A/N- Magical_critter42 here! Hello everyone! Good day to you! This is my new story, Flowers for my Girl. This is the start of my third story... so yay! Don't worry, I'm going to continue my other stories, hopefully at a faster pace also. I hope that you enjoy this story, and please do review at the end. It means more to me than you'll ever know^-^.
Summary- Syaoran refuses to deal with thought that his loved one is dead. Now he is on a life-threatning journey that will prove the strength of his soul. All for one girl. Sakura.
Disclaimer----- I really do find disclaimers pointless. I mean, I OBVIOUSLY do not own Clamp or it's creations. They are not mine.... no matter how much I wish it^-^.
Flowers for my Girl
Chapter 1
Syaoran knelt beside the gravestone holding back his unshed tears. 'Why did you have to die! I didn't even get the chance to tell you how much I loved you,' Syaoran thought bitterely.
In his right hand he held four roses that he had bought from a nearby flower shop. In the other hand was the teddy bear that his beloved had given him. Setting the flowers on the ground, he gripped the teddy bear in a hard embrace. Knowing that he would start crying if he stayed any longer at the cemetery, Syaoran ran. He ran at his fastest speed trying to get out of the place where the dead lay.
The gravestone had said:
Sakura Kinomoto
beloved daughter, sister, and friend
1985-2001
~*~*~*~*~*~
Syaoran trudged to the hotel. He stared at the ground, kicking rocks out of his way. In his mind came a flashback of what happened after Sakura's funeral a few days earlier.
~~Flashback~~
The funeral was over. Syaoran was about to walk to the hotel when Touya touched his shoulder. Syaoran turned around to find a very depressed looking Touya.
"Um.... what do you want?" Syaoran asked quietly.
Touya sighed and said, "Ok. Here's the deal. No offense kid, but I never really liked you..."
Syaoran glared at Touya, cutting him off, "Well, if you came here to tell me how much you don't like me... I get the point. I'm leaving..." he said.
"No no no! That wasn't what I was trying to say. Sheesh, don't be so rude!" Touya said raising his voice. Syaoran was still glaring, but he wasn't mad, just slighty annoyed. Touya continued, "Anyways, what I was going to say, is thank you. Thank you for being there for Sakura."
Once Syaoran heard Sakura's name, his face softened showing terrible grief. Touya noticed this at once and said, "Ya know, you should come over to my house right now. You just got here from China I know, to come to the funeral, but there are some things that I would like to tell you in private, if you don't mind."
Syaoran's eyes raised as he said surprisedly, "Huh? Ok then."
As they walked to the Kinomoto residence, Syaoran and Touya were in an awkward silence. The cherry blossoms were in full bloom and loose petals floated freely in the air. Syaoran caught one in his hand and gazed at it longingly. 'Sakura, are you really dead? Nooo.. you can't be! I remember years ago... when I last saw you. So happy, so free. I never got to say I loved you.... Sakura.... my cherry blossom,' Syaoran thought with his heart aching.
Touya and Syaoran reached the house. Touya opened the door and invited Syaoran in. Syaoran sat on the couch gazing at the different things around the house to hide his troubled mind. His mind was screaming to know why he was at the Kinomoto residence, about to have a normal conversation with a person who had hated him for years.Touya sat across from him and asked, "Would you like anything to drink?"
Syaoran shook his head. Touya continued, "Very well. I know your wondering why I wanted to talk to you. Li-san, truthfully, I was always jealous of you. Sakura thought highly of you. I know that you two were were good friends. You protected her when I couldn't... things like that. Thanks a bunch."
Syaoran was surprised. "Um, You're welcome. And thanks for the kind words... I know the death must be hard for you."
Touya looked at the ground. "I'm crestfallen. I don't think that it has sunk in that my sister is dead. She CAN'T be dead, I mean... she was only 16. But, I know that she is in a good place. With our mother perhaps. Do you know how she died?" Touya asked.
Syaoran replied, "No. I came last night from Hong Kong. I didn't get the full story..."
Touya said, "Well, I know it may be morbid talking about it... but you should know. The truth is that no one really knows how she died. Sakura was found lying dead in an alley. The doctors say that all the life was drained out of her. Even they don't get what caused Sakura do die like that. But in her had were two cards. The doctors gave them to me and I'd like to show them to you..."
Touya's voice was slowly starting to crack up. Bottling up emotions of his sisters death was too much for him. Syaoran ignored it. In his heart, he was dead, as much as Sakura was, even though she was lying in the ground and he wasn't.
Sakura's older brother handed Syaoran two cards. Syaoran showed no emotion, but he was in shock. They were Sakura Cards, the Light and the Dark, but they no longer had Sakura's name written on them. The two ladies were in a peaceful sleep, as always, and showed no signs of life. "You said that Sakura was found with these two cards?" Syaoran said with a shaky voice.
Touya replied, "Yes. Is there a problem? Does Sakura's death have to do with them?"
Syaoran shook his head rapidly. "No, no problem. Um... could I keep this for a little while? I doubt that a card could cause Sakura's life to drain away," Syaoran said quickly, lying about what he thought.
Touya gave Syaoran a suspicious look. "Chinese gaki doesn't deserve anything that belonged to Sakura," Touya said sharply. But he continued in a softer tone, "But, I'm sure that Sakura wouldn't have minded. If you want to look upstairs, feel free."
Syaoran nodded and said a brief thanks. He walked swiftly to Sakura's room. The door was closed. For a second, Syaoran paused. Then he walked in.
The room had a musky scent. It smelled like Sakura, only empty. Syaoran held back tears. 'I've got to be strong. Strong, for Sakura's sake,' Syaoran thought. Memories of when he was in Sakura's room while she was alive shot through Syaoran's mind, toubling him greatly. He remembered when he switched bodies with Kero, and how he couldn't help but watch Sakura all through the night in the little form, as she slept soundly. 'I wonder where that stuffed animal is now,' Syaoran thought.
Going threw drawer after drawer, Syaoran found what he was looking for. The Sakura book, which was once the Clow Book. Kero was back on the cover. Syaoran took the book and went back downstairs. Looking in Sakura's room made Syaoran's already broken heart, break even more.
Touya was downstairs waiting. Tears were welling up in his eyes as he said, "Goodbye Li-san."
Syaoran paused. Though he greatly disliked Sakura's big brother he said kindly, "Don't worry. As you said, Sakura is in a better place. And, I know that you were a great brother to her."
Touya nodded and Syaoran left, holding the book in his arm.
Taking the book to the hotel, Syaoran thought to himself. 'How did Sakura die? The Light and the Dark card? They must have something to do with it.... hm...'
Once Syaoran was safetly in his hotel room, he set the book on the bed. Getting right to business, Syaoran said to the book, "Keroberos! You best not be asleep! Show yourself! Get out of that book!"
Seemingly Kero had heard him. In the form of a stuffed animal, Kero slowly emerged out of the book. "What do you want?" Kero asked sorrowfully.
Syaoran said mildly, "You went back into the book already?"
Kero sighed and replied, "The cards have been captured. Sakura is dead. Therefore, I have to do my job. Guard the cards and protect them from anyone who tries to open the book."
Syaoran glared at Kero and retorted, "Not all the cards are in the book! Didn't you realize that?!"
Kero raised his eyebrows and wistfully said, "Oh really? I bet they all are here. Who do you think you are, making the wonderful Keroberos get out of the book?"
Syaoran smirked and held up the Light Card and the Dark Card.
Kero's jaw dropped open. "Gimme those!!"
"Stuffed animal, what a GREAT job you are doing with these cards! Don't you see? It was THESE cards that killed Sakura! And look here! Sakura's name is not on them!" Syaoran said angrily.
Kero sighed and said neutrally, "Naturally Sakura's name is not on them, she's dead. They are Sakura Cards but are not personally owned by her anymore. The same thing happened when Clow-San had died. Those cards couldn't have killed Sakura though, because she had control of them. Give me the cards and leave!"
Syaoran shook his head. "No... I KNOW that she died because of these cards."
Kero took on his real shape. Wings encovered him and he became Keroberos. "Give me the damn cards!" Keroberos said as he jumped on Syaoran. Taking the cards out of Syaoran's hard grip, Keroberos returned to the shape of a stuffed animal.
He carefully put the cards into the book and returned to the angry Li. "Look, Sakura's dead. It kills me to say it, but she is. There is nothing that we can do. If these cards killed Sakura as you say, then it is even better that we keep these cards guarded. I will never let anyone get ahold of them, believe me. Now... leave me be," Kero said. By now he was crying and went back into the book.
Syaoran sighed. Setting the book down in a drawer as to keep it safe, Syaoran fell asleep on the bed, surrenduring his thoughts into the dreamworld.
~~End Flashback~~
Syaoran took a deep breath. "It's over. Sakura is really dead. There is nothing I can do about it except move on," he said out loud, as if to reassure himself. Admitting the facts, and living with it. But the words sounded flat. Syaoran couldn't believe it.
Even though Sakura died from unnatural circumstances, it didn't change anything. Either way she was dead. 'Dead, dead, dead, dead...' the word repeated itself in his mind.
Suddenly, Syaoran burst. He yelled out to the open sky above him, "I WILL find a way, Sakura. I will you bring you back."
~*~*~*~*~*~
A/N- SOOOOOOO... what did ya think of my new story?? Love it, hate it? Please review~^-^ Ok, this IS and S+S story, so no worries. After all, I'm a crazy obssessed S+S fan^-^. Please please please review. I wanna know if anyone thinks that this is worth continuing. And don't worry, I can handle writing three stories :P.... Where is Melin and Tomoyo? And what is the significance of the Light and the Dark card?? That'll be in the next chapters!^-^ Thanks to all my readers out there, whether I'm aware of you or not. The thought that someone out there is reading and enjoying my stories gives me great inspiration and joy. Love ya lots, ttfn! Bye for now!!
Summary- Syaoran refuses to deal with thought that his loved one is dead. Now he is on a life-threatning journey that will prove the strength of his soul. All for one girl. Sakura.
Disclaimer----- I really do find disclaimers pointless. I mean, I OBVIOUSLY do not own Clamp or it's creations. They are not mine.... no matter how much I wish it^-^.
Flowers for my Girl
Chapter 1
Syaoran knelt beside the gravestone holding back his unshed tears. 'Why did you have to die! I didn't even get the chance to tell you how much I loved you,' Syaoran thought bitterely.
In his right hand he held four roses that he had bought from a nearby flower shop. In the other hand was the teddy bear that his beloved had given him. Setting the flowers on the ground, he gripped the teddy bear in a hard embrace. Knowing that he would start crying if he stayed any longer at the cemetery, Syaoran ran. He ran at his fastest speed trying to get out of the place where the dead lay.
The gravestone had said:
Sakura Kinomoto
beloved daughter, sister, and friend
1985-2001
~*~*~*~*~*~
Syaoran trudged to the hotel. He stared at the ground, kicking rocks out of his way. In his mind came a flashback of what happened after Sakura's funeral a few days earlier.
~~Flashback~~
The funeral was over. Syaoran was about to walk to the hotel when Touya touched his shoulder. Syaoran turned around to find a very depressed looking Touya.
"Um.... what do you want?" Syaoran asked quietly.
Touya sighed and said, "Ok. Here's the deal. No offense kid, but I never really liked you..."
Syaoran glared at Touya, cutting him off, "Well, if you came here to tell me how much you don't like me... I get the point. I'm leaving..." he said.
"No no no! That wasn't what I was trying to say. Sheesh, don't be so rude!" Touya said raising his voice. Syaoran was still glaring, but he wasn't mad, just slighty annoyed. Touya continued, "Anyways, what I was going to say, is thank you. Thank you for being there for Sakura."
Once Syaoran heard Sakura's name, his face softened showing terrible grief. Touya noticed this at once and said, "Ya know, you should come over to my house right now. You just got here from China I know, to come to the funeral, but there are some things that I would like to tell you in private, if you don't mind."
Syaoran's eyes raised as he said surprisedly, "Huh? Ok then."
As they walked to the Kinomoto residence, Syaoran and Touya were in an awkward silence. The cherry blossoms were in full bloom and loose petals floated freely in the air. Syaoran caught one in his hand and gazed at it longingly. 'Sakura, are you really dead? Nooo.. you can't be! I remember years ago... when I last saw you. So happy, so free. I never got to say I loved you.... Sakura.... my cherry blossom,' Syaoran thought with his heart aching.
Touya and Syaoran reached the house. Touya opened the door and invited Syaoran in. Syaoran sat on the couch gazing at the different things around the house to hide his troubled mind. His mind was screaming to know why he was at the Kinomoto residence, about to have a normal conversation with a person who had hated him for years.Touya sat across from him and asked, "Would you like anything to drink?"
Syaoran shook his head. Touya continued, "Very well. I know your wondering why I wanted to talk to you. Li-san, truthfully, I was always jealous of you. Sakura thought highly of you. I know that you two were were good friends. You protected her when I couldn't... things like that. Thanks a bunch."
Syaoran was surprised. "Um, You're welcome. And thanks for the kind words... I know the death must be hard for you."
Touya looked at the ground. "I'm crestfallen. I don't think that it has sunk in that my sister is dead. She CAN'T be dead, I mean... she was only 16. But, I know that she is in a good place. With our mother perhaps. Do you know how she died?" Touya asked.
Syaoran replied, "No. I came last night from Hong Kong. I didn't get the full story..."
Touya said, "Well, I know it may be morbid talking about it... but you should know. The truth is that no one really knows how she died. Sakura was found lying dead in an alley. The doctors say that all the life was drained out of her. Even they don't get what caused Sakura do die like that. But in her had were two cards. The doctors gave them to me and I'd like to show them to you..."
Touya's voice was slowly starting to crack up. Bottling up emotions of his sisters death was too much for him. Syaoran ignored it. In his heart, he was dead, as much as Sakura was, even though she was lying in the ground and he wasn't.
Sakura's older brother handed Syaoran two cards. Syaoran showed no emotion, but he was in shock. They were Sakura Cards, the Light and the Dark, but they no longer had Sakura's name written on them. The two ladies were in a peaceful sleep, as always, and showed no signs of life. "You said that Sakura was found with these two cards?" Syaoran said with a shaky voice.
Touya replied, "Yes. Is there a problem? Does Sakura's death have to do with them?"
Syaoran shook his head rapidly. "No, no problem. Um... could I keep this for a little while? I doubt that a card could cause Sakura's life to drain away," Syaoran said quickly, lying about what he thought.
Touya gave Syaoran a suspicious look. "Chinese gaki doesn't deserve anything that belonged to Sakura," Touya said sharply. But he continued in a softer tone, "But, I'm sure that Sakura wouldn't have minded. If you want to look upstairs, feel free."
Syaoran nodded and said a brief thanks. He walked swiftly to Sakura's room. The door was closed. For a second, Syaoran paused. Then he walked in.
The room had a musky scent. It smelled like Sakura, only empty. Syaoran held back tears. 'I've got to be strong. Strong, for Sakura's sake,' Syaoran thought. Memories of when he was in Sakura's room while she was alive shot through Syaoran's mind, toubling him greatly. He remembered when he switched bodies with Kero, and how he couldn't help but watch Sakura all through the night in the little form, as she slept soundly. 'I wonder where that stuffed animal is now,' Syaoran thought.
Going threw drawer after drawer, Syaoran found what he was looking for. The Sakura book, which was once the Clow Book. Kero was back on the cover. Syaoran took the book and went back downstairs. Looking in Sakura's room made Syaoran's already broken heart, break even more.
Touya was downstairs waiting. Tears were welling up in his eyes as he said, "Goodbye Li-san."
Syaoran paused. Though he greatly disliked Sakura's big brother he said kindly, "Don't worry. As you said, Sakura is in a better place. And, I know that you were a great brother to her."
Touya nodded and Syaoran left, holding the book in his arm.
Taking the book to the hotel, Syaoran thought to himself. 'How did Sakura die? The Light and the Dark card? They must have something to do with it.... hm...'
Once Syaoran was safetly in his hotel room, he set the book on the bed. Getting right to business, Syaoran said to the book, "Keroberos! You best not be asleep! Show yourself! Get out of that book!"
Seemingly Kero had heard him. In the form of a stuffed animal, Kero slowly emerged out of the book. "What do you want?" Kero asked sorrowfully.
Syaoran said mildly, "You went back into the book already?"
Kero sighed and replied, "The cards have been captured. Sakura is dead. Therefore, I have to do my job. Guard the cards and protect them from anyone who tries to open the book."
Syaoran glared at Kero and retorted, "Not all the cards are in the book! Didn't you realize that?!"
Kero raised his eyebrows and wistfully said, "Oh really? I bet they all are here. Who do you think you are, making the wonderful Keroberos get out of the book?"
Syaoran smirked and held up the Light Card and the Dark Card.
Kero's jaw dropped open. "Gimme those!!"
"Stuffed animal, what a GREAT job you are doing with these cards! Don't you see? It was THESE cards that killed Sakura! And look here! Sakura's name is not on them!" Syaoran said angrily.
Kero sighed and said neutrally, "Naturally Sakura's name is not on them, she's dead. They are Sakura Cards but are not personally owned by her anymore. The same thing happened when Clow-San had died. Those cards couldn't have killed Sakura though, because she had control of them. Give me the cards and leave!"
Syaoran shook his head. "No... I KNOW that she died because of these cards."
Kero took on his real shape. Wings encovered him and he became Keroberos. "Give me the damn cards!" Keroberos said as he jumped on Syaoran. Taking the cards out of Syaoran's hard grip, Keroberos returned to the shape of a stuffed animal.
He carefully put the cards into the book and returned to the angry Li. "Look, Sakura's dead. It kills me to say it, but she is. There is nothing that we can do. If these cards killed Sakura as you say, then it is even better that we keep these cards guarded. I will never let anyone get ahold of them, believe me. Now... leave me be," Kero said. By now he was crying and went back into the book.
Syaoran sighed. Setting the book down in a drawer as to keep it safe, Syaoran fell asleep on the bed, surrenduring his thoughts into the dreamworld.
~~End Flashback~~
Syaoran took a deep breath. "It's over. Sakura is really dead. There is nothing I can do about it except move on," he said out loud, as if to reassure himself. Admitting the facts, and living with it. But the words sounded flat. Syaoran couldn't believe it.
Even though Sakura died from unnatural circumstances, it didn't change anything. Either way she was dead. 'Dead, dead, dead, dead...' the word repeated itself in his mind.
Suddenly, Syaoran burst. He yelled out to the open sky above him, "I WILL find a way, Sakura. I will you bring you back."
~*~*~*~*~*~
A/N- SOOOOOOO... what did ya think of my new story?? Love it, hate it? Please review~^-^ Ok, this IS and S+S story, so no worries. After all, I'm a crazy obssessed S+S fan^-^. Please please please review. I wanna know if anyone thinks that this is worth continuing. And don't worry, I can handle writing three stories :P.... Where is Melin and Tomoyo? And what is the significance of the Light and the Dark card?? That'll be in the next chapters!^-^ Thanks to all my readers out there, whether I'm aware of you or not. The thought that someone out there is reading and enjoying my stories gives me great inspiration and joy. Love ya lots, ttfn! Bye for now!!