Chapter 7
"What's wrong? Why aren't you eating? It's your favourite, chicken liver and wing. I saved the best for you." He asked puzzled. His arm was bandaged in a sling, still workable but weak for a while. The wolf shook her head. Tomo sighed and touched her head patiently.
"I understand, you killing those soldiers. you only did it to save my life. Are you blaming yourself?"
[It is wrong, morally wrong. Even if I am half-beast. We shouldn't deserve to kill people, there must be. another way.]
His golden eyes softened in contemplation. [I am no longer innocent. I used to kill to live, now I did it to help but still, I have murdered. I hate myself.] The seiryuu seishi's face was taut with memories, his fist clenched.
"Don't blame yourself! They are bad people, they invade our country it isn't wrong!" and yet his tone was uncertain wavering. "They have killed more victims, we have only conquered what's ours."
She waited for him to finish then paced about, bristling, stretching, not touching the food there. Her appetite was gone. [Tomosama, when were you a nonkiller?] His gasp confirmed his vulnerability. In each one of us there is a secret place that cannot be invaded, that we keep private and it is necessary to maintain it for sanity.
It was when he was learning to control his powers. "I could not move. There were millions of them, I didn't want to--- yet they kept coming, so , I let out my powers and I destroyed them thoroughly. Nakagosama could endure it for days but I was haunted by that image. It will never go away again. [tears are falling but he continued to speak] I had become a killer. Blood on my conscience. I was so scared, Weike. Now you're like this I can feel what you have felt. But it is necessary to be like this!"
[Why?] At this her master scrubbed away his tears and swallowed looking away.[if you hate this, resign or something. It is that guy not you who needs to kill.] The man cackled harshly.
"I cannot, for I must fulfil this need. I know that he'll love me if I do this and I can't betray him. He needs me. Still having shin helps with the trauma. Shall I try it on you?" Blue light came out from the shell and it was too bright that it was needed to shut the eyes. She sensed another power source, the letter Tomoboshi. The shin seemed to be asleep, so she got up and batted at it.
"Stop it, girl. Stop it! I said, dammit!" the thing was broken. Her master panted slightly, sweat on his features and he growled. Weike began to say sorry but he was adamant. He lay in his bed and ignored her. When she tried to climb up, he kicked her not hard physically but it was hard.
[Shin's so hard to produce. Yet you destroyed it when I was only trying to help you, I knew you wouldn't appreciate something like that. you're too stupid to--- get out of my room! GET OUT!] the knock came, her master flung aside the covers and slammed open the door.
"What? It's late!"
the boy twin smiled at her and answered, "It's Nakagosama he wants you to go with him to the Capital to escort Yui-sama. Come on girl."
"Why. oh I see. Thanks. Just get the dog out." Suboshi, she realised, tickled her ears and she had eyes on the man she loved only. [Don't be so petty.]
[I am, too bad for you. From now on you'll sleep outside and we are not together anymore] "Suboshi get her away. I mean it." She refused to budge. He blocked out her signals and ignored her. Weike came forward but was greeted by the rapidly closing door.
"Come on girl. You can sleep with us." Suboshi was whispering, dragging her gently but she couldn't believe it. Now they were both in the doorway. "What's wrong? Aren't you strong enough? She's not that heavy."
[Master, don't do this. I am sorry please don't hate me, you promised, remember?] the older seishi laughed again and tried to force the door shut and Suboshi was trying desperately not to get her killed.
[I already told you I am not your master anymore. I cannot be patient, I am incompetent. Just leave me now.] "Okay stopit. Why are you so stubborn, dog? I said go! Your master is somewhere else. He's not me! Go away!"
Tears were falling from his amber pupils, and he could be seen and heard and yet he didn't care. The younger seishi left. Tomo wordlessly climbed into bed . She nosed herself into bed and when he was quiet she slept too.
The next day Weike was awake from the cold. The bed was made. Her master was gone.
No problem, she soon picked up the trail of the travelers and followed. The horses drank. He came to the bushes she was excited! The mask of beauty was cold and unforgiving.
"Stop following me, that's an order. I won't accept you, we are severed permanently, okay? Fine." He sounded almost heart broken. She howled and howled. The pain unbearable pain...
And yet many days later she found herself going to him again, her paw cut and bruised from the walking. When Tomo was seriously ill she crept in and licked his face. Until he rested, lucid. He decided to leave to forget Nakagosama and settle in Grassville and led a nonkiller life.
But it was not for good. Some people came and begged Tomo to be the guardian of their treasure--- the Golden scrolls. He had planned to hide it but bandits who heard of the thing almost killed him. Only Kutou's general Nakago could keep it safely, since the emperor died he had become the new king-conquerer and his feat was legendary. Nobody would dare steal the treasure of the extinct tribe. * I have changed FY's plot to fit my story here. I don't want the blond to be dead anyway!
"What's wrong? Why aren't you eating? It's your favourite, chicken liver and wing. I saved the best for you." He asked puzzled. His arm was bandaged in a sling, still workable but weak for a while. The wolf shook her head. Tomo sighed and touched her head patiently.
"I understand, you killing those soldiers. you only did it to save my life. Are you blaming yourself?"
[It is wrong, morally wrong. Even if I am half-beast. We shouldn't deserve to kill people, there must be. another way.]
His golden eyes softened in contemplation. [I am no longer innocent. I used to kill to live, now I did it to help but still, I have murdered. I hate myself.] The seiryuu seishi's face was taut with memories, his fist clenched.
"Don't blame yourself! They are bad people, they invade our country it isn't wrong!" and yet his tone was uncertain wavering. "They have killed more victims, we have only conquered what's ours."
She waited for him to finish then paced about, bristling, stretching, not touching the food there. Her appetite was gone. [Tomosama, when were you a nonkiller?] His gasp confirmed his vulnerability. In each one of us there is a secret place that cannot be invaded, that we keep private and it is necessary to maintain it for sanity.
It was when he was learning to control his powers. "I could not move. There were millions of them, I didn't want to--- yet they kept coming, so , I let out my powers and I destroyed them thoroughly. Nakagosama could endure it for days but I was haunted by that image. It will never go away again. [tears are falling but he continued to speak] I had become a killer. Blood on my conscience. I was so scared, Weike. Now you're like this I can feel what you have felt. But it is necessary to be like this!"
[Why?] At this her master scrubbed away his tears and swallowed looking away.[if you hate this, resign or something. It is that guy not you who needs to kill.] The man cackled harshly.
"I cannot, for I must fulfil this need. I know that he'll love me if I do this and I can't betray him. He needs me. Still having shin helps with the trauma. Shall I try it on you?" Blue light came out from the shell and it was too bright that it was needed to shut the eyes. She sensed another power source, the letter Tomoboshi. The shin seemed to be asleep, so she got up and batted at it.
"Stop it, girl. Stop it! I said, dammit!" the thing was broken. Her master panted slightly, sweat on his features and he growled. Weike began to say sorry but he was adamant. He lay in his bed and ignored her. When she tried to climb up, he kicked her not hard physically but it was hard.
[Shin's so hard to produce. Yet you destroyed it when I was only trying to help you, I knew you wouldn't appreciate something like that. you're too stupid to--- get out of my room! GET OUT!] the knock came, her master flung aside the covers and slammed open the door.
"What? It's late!"
the boy twin smiled at her and answered, "It's Nakagosama he wants you to go with him to the Capital to escort Yui-sama. Come on girl."
"Why. oh I see. Thanks. Just get the dog out." Suboshi, she realised, tickled her ears and she had eyes on the man she loved only. [Don't be so petty.]
[I am, too bad for you. From now on you'll sleep outside and we are not together anymore] "Suboshi get her away. I mean it." She refused to budge. He blocked out her signals and ignored her. Weike came forward but was greeted by the rapidly closing door.
"Come on girl. You can sleep with us." Suboshi was whispering, dragging her gently but she couldn't believe it. Now they were both in the doorway. "What's wrong? Aren't you strong enough? She's not that heavy."
[Master, don't do this. I am sorry please don't hate me, you promised, remember?] the older seishi laughed again and tried to force the door shut and Suboshi was trying desperately not to get her killed.
[I already told you I am not your master anymore. I cannot be patient, I am incompetent. Just leave me now.] "Okay stopit. Why are you so stubborn, dog? I said go! Your master is somewhere else. He's not me! Go away!"
Tears were falling from his amber pupils, and he could be seen and heard and yet he didn't care. The younger seishi left. Tomo wordlessly climbed into bed . She nosed herself into bed and when he was quiet she slept too.
The next day Weike was awake from the cold. The bed was made. Her master was gone.
No problem, she soon picked up the trail of the travelers and followed. The horses drank. He came to the bushes she was excited! The mask of beauty was cold and unforgiving.
"Stop following me, that's an order. I won't accept you, we are severed permanently, okay? Fine." He sounded almost heart broken. She howled and howled. The pain unbearable pain...
And yet many days later she found herself going to him again, her paw cut and bruised from the walking. When Tomo was seriously ill she crept in and licked his face. Until he rested, lucid. He decided to leave to forget Nakagosama and settle in Grassville and led a nonkiller life.
But it was not for good. Some people came and begged Tomo to be the guardian of their treasure--- the Golden scrolls. He had planned to hide it but bandits who heard of the thing almost killed him. Only Kutou's general Nakago could keep it safely, since the emperor died he had become the new king-conquerer and his feat was legendary. Nobody would dare steal the treasure of the extinct tribe. * I have changed FY's plot to fit my story here. I don't want the blond to be dead anyway!