When I Don't Remember

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I refuse to tell you I don't own Weiss! Ah crap I just did *deep sighs*

Warnings : Yaoi, OCC, angst (as usual), short chapter (sorry but I'm having writer's block), probably should be more warnings but we'll leave it at this.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts. Stuff marked * is explained at the end of this chappy!

Chapter 14. Nothing Is What It Seems

Ken curled up in Ran's bed and shivered. It was so cold without Him there, everything was cold without Him. Sobbing quietly he hugged the katana closer. That was all he had left now. With a low scream of agony the brunette buried his face in a pillow that still carried the smell of his dead lover.
"Ran, please, don't leave me like this," he cried into the pillow as his body shook in sadness. But his begging was useless and he knew it. It didn't matter what he said or did, Ran wasn't going to come back. When he couldn't cry anymore his aching heart turned to anger. A part of him hated Ran, hated him for being so damn unselfish, for leaving him. His rage knew no limits just like his sadness. Angry he threw the katana to the floor and winced at the loud clatter of metal meeting wood. "I hate you! I hate you! I… I…" The tears came back again. "You should have let him kill me too Ran," he whimpered into the pillow. Eventually the anger and crying dragged him to sleep. In his dreams Ran was still alive, holding him in his strong arms, making love to him,. Moaning in his sleep Ken wrapped his tanned arms around the pillow and smiled as the tears dried on his cheeks.

******flashback******

Ran refused to watch as Yoji and Omi carried out his lover. He really believed he was doing the right thing so why did it feel so wrong? It didn't matter though. This gave Ken a chance to live. He himself was already lost. The wound in the side of his stomach was fatal, he knew that now. Most likely both bullets had hit him and the second one was still in there. Dean turned to him and smiled sweetly.
"Love makes people do strange shit," he commented softly and put away his gun.
"Just go ahead and kill me already," Ran sighed. Dean pulled out the gun again, smiled and fired it once. Amethyst eyes stared at green lost in confusion.
"You know… Pretty boy thinks you're dead and so does the two blondes now tell me this… Why on earth should I kill you?" Dean laughed and picked up a cellphone. "I get my revenge and I get to bring you back to Tokyo so that I can hand you over to Oyabun-sama."
"Hattori?" Ran managed to croak out.
"Hattori? Please don't insult me! To hell with that little maggot! I'm talking about the real Oyabun-sama of the clan yakuza. Surely you must have guessed by now that I work for him?" Confused, pale and losing blood quickly the redhead sank down on the floor.

******end flashback******

Soft hands changed his bandages and carefully offered him something to drink. Scowling he turned his face away and stubbornly refused to accept it.
"Is he still doing that?" a deep voice asked.
"Hai Walker-san. We're gonna have to go back to feeding him by IV," the nurse sighed. "He's extremly stubborn."
"I know but I'll break him eventually." Amethyst eyes shining with hate bore into green. "Easy there Red, don't overexcite yourself," Dean chuckled.
"Fuck you!" Ran spat out. "I will kill you!"
"Yes, yes of course you will. But not right now," the green eyed man smiled. The redhead didn't know how but Dean had managed to save his life and that was not something he was happy about at the moment. While he was thankful for being alive so that he could see Ken again he also knew that the chances of getting away from the yakuza was slim at the best.
"What do you want from me?" he growled.
"I wanted the information that could end Hattori's life," Dean answered simply.
"Well I won't give it up that easily!" The other man laughed.
"You already have kitten," a third voice mused. With wide eyes Ran watched a very familier man enter the room.
"You!" the redhead snarled with anger.
"Not happy to see me Abyssinian?"
"I'm only happy to see you if you're dead you german bastard!" Ran grated out and glared at the orange haired german.
"I should have you declawed," the other man chuckled sweetly. "But I must say your mind is a lot fun. And damn you have it bad for Siberian! 90% of your brain is filled with sappy stuff."
"Schuldig get a grip on yourself!" Dean muttered and glared at the german.
"Ja, ja, whatever you say Boss. I thought you said I could play with the kitten, though."
"When he's better he's all yours," Dean promised and smirked. "But for now he's mine." Schuldig walked closer to the angry and confused redhead. //Do you know why I'm working for this sadistic bastard?// Ran's eyes narrowed. No and I can't say I give a shit either, he spat out inside his head. You just want to play games with me! //Gar nicht*. Be nice Ran! I don't think you understand how much you're going to thank me later,// the german sighed in his head and turned around. //Don't be so quick in judging who's the bad guy around here. You might regret it later. Tschüß! Bis später* Abyssinian.// Ran frowned deeply. What the hell was that suppose to mean?

For the third time in less than an hour Yoji had to sort out a mess Ken had created. The brunette was lost to the world, completely out of reach. Time and time again he gave back the wrong change, picked out the wrong flowers, dropped things or just froze in the middle of the floor staring into the air and when he finally snapped out of it he just left. Yoji sighed. They would have to do something about Ken before the brunette lost it completely. The bell above the door rang and he turned around to tell yet another school-girl that they were closed.
"Guten Tag* Balinese." The lanky blonde's eyes narrowed.
"What the hell are you doing here?!"
"I see you're happy to see me too," Schuldig muttered more to himself than to Yoji. "I thought kittens were friendly."
"How did you find us here?" At that the german telepath smiled.
"Good ol' Abyssinian 'told' me about this place," he nodded and glanced at the roses in the blonde's hand.
"Ran? But Ran's…" A rather confused look on Schuldig's face stopped him. He could feel the german poking around inside his head.
"Now I'm a tad bit confused. Abyssinian isn't dead. Hm that would explain why you just left him with the yakuza though," Schuldig muttered and froze. Something sharp was pressed against his neck.
"You know, you shouldn't concentrate so hard," Yoji smirked. "That's right Omi keep him still."
"What were you saying about Ran-kun?" the small blonde asked and pressed the arrow into the sensitive skin.

Omi and Yoji stared at their enemy. Actually Schuldig acted less and less like an enemy with each minute that past. Confusing and unsettling what was it was, at least to Omi.
"Let me get this straight," Yoji frowned and glared at the german. "You're asking us for help?"
"Ja. Trust me I get no kick from this! But I need help or to get rid of Dean. That man is one serious pain in my ass," Schuldig muttered sourly. "Since Swartz was disbanded I've been doing the odd job here and there and unfortunately I did one for Dean." Omi narrowed his blue eyes.
"And just why should we believe you?" The german smiled.
"If I was you I wouldn't but if you help me I can give you Ran back. Now that should be wroth at least something, nicht*?" Omi glanced at his team-mate who nodded.
"Alright, let's say we do agree to help you. What do you want us to do?"
"I want you to kill Hattori and then Dean. It's the only way neither of us is gonna end up with a price on our heads from the clan yakuza," Schuldig explained and corrected his bandana.
"Nice plan but Hattori is harder to pull out of his wormhole than a dogs dick from a willing bitch," Yoji grunted.
"Not if you have the information Ran's been sitting on and the information Dean has," the german smirked. "Have you forgotten that I'm a telepath?"
"Omi we need to talk," the lanky blonde muttered.
"Hai Yoji-kun." The chanced leaving Schuldig alone in the shop.
"I don't trust him but he does have a point. If Ran is still alive we can't just leave him hanging."
"True Yoji-kun but…" Omi frowned. "Either way I don't think we should tell Ken-kun."
"I agree. If Schuldig is lying it would kill Ken. So we agree then? We'll help him but we don't trust him?" Omi nodded.
"We'll have to be very carefull, he's dangerous and so is Hattori and Dean."

Schuldig didn't like what was happening but he didn't have much of a choice anymore. Weiß were the only ones that could help him out of the mess he had gotten himself into. Muttering to himself in german he paced the Koneko. He didn't give a rat's ass about Ran but as long as the redhead could convince Omi and Yoji to help him he'd make sure he was safe. After what seemed to be a really long time the two blondes finally came back.
"Okay Schuldig, we're in. But if you're lying I'll kill you myself! Is that understood?" The german smiled at the lanky blonde.
"But of course kitten. I wouldn't have it any other way."

~TBC~

*Gar nicht = Not at all
Tschüß! Bis später = Bye! See you later
Guten Tag = Good Day
Nicht = Right? or Don't you think? (sort of hard to translate since I use it from Swedish to German)

Yes Schu's here *bounces up and down* I just love his voice *drooling* Hrm anyways, he's not a real bad guy in here *shakes head* OOC? But of course he is! I'm writing him *L* Oh well… And about the german stuff I use. I might have gotten carried away but it felt so good to use my german again *L*

Poor Ken *snuggles with him* Don't worry Liebling Ran's alive and they're working on bringing him back again!!! Ja/Atsureki