Author's Note: My mid-terms will be from the 1/27 to 1/30, so there should
be one more update before February. I will try hard to get one in!
This chapter is probably the most angst-filled yet, but not to the extent where you cannot still enjoy it (for those who really don't care for angst).
I would also like to tell you all that the next chapter might be the last one. If it is, I will leave it in a cliffhanger and make a sequel, which I would make be my next holiday one (it would be uploaded on 2/10). Unless you don't want me to do this, I will and make it all nice and stuff (FYI: the brain is half-asleep).
PLEASE review! I need something to go on for the next two weeks! Besides, it will help my lazy muse get back to work.
Chapter Five
Late Sunday Morning - Joshua's House
He noticed the change of expression on her face. She was trying to think of a reason to go, so Alec said quietly, "Just leave." She felt the need to say something, but decided against it. She got up and walked toward the stairs and didn't look back. He knew that she didn't mean to kiss him the way that she did, but the thought that she wanted that to happen was still there.
**
She knew that she should have said something, but she couldn't look back at him. I felt so guilty for what just happened. I didn't expect him to turn around, so why should I feel guilty? Maybe this wasn't guilt. Okay, it is guilt, but it also something else. I hadn't realized what I had just gotten us into - a bigger mess then we both can handle. (Author's Note: I won't write anymore first person paragraphs after this one.)
~~~
Jam Pony - Monday Morning
Alec walked in later then usual in a morose mood. He walked to his locker and saw Biggs with a crowd.
"Ask him yourself," he heard Biggs say with pride in his voice.
"He really beat you?" Billy asked.
"It was a lucky shot," he stated not looking at them. The group around Biggs dispersed. He walked over to Alec and leaned on the lockers.
"You know that it was a lucky." Alec gave him a dirty look and for some reason Biggs grinned.
"What's the matter buddy?"
"Bad week."
"Sorry; I forgot about that." Alec slammed his locker shut and started to walk over to Normal. Biggs followed him and talked on the way, "First Max, then Dinah...if there was a Dinah...."
Alec quickly turned around and pushed Biggs against the lockers with his arm, grabbing his collar when he had him pinned.
"There was a Dinah. And I don't give a damn about you and Max, so shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone."
Alec released his grip and took the package that Normal was waving in the air. The silence was killing him. He could feel everyone staring at him as he walked out. He hated that this was happening to him. He would love to blame this all on Max, but he knew it wasn't her fault. He had brought this on himself.
~~~
Pizzeria - Monday Afternoon
Alec downed his seventh coke and fifth slice of pizza when Biggs came in. He saw Alec and walked over to him. He sat down in the empty seat and remained silent.
"What do you want?"
"To apologize for before."
"Fine, you apologized. You can go if there is nothing else to say."
"Just look at me for a second."
He looked straight at him. "You made me look like an idiot."
"And what did you make me look like?"
Alec looked away from him, taking another bite of his pizza.
"She wants you to apologize, doesn't she?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You never apologize in less then 48 hours. Unless someone made you do it."
"So what if she made me apologize. It wasn't like I wasn't going to."
"How did she find out?"
"She asked Original Cindy."
"I should have known." Alec smiled as did Biggs. He didn't really feel the need to smile, but he did it anyway. He didn't have to have Biggs annoyed at him. He was his only friend next to Max, and that relationship isn't like it used to be.
"So we're okay?" Biggs asked.
"Yeah, we're okay," he replied nonchalantly.
~~~
Alec and Biggs's Apartment - Monday Evening
Alec, Biggs, and Max were sitting on the couch watching a movie. There was still tension between Max and Alec, but they refused to tell Biggs what happened no matter how many times he asked them. The movie finally ended, so Biggs got up and headed for the door. Alec went looking for something to drink.
"Where are you going?" Max asked Biggs.
"To get the mail. I'll be back in a minute."
"I'm sorry," she said, a change of tone in her voice.
"About what?"
"The kiss."
"It's not just the kiss, Max."
"I'm sorry for everything I've done to you for the past few days. I really am."
"Do you think that sorry fixes it?" he said raising his voice.
"What do you want me to say, Alec? It's not completely my fault..."
"So it's my fault? It's not like I asked you to go out with Biggs. I didn't ask you to kiss me. I didn't ask for you to feel sorry for me. Actually, I don't recall asking you for anything."
He stopped ranting when he realized that he had struck something. He thought she was going to break down right then and there and not stop crying for hours.
She finally answered him, "I didn't ask for it either," she stated, her voice cracking when she said it.
She grabbed her coat and went for the door. She was about to open it when Biggs stepped in.
"What's the matter?" he asked looking at her coat.
"I'm tired. I think I'm just going to go home and catch some sleep."
"You can crash here if you want."
"No, it's alright. I'll see you tomorrow, alright?"
"Yeah, good night."
Biggs gave her a kiss and she was gone.
"What are you looking for?"
"A drink. I'm gonna go to Crash."
"How come?"
"I don't want anything that we have."
"Alright then, I'll see you later."
Alec left in a hurry, taking the stairs instead of the elevator.
~~~
It was pouring outside. Alec wasn't outside for two seconds before he was completely soaked. He stood outside looking in both directions. He didn't see Max anywhere. But he did know where she'd be.
.:to be continued
.:please review
This chapter is probably the most angst-filled yet, but not to the extent where you cannot still enjoy it (for those who really don't care for angst).
I would also like to tell you all that the next chapter might be the last one. If it is, I will leave it in a cliffhanger and make a sequel, which I would make be my next holiday one (it would be uploaded on 2/10). Unless you don't want me to do this, I will and make it all nice and stuff (FYI: the brain is half-asleep).
PLEASE review! I need something to go on for the next two weeks! Besides, it will help my lazy muse get back to work.
Chapter Five
Late Sunday Morning - Joshua's House
He noticed the change of expression on her face. She was trying to think of a reason to go, so Alec said quietly, "Just leave." She felt the need to say something, but decided against it. She got up and walked toward the stairs and didn't look back. He knew that she didn't mean to kiss him the way that she did, but the thought that she wanted that to happen was still there.
**
She knew that she should have said something, but she couldn't look back at him. I felt so guilty for what just happened. I didn't expect him to turn around, so why should I feel guilty? Maybe this wasn't guilt. Okay, it is guilt, but it also something else. I hadn't realized what I had just gotten us into - a bigger mess then we both can handle. (Author's Note: I won't write anymore first person paragraphs after this one.)
~~~
Jam Pony - Monday Morning
Alec walked in later then usual in a morose mood. He walked to his locker and saw Biggs with a crowd.
"Ask him yourself," he heard Biggs say with pride in his voice.
"He really beat you?" Billy asked.
"It was a lucky shot," he stated not looking at them. The group around Biggs dispersed. He walked over to Alec and leaned on the lockers.
"You know that it was a lucky." Alec gave him a dirty look and for some reason Biggs grinned.
"What's the matter buddy?"
"Bad week."
"Sorry; I forgot about that." Alec slammed his locker shut and started to walk over to Normal. Biggs followed him and talked on the way, "First Max, then Dinah...if there was a Dinah...."
Alec quickly turned around and pushed Biggs against the lockers with his arm, grabbing his collar when he had him pinned.
"There was a Dinah. And I don't give a damn about you and Max, so shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone."
Alec released his grip and took the package that Normal was waving in the air. The silence was killing him. He could feel everyone staring at him as he walked out. He hated that this was happening to him. He would love to blame this all on Max, but he knew it wasn't her fault. He had brought this on himself.
~~~
Pizzeria - Monday Afternoon
Alec downed his seventh coke and fifth slice of pizza when Biggs came in. He saw Alec and walked over to him. He sat down in the empty seat and remained silent.
"What do you want?"
"To apologize for before."
"Fine, you apologized. You can go if there is nothing else to say."
"Just look at me for a second."
He looked straight at him. "You made me look like an idiot."
"And what did you make me look like?"
Alec looked away from him, taking another bite of his pizza.
"She wants you to apologize, doesn't she?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You never apologize in less then 48 hours. Unless someone made you do it."
"So what if she made me apologize. It wasn't like I wasn't going to."
"How did she find out?"
"She asked Original Cindy."
"I should have known." Alec smiled as did Biggs. He didn't really feel the need to smile, but he did it anyway. He didn't have to have Biggs annoyed at him. He was his only friend next to Max, and that relationship isn't like it used to be.
"So we're okay?" Biggs asked.
"Yeah, we're okay," he replied nonchalantly.
~~~
Alec and Biggs's Apartment - Monday Evening
Alec, Biggs, and Max were sitting on the couch watching a movie. There was still tension between Max and Alec, but they refused to tell Biggs what happened no matter how many times he asked them. The movie finally ended, so Biggs got up and headed for the door. Alec went looking for something to drink.
"Where are you going?" Max asked Biggs.
"To get the mail. I'll be back in a minute."
"I'm sorry," she said, a change of tone in her voice.
"About what?"
"The kiss."
"It's not just the kiss, Max."
"I'm sorry for everything I've done to you for the past few days. I really am."
"Do you think that sorry fixes it?" he said raising his voice.
"What do you want me to say, Alec? It's not completely my fault..."
"So it's my fault? It's not like I asked you to go out with Biggs. I didn't ask you to kiss me. I didn't ask for you to feel sorry for me. Actually, I don't recall asking you for anything."
He stopped ranting when he realized that he had struck something. He thought she was going to break down right then and there and not stop crying for hours.
She finally answered him, "I didn't ask for it either," she stated, her voice cracking when she said it.
She grabbed her coat and went for the door. She was about to open it when Biggs stepped in.
"What's the matter?" he asked looking at her coat.
"I'm tired. I think I'm just going to go home and catch some sleep."
"You can crash here if you want."
"No, it's alright. I'll see you tomorrow, alright?"
"Yeah, good night."
Biggs gave her a kiss and she was gone.
"What are you looking for?"
"A drink. I'm gonna go to Crash."
"How come?"
"I don't want anything that we have."
"Alright then, I'll see you later."
Alec left in a hurry, taking the stairs instead of the elevator.
~~~
It was pouring outside. Alec wasn't outside for two seconds before he was completely soaked. He stood outside looking in both directions. He didn't see Max anywhere. But he did know where she'd be.
.:to be continued
.:please review