I feel like yelling but i figure i'll save my anger for when all my friends die, and the world ends
wow....hopeless is the word of the day
I'm making my way back to the Hyperion and I can't help but think this is useless, maybe the world is just made to end now...
Maybe were not supposed to stop it..
//I'm not ready to die....there's so many things...god..please//
I couldn't believe that the petite blonde woman who came in today, was the woman who sent my father to hell.
You know you really love someone when they can shove a sword through your stomach and you can still be in love with them every second of a day after 3 years.
But miracles do happen, after all....
Isn't it a miracle that your father still loves you after you've sent him in a box underwater...never to be found?
*~*~*~*~*~*~
So here I am....drunk as can be...and I'm singing for a green karaoke demon named Lorne.
And I thought Sunnydale was wierd...
But he is nice, and hell i'm drunk, so there isn't much conflict.
*Sing me to sleep*
*And when i'm gone, don't weep*
*You think you know what's to see*
*But you don't*
*You think you know me*
*you think you've showed me*
*you think that everythings*
*Alright.....*
*You think your somebody*
*You think you know everything*
*And you think your everything*
*To me....*
*So give me something to dream...*
*Cuz baby, in truth...*
*Your all I need*
I finish and Lorne claps for me, and helps me sit down
"Alright my little ray of sunshine....who isn't so sunny lately...I think it's time to go to bed"
"But...but you said you could read me...."
I slur and don't even notice angel in the doorway.
"And that will be easier to do, when your not drunk sweetcakes, Angel..babe....I gotta go research something, has something to do with the little bit of reading from buffy that i got..."
Lorne hands her over to angel who carries her with both arms, like a groom carries a bride...
*~*~*~*~*~
"But that'll never happen....."
And i relized that Buffy must've seen the look on my face, because i know she can't read minds.
Or she'd know that I could smell spike all over her...and not just on her clothes.
"Buffy...your drunk...were going to get you to bed."
She only laughs, and looks at me funny.
"Yes dad...and ill remember to brush my teeth before i go to bd, and say my prayers too"
"Buffy..."
"Oh come off the "high and mighty" throne angel..i'm a big girl, i can take care of myself"
"Doesn't look like it.."
"Oh, so you've never had a drink before? Sorry angel, i didn't mean to put a stain on your pure little soul.."
She gets out of my arms and stumbles off to her bedroom, and i want so badly to knock some sense into her, but i figure regreting her actions will be enough punishment in itself.
So i let her go...
//Go ahead! walk away! It's what your good at!//
//I want you to have a normal life...//
//Angel i don't want normal... i want you....and if i can't have you//
I can't deal with this...
everything's so hard...and I'm beginning to get how it is for Buffy...
//ripping at the seams//
If we make it out of this thing....
//You can make amends//
wow....hopeless is the word of the day
I'm making my way back to the Hyperion and I can't help but think this is useless, maybe the world is just made to end now...
Maybe were not supposed to stop it..
//I'm not ready to die....there's so many things...god..please//
I couldn't believe that the petite blonde woman who came in today, was the woman who sent my father to hell.
You know you really love someone when they can shove a sword through your stomach and you can still be in love with them every second of a day after 3 years.
But miracles do happen, after all....
Isn't it a miracle that your father still loves you after you've sent him in a box underwater...never to be found?
*~*~*~*~*~*~
So here I am....drunk as can be...and I'm singing for a green karaoke demon named Lorne.
And I thought Sunnydale was wierd...
But he is nice, and hell i'm drunk, so there isn't much conflict.
*Sing me to sleep*
*And when i'm gone, don't weep*
*You think you know what's to see*
*But you don't*
*You think you know me*
*you think you've showed me*
*you think that everythings*
*Alright.....*
*You think your somebody*
*You think you know everything*
*And you think your everything*
*To me....*
*So give me something to dream...*
*Cuz baby, in truth...*
*Your all I need*
I finish and Lorne claps for me, and helps me sit down
"Alright my little ray of sunshine....who isn't so sunny lately...I think it's time to go to bed"
"But...but you said you could read me...."
I slur and don't even notice angel in the doorway.
"And that will be easier to do, when your not drunk sweetcakes, Angel..babe....I gotta go research something, has something to do with the little bit of reading from buffy that i got..."
Lorne hands her over to angel who carries her with both arms, like a groom carries a bride...
*~*~*~*~*~
"But that'll never happen....."
And i relized that Buffy must've seen the look on my face, because i know she can't read minds.
Or she'd know that I could smell spike all over her...and not just on her clothes.
"Buffy...your drunk...were going to get you to bed."
She only laughs, and looks at me funny.
"Yes dad...and ill remember to brush my teeth before i go to bd, and say my prayers too"
"Buffy..."
"Oh come off the "high and mighty" throne angel..i'm a big girl, i can take care of myself"
"Doesn't look like it.."
"Oh, so you've never had a drink before? Sorry angel, i didn't mean to put a stain on your pure little soul.."
She gets out of my arms and stumbles off to her bedroom, and i want so badly to knock some sense into her, but i figure regreting her actions will be enough punishment in itself.
So i let her go...
//Go ahead! walk away! It's what your good at!//
//I want you to have a normal life...//
//Angel i don't want normal... i want you....and if i can't have you//
I can't deal with this...
everything's so hard...and I'm beginning to get how it is for Buffy...
//ripping at the seams//
If we make it out of this thing....
//You can make amends//