This will be based more on the books rather than the movie ^^
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Believe In Me- Chapter 1
"Usa-chan!"
"Nani?" Usagi breathed as she turned in the direction of the voices. Her eyes lit up with joy as she saw them; her friends along side her one and only love. A smile spread across her face as she started walking towards them "Ohayoo Minna!" she called out, her steps speeding up with every moment until she was running. It felt like an eternity since she had last seen them!
But as she neared them, she noticed something was wrong. All of them just stood there, as if their feet were rooted into the ground, but her mind chose to ignore this fact as she outstretched her arms to hug her dear Mamo-chan.
He body met no resistance as she went right through the figure of her love and her friends. A cold feeling of dread overtook her senses as she gasped in disbelief while turning to the sight of her friends image wavering before her eyes.
"Iie" she muttered, reaching her hand out "Don't leave me...not again" Her hand grasped at the fading image of her friends "Iie..."
"Sarabada Usagi-chan" a voice whispered as they flickered out of existence
"Iie, Matte! Onegai..."
*~*
She gasped as she suddenly straightened in the throne-like chair she was sitting in. Her hand briefly touched her forehead as she stood, her eyes wide with shock. When had she fallen asleep? Dreams...these dreams were much to real for her liking! Correction, these weren't dreams
These were nightmares
They haunted her every time she slept, or even when she was in the waking world. She just wanted to forget. But that isn't possible, now was it?
You can't forget your past. Well, not on purpose anyways.
But what purpose were these dreams suppose to serve? To put her through more pain than she already suffered? To give some sort of entertainment to the gods?! The fates had been cruel enough to give her this life, but to constantly remind her of her failure...the mistake that cost her everything that she had loved...This was just too much!
She frowned as she walked away from where she had been sitting a moment before. So much had changed, and the way that her life was going at the moment, she didn't know what to believe anymore. The universe had been peaceful, and the greatest evil that had existed had been extinguished what seemed to be a millennia ago...well, for all she knew, it could have been a millennia ago. Time had lost all meaning here...for every minute that she knew had passed, for every minute she continued to live, was pure torture. And every time she tried to forget, these dreams would come to disturb her, and force her to remember.
"Why am I here?" she whispered as she came up to a full length mirror. To the normal eye it was just a normal mirror, but to her it was a mirror forged by the god of time. To be used to seek out any evil, to act as her window to the entire universe, and most of all, to answer any questions that it could.
"Why am I here?" she asked again her voice louder than it had been before "What purpose do I have to serve now?"
The mirror flickered slightly, ripples caused by some unknown force spreading across it.
But nothing appeared other than her own reflection staring back at her.
She frowned, "Why am I here?" she demanded again "Why am I living in a world that no longer holds a purpose for me?"
Still nothing
She growled slightly, frustration beginning to boil inside of her "If there is nothing, then why am I still here? There is no world in existence that holds anything for me or my future! So what is the point for me continuing to live? I am alone, unhappy...I lost everything I lived for thousands of years ago! There is nothing..."
The surface of the mirror flickered again at her words, and the inside began to swirl towards the middle as an image inside began to take shape.
She watched, she eyes never leaving the forming image. Slowly it began to take shape into...a world she had never seen before. But how was that possible? She had traveled everywhere she could in the universe. This one looked so much like Chikyuu-sei, but she knew that this wasn't the planet she had grown up on-- unless she was mistaken, and it had changed very suddenly.
Her brow creased in confusion as she continued to watch as the mirror brought the view closer to the strange world and into a forest.
She knew now for sure that this wasn't Chikyuu-sei, for no forests this beautiful existed there now.
The image sifted through the tops of trees, searching for what it wanted to show her. It was blurred as it swiftly moved past the tree tops and more into the leaves of the trees as it neared its destination. She continued to watch as the image suddenly slowed and brought the focus upon a man sitting upon the branches of a tree. Or what seemed to be a man at first glance.
Her eyes widened in surprise as an old memory began to surface within her mind. She slowly brought her hand up to trace the features upon his face, the image wavering slightly with every movement her hand made. Her mouth was open slightly as it tried to form his long forgotten name.
"I see you know who he is"
Her hand snapped back, and her eyes hardened. "Hai" she responded bluntly. She still faced the mirror never turning, for she already knew who was behind her.
The person sighed as she walked up closer to her "Onegai. You can't always live in bitterness or despair. That is not the way of Cosmos"
She abruptly turned around, her eyes filled with anger "Nande?" she asked "What would you know? You're free of the fates, you're free of destiny! So what would you know about what it is like to be me?"
"Demo-"
"Nande?" she interrupted, the Ginzuishou appearing in her hand "I never asked to live this life! I never wanted to lose everyone that I loved! You are the one that placed this burden upon me!" she cried angrily, holding the Ginzuishou up for her visitor to see. Her fingers enveloped the small crystal in her hand, and her legs gave way and she collapsed to the floor "I never wanted..." she choked as she brought her face down into her hands
The figure remained silent as she let Usagi rant away her frustrations. Her eyes were filled with remorse as she witnessed her unhappiness. She sighed again as she silently walked up to Usagi and kneeled down next to her. She gently stroked her hair as she had once done so long ago
"And what is it that you want?" she asked, he voice soothing
"I wish to die"
"You know that's not possible"
Usagi paused for a moment in thought. She lifted her head from her hands and looked back at the mirror. She stood up once again, and her visitor with her as she walked towards the mirror again. She watched as the elf in the tree easily leapt off the branches onto the ground as he started walking in an unknown direction.
She could almost remember the sound of his voice. That soothing voice that comforted her during her long stay. How could she have forgotten him? Where he was...that forest looked exactly like she had remembered...
"Then I wish" she began as she tore her eyes away from the mirror, "To be with him in his world. To be free of destiny and fate as I once was the last time I was with him. To no longer have the burden of being alone"
The visitor hesitated for a moment before taking up Usagi's hand in her own "Do you truly wish this?" she asked, clutching tightly onto her hand.
"Hai, I do"
Once those words had left her mouth, she was suddenly consumed in a brilliant white light. She gasped as she tore her hand away knowing immediately what was going on. She opened the hand that she had been holding onto, and there lay the ancient heirloom that she had forgotten about for the moment. She opened her mouth in protest, but soon all she once knew was no more, as she was swept away into a new world
"Wish granted" the figure whispered as she watched Usagi disappear from her sight. The small dust like sparkles were all that remained after the light had cleared.
"Now why did you go and do that Serenity?" a voice asked from behind "Nothing can be accomplished from it"
Serenity turned slightly towards the other god, no regret of what she just did showed in her expression "I did it out of love. I would do anything to see my daughter happy" she answered as she turned back to the mirror
"Even though it could never last"
*~*
A lone figure rode through the forests, his destination only known by him and his steed. He was garbed quite plainly in an old grey robe, with a lop-sided hat, pointed at the end perched atop his head, and a long white bead upon his chin. A long staff lay across his lap, and the pace at which his horse was going at clearly showed that he was in no hurry. Anyone close would have heard him humming to himself...or perhaps mumbling about some problem he had encountered in the past.
"A lovely day indeed" he muttered as he stared past the countless trees "The sun is shining strongly down upon the forest, and yet it is bitterly cold" he paused for a moment as stopped Shaowfax. He could have sworn that he heard something like...crying?
There! There is was again!
A confused expression crossed his features as he turned his horse in the direction of the sound, taking off at a slow trot.
'Why would there be a child out this far near the borders?' he wondered as he stopped again to listen. He was closer this time for sure. He slowly dismounted from Shadowfax, taking along the staff that he always carried by his side. Slowing walking, while using his staff for support, he continued on foot to search for the source of the sound. He came to a small clearing, his eyes filled with curiosity as he spied a small wound up blanket nestled between the roots of a large tree.
"And what do we have here?" he mused as he picked up the small bundle, obviously the source of the sound, seeing as how it was still making it right it front of him!
Carefully picking up the corners of the blanket, he lifted them away from the face of a small, healthy, and noticeably distressed human baby.
His eyes filled with shock. A HUMAN baby? Here? but no human had dared set foot here because of the old legends that foretold disaster to whomever set foot here. He knew better of course, but still, what was a human baby doing here?
"Hello?" he called out in common speech "Has someone lost their...baby?"
He received no answer. This was all to confusing as he looked down upon the still crying child in arms.
"How did you get here?" he asked as he desperately tried to calm the crying baby. He didn't know how to deal with growing children, much less a baby! But perhaps, he knew someone that could...
*~*
"A human child found here in the forests Lothlórien?" a slightly bewildered Galadriel asked while rocking the still crying baby in her arms
"Yes as I have told you before" he answered over the noise
"But that is not possible! Had there been anyone in the forests, the scouts posted near the borders would have reported them!"
"I know that. But...here it is"
She sighed as the baby began to calm down "And there was no sign of the mother or father?"
"Nay, I found the child alone"
Galadriel remained silent as she contemplated about the situation. She moved her arms as to hold the child better, but she failed to catch a corner of the blanket that fell lose.
A small 'clink' sounded on the stone steps as small object fell from the unwoven blanket.
"What is this?" Gandalf questioned as he bent down to pick up the fallen object. He held hand up, and in his palm lay a small ring that was translucent in color, making it almost invisible to the sight. He held it up to the light, and the sunlight which struck the sides were separated into a rainbow of light upon the ground. Gandalf held it there in the sunlight, observing any distinct characteristics that he could.
Galadriel stared at the small ring, her expression impassive but her mind filled with question, "I sense a power from that ring" she commented, stepping up beside the grey wizard.
"As do I, although different from yours or mine"
"Perhaps a gift from her mother?"
"Such a ring bestowed upon a small child? Very unlikely"
"But not impossible"
Gandalf brought the ring down to rest in his palm again. "There maybe more to this child than we think"
They both looked down upon the now sleeping child.
"I cannot raise her. I am far too old and travel far too much to have the time to care of her"
"But a human child raised within Lothlórien -"
"Would fair much better than it would with me"
"What of Elrond?"
"I believe that she would benefit more with another woman to take care of her"
Galadriel was silent as she pondered what would happen if there was a human child raised in the elfin ways.
"If you are so unsure, consult the Mirror of Galadriel"
She hesitated for a moment, and he understood why. For they both felt the evil behind the rings that they wore, and every time they invoked the power of their rings it seemed to intensify.
"Very well" she answered as she turned, the baby still resting in her arms.
*~*
Galadriel walked silently back to the place where she had left the old wizard, her face fixed in a faint puzzled expression. She had seen nothing out of the ordinary for this child and her future time in Lothlórien. But it was not that was not was confused her, for she saw nothing of the child's parents. Perhaps this child was meant to be raised here...So Galandrial supposed that she had no other choice
"What about a name?" she wondered as she sat beside Gandalf
Gandalf looked up from his hands were the ring he had found still lay
"A name? I -"
Unknown to both of them, the ring upon his palm gave off a dull glow before returning to its previous state.
'Usagi' a voice claimed in his mind cutting off his previous words, 'Usagi' it said again
"Usagi?" he questioned aloud
"That is her name?"
He looked surprised for a moment before shaking his head "I do not know how I came up with that" he answered as he looked back down at the ring in his hand. It radiated a warmth that was now quickly fading, "There maybe other forces working here. Good or evil I am not yet sure"
"Hmmm" she replied half distracted, watching the baby's eyes open to look up happily at her. Such a beautiful child indeed..."Usagi" she repeated "What a very odd name. I have never heard such a name"
"Nor have I"
"Very well. Her true name shall be Usagi, but here she shall be known as Eruwen"[1]
"Good choice" Gandalf commented
"Good choice for what?" a voice questioned from behind
Galadriel stood, a smile spread across her face as she turned "Ah my lord, you have returned!" she cried as she walked up to embrace him
"So I have. And what is this? A child?" Celeborn questioned as he looked down at the bundle in her arms after returning the gesture of love
She smiled slightly as she held the child out for him to see;
"There is much I must tell you, my lord"
--End chapter--
Ah hah...finished! I'm so proud of myself...er...did this make any sense? Was it any good?? *cringes* ...very uncreative...predicatable...etc etc.
I don't know when I'll be able to get the next chapter out! ^^;;
Baka school...
Anyways, please review? pretty please? ^_^
[1] Ok, firstly if you take a look at the index's in book 3 (if you have them), it says something about how the elvish names are derived from Latin(Or something like that) and after some thought, I chose Eruwen because translated it means Divine, and further it defines the name Diana, (Roman goddess of the moon)...ahahahahaa, I'm really bad at explaining these things.