book. very sleepy) drug too. Soon I'll die from the drug. I can't stay with you thought I'd really like to, Hattori."
No... Hattori's lips moved, trying to form words of denial, but no sound came out. How could someone with a broken heart continue to function? He already felt dead before Kudo was actually dead.
"So I'd like you to remember me. The real me. Kudo Shinichi, who loves you, and will continue loving you, dead or alive."
"... Then I want you to remember the real me too. Hattori Heiji, who loves you, and will continue loving you, dead or alive."
Kudo smiled. "Deal."
Hattori returned his smile with tears in his eyes. "Deal."
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aoi.hoshi: i know its a sucky ending. but i need to sleep. left it hanging. whether he really dies, i dont know either. itd be nicer for him to die right? sweeter. thanks to Crystalline for the idea about their only date being in a cemetary. time for bed. yawn.
(refer to files 7-11 of book 36)
Chapter 4
by aoi.hoshi
Warning: Yaoi/shounen-ai warning. Do not read if you think you might not react well towards it.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Aoyama Gosho. I own half the plot because it's based on a plot by Aoyama Gosho. Ignore bad grammar and limited vocabulary. Sorry this is not a detective story, I'm only good at love stories. YAOI love stories. And i realize it's repeatitive. I swear Hattori won't faint again.
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"Hattori, wake up!"
Kudo's voice... Great dream. Hattori squeezed his eyes shut, hoping he would never wake up so the dream would continue.
"Stupid, wake up, I said!"
It sounds so lifelike! Hattori felt very proud of himself for the realistic dream. That would be a good way for him to remember Kudo by.
"Oi oi oi!"
Ouch. Someone was slapping him. Hattori frowned. The person continued pushing and smacking him.
"Stop it, idiot!" Hattori sat up and barked.
"Idiot? Fine."
Hattori's mouth opened wide as he saw the smirking face in front of him. He was convinced that it was a dream.
"Kudo! Don't let me wake up!" Hattori grabbed Kudo's hand.
"Idiot," Kudo withdrew it immediately. "This is not a dream, and you don't seem as sick as Kazuha made you out to be."
Hattori touched his forehead. True, his fever was almost gone. Was it the effects of the pills Ran gave him, or was it because he got to see the person he longed to see? He did not know either.
"What are you doing here? I thought you died!"
"I don't know... All I remember is that it was extremely painful, and I blacked out after the explosion... But when I woke up I found myself in the lift. The top of the lift was bent in from the rubble that fell on it, but it still managed to shield me. I managed to find my own way out while the police were still working on other areas. See, I'm not even hurt, just a little dirty from climbing through all that mess."
Hattori was almost speechless. What kind of amazing guy was that? What he was saying so simply was something so impossible (a/n: yes, i do realize its impossible^_^). Hattori felt like laughing and crying at the same time. "Where's Ran?"
"I called her and told her to go check if Conan's alive or dead at the police station. She'd be back soon, so let's get going!"
"Get going?" Hattori asked, puzzled.
Before he could ask anymore questions, Kudo was already dragging him out of the door. Resigned, Hattori shrugged and followed after him.
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"Beautiful, isn't it?"
"..." Hattori gave Kudo a -_- look (a/n: said my english is lousy! cant describe that expression!). "What's so beautiful about a cemetary?!"
Kudo smiled. "It's filled with memories of people. Everybody would have to end up here someday. This is a place with many many stories."
"That's good," Hattori said monotonously.
"Hattori, one day I will die too," Kudo said. "And when that happens, you'll be remembering me as you place flowers on my grave. And all you'll be thinking off will be my good points. Nobody remembers bad points of dead people."
"Touchwood! You just almost died, and you are talking about death again!" Hattori exclaimed, scowling.
Kudo laughed at Hattori's reaction. "But it's a fact that I will die someday. Before I do that I'd have to settle some matters first."
"What?"
"How did you feel when you heard that I was dead?"
"I..." looking at Kudo's serious expression, Hattori swollowed the sarcastic comments about losing a rival. "I felt really scared. I felt like I had to save you, had to protect you. I really don't want to lose you. You are so important to me."
Kudo was silent. Hattori looked at him uncertainly. Did he overdo it with his honesty?
"Hattori, do you know what loving someone is like?" Kudo said quietly. "It's about wanting the best for that person regardless of what you had to give up. Even your life."
Hattori nodded slowly.
"Hattori, I love you."
For a moment, the air seemed to freeze. The two boys just stood looking at each other. No words exchanged. No words needed. They both understood.
"Kudo... You're so important to me," Hattori stepped towards Kudo and hugged him. The feeling of Kudo in his arms was so real that it touched him to tears. For the first time he understood why he felt so much towards Kudo. This was real love. Real love that made him risk his life just to get to Kudo's side when he was in most danger.
"Hattori, I'm sorry," Kudo's voice sounded choked. "I won't be able to love you anymore from now on."
Hattori pulled away and gave Kudo a questioning look.
"I've asked Haibara. She said the explosion made my cells mutate again. They made me grow back to my normal size, but they become vulnerable to the APTX-4689 (a/n: is it right? cant be bothered to check book. very sleepy) drug too. Soon I'll die from the drug. I can't stay with you thought I'd really like to, Hattori."
No... Hattori's lips moved, trying to form words of denial, but no sound came out. How could someone with a broken heart continue to function? He already felt dead before Kudo was actually dead.
"So I'd like you to remember me. The real me. Kudo Shinichi, who loves you, and will continue loving you, dead or alive."
"... Then I want you to remember the real me too. Hattori Heiji, who loves you, and will continue loving you, dead or alive."
Kudo smiled. "Deal."
Hattori returned his smile with tears in his eyes. "Deal."
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aoi.hoshi: i know its a sucky ending. but i need to sleep. left it hanging. whether he really dies, i dont know either. itd be nicer for him to die right? sweeter. thanks to Crystalline for the idea about their only date being in a cemetary. time for bed. yawn.