CHAPTER 15:
The words "everyone misses you" hit me the hardest. I missed them, too! So
much! If they only knew what Charity was doing to me .... without a doubt Daddy,
Noah, Luis and Hank would do everything they could to make sure Charity got what
she deserved. Miguel would hate her forever. But that didn't seem like it was going to
happen anytime soon. Dammit, what did I do to deserve this!?
Pretty soon, the summer was drawing to a close and I was going to start my
second year at UConn. Tony was still around and he was gonna graduate at the end of
this year. I was sure going to miss him. He had been the greatest ally I could ask for.
I tried to focus on my studies so I could get my mind off of Charity and Miguel.
I finally decided on a major. Business Finance. I figured since I'm already here, I
might as well make the most of it and get me a good degree. So that's what I set out to
do.
Midway through my third semester at UConn, I got quite a surprise "visit."
Apparently, Miguel had flyed himself over to Connecticut, came on campus, and went
to an admissions office and asked if he could get information on my whereabouts. He
told them that he was my boyfriend and that he needed to see me as soon as possible
because of an "emergency" back home in Harmony. That was a lie of course. Miguel
just wanted to see me and Ricky. Wanted to know why we hadn't communicated with
him at all. He missed us. The office called my dorm room, and luckily I was there at the
time. They told me about this situation with Miguel and if I wanted him to have this
information on where I was and all.
I freaked. Miguel was here?! This could ruin everything. Charity said that I
wasn't supposed to see Miguel or anyone from Harmony for four years. I knew what
her reaction would be if I told the admissions office yes and Miguel came by to see me.
I couldn't let that happen.
"No," I told the person from the admissions office. "I don't want him to see
me."
"Very well," said the person.
She hung up.
Back at the admissions office, this is what was taking place:
"Can I see her now?" Miguel asked impatiently.
"No," the lady said, shaking her head. "You can't."
"Why not?" Miguel asked, baffled.
"Because she said she doesn't want to see you. I'm sorry, sir."
Miguel looked at her, confused. He shook his head like he couldn't believe this.
Why doesn't Kay want to see me? he asked himself.
After that incident, Miguel got to thinking: Kay doesn't seem to want me
anymore. She hasn't called, she hasn't written, she even refused to allow me to see her
when I came for a surprise visit! I guess this means it's over. She's made it quite clear
what she wants, or in this case, what she doesn't want. And that's me.
Goodbye Kay! he called out silently. I will always love you! I just wish you still
loved me the way I love you!
With that, he put an end to it all. It was like a candle being put out. Miguel kept
his hold on our love for almost two years. But now he was letting go.
If Kay doesn't want me, he told himself, I'm not going to continue fighting for a
lost cause. It's over. I just have to accept it.
He called his mama back in Harmony.
"I'm coming home, mama," he said neutrally.
Pilar could tell something was wrong. Why is he coming home so soon? she
wondered. He just arrived at Connecticut yesterday, and now he's returning?!
Something bad must have happened there with Kay.
"Ok son," she told her youngest son consolingly.
After scheduling a flight back to Harmony, Miguel made his way to the airport.
He was going to return home. But nothing was going to be different. He was at the
same place he had started from. NO contact with me.
I hung up the phone, and sighed. I wish I was able to see Miguel, especially
since he was so close. But I couldn't. I knew how Charity would react. How I had
missed him, though. We'd been apart for almost two whole years and I was really
hating the fact that he wasn't in my life. Or Ricky's life for that matter.
Speaking of Ricky, how he had grown! He was 20 months old now. He
resembled Miguel so much - he didn't seem to have any of my qualities, physically or
what not. He was all Miguel. But I didn't mind. Having a reminder of Miguel to look
at, and take care of everyday, was a blessing.
The words "everyone misses you" hit me the hardest. I missed them, too! So
much! If they only knew what Charity was doing to me .... without a doubt Daddy,
Noah, Luis and Hank would do everything they could to make sure Charity got what
she deserved. Miguel would hate her forever. But that didn't seem like it was going to
happen anytime soon. Dammit, what did I do to deserve this!?
Pretty soon, the summer was drawing to a close and I was going to start my
second year at UConn. Tony was still around and he was gonna graduate at the end of
this year. I was sure going to miss him. He had been the greatest ally I could ask for.
I tried to focus on my studies so I could get my mind off of Charity and Miguel.
I finally decided on a major. Business Finance. I figured since I'm already here, I
might as well make the most of it and get me a good degree. So that's what I set out to
do.
Midway through my third semester at UConn, I got quite a surprise "visit."
Apparently, Miguel had flyed himself over to Connecticut, came on campus, and went
to an admissions office and asked if he could get information on my whereabouts. He
told them that he was my boyfriend and that he needed to see me as soon as possible
because of an "emergency" back home in Harmony. That was a lie of course. Miguel
just wanted to see me and Ricky. Wanted to know why we hadn't communicated with
him at all. He missed us. The office called my dorm room, and luckily I was there at the
time. They told me about this situation with Miguel and if I wanted him to have this
information on where I was and all.
I freaked. Miguel was here?! This could ruin everything. Charity said that I
wasn't supposed to see Miguel or anyone from Harmony for four years. I knew what
her reaction would be if I told the admissions office yes and Miguel came by to see me.
I couldn't let that happen.
"No," I told the person from the admissions office. "I don't want him to see
me."
"Very well," said the person.
She hung up.
Back at the admissions office, this is what was taking place:
"Can I see her now?" Miguel asked impatiently.
"No," the lady said, shaking her head. "You can't."
"Why not?" Miguel asked, baffled.
"Because she said she doesn't want to see you. I'm sorry, sir."
Miguel looked at her, confused. He shook his head like he couldn't believe this.
Why doesn't Kay want to see me? he asked himself.
After that incident, Miguel got to thinking: Kay doesn't seem to want me
anymore. She hasn't called, she hasn't written, she even refused to allow me to see her
when I came for a surprise visit! I guess this means it's over. She's made it quite clear
what she wants, or in this case, what she doesn't want. And that's me.
Goodbye Kay! he called out silently. I will always love you! I just wish you still
loved me the way I love you!
With that, he put an end to it all. It was like a candle being put out. Miguel kept
his hold on our love for almost two years. But now he was letting go.
If Kay doesn't want me, he told himself, I'm not going to continue fighting for a
lost cause. It's over. I just have to accept it.
He called his mama back in Harmony.
"I'm coming home, mama," he said neutrally.
Pilar could tell something was wrong. Why is he coming home so soon? she
wondered. He just arrived at Connecticut yesterday, and now he's returning?!
Something bad must have happened there with Kay.
"Ok son," she told her youngest son consolingly.
After scheduling a flight back to Harmony, Miguel made his way to the airport.
He was going to return home. But nothing was going to be different. He was at the
same place he had started from. NO contact with me.
I hung up the phone, and sighed. I wish I was able to see Miguel, especially
since he was so close. But I couldn't. I knew how Charity would react. How I had
missed him, though. We'd been apart for almost two whole years and I was really
hating the fact that he wasn't in my life. Or Ricky's life for that matter.
Speaking of Ricky, how he had grown! He was 20 months old now. He
resembled Miguel so much - he didn't seem to have any of my qualities, physically or
what not. He was all Miguel. But I didn't mind. Having a reminder of Miguel to look
at, and take care of everyday, was a blessing.