Chapter 40:
I watched him walk out of that door for the ten millionth time, only leaving me to
wonder about what he would do next. I sat down on the sofa again, with a sigh. There were no
more tears left inside of me. I was through with crying.
This is the final straw, I thought to myself. If Miguel chooses Charity, then I am done
with him forever. I have to move on. I am a twenty five year old woman with a great career
and a beautiful son. I have to focus on that more than on a man who can't even decide if he
wants to be with me or not.
Sighing, I went upstairs to check if Ricky had woken up from his nap. He hadn't. I was
tired myself so I decided to sleep for a while in the next room.
A few hours later, Jessica woke me up for dinner.
"Are you hungry, Kay?" she asked. "I made dinner for you, Ricky and me."
"Thanks, Jess," I said, a bit groggy. "I'll be down in a minute."
She nodded as I got out of my bed, stretching and yawning.
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So life was back to normal. At least sort of. Everything was the way it had been when
Miguel WAS NOT here in Harmony. Great. Hmph. I was missing him already. He was
probably back in Charity's arms again. Damn her! Oh well. I had more important stuff to deal
with than thinking about Miguel and Charity. I had a son who I needed to look out for. And a
great job that paid well; I could probably move out of this house NOW if I wanted to. But I
didn't want to. I loved my family and I had missed them for those four years.
I went downstairs and ate dinner with Ricky and Jessica. Ricky didn't bother asking
me where his daddy was - he knew the answer. Gone. Again. But was it for good? I couldn't
answer that.
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Meanwhile up in Castleton, Miguel had just reached his house. He honked his car horn
to let Charity know that he had arrived. She ran out of the house, giving him a big hug and
kiss. He held her back but all he could think about was the way he had kissed me a few hours
ago.
"I missed you, handsome," Charity said, her arms all over his neck.
"I missed you, too," he said. It wasn't completely true, but what was the harm in
making her believe so?
"You seem different," Charity exclaimed, once they carried the bags inside.
"Oh yeah?" Miguel asked. "In what way?"
"I dunno," Charity said. "You seem ... sexier."
"Hmm," Miguel said, liking her answer. Dropping the bags on the floor, they went
inside the bedroom to make love.
Good thing he still wants me, Charity thought to herself happily. Even if the only way I
can keep my hooks on him is through sex. But it does NOT matter. As long as he'll still be
mine and not Kay's.
After having finished their lovemaking, it was around midnight. They were both worn
out. Charity fell asleep in his arms, while Miguel just lay there, thinking.
I just made love to the woman who literally prevented me from knowing my son,
Miguel thought to herself. But she IS my wife. And I have a duty and a responsibility to her.
On the other hand, I have no OBLIGATION to Kay. She doesn't need me the way Charity
does. Charity is more frail, more vulnerable. Kay is strong, sufficient. Maybe that's my
answer. I WANT to feel like I can protect my woman. And I get that with Charity. But not with
Kay. Maybe Charity is the one I should be with - after all, we're married and have a life
together already. But .... I also know that when I am with Kay my heart beats a little bit faster
and the world seems a little bit brighter. I don't get that with Charity. But... oh I am so
confused!!
As quietly as he could, he got out of the bed and went outside. It was cold and the wind
was blowing fiercely but he didn't care. He sat down on the front porch barefoot and in his
pajamas and thought more and more until his heart and mind could not think anymore (a/n: the
next paragraph is miguel's thoughts):
I have known Kay my whole life. If I say I don't love her, it would be a lie, because I
do love her. But my heart also belongs to Charity a little bit. I fell in love with her as a teen
and even though I don't love her now because she has changed, I still remember the moments
we shared and I try to view her now the way she was all those years ago. But I know it's not
the same. I only went to her because I thought Kay left me for forever. But then again, my life
is ok with Charity. I am satisfied. But Kay has my child - a child I haven't been a proper
parent to. But then Charity also needs me.....
Sometime around 3 am, he finally made his choice. And he was going to stick with it. It
was time to tell the two woman in his life what his decision was. He regretted having to hurt
one of them but he had no choice. One woman's happiness was another's despair.
She'll get over it, he thought to himself as he went inside the house. She has to.
{A/N: sooo who did miguel choose?! read on to find out! hehe sorry but i love keeping
u in suspense.}
I watched him walk out of that door for the ten millionth time, only leaving me to
wonder about what he would do next. I sat down on the sofa again, with a sigh. There were no
more tears left inside of me. I was through with crying.
This is the final straw, I thought to myself. If Miguel chooses Charity, then I am done
with him forever. I have to move on. I am a twenty five year old woman with a great career
and a beautiful son. I have to focus on that more than on a man who can't even decide if he
wants to be with me or not.
Sighing, I went upstairs to check if Ricky had woken up from his nap. He hadn't. I was
tired myself so I decided to sleep for a while in the next room.
A few hours later, Jessica woke me up for dinner.
"Are you hungry, Kay?" she asked. "I made dinner for you, Ricky and me."
"Thanks, Jess," I said, a bit groggy. "I'll be down in a minute."
She nodded as I got out of my bed, stretching and yawning.
___________________________________________________________________
So life was back to normal. At least sort of. Everything was the way it had been when
Miguel WAS NOT here in Harmony. Great. Hmph. I was missing him already. He was
probably back in Charity's arms again. Damn her! Oh well. I had more important stuff to deal
with than thinking about Miguel and Charity. I had a son who I needed to look out for. And a
great job that paid well; I could probably move out of this house NOW if I wanted to. But I
didn't want to. I loved my family and I had missed them for those four years.
I went downstairs and ate dinner with Ricky and Jessica. Ricky didn't bother asking
me where his daddy was - he knew the answer. Gone. Again. But was it for good? I couldn't
answer that.
______________________________________________________________________
Meanwhile up in Castleton, Miguel had just reached his house. He honked his car horn
to let Charity know that he had arrived. She ran out of the house, giving him a big hug and
kiss. He held her back but all he could think about was the way he had kissed me a few hours
ago.
"I missed you, handsome," Charity said, her arms all over his neck.
"I missed you, too," he said. It wasn't completely true, but what was the harm in
making her believe so?
"You seem different," Charity exclaimed, once they carried the bags inside.
"Oh yeah?" Miguel asked. "In what way?"
"I dunno," Charity said. "You seem ... sexier."
"Hmm," Miguel said, liking her answer. Dropping the bags on the floor, they went
inside the bedroom to make love.
Good thing he still wants me, Charity thought to herself happily. Even if the only way I
can keep my hooks on him is through sex. But it does NOT matter. As long as he'll still be
mine and not Kay's.
After having finished their lovemaking, it was around midnight. They were both worn
out. Charity fell asleep in his arms, while Miguel just lay there, thinking.
I just made love to the woman who literally prevented me from knowing my son,
Miguel thought to herself. But she IS my wife. And I have a duty and a responsibility to her.
On the other hand, I have no OBLIGATION to Kay. She doesn't need me the way Charity
does. Charity is more frail, more vulnerable. Kay is strong, sufficient. Maybe that's my
answer. I WANT to feel like I can protect my woman. And I get that with Charity. But not with
Kay. Maybe Charity is the one I should be with - after all, we're married and have a life
together already. But .... I also know that when I am with Kay my heart beats a little bit faster
and the world seems a little bit brighter. I don't get that with Charity. But... oh I am so
confused!!
As quietly as he could, he got out of the bed and went outside. It was cold and the wind
was blowing fiercely but he didn't care. He sat down on the front porch barefoot and in his
pajamas and thought more and more until his heart and mind could not think anymore (a/n: the
next paragraph is miguel's thoughts):
I have known Kay my whole life. If I say I don't love her, it would be a lie, because I
do love her. But my heart also belongs to Charity a little bit. I fell in love with her as a teen
and even though I don't love her now because she has changed, I still remember the moments
we shared and I try to view her now the way she was all those years ago. But I know it's not
the same. I only went to her because I thought Kay left me for forever. But then again, my life
is ok with Charity. I am satisfied. But Kay has my child - a child I haven't been a proper
parent to. But then Charity also needs me.....
Sometime around 3 am, he finally made his choice. And he was going to stick with it. It
was time to tell the two woman in his life what his decision was. He regretted having to hurt
one of them but he had no choice. One woman's happiness was another's despair.
She'll get over it, he thought to himself as he went inside the house. She has to.
{A/N: sooo who did miguel choose?! read on to find out! hehe sorry but i love keeping
u in suspense.}