Chapter 39:
Putting the telephone down in its cradle, I turned to look at Miguel.
"How are they doing?" he asked me.
"Good, Noah said they'll be back soon," I answered.
Miguel nodded, sitting down. He picked up the remote control and began channel
surfing.
Oh that made me mad! He was just going to tell me something important before we had
gotten that phone call and now that he could, he wouldn't. Why was he such a wimp? I hated
the fact that he was the same coward he had been ten years ago. The one who was too shy and
nervous to ask me out. I mean I had changed; I no longer plotted and schemed to win
Miguel's love (especially since I already had it) - so how come he hadn't changed?
"DAMMITT, Miguel," I said angrily, grabbing the remote from his hands and flinging
it to the other side of the room. "Tell me what you were gonna SAY! You haven't been very
clear about your feelings after I told you the truth. Show me what you want and are going to
DO!"
Miguel looked at me, his mouth open, surprise covering his whole face. I doubt he had
ever seen me this mad. Not even at our confrontation a few months back {a/n: the
confrontation was on chapter 24}.
"Truth is, Kay," he began slowly, running his hand through his hair, "I DO know what
I'm going to do."
I nodded. "Good," I said firmly. "Now tell me."
"Alright." he said. "Come sit down by me and I'll tell you everything. I have not been
thinking about much else you know, Kay," he said.
I sat down right next to him on the sofa, waiting impatiently for his words.
"Kay, after much thinking, I've decided to go back to Castleton. I have had a great
time with you and Ricky these past few days. But now, I have to decide who I want. A life with
Charity as husband and wife, or a life with you and Ricky. So now, I'm going back to Castleton
and to Charity. I have spent some time with you, now I'm going to spend some time with her
and then I will decide who I want to spend the rest of my life with."
He took my hands in his, caressing it gently. "I hope you understand," he said.
I scowled. "Understand, Miguel?" I asked, my anger rising. "You want me to
UNDERSTAND? Understand what, exactly? The fact that I told you a life-altering piece of
information and yet you still have to go back to her to figure out what you want? How can you
still CONSIDER being with her after everything she's put Ricky and me through?"
Miguel looked away, not saying a word. He seemed upset that I was confronting him
like this. But heck I was upset too! And definitely sick and tired of all of this!
"Miguel," I said, grabbing his chin so he'd look at me. "She prevented you from
knowing your son! Your alienated son who thought TONY was his father despite me always
telling him otherwise! You were away from your son for four of his five years! And it wasn't
MY doing! It was hers. How can you still say that you're thinking about who to choose to be
with when the right answer is sitting right next to you!"
"Listen, Kay," Miguel said, standing up. "I'm not happy to know that Ricky thought
Tony was his father. But still. All I know is that I put Charity through enough heartbreak
already! She has no one and nothing to live for but me!"
I looked at him, shocked by what he had just said. "So you're going to stay with her out
of OBLIGATION, Miguel?" I shouted, not being able to mask my fury. "You told me yourself
you don't love her! What do you want, Miguel? A woman who you don't love and have no
children with, or an astounding love with a woman you have known you're entire life and with
whom you share a child?! Make your choice NOW, cause I've ran out of patience. Let me
know what and who you want so I can move on with my life! I'm sick of chasing after you,
seeing if you'll be mine again."
I stopped talking because everything I had needed to say had been said. I stood up
facing him, waiting for a reaction.
Miguel looked at me for a second, surprised by all of my rage. Now it was my turn for
a surprise. In one split second, Miguel's lips were on top of mine. He gave me a long kiss
before letting go. His kiss had satisfied me enough to forget about why I was angry, but his
upcoming words sure didn't:
"I can't decide now, Kay," he said, much to my disappointment. "I have to go see for
myself what I want. I'll call you in a week. Say bye to Ricky for me."
Grabbing his jacket and car keys, he was out the door, and out of my life.... again.
{A/N: I liked this chapter because of the way I made Kay explode on Miguel. She had
all these emotions pent up in her that she just let loose on him. I think he had it coming. But
dont worry kaguel fans. Please continue reading and thank you for all the r/r's. Oh and I hope
you all had a Merry Christmas!}
Putting the telephone down in its cradle, I turned to look at Miguel.
"How are they doing?" he asked me.
"Good, Noah said they'll be back soon," I answered.
Miguel nodded, sitting down. He picked up the remote control and began channel
surfing.
Oh that made me mad! He was just going to tell me something important before we had
gotten that phone call and now that he could, he wouldn't. Why was he such a wimp? I hated
the fact that he was the same coward he had been ten years ago. The one who was too shy and
nervous to ask me out. I mean I had changed; I no longer plotted and schemed to win
Miguel's love (especially since I already had it) - so how come he hadn't changed?
"DAMMITT, Miguel," I said angrily, grabbing the remote from his hands and flinging
it to the other side of the room. "Tell me what you were gonna SAY! You haven't been very
clear about your feelings after I told you the truth. Show me what you want and are going to
DO!"
Miguel looked at me, his mouth open, surprise covering his whole face. I doubt he had
ever seen me this mad. Not even at our confrontation a few months back {a/n: the
confrontation was on chapter 24}.
"Truth is, Kay," he began slowly, running his hand through his hair, "I DO know what
I'm going to do."
I nodded. "Good," I said firmly. "Now tell me."
"Alright." he said. "Come sit down by me and I'll tell you everything. I have not been
thinking about much else you know, Kay," he said.
I sat down right next to him on the sofa, waiting impatiently for his words.
"Kay, after much thinking, I've decided to go back to Castleton. I have had a great
time with you and Ricky these past few days. But now, I have to decide who I want. A life with
Charity as husband and wife, or a life with you and Ricky. So now, I'm going back to Castleton
and to Charity. I have spent some time with you, now I'm going to spend some time with her
and then I will decide who I want to spend the rest of my life with."
He took my hands in his, caressing it gently. "I hope you understand," he said.
I scowled. "Understand, Miguel?" I asked, my anger rising. "You want me to
UNDERSTAND? Understand what, exactly? The fact that I told you a life-altering piece of
information and yet you still have to go back to her to figure out what you want? How can you
still CONSIDER being with her after everything she's put Ricky and me through?"
Miguel looked away, not saying a word. He seemed upset that I was confronting him
like this. But heck I was upset too! And definitely sick and tired of all of this!
"Miguel," I said, grabbing his chin so he'd look at me. "She prevented you from
knowing your son! Your alienated son who thought TONY was his father despite me always
telling him otherwise! You were away from your son for four of his five years! And it wasn't
MY doing! It was hers. How can you still say that you're thinking about who to choose to be
with when the right answer is sitting right next to you!"
"Listen, Kay," Miguel said, standing up. "I'm not happy to know that Ricky thought
Tony was his father. But still. All I know is that I put Charity through enough heartbreak
already! She has no one and nothing to live for but me!"
I looked at him, shocked by what he had just said. "So you're going to stay with her out
of OBLIGATION, Miguel?" I shouted, not being able to mask my fury. "You told me yourself
you don't love her! What do you want, Miguel? A woman who you don't love and have no
children with, or an astounding love with a woman you have known you're entire life and with
whom you share a child?! Make your choice NOW, cause I've ran out of patience. Let me
know what and who you want so I can move on with my life! I'm sick of chasing after you,
seeing if you'll be mine again."
I stopped talking because everything I had needed to say had been said. I stood up
facing him, waiting for a reaction.
Miguel looked at me for a second, surprised by all of my rage. Now it was my turn for
a surprise. In one split second, Miguel's lips were on top of mine. He gave me a long kiss
before letting go. His kiss had satisfied me enough to forget about why I was angry, but his
upcoming words sure didn't:
"I can't decide now, Kay," he said, much to my disappointment. "I have to go see for
myself what I want. I'll call you in a week. Say bye to Ricky for me."
Grabbing his jacket and car keys, he was out the door, and out of my life.... again.
{A/N: I liked this chapter because of the way I made Kay explode on Miguel. She had
all these emotions pent up in her that she just let loose on him. I think he had it coming. But
dont worry kaguel fans. Please continue reading and thank you for all the r/r's. Oh and I hope
you all had a Merry Christmas!}