A/N- In all my updating madness... finally another chapter! Nothing much to say except that I'm almost done with this story! I made one big mistake in the past chapters. In the beginning I had said that Syaoran never told Sakura he loved her, and later I said he did… I want it to be that he never told her… sorry if this confuses anyone! Thank you for the comments! **hugs**
Last chapter- Taking a deep breath, Syaoran walked into the door. He couldn't control his gasp as he saw Sakura for the first time in years.
Flowers for My Girl- Chapter 11
Syaoran had run through images in his head how Sakura would look. Each way he thought about it though, he always imagined that she would be incredibly beautiful with her stunning green eyes and a smile that lit up the world. What he saw in front of his eyes was something totally opposite.
Sakura's shiny auburn hair had grown to be a lifeless brown. Her eyes and skin looked worn, as if she had grown into an old lady. No longer was there an aura around her of carefree happiness. All the life had disappeared from her.
"What happened to her? She looks dead!" Syaoran cried out in horror, mostly to himself.
By now Shing had gotten to the top of the stairs. "Look at what you did to her. You left her and seemingly forgot about her. No phone calls, no letters, she was in despair," Shing said with amusement.
Syaoran shook his head and convinced himself that he wasn't the cause of her pain. "I would never be able to do that to her. I didn't think she even liked me. There was always Yuki… or Eriol… but I had no choice! I had to leave. I thought about her every day I was gone, dreaming of seeing her smiling face again."
"Great person you are. You don't bother to visit her till she's dead."
Syaoran glared at Shing. "Shut the hell up! You have no idea what you are talking about. Leave me alone!"
Shing shrugged and replied, "If you want to watch this alone, by all means, I'll leave."
Before Syaoran could reply, Shing was gone. 'It's better off without him here…' Syaoran thought to himself, not able to break his gaze off Sakura.
She was sitting at her desk, staring into a mirror. She sighed and said to herself dejectedly, "I better get going. Tomoyo expects me to go with her to shop. Not that I feel like shopping…"
Sakura rested her head on her desk. Suddenly, a drawer in her desk began to glow. She opened the drawer that contained the book to the Sakura Cards. Slowly taking the book out of her desk she opened it. Inside she saw two cards glowing. Sakura slowly took them out to find the Light and the Dark card.
Syaoran yelled in panic at seeing the cards, "Don't Sakura! Put them back! Leave it alone! It'll kill you!" But then he remembered. Sakura couldn't hear him. He had to watch in agony as Sakura picked up the cards and died.
But she didn't die. Sakura's body began to glow along with the cards, and she seemed to be in a trance.
Syaoran ran up to Sakura and tried to pull the cards out of her hands. He had made her feel miserable, now he had to prevent her from dying again. It was no use. He was transparent; he was useless. Syaoran sighed. He knew all he had to do was accept Sakura's death, but it was hard. He didn't want to watch her suffer, he wanted to see her happy. In his mind, he had figured that the Light and Dark card just overpowered Sakura; that she couldn't fight them back, and died. But this was much worse; she was sad, and not fit for battle.
Kero seemingly flew out of nowhere and saw Sakura glowing. Not knowing what was happening he yelled "Sakura! Sakura!"
Sakura heard him and blinked, returning to her normal self.
"What happened?!" Kero yelled.
"Nothing…" Sakura replied. Kero hadn't seen the cards she was holding. Before he could notice them, she slipped them into her pocket. Then, as if switching characters, she smiled and said, "Where were you?"
Syaoran took a step back, stunned. All of a sudden, the sad, depressed girl had transformed into something else. She was the cheerful girl he had always known, as genki as ever.
"Out flying… I don't see the fresh air that much lately, you never take me anymore," Kero said, disappointed.
"I'm sorry, Kero. Maybe tomorrow?" Sakura asked, sweetly.
"Yaaaaaay! Thank you Sakura!" Kero said, hugging Sakura. "You're always so dependable, so happy… so wonderful!"
A look of sadness overcame her face but she quickly replaced it with a smile. "I know," she said softly. "I need to get ready. Tomoyo expects me."
Kero shrugged his small body and said, "Ok. I need some rest anyway. Have fun!"
Sakura nodded and proceeded to walk through the door. She walked straight through the stunned Syaoran, and down the stairs.
Syaoran stood with his feet planted to the floor. He was too shocked to think. It seemed as if there were two Sakuras. A happy one… and a sad one. 'Was she always like this?' he thought to himself.
As he went to trail after Sakura he heard Kero mumble, "What is wrong with Sakura? Every day she has shadows of sadness that pass through her eyes, and thinks I don't notice. Today I come into the room to find her glowing! I'm going to have to ask her someday…"
Syaoran shook his head as he left. "Someday is too late," he said. He had told himself he would visit Sakura someday, but someday never came and she died.
Sakura began walking towards Tomoyo's house. Syaoran remembered the route to get there and followed her, never taking his eyes off her. She had turned back into the sulking, depressed Sakura, and her eyes stared at the ground as she kicked rocks to go to the house.
Syaoran shook his head in confusion. What had become of Sakura? She was sad… then happy… then sad again. 'Girls, I just can't understand their logic!' he thought as he stood behind her.
Suddenly, Sakura took an unexpected turn that led to an alley. Syaoran followed her and wondered where she was off to, if not to Tomoyo's.
Sakura stopped halfway down the alley. She leaned up against the wall and sunk onto the ground. "Syaoran, Syaoran, Syaoran! You've been gone for years and yet your image tortures my mind!" she yelled to the openess around her.
Syaoran stood frozen, emotion overcoming him. "Sakura?" he whispered.
"I think of you all the time… stopping on random streets just to think. You never call, never write, damn you Li Syaoran!"
Syaoran took a step back. 'So this is what Sakura had turned into. Full of rage, angry, and incredibly sad. I'm… so sorry… Sakura…'
Syaoran walked over to Sakura and tried to hug her, to hold her, but he simply couldn't get a grip her; he passed right through her. He noticed that she was no longer the sweet and innocent Sakura he knew, but a bitter teenager because of him.
Syaoran felt water come to his eyes, the invisible tears falling.
"You've ruined me. I tried to like someone else, but the memories… I only see you Syaoran," Sakura said, her tears beginning to fall as well as she curled up into a ball.
The cards began to glow again. In between her tears, she pulled out the cards.
"No, Sakura! Please… no!!" Syaoran yelled, the tears uncontrollable. "I'll come back to you! I love you so much! Just don't leave me! Don't die! I'm so sorry… just… don't die!"
Sakura stared at the cards in surprise. As her flowing tears touched the cards she began to glow. "What's going on? These cards always glow… what's happening?" Sakura asked herself.
A voice began to protrude out of the cards. It was the Light and Dark cards, talking as one. "We are the strongest cards in your deck… and being connected to you, we feel your sorrow. Tell us about your pain…"
Sakura's eyes glazed over and she began to talk in a trance. "I've acted happy for years, so happy… but in reality, it's all a joke. But no one sees through it, no one knows who I am."
"Why are you sad, dear? Tell us your troubles."
"I just… couldn't forget him," Sakura whispered.
"Forget who?" the cards cooed.
"Li Syaoran…"
"Why can't you forget him?"
Sakura said, "I don't know. He never said he liked me... but there's something about him. I feel like he forgot about me."
"Maybe he did…"
Syaoran cursed. "Damn it! Don't put thoughts in her head! Sakura! Snap out of it! Please… don't die!"
"Maybe…" Sakura repeated.
"We could erase your pain… you're sadness…" they said in unison.
"Really?" Sakura asked, with the same glazed over expression.
"Really, you just have to let us take away the spirit of your life."
"Would that end my life?" Sakura asked.
"Just this life. But you will be free from sorrow… free from… Li Syaoran."
"Free from… Syaoran?" Sakura asked, as if she were in a drunken state.
"Free from everything. No pain… no sorrow… doesn't it sound wonderful? It's the best thing for you. As the most powerful cards in the deck we thought we'd suggest it to you. Such overcoming sadness… all from that terrible boy who left you."
"Terrible boy? He really is terrible…" Sakura said dreamily.
"Yes… to make our mistress act that way… what an awful person he is. Do you hate him?"
Syaoran yelled in panic in between tears, "Sakura! No! Sakura! Please hear me! I'll come back to you. I'm a terrible person cause I left you, but please… forgive me…"
Shing appeared next to Syaoran. He clicked his tongue and said, "I've seen enough of you trying to talk to her. Don't you get it? You're supposed to WATCH!"
Syaoran shook his head and said, "How can I watch someone I love die and not do anything?"
"It's simple… just… watch. I don't understand your dilemma," Shing said slowly.
Syaoran hung his head and decided to follow Shing's words. He stopped his tears and watched.
Sakura repeated, "Terrible person… hate… terrible people…"
"You hate him? Let us rid you of your sorrows… make you forget Syaoran."
"Hate… Syaoran…" Sakura said.
The two cards began to shimmer beyond their original glow. Out of the cards came beams of light. The beams of light began to envelop the dazed Sakura.
"Hate… Syaoran…" Sakura repeated over and over.
Finally Syaoran could know longer watch. He ran up to Sakura and attempted to hold her in his arms. She passed through him, like always.
The beams of light kept flowing through her, encompassing her body in energy from the cards. Her raw magic and energy starting pulling out of her body, draining away her life.
Syaoran kept trying to hold her as she repeated her chant of hating Syaoran over and over again. Syaoran was trying to hold back the tears; he was supposed to be strong. 'Be strong, don't cry…' Syaoran thought to himself. But he couldn't help himself, and a tear fell down his cheek.
Syaoran made one last attempt to hold Sakura. Miraculously, Syaoran got a hold of Sakura. His surprise didn't overrule his feelings though, because he was too concerned about Sakura.
"Sakura? Sakura?" Syaoran asked.
"Hate… Syaoran…" Sakura replied.
"Please listen, Sakura. I'm coming to save you! Save you from wherever you go. I'm so sorry… please…" Syaoran begged.
Sakura's eyes flashed and returned to normal. Syaoran smiled in hope and said, "Sakura! You're ok! You're…"
But he was but off by Sakura's cold glare. "Syaoran? I hate you, Li Syaoran."
Syaoran blinked in confusion. Before he could respond, the last beam of light passed through her body and she became lifeless in his arms. The cards stopped glowing and returned to their inert state as if nothing happened.
Syaoran held onto Sakura for a few moments before setting her on the ground. He was once again transparent.
Shing smirked and said, "You shouldn't have gotten involved. You should have just watched. I told you."
"Does she hate still hate me? Wherever she is… does she hate me?" Syaoran asked sadly.
"She told you herself that she did. You know, you've gotten what you deserved for not following my instructions," Shing said. "But it was amusing to watch."
Syaoran couldn't take Shing's attitude anymore. He yelled, "Have you no heart?! You put me through this and then you tell me it's my own fault. I KNOW THAT! She hates me! HATES me!"
Shing smiled. "Do you accept what you have seen and are ready to move on?"
Syaoran dropped to the ground and whimpered, "She hates me… how can I move on when she is probably happier where she is? Happier in nothingness than knowing I'm around. How can I save her when she probably doesn't want to be saved by 'terrible' me?"
"Very well…" Shing said. "You don't want to move onto the last test."
Syaoran grabbed rocks on the floor and tightened them with his fists. "I just don't know what to do…" he said sadly.
A/N- Waaaaaaaah, this chapter kinda made me sad. What do you think? I didn't think Sakura would swear, cause she's too...Sakura, but *shrugs*, people change as they get older. Truthfully, when I started this chapter I had no idea where it would lead me. I didn't know how Sakura was going to die… so I just wrote. It seems kinda sudden for me so I don't know what to think about it, sorry if you don't like it… there's still a few more chapters in the future so don't get mad yet! Happy Holidays, please review **consider it a late Christmas present**! Thanks for your thoughts, bye bye!
Last chapter- Taking a deep breath, Syaoran walked into the door. He couldn't control his gasp as he saw Sakura for the first time in years.
Flowers for My Girl- Chapter 11
Syaoran had run through images in his head how Sakura would look. Each way he thought about it though, he always imagined that she would be incredibly beautiful with her stunning green eyes and a smile that lit up the world. What he saw in front of his eyes was something totally opposite.
Sakura's shiny auburn hair had grown to be a lifeless brown. Her eyes and skin looked worn, as if she had grown into an old lady. No longer was there an aura around her of carefree happiness. All the life had disappeared from her.
"What happened to her? She looks dead!" Syaoran cried out in horror, mostly to himself.
By now Shing had gotten to the top of the stairs. "Look at what you did to her. You left her and seemingly forgot about her. No phone calls, no letters, she was in despair," Shing said with amusement.
Syaoran shook his head and convinced himself that he wasn't the cause of her pain. "I would never be able to do that to her. I didn't think she even liked me. There was always Yuki… or Eriol… but I had no choice! I had to leave. I thought about her every day I was gone, dreaming of seeing her smiling face again."
"Great person you are. You don't bother to visit her till she's dead."
Syaoran glared at Shing. "Shut the hell up! You have no idea what you are talking about. Leave me alone!"
Shing shrugged and replied, "If you want to watch this alone, by all means, I'll leave."
Before Syaoran could reply, Shing was gone. 'It's better off without him here…' Syaoran thought to himself, not able to break his gaze off Sakura.
She was sitting at her desk, staring into a mirror. She sighed and said to herself dejectedly, "I better get going. Tomoyo expects me to go with her to shop. Not that I feel like shopping…"
Sakura rested her head on her desk. Suddenly, a drawer in her desk began to glow. She opened the drawer that contained the book to the Sakura Cards. Slowly taking the book out of her desk she opened it. Inside she saw two cards glowing. Sakura slowly took them out to find the Light and the Dark card.
Syaoran yelled in panic at seeing the cards, "Don't Sakura! Put them back! Leave it alone! It'll kill you!" But then he remembered. Sakura couldn't hear him. He had to watch in agony as Sakura picked up the cards and died.
But she didn't die. Sakura's body began to glow along with the cards, and she seemed to be in a trance.
Syaoran ran up to Sakura and tried to pull the cards out of her hands. He had made her feel miserable, now he had to prevent her from dying again. It was no use. He was transparent; he was useless. Syaoran sighed. He knew all he had to do was accept Sakura's death, but it was hard. He didn't want to watch her suffer, he wanted to see her happy. In his mind, he had figured that the Light and Dark card just overpowered Sakura; that she couldn't fight them back, and died. But this was much worse; she was sad, and not fit for battle.
Kero seemingly flew out of nowhere and saw Sakura glowing. Not knowing what was happening he yelled "Sakura! Sakura!"
Sakura heard him and blinked, returning to her normal self.
"What happened?!" Kero yelled.
"Nothing…" Sakura replied. Kero hadn't seen the cards she was holding. Before he could notice them, she slipped them into her pocket. Then, as if switching characters, she smiled and said, "Where were you?"
Syaoran took a step back, stunned. All of a sudden, the sad, depressed girl had transformed into something else. She was the cheerful girl he had always known, as genki as ever.
"Out flying… I don't see the fresh air that much lately, you never take me anymore," Kero said, disappointed.
"I'm sorry, Kero. Maybe tomorrow?" Sakura asked, sweetly.
"Yaaaaaay! Thank you Sakura!" Kero said, hugging Sakura. "You're always so dependable, so happy… so wonderful!"
A look of sadness overcame her face but she quickly replaced it with a smile. "I know," she said softly. "I need to get ready. Tomoyo expects me."
Kero shrugged his small body and said, "Ok. I need some rest anyway. Have fun!"
Sakura nodded and proceeded to walk through the door. She walked straight through the stunned Syaoran, and down the stairs.
Syaoran stood with his feet planted to the floor. He was too shocked to think. It seemed as if there were two Sakuras. A happy one… and a sad one. 'Was she always like this?' he thought to himself.
As he went to trail after Sakura he heard Kero mumble, "What is wrong with Sakura? Every day she has shadows of sadness that pass through her eyes, and thinks I don't notice. Today I come into the room to find her glowing! I'm going to have to ask her someday…"
Syaoran shook his head as he left. "Someday is too late," he said. He had told himself he would visit Sakura someday, but someday never came and she died.
Sakura began walking towards Tomoyo's house. Syaoran remembered the route to get there and followed her, never taking his eyes off her. She had turned back into the sulking, depressed Sakura, and her eyes stared at the ground as she kicked rocks to go to the house.
Syaoran shook his head in confusion. What had become of Sakura? She was sad… then happy… then sad again. 'Girls, I just can't understand their logic!' he thought as he stood behind her.
Suddenly, Sakura took an unexpected turn that led to an alley. Syaoran followed her and wondered where she was off to, if not to Tomoyo's.
Sakura stopped halfway down the alley. She leaned up against the wall and sunk onto the ground. "Syaoran, Syaoran, Syaoran! You've been gone for years and yet your image tortures my mind!" she yelled to the openess around her.
Syaoran stood frozen, emotion overcoming him. "Sakura?" he whispered.
"I think of you all the time… stopping on random streets just to think. You never call, never write, damn you Li Syaoran!"
Syaoran took a step back. 'So this is what Sakura had turned into. Full of rage, angry, and incredibly sad. I'm… so sorry… Sakura…'
Syaoran walked over to Sakura and tried to hug her, to hold her, but he simply couldn't get a grip her; he passed right through her. He noticed that she was no longer the sweet and innocent Sakura he knew, but a bitter teenager because of him.
Syaoran felt water come to his eyes, the invisible tears falling.
"You've ruined me. I tried to like someone else, but the memories… I only see you Syaoran," Sakura said, her tears beginning to fall as well as she curled up into a ball.
The cards began to glow again. In between her tears, she pulled out the cards.
"No, Sakura! Please… no!!" Syaoran yelled, the tears uncontrollable. "I'll come back to you! I love you so much! Just don't leave me! Don't die! I'm so sorry… just… don't die!"
Sakura stared at the cards in surprise. As her flowing tears touched the cards she began to glow. "What's going on? These cards always glow… what's happening?" Sakura asked herself.
A voice began to protrude out of the cards. It was the Light and Dark cards, talking as one. "We are the strongest cards in your deck… and being connected to you, we feel your sorrow. Tell us about your pain…"
Sakura's eyes glazed over and she began to talk in a trance. "I've acted happy for years, so happy… but in reality, it's all a joke. But no one sees through it, no one knows who I am."
"Why are you sad, dear? Tell us your troubles."
"I just… couldn't forget him," Sakura whispered.
"Forget who?" the cards cooed.
"Li Syaoran…"
"Why can't you forget him?"
Sakura said, "I don't know. He never said he liked me... but there's something about him. I feel like he forgot about me."
"Maybe he did…"
Syaoran cursed. "Damn it! Don't put thoughts in her head! Sakura! Snap out of it! Please… don't die!"
"Maybe…" Sakura repeated.
"We could erase your pain… you're sadness…" they said in unison.
"Really?" Sakura asked, with the same glazed over expression.
"Really, you just have to let us take away the spirit of your life."
"Would that end my life?" Sakura asked.
"Just this life. But you will be free from sorrow… free from… Li Syaoran."
"Free from… Syaoran?" Sakura asked, as if she were in a drunken state.
"Free from everything. No pain… no sorrow… doesn't it sound wonderful? It's the best thing for you. As the most powerful cards in the deck we thought we'd suggest it to you. Such overcoming sadness… all from that terrible boy who left you."
"Terrible boy? He really is terrible…" Sakura said dreamily.
"Yes… to make our mistress act that way… what an awful person he is. Do you hate him?"
Syaoran yelled in panic in between tears, "Sakura! No! Sakura! Please hear me! I'll come back to you. I'm a terrible person cause I left you, but please… forgive me…"
Shing appeared next to Syaoran. He clicked his tongue and said, "I've seen enough of you trying to talk to her. Don't you get it? You're supposed to WATCH!"
Syaoran shook his head and said, "How can I watch someone I love die and not do anything?"
"It's simple… just… watch. I don't understand your dilemma," Shing said slowly.
Syaoran hung his head and decided to follow Shing's words. He stopped his tears and watched.
Sakura repeated, "Terrible person… hate… terrible people…"
"You hate him? Let us rid you of your sorrows… make you forget Syaoran."
"Hate… Syaoran…" Sakura said.
The two cards began to shimmer beyond their original glow. Out of the cards came beams of light. The beams of light began to envelop the dazed Sakura.
"Hate… Syaoran…" Sakura repeated over and over.
Finally Syaoran could know longer watch. He ran up to Sakura and attempted to hold her in his arms. She passed through him, like always.
The beams of light kept flowing through her, encompassing her body in energy from the cards. Her raw magic and energy starting pulling out of her body, draining away her life.
Syaoran kept trying to hold her as she repeated her chant of hating Syaoran over and over again. Syaoran was trying to hold back the tears; he was supposed to be strong. 'Be strong, don't cry…' Syaoran thought to himself. But he couldn't help himself, and a tear fell down his cheek.
Syaoran made one last attempt to hold Sakura. Miraculously, Syaoran got a hold of Sakura. His surprise didn't overrule his feelings though, because he was too concerned about Sakura.
"Sakura? Sakura?" Syaoran asked.
"Hate… Syaoran…" Sakura replied.
"Please listen, Sakura. I'm coming to save you! Save you from wherever you go. I'm so sorry… please…" Syaoran begged.
Sakura's eyes flashed and returned to normal. Syaoran smiled in hope and said, "Sakura! You're ok! You're…"
But he was but off by Sakura's cold glare. "Syaoran? I hate you, Li Syaoran."
Syaoran blinked in confusion. Before he could respond, the last beam of light passed through her body and she became lifeless in his arms. The cards stopped glowing and returned to their inert state as if nothing happened.
Syaoran held onto Sakura for a few moments before setting her on the ground. He was once again transparent.
Shing smirked and said, "You shouldn't have gotten involved. You should have just watched. I told you."
"Does she hate still hate me? Wherever she is… does she hate me?" Syaoran asked sadly.
"She told you herself that she did. You know, you've gotten what you deserved for not following my instructions," Shing said. "But it was amusing to watch."
Syaoran couldn't take Shing's attitude anymore. He yelled, "Have you no heart?! You put me through this and then you tell me it's my own fault. I KNOW THAT! She hates me! HATES me!"
Shing smiled. "Do you accept what you have seen and are ready to move on?"
Syaoran dropped to the ground and whimpered, "She hates me… how can I move on when she is probably happier where she is? Happier in nothingness than knowing I'm around. How can I save her when she probably doesn't want to be saved by 'terrible' me?"
"Very well…" Shing said. "You don't want to move onto the last test."
Syaoran grabbed rocks on the floor and tightened them with his fists. "I just don't know what to do…" he said sadly.
A/N- Waaaaaaaah, this chapter kinda made me sad. What do you think? I didn't think Sakura would swear, cause she's too...Sakura, but *shrugs*, people change as they get older. Truthfully, when I started this chapter I had no idea where it would lead me. I didn't know how Sakura was going to die… so I just wrote. It seems kinda sudden for me so I don't know what to think about it, sorry if you don't like it… there's still a few more chapters in the future so don't get mad yet! Happy Holidays, please review **consider it a late Christmas present**! Thanks for your thoughts, bye bye!