Disclaimer: OK, the last part! Finally, right? I think I may go over each part of the story and make some revisions now....hmmm......project for a rainy day I guess! Oh well, as usual I don't own any characters, main show plots, blah blah blah. If I did, I would have found a way to keep Prue alive (grrrr........). So this is Paige's part. It takes place before Cole turns into The Source, pretty much right after Paige finds the Halliwells. She hasn't moved into the Manor yet basically. So, enough disclaimers. Please R&R!
The new one. The half-breed. That's what I am. My whole life I fought. Fought against my parents, fought against my teachers, fought against alcohol, fought against life itself. But now there is real evil to fight. I always knew I was different from the rest. I knew that there was something waiting for me somewhere. Especially after my parents were killed. But I never thought that it'd be this way. Having sisters, people who actually rely on me. It's a new feeling, but I could cope. But not everyday do you find out you're a witch. Not only a witch but part of the most powerful trio of witches in the world. Fairly freaksome, but I guess that I can deal with that too. But feeling like a replacement...now that I can't get used to. Why did Prue have to die? I never even got to meet her, and yet sometimes I feel so.....I guess the word would be resentful.
I have grown to love Piper and Phoebe but it feels like they expect me to be the Superwitch that Prue was. They expect me to become Prue. And it just isn't going to happen. Why can't they see that I'm Paige Matthews, not Prue Halliwell? And, at the same time, I think that Piper hates me because I she believes I am trying to take Prue's place. I'm really not though! I guess Piper and Phoebe don't realize it, but it feels like there is this empty void in my heart. The place where Prue should be. But now she'll never get the chance to be there.
I haven't been part of the Halliwell family for long, but I am beginning to think that fate hates us. Things begin to settle down and then something comes along and changes things forever. I suppose I am a real Halliwell in that aspect. I feel sorry for my new family. Piper is taking Prue's death so hard and I know I'm not making things any better. Phoebe is struggling to be the mediator between me and Piper, a position I have the feeling she's never had to be in before. I can tell Leo feels incredibly guilty over not being able to save Prue. It's probably a whitelighter thing. Feeling each other's pain. And Cole. What can I say about him? I'm sure that he also feels guilty. He is the reason that Phoebe wasn't in the Manor to help defeat Shax. But there is something about him that makes me feel uneasy. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that he's an ex-demon or it could just be me adjusting to having brothers-in-law, and sisters for that matter. From some of the things I've heard, Prue didn't trust him completely either.
When I think about it, it sounds like I actually had some things in common with Prue. I really wish I could have known her. Sometimes I find Piper and Phoebe having these talks about things that happened when Prue was around. Memories dating back to when they were just children. And I feel left out. I wonder why destiny could be so cruel as to destroy to connection that they had. I would give up everything that I have gotten from my new family if it just meant that they would have Prue back. I can see the pain in their eyes every time she is mentioned. I doubt they can see my pain though. My pain doesn't show in my eyes other than maybe a slight moment of sadness. No the pain is deep in my heart. Strange that I feel this way over someone I never met. But I know I will feel this way for the rest of my life over the sister than I never knew.
The new one. The half-breed. That's what I am. My whole life I fought. Fought against my parents, fought against my teachers, fought against alcohol, fought against life itself. But now there is real evil to fight. I always knew I was different from the rest. I knew that there was something waiting for me somewhere. Especially after my parents were killed. But I never thought that it'd be this way. Having sisters, people who actually rely on me. It's a new feeling, but I could cope. But not everyday do you find out you're a witch. Not only a witch but part of the most powerful trio of witches in the world. Fairly freaksome, but I guess that I can deal with that too. But feeling like a replacement...now that I can't get used to. Why did Prue have to die? I never even got to meet her, and yet sometimes I feel so.....I guess the word would be resentful.
I have grown to love Piper and Phoebe but it feels like they expect me to be the Superwitch that Prue was. They expect me to become Prue. And it just isn't going to happen. Why can't they see that I'm Paige Matthews, not Prue Halliwell? And, at the same time, I think that Piper hates me because I she believes I am trying to take Prue's place. I'm really not though! I guess Piper and Phoebe don't realize it, but it feels like there is this empty void in my heart. The place where Prue should be. But now she'll never get the chance to be there.
I haven't been part of the Halliwell family for long, but I am beginning to think that fate hates us. Things begin to settle down and then something comes along and changes things forever. I suppose I am a real Halliwell in that aspect. I feel sorry for my new family. Piper is taking Prue's death so hard and I know I'm not making things any better. Phoebe is struggling to be the mediator between me and Piper, a position I have the feeling she's never had to be in before. I can tell Leo feels incredibly guilty over not being able to save Prue. It's probably a whitelighter thing. Feeling each other's pain. And Cole. What can I say about him? I'm sure that he also feels guilty. He is the reason that Phoebe wasn't in the Manor to help defeat Shax. But there is something about him that makes me feel uneasy. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that he's an ex-demon or it could just be me adjusting to having brothers-in-law, and sisters for that matter. From some of the things I've heard, Prue didn't trust him completely either.
When I think about it, it sounds like I actually had some things in common with Prue. I really wish I could have known her. Sometimes I find Piper and Phoebe having these talks about things that happened when Prue was around. Memories dating back to when they were just children. And I feel left out. I wonder why destiny could be so cruel as to destroy to connection that they had. I would give up everything that I have gotten from my new family if it just meant that they would have Prue back. I can see the pain in their eyes every time she is mentioned. I doubt they can see my pain though. My pain doesn't show in my eyes other than maybe a slight moment of sadness. No the pain is deep in my heart. Strange that I feel this way over someone I never met. But I know I will feel this way for the rest of my life over the sister than I never knew.